How you holdin' up, /k/?
>>30233540
Breddy gud given the circumstances.
I live in California.
>>30233540
Mild. Massive hiring freeze in my area, meaning no sweet blue collar job to buy my first AR before the inevitable pre-Hillarystartstalkingontv price increase.
My collection of /k/ related books is wonderful and I've had time to catch up on a lot of doctrinal and logistics related works.
Still working out and getting ready for that fateful day when I meet with my local AF recruiter.
>>30233540
I have to work this weekend. Got farmer's market duty which sucks, means I have to harvest all day tomorrow in Texas in June instead of driving a tractor. But that's extra hours for my AR build.
IM FINALLY OFF MY ANTIDEPRESSANT! Really excited about that, taking that and making it the silver lining. Any other /k/ommandos stuck working this weekend?
>>30233540
My best friend who became my girlfriend had to leave me and cut off all contact forever this week. Not good. We had planned our whole future out ;-;
>>30233540
Not great, bud. Not great. Popping Vicodin just to get through the days and nights with my angry as fuck wife.
>>30233606
Why'd she have to leave?
>>30233608
>tfw only 2 vicodin left from my prescription
Lost my job and not sure how to pay bills.
>>30233540
Better,
insurance covers hormone shit, still considering if getting a credit card is worth it just to buy guns with.
Thigh holster is literally not holding up, gotta spring for a new one.
>>30233540
mourning the Russians
>>30233540
Heard Russian IPs were banned today, feeling great
>>30233540
I just put another six gallons of delicious nutritious Belgian ale up and pitched the yeast in not fifteen minutes ago. Plus the weather is unseasonably breezy and cool instead of the inside of a fucking oven like it usually is. The tomato plants are growing like fucking weeds and the weeds are pulled. I have money for gas, ammo, and storebought beer until the real stuff is ready. So not bad, all in all.
>>30233540
I'm pretty good. I'm starting a better job soon, about to get my license, my car is excellent despite being 20 years old, and a ladyfriend may become a special ladyfriend.
Oh and once I start paying for car insurance, I can start saving for a new gat
>>30233608
>been off painkillers for just over two months now
>still feel dead inside
Having to shit every day is annoying
>>30233623
It's a long story... To make it short, she was going through a divorce, and she out of nowhere started feeling guilty, and went back to him after they did counseling so a judge wouldn't throw their case out. He never came around on the reason she was divorcing him. She's going to be miserable. She was telling him all about us today. I texted her telling her I just wanted to say I hoped she could be happy after today, and she said nothing.
She was the only person I've ever said "I love you" to, besides my parents. She was also the first time I ever made love, at the age of 21. I'd been in a weird sexless relationship before, and knew plenty of other girls well, and this was the first time I'd ever actually felt like I was happy in my life, and everything was "checked off" with her in what I wanted.
We had our plans for our house, and the garden in the back. She was going to grow vegetables and herbs in a huge garden in our backyard we'd have, which would have a path around it, lined with fruit trees trained to grow into a sort of archway over it, and we'd walk the path after dinner like her family did in Europe every evening.
I keep picturing us walking that path, with the sun streaking through the trees onto her face while we hold hands, and our planned 4 or 5 kids running out of the house playing while we hold each others' hands tighter.
>>30233595
Sweet.
And yes, I work every weekend, it's supposed to be in the 80's-90's tomorrow.
But here's to things working out.
>>30233540
I've rotated off of active duty back into National Guard life and I'm hunting for a job. LEO and armed security being my best bet.
I'm bored out of my mind, living in a (nice enough) double-wide with relatives and paying my way.
I'm bored. I spend about 50% of my time job-hunting and 50% working out.
I've been back for about a month.
I've got a crazy family situation on like three fronts and I'm generally unenthused.
But I've got some nice guns, a reliable car, decent job prospects, there's healthy food aplenty and beer in the fridge. I've got some good supps that let me go beast-mode.
Once I get stable employment again, I'll start shooting and hunting more and hunt up something that's more than just a fuck.
And I get to be a father-figure for two of the kids in my family when they need it most.
It could be worse. Just looking forward to my 2017 deployment opportunities.
>>30233649
accept the emptiness, relish in passing pleasure like shooting and reading Hunter S. Thompson
>>30233633
>>30233641
Why were Russian IPs banned?
>>30233633
>>30233641
so what did Ivan do this time?
>>30233649
I remember that thread
>>30233658
Wait you were cucking a nigga?
Ouch
>>30233659
Thanks m8. I don't have to go in until 8 in the morning so that's nice. Might take advantage of nobody being there and make it a range day or go fishing in the river. What kind of work do you do?
>>30233696
The divorce was supposed to be moving along just fine. We even had a friend who's a big-shot lawyer say he whole-heartedly endorsed the situation, and would argue for it to anybody.
Then it all took a turn out of left field.
>>30233682
This one?
>>30233665
>>30233671
Some server trouble and it was fixed as soon as Russia was banned
>>30233708
Yep
>>30233713
SKYKING?
>>30233540
got a roof over my head, food on my plate and no charges pending. I'm aiight.
>>30233658
Jesus, anon I hope things pick up for you.
>>30233540
New job sucks and I'm the only white guy in my department. Pay is absolute dog shit for what is expected and I'm beating the shit out of my car commuting 2 hours a day.
Needless to say I won't be staying long.
Had some delicious Chinese take out for dinner though.
>>30233713
Good, the commies deserve as much.
>>30233631
...Spencer?
>>30233697
I work 7:45 tomorrow for some odd reason.
Two jobs, ones a home business PC repair thing, the other one that actually pays the bills is dome depot.
I need to go out to the range - but it just doesn't feel right going alone.
>>30233540
Almost a year ago I lost my eye and my commission. Surprisingly I'm doing pretty well. All you /k/ommandos out there wondering if life is worth it, it is a wonderful thing. Cherish it.
Im not a robot, ive had plenty of one offs with women, but literally the only woman ive ever loved walked back into my life after 3 years. a week later, i left for three week anual training. she stopped texting me back and snapchatting me. i went on a week long bender, i sent her some r9k tier bullshit.
ive dropped out of college, i work a basically minimum wage job, my father will literally not talk to me. the only pleasure ive felt in the past month was riding in the back of the bradley, jumping off the ramp and fucking shit up. once the adrenline burns off, back down the hole
>>30233730
She told me many times that when she was with me, she was legitimately happy for the first time in over a year. I've had some bad times in my life, but this week has taken the cake.
I'm not a nogunz now, and am still alive. So that's something. I was always concerned about how I'd manage in a situation like this before I had guns.
>>30233540
I want to kill myself sometimes but then I eat a burger.
