For those who didn't realize they were trans until later, what were some early signs of you being trans that, looking back, make complete sense?
For me:
>Joined musical theatre club in jr high, would secretly look in the mirror and practice the girls' dances
>Watched The Princess Diaries with my sister and felt more empathy for the main character of a movie than I ever had before
>Couldn't stand sports, wanted to hang out with girls instead, but girls thought I was weird so I'd mostly saunter around alone at recess
>Watched I'm Not There, the movie where Cate Blanchett plays Bob Dylan
>For some reason thought "Hey that's really cool, wow, that's just like me kind of. That's who I really am."
>>5259028
FtM here, my mom let me go shirtless around the house for pretty long time as a kid and loved it.
It depressed me so much when she told me I was going to have start wearing not only a shirt, but a training bra. And then I started actually getting tits and wanted to kill myself.
Mulan desu
>walking around the house in heels as a kid
>playing along to scooby doo episodes pretending to be daphne
>seeing the film miss congeniality and wanting to be sandra bullock
>throwing the most unholy tantrum whenever i had to get a haircut (until i started getting my ass kicked for it at school)
>wore concealer to school because i was conscious of my dark circles
and then i became a 23 year old who still isn't on hrt
fuckfcvukvcufuck
Oh man, the cate blanchett thing. Absolutely.
I never "saw myself as a woman" I saw myself as a woman pretending to be a man.
Therefore I always looked up to girls pretending to be boys.
>>5259028
Reminds me, I'm a huge Bob Dylan fan and I put this quote at the start of my diary
>“You're born, you know, the wrong names, wrong parents. I mean, that happens. You call yourself what you want to call yourself. This is the land of the free.”
>>5259028
I'm a trans male. The biggest sign that I remember is that when I was a kid and my parents put a dress on me I would burst in tears. I /hated/ appearing feminine. I hated wearing clothes that were tight or showed off my skin.
Then I started developing breasts and it just got worse. Something kept telling me this was all wrong. No. This isn't me.
THEN I hit puberty and that's when shit hit the fan. I started hiding my chest whenever my shirt made them look big. I felt better looking masculine. At this point I found out I was trans.
fuckin dressing myself up as a girl in front of the bathroom mirror like every other day as a kid. i dont know HOW i didnt figure out i was trans until i was an adult. like i would just pretend to be a girl for a little bit and then just go about my day like it was totally normal.
that abd never being much into "boyish" things
oh well whatcha gonna do
Literally wearing girl clothes in daily life should be the main one.
Duh.
Fantasizing about looking like certain girls in high school and copying their mannerisms
>>5259107
Here's your reply
For the longest time my goal was to get a gf and then somehow literally fuse with her body.
I thought this was just what love is.
Fuck romanticism.
>Ranma 1/2
>Miss Congeniality
>Princess Diaries
>having girlfriends and getting angry when we were separated during pe/whatever
>always being female char in Diablo/wow/pokemon
>putting things under my shirt to pretend I had boobs
Those were the early signs. The breaking point was at 18, on holidays in Venice, I spent such a ridiculous amount of time looking at women's stores and then feeling sort of depressed and anaemic aftewards, and then at night it fucking came to me like a lightning bolt.
>watch Absolutely Fabulous with my two sisters and can quote huge chunks of it
>thought Tifa from Final Fantasy was really cool and wanted to be her
>hated sports and if I couldn't get out sick I would stand the furthest away from everyone else and be intentionally terrible
>also wanted to Major Kusanagi from Chinese cartoon
Tbh senpai not that much though, I played video games and was generally a recluse weirdo who hated themselves once I become a teenager.
>>5259028
>>lip syncing the female vocals of c+c music factory - gunna make you sweat while my brother would do the male parts.
