It's a toss up at this point OP.
Either your a fetishist with nothing to worry about, or your about to enter a world of insanity, depression, hormones..

Same. I think it's because the fantasy is hot, but the reality is not.

>>5220256
Fantasy. Or maybe you're just gay or bi. Please don't use drugs and surgery to permanently alter your body.

>>5220287
If it helps, I'm only 19 so could just be a phase? I'm scared that if I keep cumming while having anal stimulation, eventually I'm going to feel like something's missing when i don't have it. I feel like I'm inadvertently training my mind to like cocks when I'm not necessarily gay.

>>5220323
You can be Bi, ya know.
Honestly, there's nothing wrong with anal stimulation. You're not gay just cuz you like to play with your butt.
You sound like you have a lot of anti gay influence in your life if you're so afraid of labelling your sexuality. If that's the case, then don't give it a label. Just do what feels good mane.

>>5220358
I think there's always going to be a feeling that being gay would mean by parents and brother would be disgusted by me. My parents are heavily homophobic. My mother's sister is gay and they basically ignore each other's existence.
If my parents knew I was bi they would probably treat me a lot differently.

There's nothing wrong being a pervert, dude.

i have three kids, muscles and a beardand live with a woman full time and I would estimate that about 1 jack off session in 7 is to trap or sissy porn where I imagine I am the little girl

just enjoy yourself and see if you can get your GF to dress you up like a whore and fuck your ass, it's a great time.

>>5220256
there's nothing to be ashamed of, keep exploring and you'll find yourself

>>5220843

LOL this is such a lie. The truth is you have always been yourself, but you (like most guys) look for a better release. We often "spice" things up, but not always homosexually.

All your "exploring" will not end with you "finding" yourself. It will just be an endless search for the next release, and you'll only stop as long as your orgasms are satisfactory.

Sexual exploration isn't about "finding" oneself, its about trying to find an intense orgasm, and sometimes we get bored and desensitized and want to try new things.

I have the same problem. When I'm in public, I'm constantly checking out girls and obsessed with femininity, very rarely find a guy I would say I'm attracted to.

But in private, I desperately want to be a submissive cock worshipper to a tall, hung, masculine guy. I masturbate to sissy porn and big cocks 90% of the time, and often download grindr to look for guys only to uninstall it after I cum and feel guilt. I've tried sucking cock with three guys, and each time liked it for a few minutes before starting to feel disgusted with myself and afterword vowing to never ever do it again. And yet, I find myself wanting to do it again each time (and m currently craving a big cock to suck, and maybe try anal for the first time with).

Part of me wonders if the only reason I didn't like my previous experiences were because I only picked the guys based on their cocks and didn't get to know them or feel comfortable with them/weren't attracted to their face or bodies.

I have no idea what to do at this point. Part of me wants to embrace being bi because the thought of a masculine boyfriend is so so hot, and it some ways feels good, but at the same time it also feels wrong, so I don't know anymore if porn has warped me or if I'm actually bi.

>>5220804
fucking degenerates. why aren't we putting you in camps right now.

>>5227922
Anyone have suggestions for me? I feel like I might end up sucking another cock today but am hoping I don't end up making another mistake...

>>5227936

Sounds like you're still repressing, anon.

Go put on some of your mother's make-up right now. Trust me anon, she won't notice and you'll feel a lot better.

>>5228076
You sound like a girl, anon. Of course you'd feel disgusted during and after a meaningless hookup. Get to know a guy first next time until you find one who makes you blush without even doing anything. Don't be an indiscriminate slut.

Also, start taking estrogen. It will clear up all those confused thoughts in your pretty little head.

>>5228076
This is pretty much me.

I actually went so far as to meet up with a guy from Grindr who was probably 20+ years older. I felt disgusted afterwards but I learned that I would actually like a gay partner.

I think what we need is someone our age who we get along with and are attracted to then we won't feel bad after having sex with them.

My problem is that I never find guys attractive. Even when I'm fapping at home, I never see a guy's body or face and get turned on the way I do with women.

>>5220256

I've never understood the appeal of sissy captions. Sometimes I accuse myself of being AGP, but maybe I'm not AGP enough.

>>5227922
>>5228076

Cock craving is the "in" thing now. If guy's bodies make you uncomfortable, you can always become a chaser like everyone else!

You sound a lot like me OP. I'm 24, I'm fairly certain I'm bisexual but part of me sometimes thinks I'm gay and even a smaller part sometimes wonders if I'm really attracted to men in general. I think perhaps I'm just very picky.

Most of the porn I masturbate to is now gay, but I've always masturbated to lesbian porn. I recently met a guy who I am proud to call my boyfriend now, but outside of him I don't really develop crushes on guys or even think most of them are sexually attractive.

But then the thought of even attempting a relationship with a female makes me anxious and I can't see myself following through with it

Also my mom and brothers don't know. My brothers would have 0 problem with it, they've been arguing with my mother over her anti-gay political stances forever, and many of my brothers' friends are gay. But fear of what my mother would think definitely keeps me from admitting my sexuality.

Luckily I live 2000 miles away so I've been able to get away with it for now, though that will likely change in the near future. I'll probably have to come out to her over the holidays

Sounds like me as well OP.

Except I can watch gay porn with crossdressers and whatnot, fantasizing to be in their place, but I can't really find men attractive face wise.

>>5229467
that's me as well (op here). I don't like normal gay porn at all. it's either straight porn or with a cute, young cd.

>>5229203
sometimes I wonder if I even like them because of the hot sissy situations they describe and I can insert myself in that or if it's because they're simply a gif of a women being fucked in the ass. either way they turn me on ALOT.

>>5220256
Maybe you should just have fun enjoying the things you enjoy without trying to limit yourself using weird labels.

Maybe you're just bisexual man. Maybe you like both? You can be bisexual batman - Bruce Vagina by day and McDickles by night.

>>5229562

Argh same here, it's so frustrating... I've been deciding on what I am for the longest while now. I restrict myself from anal pleasure and seeking men because I want to find out what I am and what I really like...

How would you feel about a butch girlfriend who likes to roleplay and peg you and some nights and get drilled others? Idk. Sounds complex but fun. Anal stimulation alone doesn't mean you're gay or anything.

>>5229699
when I think about it. I wouldn't mind a boyfriend it's just that I don't actively flirt with guys or look at them in a romantic light. But if I met a guy by chance who liked me and we got along really well I would date him.
But a butch girlfriend might not be too bad , depending on the level of butchness.

agp get out

>>5232257
does this word even mean anything anymore or is it just "people we think are gross"?
op likes cocks, the typical agp is only into the fisherman's feast.