>Fat
>Want Trump to win but for all the wrong reasons
>Bipolar and ADHD
>No gf
>Want to build M16-A1 but no money or tools
>State hasn't decided on Constitutional Carry
Not bad for a lowland gorilla
>>30233713
>>30233719
USA USA USA
>>30233738
Shooting solo is a zen thing for me.
I have private property though.
>>30233564
Things'll get better, anon.
>>30233719
>cp
For fucks sake Ivan
>>30233742
>Lost my eye - badass eye-patch
>Lost my commission - fuck /k/omrad
I feel for you my anon, I don't know how bad that must have hit you but I still feel for you.
I'm drinking heavily.
Acute lymphoblastic leukemia took my fiancee on February 11th. Three days before we were meant to be married.
Today's her birthday.
>>30233564
>>30233738
Hey man at least you get to do something you like from time to time. I love shooting alone at work. Wait for everybody to leave, fill the loader of the tractor with guns ammo and targets, and drive to the pond. Play some Pink Floyd or something and blast away. It's the one thing that makes all the assholes I work with worth it. Pic related.
>>30233540
Gf of six years and I are planning on getting married this summer. Unfortunately, her parents are Catholic and I'm reform Jew, so it's not a sacrament for me to marry their daughter, who is a staunch atheist and has not told her parents this out of fear that they will not let her see her family again which is a big family because Catholic. We had plans to move in together, but she didn't want to disappoint her parents by living in sin. I can't technically get married in a Catholic Church so that might complicate things, I think she just needs to be honest with her parents but she doesn't want to go down that route just yet and I'm not going to push her. For now, I'm going to move back into my dad's house he does not know that I own guns so moving a giant as fuck safe into his house might get... wierd. He's not agaisnt them or anything, he just thinks I am poor (I just got an Aug a3 m1) and I hide the fact I have a liquor and gun collection from him. The wife to be is going to move in with her parents till we both get married and we can live together on our own. Still gotta tell her really nice mom and dad that I have no plans to raise my kids Christian.
Not bad. Kinda tired from a long day at work, but out on the town with my friend and her hot last friends. One is into me, I can tell. Breddy sweet
>>30233825
Jesus Christ man I'm sorry. I'm having one with you tonight.
>>30233658
The worst part is, we were talking about this garden pathway barely more than a week ago.
Anons, please hold me... I don't really have many friends left anymore, and none of the ones left really get it, anyways. She was the only person I could turn to over the time of us being best friends that *ever* just understood me. It hurts so bad, I don't want to be lonely like I've been the rest of my life. I know she still loves me, but she's going with this because he was her first commitment. I still don't understand.
>>30233825
I'm so sorry, anon.
>>30233838
What country? I was raised Catholic, and my mother married into a Catholic home as a protestant, and was welcomed with open arms here in the US. American Catholics are never that strict.
>>30233540
Uncle has advanced prostate cancer and it has likely spread to his pancreas
California is trying to buttfuck us.
I don't make enough money right now
But I guess things could be a lot worse
>>30233854
Don't get too drunk to close the deal. I've made that mistake a few times.
>>30233795
It wasn't fun, but you come to terms with it. You lean to make the best of it and cherish the moments you have.
Think green grass and high tides forever type shit.
>>30233863
While I feel very sorry for you, this is something you should have thought about before you got involved with a married woman. Divorce or not.
You should take some time to understand and love yourself before someone else will.
Either way, fucking sucks finding then losing love. I've been there. Takes every bit of strength I have in me to not contact my ex who I know is in a loveless marriage that will be divorced in a year or two but it feels really good to work on myself. I hope you find a way to do that.
>>30233540
the girl I dated in high school (my first and only real GF) who I genuinely thought I was over is apparently dating somebody new and it stung a little. not only that but the fact that it bothered me at all sucked because I thought I was over her. I thought at get a relationship before her so now I just feel..I dont know,left behind? Like everyone else is getting more social than me.
this girl Ive been flirting with at work is back with her on again, off again BF after she assured me he was her ex. so that didnt go anywhere. This same girl is going on a "date" with a co-worker of mine from the same work who is a legit weeaboo. Speaks japanese from the anime he's watched and all. it sounds shitty and while im nothing to brag about I thought I was a little better than that at least
Aside from that feely shit Im getting a new revolver this week, which is about the only thing exciting in my life right now
>>30233863
I keep checking my apartment door. Thinking maybe she's going to be there with tears in her eyes. In my vision, I hear a loud knock at the door, jolt up and grab my pistol and pocket it, look through the peephole, and it's her. I open it, and she says "He said he wouldn't take me back... I wouldn't blame you if you said the same..." and I say "You underestimate how much I love you" and just hold her.
I sat all day fantasizing about this and just holding her on the couch after that. It didn't happen. I'm sure she's in bed by now. With him.
I don't know if I can do it, anons. I finally thought I was going to be happy, for once. Now I'm back to my life looking like it's going to just be a bleak few decades of me alone, pooling money with no purpose, no love, and no kids, until I die of cirrhosis. I'd even quit drinking during the week, and quit smoking all together, when I was with her. She made me want to be better.
Cheer up /k/
>>30233825
I'm sorry, anon.
>>30233863
I feel you /K/ anon.
Please don't feel sad, the love was there and thats all that you'd need.
>>30233908
.357 will always love you
better than the last time i was in this thread
going hiking tomorrow with the misses and i managed to get all my stuff for uni sorted out, now all that's left is not fucking up really
feels good man, that being said i should be asleep so i can get up at 7 without being dead but meh
>>30233736
Sorry m80, wrong number. I'm the herm who keeps bitching about hir remora thigh holster.
>>30233778
>Have relatives with huge innawoods property.
>They bitch about guns giving off bad energy and are just accidents waiting to happen.
>Also believe that radiosterilized food is less wholesome than magic organic non GMO food.
I should really go out and find some place to do it, I've stocked up on ammo, good splatter targets, earpro, whatever.
Just a little worried about shooting alone, especially in the new rural area I live in. But don't want to pay range fees. :(
I just need to suck it up and go though; I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO HOLD MY HAND
not that its anywhere near the same, but my grandfather died a few days before my birthday this year. So the celebration was forced and just kind of flat. I didnt even want to celebrate but my family made me
He also passed before my college graduation which he kept saying he was proud of me for and wanted to see me in my cap and gown. I visited his grave in the cap and gown and just talked to it
Not bad at all. I had a good day off today and i'm going to order magazines and ammo on my next paycheck.
>>30233903
It was a sure deal at the time. I confessed my feelings when it started, and she reciprocated. She came over to just hang out, make dinner, and watch Firefly. I made no moves on her, and next thing I knew, we were making love. It just happened. I even told her I was afraid we were moving too fast.