>>a picture of me from after soccer practice where i'm sitting with my legs crossed.....i just look at it and i'm like..... yeap.... how did you not know mom and dad? dafuc
>>liked to go to swimming lessons at this lady's house (i assume a friend of my mom's at the time that had a pool) so i could play with the daughter. we played house.
idk. i never had many friends growing up outside of megaman and link. i tried. i had a few close bros that i'd hand out with all the time and have sleepers overs. the first one moved. the second one ended up taking my virginity at 14 (he was the same age at the time). idk. i was always friendly enough with the other kids. involved in sports and excelled in academics. i just didn't make friends. girls were too scary to talk to and boys were just... meh idk? i didn't always like to do the same things as them. one of my favorites though was playing man hunt at night when we'd have sleepovers as a group of guys. like 10 of us all camping out playing xbox in this kid's basement. some of us would go upstairs and get into the hot tub. i got into this clique through bro#2 that i had fooled around with. it was kinda awesome. i was starting to realize i was gay at this point (like freshman highschool summer). but the best was hiding with bro#2 during manhunt. we were both kinda small for our age. i remember because we could both hide in the dryer in the basement and close it while both inside. all mashed in curled up with him in there. even like bro#1 would sleep in the same bed as me. or like we'd lay on the floor in the basement together. idk? boys don't normally cuddle right? wtf? bro#1 i would've been like 10/11. i remember i had the hots for his older brother wesley. he would like take his shirt off and just had these washboard abs. god dammit.
Did anyone else wear baggy sweatshirts all throughout their teens to cover their body? I did that even during the Summer, people started thinking I was a molestation victim or something
>>5259229
Fuark I did do this. I was a skeleton as well but I usually wore a few layers even in the Australian summer during high school.
>anon aren't you hot?
>lol nah
>sweating intensifies
Not to mention no one ever saw me wear shorts, or take my shirt off in change rooms unless I was completely alone.
>>5259226
i just wish someone would've told me when i was younger like you're a girl go fucking play with them you retard. or like been more supportive of me liking girly things like getting a mani pedi with mom at the mall or waxing my eyebrows. when i asked to get my ears pierced and you were like only if you wear a fucking dress to school and i'm like that's not so bad. like come on............... ah man growing up was terrible. i remember crying at school in private to teachers. fucking middle school english teacher took me outside because i was acting up / being a smart ass. fucking cried to him about everything and how confused i was about so much. fucking young age of the internet early 2000's. i was just starting to be able to figure it all out. but no i got suck it the fuck up boys don't cry be a man you gotta impress the girls. like fuck man no. let me cry.
watched every episode of anything genderswap as a kid and got mad depressed.
>>5259268
This +fantasizing about going to sleep and inexplicably waking up as a girl
>>5259226
>>5259256
the day i wore a skirt to school in highschool. dafuc. a jean fucking mini skirt. like the fucking abercrombie yuppie girls would wear. fucking short. and grandma drove me to school no prob. wtf mom and dad. should've pierced my ears years ago. omg.................... idk was rough. therapy from 15-20.
>>5259256
I was gonna quote a sentence or two from you but ... yeah. that whole this describes me so well.
>when i was like 5 years old told my parents that i wanted to marry my male friend when we grew up
>had long hair throughout childhood, painted my nails, bleached and dyed my hair, typical faggotry
>jealous of my sister and girls at school when they got their ears, noses, etc. pierced(wasn't allowed to)
>obsessed with retarded girl tv shows and cartoons like sabrina the teenage witch, lizzie mcguire, disney movies, mary-kate and ashley, etc.
>loved gender bending episodes in cartoons, hmmm
>being unusually excited when I discovered the makeover mage in runescape
>pretended to be a girl whenever I played MMORPGs
>reach the age where kids become obsessed with internet porn
>discover /b/
>reading bailey jay's blog religiously
>because I was a fat beta it never occurred to me that I might be like her
>increasingly insecure and disgusted with my body
>having a panic attack and throwing up during sex-ed class at school while learning about puberty
>"anon are you gay?"
>>5259490
>>being unusually excited when I discovered the makeover mage in runescape
oh god I forgot about that
When I was small:
>loved to try on/walk around in mom's shoes
>used to wrap a blanket around myself and pretend it was a dress
>cried and pitched a fit every time I got my hair cut (dad used to cut it SO short)
>had boy toys, but played with them like a girl (playing house with Batman and Catwoman, etc)
>wanted to be Kimberly the Pink Ranger, lied and told people my favorite was Tommy
>shame first kicks in
Around 10-11:
>dress up in mom's clothes when home alone
>wear fake breasts and pilfered articles of clothing alone in my room
>always pick female characters in video games (Princess Peach in Mario Kart 64, Xenia in GoldenEye, etc)
>start to think of myself more as a big sister to my little brother
>daydream about what it would be like to be a girl
Early teens (by this time I'm starting to accept the truth):
>discover anime, become obsessed with Sailor Moon, Cardcaptor Sakura, etc.
