Mtfs and Ftms of /lgbt/: what were your childhoods like?
I'm asking because I'm mtf and, looking back on it, there was basically no male presence at all during my early childhood (<6 years old). My dad was always away from home because of his job, and all of my friends and cousins that I played with were girls, and the only relatives that ever came over or babysat were my aunts and grandma. So, I've always wondered if those experiences sort of exacerbated and solidified any cross-gender identification that I might have been pre-disposed to.
Anyway, I want to hear anecdotes and stuff about what fellow trans men and women's childhood environments were like, so I can think some more about this pet theory of mine
Sad, lonely, abusive, chaotic. That was my childhood.
>>5421498
That sucks. Are you doing alright now?
i was really close to my mom, and my dad was abusive as fuck when he was home but mostly absent...
>>5421326
Normal childhood, my parents were middle class people with jobs that allowed them to be at home every day. However I only had girl friends when I was very young and did girl things with them. Then when I turned 10 or something I basically stopped talking to girls.
>>5421648
Oh forgot to say I'm mtf
Pretty average. I was really close to my mom growing up.. I would play videogames and watch TLC with her all the time. Had a few neighborhood friends - boys and girls. Everyone though I was going to be super gay.
Surprise! I turned out trans.
>>5421508
Honestly no. I am as depressed as ever. I can't seem to recover from it. I hate myself. I feel worse because they told me I would fail at this, and I am failing.
My depression is very bad. I am still filled with shame. All I do is sleep, smoke weed and cry.
I had 3 sisters, my dad was working away from home for the first 5 years of my life, and even after that he never hung out with me alone or anything. Was mostly friend with girls as a young child, but my best friends were guys. I got bullied because I was weird and an emotionally weak boy. Social life started improving significantly when I became the only guy in my class in high school, and later when I surrounded myself with art students and videogame nerds.
At the end of the day it's more likely that most of the gender identity is biologically wired early on.
Pretty normal middle class family, we moved around a fair amount because both parents were military, although only my dad went career. I basicallly idolized him, I definitely take after him, and used to think a lot that I should've been born a boy. I was definitely a tom boy, but kinda quiet. Moving around gives the impression that all relationships are temporary apart from family, so people became kind of a low priority for me.
I got kinda gently nudged out of the idea of doing a couple masculine sports, and then went full introvert and just read as much as I could and avoided life where possible. Depression, woohoo.
Getting better now that I'm out and on T.
Normal childhood, mostly. I grew up with regular friends for my age, and about mid-elementary saw my relationships with the male figures in my life considerably worsen, including and especially my dad. I drifted towards girls as friends, and ofc girl-like hobbies as I was able to admit them to myself. I was mostly too busy being a video game playing shit though.
By high school I had noticed that I was super girly, all of my friends were girls, and my guy best friend (who is now also trans) was also super girly. Probably was a sign something major was up.
i stayed in my room pretty much all the time, i don't really remember what I did
>>5422338
Same here (MtF). I think I may have just stared the bash prompt down or something... I have no fucking clue.
>>5421326
It was all good, I had a perfect childhood really. I asked my parents if I could wear boy clothes when I was 4 and they said no, but after me asking multiple times and showing them how much I wanted to they decided to let me. Shit only got bad when I hit puberty. My mom would get pissed off when I never put on the makeup she bought me and kept wearing guy clothes. My dad, on the other hand, was chill with it. Pretty okay overall though.
Mtf. Had trouble fitting in anywhere. In elementary school boys made fun of me for being girly. Girls made fun of me for being guyish. Wasnot interested in sports. I liked animals and science. Eventually made two guy friends who both molested me. In high school was friends with all the bi/les girls and the bi guys liked me a lot for my femininity. Idk. Willing to answer questions.
>>5421326
i was physically, emotionally, and occasionally sexually abused throughout my childhood
i was heavily medicated for ADHD in elementary school
i was heavily medicated for severe depression in high school
i never had many friends
one of my high school friends drowned himself
i was bullied for being a faggot
i don't believe every human deserves to be called a person
i don't trust people, doctors and shrinks in particular
i've given a great deal of thought to killing myself, but i haven't managed to do it yet
Crazy. diagnosed adhd since age 7 and ran with it. Been on amphetamines just as long, so 26 years now
My childhood was filled with sports, digging in the dirt, obsessive learning about nature/predators in general, video games and then near constant masturbation as a teen. My parents never really had much control of me.