I was self-improving for a while, and was doing really well when I was with her, as I said in my other post >>30233914
Not so much, anymore. I was lifting before we were together, but broke my arm, and I still don't think it's ready to get back to that. I don't think I'd want to, anyways. I was lifting because I wanted to be better for her, because this divorce was a long time coming, and I wanted to impress her.
Been better. I had a really good past 2 days all of which went down the drain when I found out an RC tank I sold on ebay got destroyed and I'm gonna have to go to the post office tomorrow to get my $200 insurance on it and refund the buyer what I can.
>>30233917
I'd feel better if I could suck her farts through a water hose.
>>30233932
no worries. eerie similarities. Just go shoot & everything will be peachy.
>>30233927
Whoever said It's better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all, was a fucking hack. The visuals we had of the future together makes it all the worse. She's basically "dead" in my life. She said I'll probably never ever hear from or see her again. I asked her just to text me once in a while and tell me she's ok, and I wouldn't even have to say anything. I just wanted to know she's alright. That's when she stopped replying to me.
I miss my days of being an /r9k/ poster. She was my chance of a lifetime.
>>30233540
I'm okay. Making decent money at my job, playing MTG and vidya with bros more often, went shooting for my second time last week and have a week long hunting trip planned for end of next month.
On the downside, 7-8 months of crippling loneliness after being dumped while I was broke. Still trying to cope,self confidence is shattered because I put on a fuckload of weight (used to be skeltal, now am chubby mode) and can't seem to find a girl that I can talk to as more than a friend.
Nothing I'll kill myself over, but just a nagging sense of self doubt that eats at you every day.
Need to shoot more guns I think.
>>30233932
>believe that radiosterilized food is less wholesome than magic organic non GMO food.
Good god people believe that bullshit?
>need someone to hold my hand
I'd offer but there seems to be no trans people in South Texas. It's odd.
>>30233932
meant to respond to >>30233830
Ugh, didn't realize you were the Texan I was talking to earlier :(
>>30233825
Cracking one open for you, bro. But then let's think about doing something better.
>>30233564
I know your pain
>tfw Canada
>>30233936
sad newly single anon with the previously divorcing woman here.
>tfw
My last grandparent died 4 years ago. I went to his grave Tuesday with my badge from work (I work for the Army now) and talked about it and 'showed' it to him, because I knew he'd be proud, and asked him for guidance or help with this situation. I guess it didn't help.
>>30233897
God, I would have broken almost immediately afterwards.
You keep going /k/ommando, you have at least one person who cares on this thread, and I hope more care in real life about you.
>>30233897
Cheers anon
Got a $300 paycheck, found out my five year GF and eventually wiafu is failing her summer semester, meaning that she wil flun out of college because she bombed her spring semester too. Somehow my green ass is supposed to support her while she moves to my state and shit. At the same time, I have to attend college myself and keep cash flowing, when just three months ago I was NEET and am still in my parents basement.
Shits going meh.
>>30233540
Looking at an OTH discharge
Not holding up well, about to go AWOL and join the Legion
>>30234006
At least you still have her, anon.
Haven't been shooting in months. We keep losing cooks, and there's so many restaurants hiring that we can't replace them. I've been working with two/three days off a month.
The overtime is great for buying fun things, I'm looking at reloading setups to buy, but I've literally no time to use any of them.
I'm doing fine health wise I suppose. Kitchen life and general apathy is making me fucking fat however. Unlimited free food is a viscous temptress.
>>30234006
Supporting her is better than not having her, anon. Cherish what you have.
>>30234019
At least their dress uniform and utility uniform both look like not dogshit, and my French isn't awful
Not too bad. Working at a local auto parts store for the summer, made good grades in my classes last semester at college. It doesn't make me feel good to see my peers flunk out of the program but it does feel good to still be in it.
>>30233946
>It just happened. I even told her I was afraid we were moving too fast.
Oh man that sucks. I've experienced that sort of thing. More often than not it leads to stronger feelings than the standard date experience. Best of luck to you. Maybe things could work out with another girl, one that won't turn her back for her shit head husband.
>>30233936
I feel you. My grandmother died a few days before my 22nd birthday, I decided not to go to Ohio for the funeral because I drove there from Texas a month before to say my goodbyes when she was in her nursing home. It was hard, mentally she was all there, but physically she couldn't be awake and aware for more than a few hours a day. So I got her food from her favorite restaurants in town and we both understood it would be the last time she'd eat it. Then we'd watch sports together because she's a huge baseball fan. She bought a new recliner for her room for my visit because she knew I loved napping in recliners like my grandpa who'd been dead for 15 years.
Fuck. Feels out of nowhere. It gets better anon, I'm flying up there next month to visit her grave and lay a plate of lasagna from her favorite Italian place and a Cleveland Indians cap to say a final goodbye.
>have to pay $390/month for the next 12 months to pay off a medical bill
>have $1000 left on 2 different other medical bills
>wanted to do 3 gun shooting this summer but don't have a pistol that I could realistically do it with
>these bills completely drained my savings
>trying to start replenishing my savings
>opportunity to buy a Krag for $300 has arisen
Aside from having very minimal money for fun I'm doing ok. It's like I'm in college again, always broke AF. But I'll claw my way back out of this debt eventually.
>>30234056
I don't want another girl. She was even of the same political persuasion as me. Everything about her was perfect. She'd never even been to a bar, at 25, until she went with me to one. I can't do it anon ;-;
>>30233897
>>30233994
You know what, I'm going to add the saga of the one eyed /k/ommando to this because I never let this out.
I lost a childhood dream on June 27, 2015 at 2:20 in the afternoon. I spent three years at a military college, became one one of the top cadets there, only to loose it all in an afternoon.
I graduated from that school on time regardless of my medical standing. But I remember watching the commissioning ceremony very well. It was bittersweet seeing all the friends I've struggled with going off into the Army while I stay behind a freak. Look up quotes by Moshie Dyan to put it in perspective.
It's hard. I want to go fight, serve a platoon well, but I never will. That is a fact I have to deal with and it is humbling. I envy those who get the privilege of leadership in the army.
>>30233879
Oh man, they are cultish with it. I am from California. Lol
Super nice people
But like, maximum Jesus mode.
>>30233863
>>30233914
It's ok guy. Sometimes we just need to go on a rampage to destroy those who destroyed us.
>>30234006
Dude, she better get a job quick. College isn't that hard. She just needs to commit more time. Sounds like it's too late.
Keep on chugging /k/, life is hard if you don't have money, and even then money can't buy everything. But it sure helps.
Bored AF at the moment
I dont even have it that bad. I have friends, family who care about me, let me live rent free at home for school, are perfectly cool with me having guns and dont look down on me for it. I have a part time job I dont exactly hate but it pays very well.