>identify strongly with Princess Ayeka from Tenchi among other female characters
>watch a show called I My Me! Strawberry Eggs about a male teacher who's forced to crossdress for his job
>feel jealousy that I'll never be able to pass as convincingly as he does
>would sell soul for the choker that gives him a female voice
>male friends refer to me as "the girl" of our group
>th-that's fine with me
>start shaving legs around this time
>start playing around with makeup around this time
>oh fuck, I'm a tranny aren't I
Okay, so the realization probably came a little before that, but I knew for sure by 14. And then it was hello, repression and suicidal thoughts.
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I rented and watched a VHS of two episodes of Birdy at every opportunity when I was a kid
>>5259985
yeah I pretty much knew in the back of my mind that it was true around the same age and I went into total denial
it makes me fucking cringe to even think about it
>>5259229
Theresea, is that you? I knew a girl from high school who used to do the exact same thing. She also had terrible hygiene.
>>5260046
nah
I did have horrible hygiene at the time too though. I just didn't care about care of my disgusting male body at all
oh god where do I begin
>watch girl shows with my younger sister and play Polly Pockets with her under guise of "babysitting" but like it
>jealous of her awesome dollhouse my grandpa built her
>get totally engrossed in Animorphs book series, always wanted the power to change out of my male body
>around puberty start having daydreams where I would wake up the next day and have switched bodies with a girl or just switched genders
>start having anxiety and depression as I get more masculine, not sure why but leads to lots of self-hate, start taking horrible care of my body and balloon to landwhale status
>start repressing any trans feelings (although I didn't know trans was a thing, I thought it was just creepy old guys putting on a dress and being creepy)
>super straightcismale
>but at the same time play as female characters in games and forums (Pokemon/GaiaOnline/Runescape and yes I know I'm a faggot for going on those)
>but hang out with girls more than guys
>gossip with them at lunch and help them with cheer practice (considered joining but fat and didn't want to be called a fag)
>don't have relationship with a girl until 18
>that relationship as well as all others after fall apart because I can't fill male role in relationship
>more repression as I go to trade school and college, but still daydream every once and a while about switching genders
yuppp didn't take till I was 24 to realize but everyday I realize the signs were there
>>5259276
Every single night. I'd be wearing old clothes of my mother's stashed in a box in a closet for storage, my eyes open as I tried to fall asleep, and I would wish. I would wish that I could be a girl, just for a day. Even though I don't believe, I would try to bargain with god and say "just for one day, then I'll go back, just let me see what it would be like," as if I would ever want to go back in the first place. When I fell asleep I'd dream of it, and when I woke up the wave of disappointment would wash over me. Every single night.
when i was little
>collected a a lot of cute fluffy stuffed animals.
>best friend was a girl
>would play with stuffed animals with her.
>would play with her barbies too.
>always wanted long beautiful hair, and would throw a huge fit when my mom cut my hair short
>would walk around in my moms shoes
>had a secret affinity to the disney princesses
>sailor moon and card captors...I wished i could be an elegant girl with magical powers
>(this ones weird) standing up to pee felt wrong to me so i always sat down.
>2 of my male classmates in 3rd grade dressed up as girls for halloween, and i was jealous, because i also wanted to look like a girl.
I knew exactly what i was at age 9-10 when i first came across the term transgender... then instead of coming out, i dove into the deepest darkest corner of the closet and assumed the fetal position.
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You may not conform to the ideology of what a boy or girl is supposed to be, and that's okay. A lot more people don't conform to gender stereotypes than people think, but they repress it because society doesn't like it. These aren't trans signs, it's being a human being. I understand you're afraid of expressing your personality through your born sex, but please don't let yourself hide behind an alias to express it with. Don't be afraid. You aren't the wrong sex and you don't have the wrong personality. You're a perfect person just the way you are. It's not you who is sick, it's the people who wish to only bring you down who are. Show the world you have no shame and you, I, and everyone else who has the courage to participate will slowly make the expectations of gender disappear.
I believe in you.
>>5260350
yeah but i still don't have tits
>>5260364
You don't need them, Anon.
Tits don't buy happiness.