Bisexual and heavily into kink scene. Girls are nice but damn, sometimes I just gotta get held down and plowed, or ride myself into a frenzy. No abuse in my childhood just really really sexual. Found the idea of imagining I was the girl riding the guy really hot for my first few years of masturbation, as one of the first things I came to was the minute and a half riding scene in Eric Estrada';s Angel Eyes and I learned to masturbate by rubbing up against a pillow.
I played a lot of vidya and spent time with my mom a lot. Didn't know I was trans till I was 12. I was just a regular kid till then.
Ftm. Pretty alright childhood, my parents divorced when I was fairly young, but my dad wasn't around much / mom was a great parent so it didn't really do much damage not having him in my life at all. I did alot of sports growing up so my friends were pretty 50/50 since all the teams I played for were both girls and guys, though after I quit I really only kept in contact with my male friends. I consider my upbringing almost ideal, no one really pushed me to do anything I didn't want to all the way up to when I came out (which after explaining what trans meant, no one was surprised by and accepted pretty immediately).
Boring / normal life over all honestly.
>>5421326
One older sister, I mostly played with my cousins (on my mother's side), only one of them was a boy though, parents divorced when I was 7, witnessed fights and etc, pretty traumatic, but still loved and kept in contact with both
Was pretty traumatic actually, I mean shit it wasn't the worst ever in the world but not the best. I definitely had issues and my family really wasn't all that supportive. My female cousins avoided me and talked shit behind my back, my aunt hated whenever I hung out with her daughter, I had many autisno intensification breakdowns, hell, my younger cousin bit me once right over a spot I recently had surgery on and I still got the blame, always left out, y'know... I was the ugly ducklin', the black sheep, y'know the drill
I played pretend a lot, just like I roleplayed with barbies and whatnot, but I also loved to sit with my dad playing Tomb Raider and also play with cars n shit, if that's your question.
Funny thing, my dad turns out to be gay, apparently. Genetics!
At the end of the day, gender roles and stereotypes fucked me up, too, I guess. I was taught men were cruel, brainless, disgusting, loud... And that as a girl I had to be beautiful, quiet, innocent, popular... Heh. Hoo, boy. That fucked me over for a long time. "I can't be a guy, guys are gross and rude and smell like piss!"
Nowadays, I'm... Well, I'd say I'm kind of a guy, a feminine one, fuck, I dunno. Shit's tough. I like to remain androgynous, as snowflakey as it is.
It's a huge mess, innit...
>>5421326
I don't remember my childhood, but it was lonely and miserable and I loved dragonball but were ashamed to admit it
>>5421326
terrible born into a Jehovah witness family ended up leaving home with my brother at 16 because knocking on doors and no freedom what so ever got to me
>distant father, apparently he didn't meet me for two weeks after my birth, often gone for months/years during childhood
>Put in temporary foster care when I was 1, caused lots of emotional issues and became a shy introvert
>Closest people in my life were my mom, my two older sisters, and most of my friends in early elementary school were female, most of my teachers were female
>wanted to dress up as a monarch butterfly for Halloween in first grade, Mom agreed and made a costume for me
>would also crossdress if I knew I was alone
>hated sports, hardly played vidya until middle school, was a huge art and music nerd
>realize bi at 15, fall in love with guy best friend and move in with him at 18
>realize probably trans at 21, try to suppress it, doesn't work
Really not surprising I turned out this way, desu. Currently a partially-closeted MtF transcum and planning to get my ears pierced on Tuesday.
>>5421498
I could basically use the same answer. I was a wreck by the time I was 18, and then came the military...
>>5421326
Dad was useless deadweight in the family. Mum depended on him financially so she couldn't divorce, but all he did was drink, get moody, and watch porn all night (everyone knew). He cheated on mum with prostitutes, and tried to kill himself a few times. Total loser
Mum was pretty incredible. Amazing person, and I have more respect for her than anyone else in the world. I don't think the experience I had with my parents contributed to me being trans, but I do think it made me very cynical towards men in general.
Same goes for me going to an all-boys Christian high school for two years. That really fucked with me and my self-esteem. I didn't get along with anyone, was the kid that just had headphones in all day and didn't talk to other students in class, and pretty much half-assed everything there was in P.E. (not to mention I still have nightmares about getting changed in front of men, and about being in rooms full of only men). Everyone there bullied me for being weird and kinda girly, but I think they just thought I was gay.