No GF, not exactly sure of what I what to do in life but I have an idea, I feel like a dick complaining about the usual gripes I have compared to other people. I will say im just bored though, I still feel like im sixteen even though I just turned 21. I go to work, I go to class, Ii come home and pay video games and maybe go hang out at a friends house. I have the same life I did in high school and it bothers me. Sometimes I hate it and see others my age doing much more, then I feel comfortable and get scared thinking about leaving even though id never admit it. Im starting to get more comfortable with the idea of staying in my home town for the rest of my life where I know everybody and its safe and its really starting to freak me the fuck out
>>30233969
............
I know it must be terrible to know she existed, but please know the choice was hers not yours.You loved her now you lost her, I not facuking thereapist but you care more avout her than she does about you, that alone shows you are deserving of someone who at least equals you in love of their partner.
(damn this is odd for /k/ why cant we just talk about Rhodesia or something lol)
>>30234023
>>30234042
That's very true, and I do love her. I just wish things played out better, her college was govt money and mine is pulled out of somewhere. IT feels like she is trying to force my hand; she really wants to live with me. If I didn't know she understood my situation, I would think she was trying to force me to take her in.
>Seriously is dont ask dont tell between me,my father, and where the money is coming from
I'm taking a summer Geology course that involves a lot of field work, and next week I'll be waking up at 5:30 every day to go on field trips all over the state. It'll be interesting, but pretty tiresome by the end of the week.
I just want to finish my associate's and move on to a trade school. Everyone is too busy 'following their dreams' and not looking for opportunities in the skilled trades. I'm going to try out surveying and electrical work first.
>>30234029
>Haven't been shooting in months.
I feel you anon; I haven't been shooting since Jan.'15. I need to pay my range dues and get back to slinging some lead.
its a .32 actually
legit excited about this and kinda of bummed its the only thing in my life making me happy right now
>>30233982
I'm the texasfag, why are you afraid of shooting alone? It's therapeutic as fuck. Except for the whole "I found a coral snake this week" aspect. Been wearing Kevlar gaiters every day since then.
>>30233977
Oh and to top it off I'm working a 10 hour shift on 3 hours of sleep. Currently sitting in break room, with my feet killing me, just wishing I'd slip and crack my head on a bench so I can go home.
>>30234106
I know she still loves me. She told me we were there for each other when we had emotional needs that needed to be filled, and that's why we were such good friends, and eventually lovers, and that she has to "teach" her husband how to fill her emotional needs. I told her the fact that we needed that said a lot. She told me she can't talk to me ever again, because she can't have me being the one that's her emotional needs filler. And she told me it wasn't that I wasn't good enough, it was that she felt her actions were at odds with her morals, and he was her first commitment.
I just wish she would tell me how today went.
I'm also a little worried. We did the deed unprotected. What if she has a kid? What if it's mine and I'm not part of its life? ;-;
>>30234161
unprotected a couple times at safe times of the cycle*
>>30234105
I had a screaming match with my dad about a month ago over this same thing. He wants me to stay close to home "because thats how families did it back in the day" and I have to explain its not 1965 and there is zero opportunity in this town aside from mom and pop stores and installing comast
its going to be scary but playing it safe is much scarier IMO. theres nothing wrong with staying local if you want but doing so because youre scared is a bad idea
Road washed out from floods, can't make money because of it right now, hot as shit during the day, can't see at night, I'm lazy because it is humid and hot, I need a better job, most of family sucks, no friends, the government is managed poorly other than that..... life is not too bad. Lots of land to fuck around on, cattle, bad ass guns, been driving in alot of mud lately. Most people are bad for you, and only care about themselves, get out and do what the fuck you want to do for a while.
fuck what is up with my computer,
>>30234136 is meant for you >>30233928
and this >>30233936 is for you >>30233825
im going to bed
>>30234099
Literally the best attitude you could have.
I'd be happy to blindly follow you into the gates of hell, just know that something like that will get you either respect or recognition from whoever you lead (mil or not).
Just leading with a just hand with that type of thinking your make a fine leader in any branch or job in general.
I got an asian escort on backpage, got my 1911 customized, creampie my decently hot wife daily, life's good, on dat 100% VA pay
>>30234185
Central Texas?
>>30234196
>>30234105
>Im starting to get more comfortable with the idea of staying in my home town for the rest of my life where I know everybody and its safe and its really starting to freak me the fuck out
Goddamn, that hit pretty close to home. Almost exactly the same feeling I got around that age. My suggestion is to save up what you can, then after graduation, do some traveling, it really cleared my head and helped me figure out where I want my life to take me. Then it's on you to git er dun. Good luck anon.
>>30233540
I have a gun and one bullet.
>>30234221
>>30234207
Yes, this place is falling apart.
>>30233981
It's horrifying isn't it? And I'm surrounded by these granola eaters now too.
>>30234146
Well, the only range I know of is an honour system one, out in the sticks - but I really don't know or understand where rural areas start that you can shoot in, so I don't want to net myself a fine I can't pay.
Other reason is, I always went shooting with my family growing up, and friends as an adult. I know I really need the practice though. But it just kinda feels like going out to dinner or the movie by yourself kinda thing.
Mowed my lawn today instead of waiting for the lawn care people and now my back is acting up bad.
Took some pain pills and am just trying to decide if I'll do anything this weekend or not
>>30233540
Just moved and I highly regret it. I've been here for half a year and I've been t-boned 4 times from people running red lights. Fuck Charlotte. I miss TX.
>>30234161
I really don't know what every inch of the situation is but it sounds crappy, you fill her 'emotional needs' what a crock.I have no idea how this would work but her comments alone assure a bad relationship for her and her 'first commitment'.
I don't think theirs a sane woman imaginable that would not want her child to know its father.
this is going to sound lame as fuck but I wish I had stayed in the military. I think I could have made SOF or some derivative of it and I could be taking part in the shadow spec ops wars wit ISIS
>get caught up in the glory of military life on ww2 stories
>think im going to be fighting nazis and save the world and help people and all the shit
>sign up after community college
>go 82nd Airborne fuck yeah
>spend 2 years ducking around Afghanistan doing what felt more like police work and baby sitting with the occasional firefight from a population that hates you
>dont believe in the war effort anymore, and yes there was a time when I did and thought we could help the population to some degree
>dont expect or even want parades and the respect ww2 vets got, barley tell anyone I served just to avoid a potential political debate
>get a job as a fisherman, building cabins part time and generally happy
>see ISIS steam rolling the middle east, murdering civilians and acting like a modern Attila the hun
>everyone in agreement they need to be curb stomped, first time in a long time ive seen everybody on the same page about an enemy
>this is the modern nazi Ive been wanting to fight, are you fucking shitting me I just left the army
pretty doubtful id be a SOF but you never know. Im seriously considering going PMC, I stayed in good shape post army and still shoot all the time. even if it does seem lame Im getting bored of this lifestyle and want to go back
>>30233564
out side of LA, come here brother
>>30234301
I'm just thinking "what if" I got her pregnant... That's not anything I know. She got a marriage self-help book. The things she was saying sounded NOTHING like her. It was so robotic. I know she still has strong feelings. It hurts.