>>5260408
lmao fuck off dude
who do you think you're helping
>>5260350
not really possible, as gender expectations are, to some extent, hard-wired in people. act however you like, but those around you will still subconsciously recognise you as a "man" or a "woman" and act accordingly.these aren't things that can just be magicked away, and neither are the problems trans people face. for anything non-dysphoria related, though, your advice mostly applies, and many of peoples more ridiculous sex-based expectations can be removed if society changes over time, but my point still stands: stop trying to apply your idea of a perfect world on others when it's a thing that can't be fully achieved. you're trying to replace one set of unrealistic expectations with another. think before you speak
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>>5260415
Anyone.
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>>5260473
>these aren't things that can just be magicked away
Magical things can be achieved through courage.
Do you have courage?
>>5260004
I'm glad I'm not the only one who loved this show. Birdy was absolutely amazing and well ahead of its time.
i wanted to be a girl a lot
>>5259139
oh god me too when I was like 10
>>5259028
>loved fashion
>designed clothes for the girls down the street
>hated traditional mens sports
>liked clarinet, piano, flute, and saxophone.
>never understood other guys.
>always identified with women characters
>hated my body hair
>hated my whiskers
>loved to dance
>could belly dance very well
>loved to perform burlesque
>had long hair
>hated short hair on me
>loved romance novels
>loved to paint, and do photography
>couldn't stand mirrors because I didn't like how I looked
>>5259229
I've often worn baggy clothing to hide my body. Only time I didn't was when I was crossdressed as a woman.
>>5259131
>Fantasizing about looking like certain girls in high school and copying their mannerisms
This and loving girl clothes
>>5260823
>>and copying their mannerisms
>This and loving girl clothes
More than that.
>>5259256
>but no i got suck it the fuck up boys don't cry be a man you gotta impress the girls. like fuck man no. let me cry.
this hits home
>hated "masculinity" as a social concept since forever
>played with the girls in school, sports no thanks
>was the only guy of the class in high school
(literature class for that matter)
>always had fetishes about being female
>always pictured the "perfect girlfriend" as female me despite never really wanting a girlfriend
>at boy scout camps whenever I wasn't busy I would feel lost and cry without knowing why
>Ranma 1/2 :^)
I was never overtly obsessed with female clothes and still am not, but I always abhorred "classy" male clothes and felt like wearing them was violating my entire identity.
Because I don't really have an active social/sexual life, my dysphoria was never that bad and it's actually preventing me from convincing myself to go to therapy and put an end to that shitty depression. Fuck that.
>>5261509
Get into therapy ASAP!!!! Find a good gender therapist and talk your issues over with them.
>>5261582
I should... But I have such low self-esteem, I don't even trust myself with my own feelings enough to share them.
>>5261674
Sounds like you need therapy for that too
>>5261674
Yes this >>5261680
The nice thing about therapy is the therapist is there to help you with resolving your mental issues, and you don't need to burden your friends or family with them. Also your friends and family won't know what you discuss. That is confidential, and you therapist has taken an oath not to reveal what you talk about.
>>5259028
i kind of knew i was trans when i was younger in the way that i wanted to be female, but i felt it was useless, i didn't know about HRT and knew my parents would never let me
>jealous of sister growing up
>would ask babysitters if i could be a girl when we played, my parents fired them all when they found out
>would beg my parents not to take me to church, after hearing a sermon on homosexuality and transsexuals being sent to hell i would just end up hiding in the bathroom crying, i felt god was telling me he loved me but was just going to have to put me down because i was this way
>hated when my parents chopped off my ponytail
>would tuck my gt as far back as i could until i felt that i put a crease in it
>had little to no libido my whole life
>asked girls at school for extra clothes and makeup
>had stash of clothes hidden in room and would dress up to feel comfortable
>cried like a bitch at everything my whole life, all it took was one person to make fun of me and i would struggle the whole day not to cry in every class, i was this way until i was nearly 18
>became suicidal after (a thankfully late) puberty
>>5262271
>>cried like a bitch at everything my whole life, all it took was one person to make fun of me and i would struggle the whole day not to cry in every class, i was this way until i was nearly 18
Hey I had the same problem. I wonder if it's related to dysphoria or something
>tfw have none
I was a relatively normal, shy male until 18. Nowadays people see me as a very female soul. Kinda weird desu
idk how it took me till 24 to realise i might actually count as trans lol
>asked for polly pocket for xmas age 3
>preferred playing with girls and only started playing with boys once i started to get picked on for it
>was sure i'd wake up as a girl one day if i wished hard enough
>asked my mum if boys ever became girls and she said ohhh... umm yeah there's been some who have... and i was sure that would be me some day
>never wanted my hair cut
>absolutely disgusted when my mum told me i would have facial hair one day
>long hair, make up, girls clothes/accesories, general androgyny during teens
>girl characters in sims/pokemon etc.
