>>6272765
its probable that it didn't but you should treat your emotions seriously anyway. I suggest seeing a therapist not because you're raped and a broken bird but becuase your emotions are confused and you feel that your stresses are hindering your romantic attachment to others you care about.


Heres the scoop on memories for peace of mind in the moment though. I have a red set of snoopy window covers when I was a kid. I remember looking up at them from my bed young as 3 years old and that memory has stuck? or has it? I can picture them in my mind now. but that is becuase I know what snoopy looks like, what red looks like, and what a window looks like. Was the window frame white? was the curtain really red? maybe the wall was red. if the curtain was red, what color was the wall? how do I know that the image in my head isn't constructed because I have all the pieces stored. My brain doesn't need to save a full picture frame of that instance. it can compress down the memory to the base information, and I can recreate it. who says it ever even occured? maybe I knew I had snoopy curtains but they where never actually put on the window. I did move a lot when I was that young. check to see if your memories are consistant. check to see if you can really remember such details. if you cannot, that does not mean what happened didn't happen if it did. but it does lend credence to the idea that these images in your mind may be because you realized the molesting and are conjuring up a scenario that might have occurred rather than one that you remember. Even to this day I can remember a feverish nightmare when was young. I was in a white house with no exit and only one window. mostly barren of furniture. if I got to compare that dream with the actual footage of back then in my mind, I doubt any configuration I am imagining right now would match the reality. Memories are fucked.

>>6272833
That's a lot of dense text and hard for me to read.

>>6272967
took me a while but I kinda made it (I have trouble reading)

I think so? I've caught him looking at cp on his ipad and then later when I checked the history he was searching for asian incest porn. The memories are actually kinda clear now that I think about it. i dont really want to type it though.

I remember one time when i was an adult it was really hot out and I was like "haha look how sweaty my back is touch it" he slowly creeped his hand towards me and slide it under my shirt. I pulled away and he has the grossest look on his face

>>6273037
>cp
>Incest
>You are his child
>Presumably underage/young then

How did you not see all the red flags?

>>6272765
Being molested as a child is nearly always traumatic at some level. See a therapist for your long term sanity.
>Any time I try anything I get a very weird fast feeling where I kinda space out and things seem like they are a vhs tape being sped up
Sounds like you are having disassociation. Find a therapist that specializes in sexual trauma.

>>6274747
Oh, it won't go away on it's own.

>>6273357
I'm anonymous so I guess I'll post
>memory is me in his bed
>im on my left side completely naked
>hes telling me to keep looking forward or some shit making sure I don't turn around
>gross weird hot sponge thing touching my asshole
>did not even know I had an asshole till I was like 18 cause i never looked down there more than wiping
>every time it poked me felt like i had to throw up/poop and shook a bit
>hot liquid on my thighs and butt
>he used to cuddle me and sing daisy bell
>i'd stare at the football on top of his dresser during all this
i'd continue on but im kinda in a bad mood reguardless of this shit