>been watching a lot of porn lately due to depression/anxiety/isolation
>branched out into more hardcore porn like sissy stuff and a little bit of trans stuff too
>wanted to be a girl when I was little, cross dressed when I could, etc.
>as soon as I masturbated for the first time at age 14, practically all interest in being a girl evaporated
>I remember thinking something along the lines of: "Huh, so guys can have fun too"
Anyway, I've become sort of curious about receiving anal sex, but I have zero interest in romantic relationships with men or the male body (apart from the genitalia). I also find the idea of gay sex very unappealing. I've had straight sex and liked it a lot (didn't have any problems getting hard or ejaculating).
I don't know. I'm just confused. I feel like porn and antidepressants have warped my sexuality to some extent. From about 2nd grade through 6th grade I had a crush on one girl and I've always been sexually/romantically attracted to girls so that makes things more/less complicated.
>>6565702
Just keep exploring what you like and keep an open mind. It's no big deal if you don't fit the transgender definition neatly. The important thing is fiinding what works for you.
>>6565717
>>6565702
I second this OP. I myself never would take a dick, just isn't my thing. But I'm going through a somewhat similar issue to you where I'm feeling a change in attraction. I'm not sure why, but transwomen really attract me a lot. I've had sex with both regular and transwomen and I'd have to say I prefer the later. I'm not sure why, but I think it boils down to how much they care about who they want to be and how much effort they put in, it's just a huge appeal to me. Good luck if you end up in my scenario though, most I've talked to are very sensitive and will label you a chaser the second you mention that you are particularly looking for a s trans woman.
>>6565738
Yeah I'm not sure that I would classify myself as being attracted to trans women. I just think that my porn use is escalating which makes things more complicated as far as identity goes.
>>6565717
Well I don't think I'm trans. And I hope I'm not. I want kids and a family and all that stuff. I'm just a little confused and I think it has to do with porn use (at least I hope it does). I have a lot of respect for trans people because of how it hard it is, but I definitely don't want to be trans.
>>6565788
If it turns you on, it turns you on. It sounds like you probably aren't trans, unless you still realize some desire to be female. That said, perhaps you have some latent bisexuality that is giving you strange feels? In general, we put too much of a focus on labels, so try to find what works well for you, and hopefully it won't be too bad.