>pretty much always sat down to pee except in public toilets
>personally identified as lesbian between like, 12 and 16 but would never have told that to anyone because i didnt intend to transition and so i thought nobody would ever take it seriously
>elated on the few occasions people gendered me female (except for an incident with a creepy guy)
>also pretty happy whenever i'd hear stuff like "is that a boy or a girl?" as i walked past
>>5262711
>>asked for polly pocket for xmas age 3
you just reminded me how much I loved my easy bake oven
>wish I was a girl since I was 5
>"lol I'm not trans" for 17 years
>ok i'm trans
>>5260198
I did that too! Even nowadays I still do lol. I haven't come out as trans though, just a normal boy
>>5262271
>>cried like a bitch at everything my whole life, all it took was one person to make fun of me and i would struggle the whole day not to cry in every class, i was this way until i was nearly 18
My release from that was when I got beat up my freshman year of hs. After that I didn't go back to school until my sophomore year, and that was at a different school. I wasn't harassed at the second school until my sr year, but that quickly got squashed by the teachers and administrators. I'm not sure when I started tucking, but I was doing it all the time by the time I was 14.
>>5262728
I just used the real oven. Mom taught me how to cook when I was very young.
>>5262912
If it gets you into therapy with a good therapist, then yes it is a good thing. For me it took many months before I was able to go to a therapist. In the end it took the mental changes from self medded HRT to get me so I could go to a therapist.
>Would prefer to play pretend with girls than football
>Would always be girl in whatever me and my siblings would play
>Only play females in vidya
>Always wanted my hair long
>When getting changed for PE always hide away
>Wanted to wear a top for swimming
>>5259028
>enjoyed hanging out with girls more than boys, like my sister compared to my brother
>always wanting to be the female main character in arts after reading/watching them
>always had a proclivity to wear female clothing, "ironically" to others, but I liked it for some unknown reason
>in my childhood i enjoyed doing feminine things
>always disliked sports
>>5264011
i forgot
>proclivity to wanting longer hair since i was like 4/3
i hated short hair
>>5259067
>buy estradol cream online
>profit
?? why don't trannies do this
it isn't even expensive
We can stereotype and cherry-pick past memories all day, but how does it prove someone is trans?
Innocent question. pls respond
What's up with everybody saying wanting to play female characters in games is a sign of being trans?
I always, without question, choose the female character if it's an option in the games I play. I like playing something cute.
I also never got along with other guys at all. Zero interest in sports (seems pretty retarded. Throw the ball catch the ball kick the ball I GOT THE BALL SCOOOORREEE)
I always preferred to hang out with girls because I wasn't interested in shooting seagulls with BB guns, pouring salt on slugs, lifting weights, and generally being hot/sweaty/sticky/smelly/gross.
Fuck genders. I just want to be comfy. Big oversized wool sweaters, fluffy blankets and tea in a region where it rains 90% of the year is the ideal life.
Fucking california and your weather from hell.
>>5264867
I've often thought this. Even when I went to see a psychologist to get a referral for hormones I told him straight up that any memories from my teenager years back to childhood I was not going to present as evidence of my transgenderism.
My reasoning is that I was motivated at that point for hormones and memories can be altered every time they are remembered. So I felt it was poor evidence to present and that I may very well be altering memories subconsciously to fit this narrative.
Regardless I did get my referral for hormones without I feel exaggerating the past 'mah gawd I knew when I was 1 year old I was woman pls hormones now'
When I was really little, (like maybe 4-5) I watched sailor moon with my older sister. Looking back I realized that I was pretty much convinced that this was going to be when I was in high school (minus the whole fighting evil thing). sadly that didn't come to pass
>>5264035
>tfw black
>tfw basically forced to be bald throughout my childhood
Satan just wants you to be beautiful.