>>30233825
Sorry to hear bro. After tonight, try not to drink to dull the pain. It can lead down some dark avenues. She wouldn't want to see you like that.
Try to stay as positive as you can, and try to smile
>>30233658
Hahaha, it will be me doing all those things with her, and you are literally no where to be found, especially while she moans in pleasure.
t.
>>30234349
>t.
Sure thing, pal.
>>30234305
There are NG SF units, that's something worth looking into. I know they hold tryouts and junk, but can't remember if it's open to civilians or not. Look it up bro
>>30234318
Its the book (probs) and some random gurl-freind saying these things and she's repeating it.
She's learned these, its not what she's feeling.And if it is then she's in chaos with her feelings.
>>30234253
Don't have to tell me twice. If the farm I work at wasnt a retirement present for the owners wife/tax write off, we'd have already gone under. Strawberries died early, peaches molded out, half my time is spent trying to divert the standing water into a pond that's already over flowed with tractor implements not meant for the job. Seems like the other half is saying fuck it and hiding in/harvesting blackberries and trying to hold my tongue about my asshole coworker that is fucking the owner's wife in clear view.
I am so ready for classes to start/running brangus hybrids again.
Got yelled at by a customer for something I had nothing to do with nor any control over. Got flipped off for being on the road doing my job. Got honked and yelled at because I was backing down an easement and everyone is more important than me. Last tried passing my on the left as I was turning left, fucked her car up because she slammed into the ditch. got douched with what I think was cat piss. Truck over heated, blocking a culdesac. I fucking hate driving a garbage truck. Gonna buy myself a carry piece for fathers days so all is well.
>>30234349
People like you eventually get caught. I knew a guy who did shit like that and ended up having it come back on him.
>>30234220
cant just yet. im going to a legit university because I just finished community college. I want a bachelors degree before I quit school.
I think about doing that though, Ive got about 10 grand saved so Ii could but id rather put that towards a place to live and keep it as a saftey net than blow it on a vacation. Ive always been very fiscal
alos should add
>going to school..for a criminal justice degree
>know its mostly bull, but Ive always want to be an FBI agent and at least its interesting
>what to have another degree in something else to fall back on because im aware of the limitations of a plain old CJ degree
>college courses pretty much pidegon hole me to a major and its required classes, dont have any wiggle room to take other stuff and if I did it would almost double my time there
>looking over my CJ courses over half are run by legit SJWs who are noted for talking about muh womyn are underappreciated, muh dindu nuffins, muh prison industrial complex
>not to say I dont mind learning about it, but I want to know specifics about the job and how to do that
dont know where this next year is going to take me bros, but it sure will be interesting
>>30234374
Lot of that going around
>>30234099
>I lost a childhood dream
Fuck. I spent 35 days at Ft. Benning. That was my "military career." Wanted to be a soldier my whole life. Finally sacked up and decided to do it. Got a ship date 4 days after I graduated college. I spent 6 months getting back into shape, reading up and memorizing all kinds of stuff so I wouldn't be a total retard when I got to basic. All that, to have it swept away cuz I got sick as fuck right after I got to Benning. Found out I had Ulcerative Colitis.
Now 4 years later, i have no colon, I shit in a bag, have a degenerative liver condition that came from the colitis, a well paying job I fucking hate, and I think about killing myself every day.
So many degenerates in the military. So many able bodied people unwilling to serve. I felt I would make a damn good soldier, and I can't even fulfill my simple dream. My body has failed me, and is still trying to take me down. I hope I get cancer or my liver fails sooner than expected so I can just let it finish me off. Fuck this life. I want it to end.
>>30234356
>>30234305
Just checked and they are open to civilians
>>30233540
Don't know if this is the rut place to say this, I'm gay and all and fap to regular gay stuff. Problem is these days after fapping to a good amount of femboy shit and reading that cancerous board /lgbt/ I've wondered if I'm trans. I like having a dick and all and would hate tits but why am I thinking this? Everything has been fine until now. Never been jealous of women and liked being s dude but now this. Is it a fetish? I think 4chan and excessive fapping have really fucked me over.
>>30234388
Buy an acre or two and put a little cabin on it
>>30233540
Shitty. Recently married someone that I cant stand, wanna run but I'm having a tough time making myself. She makes the lifestyle I want nearly impossible and hates everything I do, but leaving feels wring too.
>>30234173
Bro, moving away from your parents and your go nowhere life is how humanity moves forward. That's the pioneer spirit that drove us westward and for downtrodden foreigners to immigrate.
Just keep your wits about you and you'll make it
>>30233540
Everyday I think I made a bad decision. Sure, being college educated is a great option, I met my wife in this path and I have a far greater social standing than in the military. But in my mil service I felt at home. It was my stuff, but I didn't follow it for some stupÃd social class shit. Being military is almost as shit as being just a simple worker in my country.
>>30234429
Pls don't be flaming.I'd assume fetish but I'm extremely biased.
Active duty, stuck in the time out corner due to several investigations.
Wife is depressed and angry. I'm angry, not being allowed to be the hailstorm of asshole our profession requires me to be.
I don't wanna be ops chief. I wanna fucking operate again.
Fuck my life.
>>30234429
Instead of fapping so much, why not just find some butts to hump? Fag, no offense.
>>30234413
>All that, to have it swept away cuz I got sick as fuck right after I got to Benning. Found out I had Ulcerative Colitis.
what happened?
>>30234443
Why would you marry someone you hate? Even marrying someone you love is a bad investment.
"She was divorcing..." anon here.
;-;7 /k/ommandos. I've had some beers, and feel just as bad.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_rcmeMxxGYw
I want to, more and more everyday. but thats a big commitment to being isolated and ive never even lived on my own. I think id be ok with a upper scale apartment for a few years in a smallish city area at first
waiting for my eventual rejection from Navy OCS
i wish I could just join the muhreens and go fight somewhere in the desert or in quantico-like terrain
but i was born too late.
I don't even have a job anymore so I'm just stuck at home, might volunteer somewhere. I just feel so stuck and without a cause
>>30233540
>All these sad motherfuckers
Wow you guys sure know how to make a guy feel great.
