I found the love of my life. Everything about him is perfect. I love him so so much, but I am just unable to perform sexually. I *want* to fuck him senseless, but my body physically can't. I never had any interest in sex, but I love him and I want to be able to do that for him. He said it's okay that we don't have sex, but I'm really self conscious about it. I've had self esteem issues and intimacy issues for as long as I could remember. I was sexually abused as a child and I just was never trusting of anyone. It warped my sense of intimacy. Destroyed, desu. I trust him and love him though, but my body just can't. I don't know if it's because I was abused as a kid or because I'm just asexual. I have no interest in sex, but I jerk off to porn and the "idea" of sex with him is so amazing.
TL;DR I'm in love with my boyfriend. He's in love with me. I can't perform sexually for whatever reason and it makes me self conscious. He says it's okay, he loves me for who I am and we don't need sex. It doesn't interest him either much. I just can't help but feel weird. What should I do?
Fags actually are incapable of loving one another
>>5294656
Stop being ugly and bitter.
>>5294646
You need time anon, I promise you in due time something will click and you will suddenly enjoy being jerked off, then slowly but steadily you'll enjoy more and more things, like getting a bj and kissing if you dont already.
Thats how it went for me in any way. Being jerked off felt numb at first, not pleasurable at all. I also didnt het any sexual energy from kissing too, but one day, it just clicked and it went better and better. First kissing, then jerking, I feel like blowjobs are next : D
Just start with jerking off yourselves next to each other. Learn how to massage and make the cuddling amazing.. Give it time
Wish you the best anon, itll be fine
>>5294656
Ha ha so edgy. There, have your fill yet?
>>5294646
>because I was abused as a kid
It's exactly this. It happened to me too. The less time I was with a person the less excitement I'd show and the more my body would shut down, it makes relationships difficult as most people expect sexual intimacy without too much emotional investment.
Like the other anon says give it time. If you feel this way having someone who understands is the best case scenario for you, take things slowly, don't force yourself, let things run their course. You'll eventually find pleasure and overcome your issues step by step, your "idea" will be able to become real.
If things are bad you can always go to therapy. I'd suggest you talk things with him if your communication is good, he'll understand and be there for you.
Trust me, it sounds exactly like what happened to me and now everything's okay, sometimes cumming is hard but everything else is perfect.
How long have you been with this guy, by the way?
>>5294646
>What should I do?
Stop making up stories.
>>5295260
I've been with him for three months. We did talk about it and he told me we don't have to have sex. I just still can't help but feel insecure about it. It's weird, I have no problem cumming if it's a blowjob or something, but my dick just doesn't get hard enough to go inside his butt? I just don't stay hard/get hard like a "normal" penis does? I could jerk off with him, do oral with him, I just can't get my dick in his ass. I over think it, become insecure, etc. It's just a bad cycle that results in a flaccid dick. I don't know, sex isn't important to me but I want to be able to do it with him.
>>5294895
Thank you. It's weird because I do feel so intense and turned when we kiss and stuff, but as it progresses my dick doesn't get hard. I could cum from a blowjob, definitely. Like I said above, I just can't get hard enough to put it in his ass. I think in time it might get better. I hope it does.
>>5295266
Yes, everyone likes to pretend they have problems getting erections online.
