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An extremely weird thread/qstion by a very, very weird femboi
2015-12-11 08:38:10 Post No. 5373591
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An extremely weird thread/qstion by a very, very weird femboi
Hawtstripe~ (ID: !VgSME5ueVY)
2015-12-11 08:38:10
Post No. 5373591
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Hai /lgbt/~ :3 Kinda new posting here, but I really need your wisdom and protips in a thing or two that are bothering me every single day.. So:
I'm kind of a femboi.
[ 22 // Bi (F15%--M85%) // Bot/Sub ]
Not even "kind of". Those very few, carefully chosen friends and people that i hang around with, can witness the real, playful, feminine, fashionate, submissive, emotional/poetic, and hygienic me.
They are extremely scarse, and in very, VEry few in numbers, which means i'm lonely as fuck....
And that is only, because I've had a ROUGH past so far. I deeply fear discrimination, used to violence, and have had to go through a mixture of stalking, vandalizing, and extreme bullying -- for, get this,
TEN-FUCKING-YEARS.
All year round.
I was an easy target. Not bi/gay/femboi yet, but i got angry VERY easily.
Also i was severely depressed, confused, REALLY anxious, and got VERY pissed off very easily.
And to think -- from such pathetic thtings as pointing that i fo exmpl had a wrong colored shirt..
I dropped out of school because i began abusing narcotics -- couldn't take the torture anymore and broke down. Too many missed courses.
Began with pot like everyone, but my love 4 alcohol increased a LOT in 1,5 years..
That drunken stupor: "lawl i can try dat jhusth onche" led to harder and harder drugs like near pure speed, meth, cocaine, tranqs/benzos, psychedelics, RCs, and finally my kryptonite:
>STRONG opioids
(painkillers like: fentanyl, oxy, hydromorphone, morphine, heroin, methadone, buprenorphine, and all you can imagine)
Mostly i took i.v. speedballs with either
oxy, sub, or fent + F'ing strong european speed paste which was _exceptionally_ pure sulfate. (also called "base" somewhere, just sayin.)
The amount of my friends and kinda-friends is under 10 who accept me for kinda who i am
So basically I still live an extremely bizarre life. Some of you might guess who i am, by this post.
but yaya, I need your help now. This is not the time to F around.. Please.