21 year old kiss less virgin who lives at home, goes to school, with friends who are slowly drifting apart
I have you guys and my poor fag gun collection and I not ashamed to say it does make me a little happier knowing I have that much
>>30233825
Would have already ended myself if I were you. Stay strong bro, don't be weak.
>>30234494
You know it's just shock right, homie? Cliche as it sounds it gets better. It's just kind of a bummer right now
>>30234468
>>30234463
Not flaming but I am a bottom. I feel like 4chans obsession with traps has fucked me up.
>>30234413
I feel you, /k/amerad.
Great-great Grandpa stormed Vimy, one of his sons fell at Kapelsch Veer, Pappy was in Korea, and Dad threw Hell at the Croats in '93.
I have a prosthetic limb courtesy of a fucking BICYCLE collision when I was ten.
Every single one of my buddies from highschool made it into the Patricias. I sign papers and thank people for choosing Maple Leaf Self Storage for all their storage needs.
>>30234549
I went through college without ever meeting a girl I had interest in. My field I'm going into is going to be even worse. I feel realistic in expecting crippling lifelong loneliness, or settling for something really shitty.
;-;
>>30234305
debating everyday if I should join the military for those exact reasons you did. I feel like if I dont im letting down a dream I had since I was 9
any miltary bros have advice?
>>30234519
>at first
No, you really wouldn't. Live on a small acreage or rent with a big acreage first. And that's not even covering the home maintenance you'd need. That shit is a lot of work.
>>30234531
The middle east needs teaching, if you can't serve your nation in crushing ISIS then join the fight in Syria and know your contributing to a better future.
>>30234557
You might need a break from the chan to get your head right son
>>30234104
>Oh man, they are cultish with it. I am from California. Lol
I'm from CA, too. Dated a portuguese catholic girl for like 4 years, and I know just what you mean. "Dates" were saturdays at her house after mass, watching rented movies in her living room with her mom in the next room. We couldn't actually go OUT anywhere without bringing one of her brothers along. It was a HUGE deal when her mom finally let us go eat at a pizza place or McDonalds by ourselves (better be pretty fast about it, though!). We managed to go out to the movies or sneak off to fool around a few times by having one of her older brothers cover for us (they were married and understood what Mom was like, so my gf would tell her mom she was going to one of their houses to study or use the computer or something and instead meet up with me somewhere.
>>30234567
>I feel realistic in expecting crippling lifelong loneliness, or settling for something really shitty.
Do you see what you're doing? You've already decided your future.
>>30234576
Man I don't want to fight for some """peaceful Syrian rebel""" group, I want to fight for the states and with my fellow amerifat.
I'm just afraid I'll be miserable either way. Maybe I should try for Marine OCC
I just want to find my calling.
>>30234594
I was going to say the same thing.
>>30234305
I dont understand why everyone wants to go fight in Syria and Iraq 2:The Electric Bungaloo. What you want to fight another insurgency and lose dudes for no fucking reason?
>>30234567
After having this same feeling about 10 years ago, I can tell you you're setting yourself up for failure bro with that mentality.
>>30233540
Wanna move into the US.
Have this strong desire to join the armed forces.
USMC. People kept saying joining during peace time was BS, and i always liked aircraft carriers and planes, so i thought about the USN AF, from what ive seen its just the USN requeriments, doesn't seem to need you to have completed college or some bullshit like that, but if i cant do it, i would try the air force.
Still, i want to find a quick and legal way to become an US citizen. I seriously hope trump makes that easier because i am kinda getting paranoid about it.
>>30234633
its seems to be more of an open ground warfare then an insurgency and thats the bread and butter of american war
I'm not doing so well, /k/.
But, apart from all my issues and fuckups, I'm keeping my head high. I refuse, fucking REFUSE, to go down like a bitch.
No matter what you folks are going through, keep your god damn head up (or down, if you're in a trench). Don't let life fuck you over, get off your ass and start throwing haymakers at it.
>>30234485
I showed no symptoms of it before I got there, but I guess the stress brought it out. I started having really bad abdominal pain, fever, no appetite, nauseous, was shitting like a goose and shitting blood like 10 times a day. I would wake up 4-6 times at night and shit pure blood.
>>30234558
It fuckin sucks, bro. One of my buddies finally joined at 25. Almost didn't get in cuz he needed knee scope to remove some busted cartilage or some shit but they still let him in. I'm envious in a good way and proud of him for pursuing his dream.
>>30234633
Some people love combat. Nothing like the first time you get into contact
>>30234655
It'll be a replay of the invasion or Iraq.
>>30233540
Getting evicted, Things are looking better but still a lot of maybes.
Also I live in california.
>>30233540
I'm getting myself pumped up for basic training out in Fort Sill this summer. Shipping out on June 21st. I can barely wait. Problem is, if I get dropped or something I'm positive I'll enact my suicide plan of grabbing my rifle and body armor to go kill cartel members until I die.
im moving to Seattle for work soon. any WA bros want to tell me of the gun culture there?
im assuming little to none bcause its a hipster city but its also in based WA so its 50/50
my cc is a glock 17,and I make enough money to not be worried about high city rents (I lived in NYC for a year, ive been through it all)
any places to look for or avoid in the Seattle area?
I ordered a Makarov from Classic today so I guess that's cool. Rest of my life is still mediocre as fuck but I had a good day today so I don't feel so bad about it. Still not psyched about dying a handholdless virgin, but what can you do.
>>30234671
The thought of losing brothers in some shithole village, coming back home and watching ISIS decapitating motherfuckers and waving flags in the village comes to my mind.
What's the point?
>>30234682
Fuck Seattle. All of it.
>>30234644
>Still, i want to find a quick and legal way to become an US citizen.
>I seriously hope trump makes that easier because i am kinda getting paranoid about it.
Well, two things:
1) Trump is a clown and he's going to lose in a landslide.
2) Trump has been running on a platform of pretty much hating anything foreign, so don't count on him making it fucking EASIER to immigrate here. (have you not been paying attention?)
>>30234682
Despite the shitposting and shitty posturing by some members of the city council, Seattle/King County has a pretty healthy gun culture.
Regarding places to live - what are you looking for? Something very urban and highrise-y, or something a bit more quiet?
>>30234680
Woot. I was there a couple years ago. Fun times. Just make sure you drink an absolute shit-ton of water, pass PT tests, and don't get injured and it'll be fine. I was A Co. 1-19. They were chill as fuck
>>30234682
LOTS of innawoods close by
>>30233658
i wanted to make a post about fucking her and yadda yadda yadda but i realized that I can't. you seem in genuine need of /k/ompassion
>>30234707
Have you not? he does nonstop speeches praising legal immigrants, but i dont know if he can pass quickly laws to make it easier for legals to get in and become citizens, or to make some king of legionarie force like in france.