And kill a unicorn or something.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OAIf0Sy-3rs
An agender experience:
>gender-segregated anything in school: distressing, even in pre-k
>age 5: "anon, you have to put your shirt back on" "no, it's wet and gross" "be a good girl and keep it on" "bill has to put his back on too right" "no, bill's a boy" "so what"
>be tree in school play, best thing ever
>be mom in school play, cry every practice
>girl isles in toy store: do not want, too passive, cannot connect
>boy isles in toy store: also do not want, too aggressive, cannot connect
>early interests: drawing every animal, stacking blocks and legos in color patterns, avoiding anyone who wants to play house
>turn nose up at blue, throw tantrums over pink, have fucking meltdowns in public over holiday dresses
>>5265875
this
also
>elementary/middle school
>hang out with girls
>feel 'other' and out of place, clearly don't belong here
>can't hang out with boys
>they ignore or make fun of you because they see you as a girl, don't associate with you at all, avoid them because they are mean to you
>ignore everyone
>>5265021
how did you know you were trans? like what does it feel like?
what is 'gender dysphoria'?
because I am normal guy and sometimes I think I would prefer to be female. so what is the difference between that and trans
>>5259083
>tfw coming out while watching Victor Victoria
>>5266112
just look at those other stories
>I felt like I related to girls more than boys
>I felt like I wanted to be a girl more than a boy
>I didn't fit in with the other boys
>I want to be seen as a girl, not a boy
>I don't want a penis, I want a girls body
clearly transwomen
this is
>I don't relate to boys or girls
>I don't fit in with boys or girls
>I don't want to be a girl or a boy
>why do I have to be seen as a girl/boy, I don't want to be seen as either
>I don't identify myself as a girl, but I also don't identify myself as a boy
>I don't want boobs or a vagina, but I don't want a penis either
what do you call that if not 'agender'?
>>5266112
While it's true that I wasn't popular, my post (>>5265875) wasn't about not fitting in. It was about how I didn't see that people were supposed to be different based on their bodies, and how I avoided anything split on those lines as often as possible.
>>5266100
Can't hang out with girls! They say I'm not enough of a girl to play. Can't hang out with boys! They say I have cooties because girls are so icky. Fuck.
>>5266159
Yes, you got it, thank you.
>>5266670
Oh, and PS: if you think any kind of non-binary gender is fake and a product of too much Tumblr, you can fucking find a way to transport yourself to 1989 and tell four year old me why I need to wear a shirt.
>>5259028
You just sound like a gay guy lol
>>5259028
>Feel weird when called a girl/woman
>Feel uncomfortable about my boobs; I didn't want them to grow past Acup, but didn't like their size either
>Always tried to hang around guys more and tried acting more masculine
>Everytime I looked into the mirror I wondered if I was really there and if that was really me, would try to avoid them due to the weird existencial crisis episodes that would spring out of there
I can't think of much more right now
>Used to talk to and care for my toys/blankets Until around 11-12 and cried when My blanket got shredded
>Constantly daydreamed/dreamed about being a female super hero/female in general
>Always played as a girl in video games if given the choice
>Got Jealous of the girls at school being able to show of their curves when I had none
>Can't look in the mirror without feeling a deep sadness and self hatred for my looks/body/voice/body hair
>Always been an emotional shit who got kicked out of primary for having tantrums /crying fits because I felt the world was unfair/fucked up and couldn't cope
>Always preferred talking/being connected with my emotions with art/music more than doing things. Never had an interest in sport but I liked going on walks in nature to appreciate and take in my surroundings
>Always felt shy/weak compared to all my male friends and not been sure why I liked feeling weak/small either
>Enjoy being in girls poses, legs crossed etc. Never liked masculinity in any real way despite the fact that I have always hung out with males and tagged along, but I never liked doing the dangerous/naughty/rough things so I would just sit out and watch.
I'm not saying that those are all indicators as such. But I can defiantly see why I acted the way I did when I was a kid now.
>All my friends early on in grenade school were girls
>I usually preferred talking to girls until I made male friends with common interests
>Thought about being the girl when seeing porn
>Liked doing gender change at makeover mage in runescape
>Guilty pleasure was playing female characters
If I could just suddenly become a girl I think I would. Fuck modern barbaric practices and ostrization though.
>>5266107
at it's worst I cannot bear to be looked at by other people, it fucking mindbroke me
>>5271377
>grenade school
>>5272257
Grenade school would be cool. Damn you autocorrect.