All of my friends in co-ed schools (before and after all-boy hell) were women. I'd just naturally get on with them and find it easy to talk to them. In retrospect even, they tended to seek me out and chat to me, as opposed to me approaching them, so maybe I set off a 'gay guy' vibe, or was easy to approach.
I was a pretty good singer, and tried to keep it up into my puberty years, but the deeper voice really messed with me, and I hated singing with it (I did it because the school already expected me to - pitch perfect - and because my mother really pushed for it). I remember having an audition for a choir where I began to cry towards the end of the song I had chosen. The teacher thought it was because I was nervous, but I just hated using that voice to begin with because it wasn't the voice I wanted. It wasn't my voice.
I grew up as the second oldest of five boys in a poor mormon family, with an abusive father but a kind and supportive mother.
She always told me to do what made me happy, even when I tended to lean towards the girlier things. She was fine with me having my hair long, like it always was, and she thought it was cute when people mistook me for a girl. It made me feel nice inside, though. And up until puberty, I lived a mostly androgynous life, even getting grouped with the girls at random social things. Then suddenly I couldn't do that anymore ;-;
I was home schooled, and despite being okay at interacting with the people around me, I was never any good at making real friends that I didn't just talk to because we both happen to be at the same place. So I spent most of my time exploring my creativity, especially when I was very young. Always playing with stuffed animals or going to my make-believe world of Cat-people. Which was nice since not having any friends made me horribly lonely and sad for a long time.
A lot of that could be reasons why I'm MTF. Maybe it has something to do with my mother seeming to actually enjoy me being her pseudo little girl. Or maybe it has something to do with me being my daddys plaything. Or maybe I'm broken in some other way.
I was a latchkey kid with no friends.
Id get home and just play Starcraft until the next day began, then id sleep at school.
I was a troublemaker too, my parents would often take my mouse/keyboard with them to work as punishment.
Ended up dropping out at 15.
23 now and still a complete fuck up.
>>5423485
did your father touch you..
Pretty nice though I lived far away from my friends and spent all my time on my computer after elementary school.
My parents divorced when I was 5. My dad was always kind of a jerk (and I predicted him disowning me like a decade in advance) and my mom was constantly struggling to make ends meet, but she's an angel. I had two older brothers who bullied the shit out of me, nothing physical or anything but just constant taunting and gender policing. Me and everyone not named my dad moved in with my stepdad when I was like 7 or 8. He's a cool dude and never really tried to be a father to me, which I actually appreciated.
All in all I was a pretty quiet, nerdy kid. I had some friends but I lost them all by 7th grade because I was so depressed and withdrawn.
>>5423516
He liked to take me on long road trips and camping. The kind of thing that gave him the chance to do more than just a little touching.
>tfw was a child before computers took over (1998).
>extremely happy childhood
>playing with girls all the time nobody give a fuck
>>5423530
oh...
>Played with a lot of kids
>Mostly boys
>2 brothers 1 sister
>Want to become transgender
now everybody seems to have had ducked up childhoods, mine was normal... So I'm curious where I got this all from. MtF btw, pre everything
>mom left for a year when i was 3
>dad worked all the time
>left with whoever most of the time
>brother took care of me a lot (3 years older than me)
>everyone on my mom's side told me not to trust anyone else in that family
>step-dad had anger problems (never towards me, my brother, or my mom though)
>brother got kids in my classes to make fun of me
>developed a blood disorder at 8
>always the extra in my group of friends
>grandfather bought my affection
>dad was str8 outta /r9k/
>brother hated me 'til he was 16
>he would use me as the paint carrier when he was into graffiti
>lived with dad and brother
never got hit or had anything sexual though. i just sorta existed as an inferior version of my brother. it wasn't terrible desu.
>>5425563
I don't think anyone has a normal childhood. Childhood involves a lot of indoctrination/brainwashing/integration into a really weird, fucked up society.
I liked my childhood actually. Oldest of three, only guy. My dad was a hardass and had anger issues but hes a good guy. My mom Is that one cool parent everyone wished they had. Ive also been molested by two different cousins, but truth is I don't hold any ill will because of it. I had a mixture of guy and girl friends. As far as interests I like building forts, video games, playing with Legos and exploring the woods. But I have fond memories of playing house and with dolls too. I had effimante body language but masculine interests. I also cross dressed pretty much all the time in private and then cross dressed all the time in late high school. I feel like it was kinda normal.