>>30234690
Classic is an awesome distributor. I got an Anderson lower for $39.99 and it was at my FFL in Texas four days after the payment cleared my bank.
>>30234726
Cool. I'm weak as shit, though. I have like no fat on me, which certainly works in my favor, but I have no real upper muscle mass either. 135 ish pounds at 5'9"
>>30234734
Thanks anon. That really does a lot.
>>30234741
Are you me you skinny fuck!?
>>30234748
if you're in ohio let me know and I'll take you shooting and let you fingerfuck all my guns
>>30234766
I'm over in St Louis. Thanks for the offer, though.
>>30234741
Work on your PT before you go man, your life will be a lot easier.
Being skinny you'll probably gain weight while you're there
>>30233658
Those empty feelings inside, that's what you get for fucking with a married woman.
I'm still sorry about your feels anon. I've got another drink and a spare mag for all my /k/ommrades
>>30233540
I'm feeling pretty damn great. I'm living at home and work a job making bank. Saving up for a new truck.
Lately I'm a bit worried whether or not I'll stay here for a while. Live in a really small town in CA buttfuck nowhere, so can't really meet new people or do anything big. It's a nice sleepy town, but eh. I at least wanna work a few years at my current full-time job because it's cushy as hell and the people are great, but I dunno, thinking of moving somewhere where there's more happening, but not too far away. Also somewhere with less horrible gun laws and less fucking snooty old people.
How's Nevada everyone? I crossed Oregon off the list because apparently thats becoming a hipster mecca. Forests look nice though.
>>30234740
Apparently they got a lot of shit before for being fearmongering, but yeah now they're great. Highly recommend Classic. I got my K31 and M39 from them and haven't been disappointed in the least.
>>30233825
If you never forget about her, it's because you really loved her and that's something you can always cherish. She'll always be with you wherever you go, in heart and memory and that's one of the great burdens and joys of love. Live the life you know would make her proud as though she were always watching you but don't let the memories of the past weigh you down.
No one will expect you to completely move past this moment, in fact we don't ever move past the loss of those we love. We hold them in hearts, that's why the expression "A heavy heart" is a thing. But as time goes on the pain will subside and you'll find yourself retaining the good times and memories you shared together. That is the strength of love. Use those memories when you need inspiration the most but don't get bogged down in them.
They're a jolt of motivation but a quagmire of regret if you let them grasp hold of you. Take it one day at at time, it's been 5months and you're still with us. The first year is the hardest, then second almost as hard, the 3rd is a bit more manageable but still hurts like hell. Each year past that hurts a little less, like a you're carrying an measurable weight on your shoulders that gets lighter the farther you walk.
That's the key man, don't stop moving forward. Too many people tether themselves to the past like they're chained to a post, or they back track and try to find a past that isn't there anymore. Keep going forward, whether you walk a mile a day or just a few feet. Don't ever look back, there's nothing there. Look inward, that's where she is, where she'll always be. She was strength then, and she still is now.
Plus, you've got us. We're /k/ommrades, brother.
>>30234858
Move to Oregon or Washington. We could use some more pro-funz people.
>>30234871
Oregon's pretty nice looking, I just heard that Portland's becoming a real shithole. Either that or it was always a shithole. I love the weather and the knife laws, I just worry for its eventual gun rights in the future.
>>30234858
>Apparently they got a lot of shit before for being fearmongering
So raising their prices accordingly before the shit show? I get the idea of being mad but hell if I owned something like Classic I'd do the same thing. Shekels are shekels.
>>30234852
I thought it was all said and done, and just a legal formality left to go. Had I known this was in the cards, I would have held off telling her my feelings. Even with how things went, I voiced a couple of times I was worried we were moving too fast, and should be careful.
>>30234897
Nah. They used to do shit like sell dragoon M91s and yell "THESE ARE THE LAST IN STOCK NO MORE SHIPMENTS HURRY HURRY BUY BUY" for 12 years with no dip in supply. A mild issue that I don't really care about, but some people got really adamant about it. Still not nearly as bad as CTD.
>>30234890
Portland's always been it's own weird thing for as long as I can remember. The biggest change are the skyrocketing real estate prices that don't correspond with increased job growth. Washington and Oregon have that whole rugged individualism thing going on which makes me hopeful for our gun laws. Portland's a good city tho, and has great cultural institutions and a shit ton of stuff to do.
>tfw graduating college in august
>have to move back home and say goodbye to all the friends I've made here
>get to move back to my hometown where most of my friends from high school have moved on, have turned into massive faggots, or are dead.
At least I won't be in this shitty ass apartment
>>30234908
Oh well in that case they're still doing it. I just got an email saying "THESE ARE THE LAST MOSINS EVER WE HAVE DRAGOONS FOR $279.99". But I don't really care because that's not what I'm looking for. Either way it was cool getting my lower in a few days when I'm used to PSA taking a week to send me a shipping notice.
>>30234869
Fuckin dust in my eyes and shit.
>>30233540
trying to find a job has been a bitch, sent out application and not even a word back, and the one time i got an interview they said they'd call back, that never happened
>>30234748
>>30233658
>>30233606
Life is a bitch, if it were easy it'd be a whore.
>Words of wisdom I saw scrawled on an Ammo Can in Combat Training
But seriously, life is merciless and will beat you til you're on the ground and keep beating you. There's no rhyme or reason, no bargaining and no relief. Life will strike you at your weakest and your strongest. Flip your life upside, burn it to the ground and piss on the ashes while you sit there trying to make sense of what just happened.
This is a fact we all come to know sooner or later and there are only two things we can do man. We can give in, accept the sad cold hard truth that the Universe genuinely does not give a fuck about a single Goddamn one of us and takes not notice of our lives, we are but a tiny speck not even registering in the vast cosmos of eternity.
Or, you can can back up, spit the blood in your mouth right back in life's eye and say "Fuck you, I ain't quittin." And get right the fuck back on the road you were headed. Don't like that road, pick another one. Life will always being waiting for you down any path you take looking to fuck your shit up at a moment's notice, but one thing you learn about life as you get older, the distance between each encounter with life grows further apart the longer you walk the road. If you keep on walking, and don't ever stop, don't ever give up, don't fucking look back, but keep on going forward you notice that life fucks with you a little less.
Maybe not always, maybe sometimes you get your ass handed to you nonstop, you don't even get a breath in between the beatings the cosmos give you, but the longer you fight, the longer you stay in the game, the harder life has to fight to keep you down. The more you strive to succeed, the farther you walk in life, the more you do to better yourself, the more prepared you are when life comes around looking for a rematch.
>>30234306
I'm from Sonoma and I'm sorry for every time I've ever made fun of Southern California. We're in this together bro infighting only plays into the hands of the true enemy
ps I've only been once but the dunes are a blast
>>30234923
That's pretty cool then. I only live a couple hours so that'd be really nice to move somewhere that far away but still close by. Thanks man, noted. I'll be sure to look into it.
Been working hard to move to a better non-blue state, $15k so far, happy about that. could probably drop everything and go tonight if I really felt like it with that kind of cash and that is really comforting. Getting 2-3 new guns this summer and upgrading my PC. Going hiking with my girlfriend on Sunday. Over all pretty happy OP, hbu?
>>30234950
I needed this, anon. Thank you.
Alright, though a little intimidated.
I have a great opportunity to escape California and move to Utah. Making okay money for the area, all while finishing up my education and getting my BS degree in GIS.
Problem is, I don't know anyone in Salt Lake City, and it's an 8 hour drive. I'll be incredibly far away from my family and truly on my own without any form of support.
I've had a few nights where I tossed and turned over it. My family is not leaving California anytime soon, so I'll be completely on my own. Something that I've never done before.
But, I am excited at the prospect of buying any gun I want, at any point I want, and not having it neutered by bullshit laws. I'm also excited about the access to the Wasatch range and great outdoorsy stuff. Also excited about living in a cooler climate, and a cheap cost of living.
So, that's how I am holding up. Nervous, but excited at the same time.
>>30234950
anon you replied to here.
Sounds like a rocky speech desu
Got crabgrass man. I'm fucking pissed!
>>30234968
Need to shop Side 3 in place of America there
Not great. My boss is a juvinal slacker. My sister just got arrested because she is crazy and probably doing drugs. I'm worried about her boys, they shouldn't have to deal with her crap or their fathers anger at them because of her crap. They should have a place to sleep and good food. Not worring what the hell their mother is doing and how they are going to eat. My wife thinks my sister just needs some tough love and she'll figure out not to do that. I know that it isn't that simple. She isn't rational, she is bipolar. As she fucks up more the more stress she'll have and put on herself and she'll just do more crazy shit. I may end up dealing with a 40 year old bipolar drug addic in my life. Thanks for listening k, I needed to talk to someone outside of the whole thing.
>Getting a raise at my job next month
>qt3.14 coworker comes back from vacation soon
>started new part time internship helping jail inmates get ready to go back to their families
>After next week's paycheck I'm going gun shopping
>Best friend from highschool's bachelor party is next weekend, and it's at Knob Creek Gun Range :D
>My final week of college classes is next week
>Brofessor liked my paper on the problems with illegal immigrants so much, he has offered to publish it in some journal
>Going on cross country road trip with some friends in a few weeks
>Hair has stopped falling out and is slowly growing back
Things are looking up. I wish my highschool self could see where I'm at now and know everything's going to be alright.
>>30235001
Drive Xlr8
Get that shit anon
>>30235005
I like you.
>>30235054
I used a pre emergent this year so I haven't had any problems yet. Anxiously awaiting fall so I can aerate and overseed
>>30234983
No one can walk your path for you, you've got to do that yourself. But that doesn't mean you have to walk alone.
>>30234993
Take it or leave it brother. Life doesn't have time for our shit and neither do most of the rest of us.
Poorly but vodka makes it hurt less
>>30235068
I used a Scott's pre emergent with little hopes of it actually working after I read reviews....or I timed it wrong, whatever. I'm going to order a jug of that drive xlr8 stuff. i too am a lawn dork and can't wait to thatch, aerate, top dress, overseed this fall.
>>30235146
Yeah that's what I used. Other than that I throw some some milorganite once a month and spot spray if I have any weeds.
Look up the toro lawn striping system too, shit is tight
>>30234991
An 8 hour drive is nothing. Leave at 4am and you're there by noon. I recommend podcasts and audio books. I go back to Utah from CA about one weekend per month.
>>30235044
Yeahhhhhhhh boi. What did you think of Unicorn? Are you watching Thunderbolt also?
shit, can't get over how Aspbergers mode i get around people, and I can't sleep because of it, all those missed opportunities, I ruined my own life.
>pic related
>>30235157
Oh thanks anon! I'm so getting that system. Watched a quick yt vid and see itll attach to my Honda.
>>30235194
oh yeah, on top of that I've been lonely as fuck
>>30235233
So what's up man? Do you act a certain way with everyone, girls, people your age?
>>30235173
I'm not so much worried about my drive. I know I can do it. I just have to deal with no AC, and no working fuel gauge. That'll be fun.
No, it's more that I'm so far away from anyone I know. Should anything happen, I'm a long way from home. That's what has me a little uneasy.
>>30234951
never been to the dunes, cousin has a quad but hes a lazy fat ass. Anyway yes, the fight is in our hands. The God(s) have mercy
I've been doing well considering the shit I went through the past half of a year.
>get into the best shape of my life to try to get into military
>develop ulcers
>not bad just don't say you have them on pre-screen
>4chan literally gives me cancer
>lose a nut from it
>gain weight I lost back because I can't move very well or exercise after surgery for a few months
>fucks chances of military
>lose gf
>go into debt
>hello drinking problem
I've since gotten better on some things. Lonely as fuck, but I've since kicked my drinking problem and gotten out of debt enough for me to buy a new gun I've yet to shoot because working my ass off at my shitty job. But I just got a new job as a correctional officer so there is that.
Also my recruiter just got back in touch with me and says we might be able to get a waiver to get me in.
>>30233564
Califag here, we are struggling together
>>30234707
you have to go back
>>30235245
>Do you act a certain way with everyone, girls, people your age?
it's mostly (especially) girls and to a lesser extent other people around my age range.
I'm just way too paranoid about being hurt/betrayed by people, it's happened to me several times and every time I let my guard down I get destroyed.
I have literally rejected girls because of this, or unintentionally hurt them emotionally because I totally spill my spaghetti.
I wouldn't wish actual paranoia/social anxiety on anyone.
>>30235286
I went along with a friend with too much money and a ridiculously large diesel truck, it was pretty great. Anyway I trust we'll get through this and our state will be better for it even if we don't live to see it. Godspeed, brother.
>>30233658
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rWHZ7FX-9OQ
>dam son
I'm probably going to snap and walk away from caretaker situation. I don't hate my mother and sister, but I can't do another two years of this.
>tfw obsessed with challenge and competition
>tfw really wanted to enlist and try out for SASR
>tfw I will never be able to
i'll probably have a decent career but it fucking sucks to realise there are guys my age doing it and i couldn't even clear a fucking health screening
I'm not sure guys.
I just had sex with my girlfriend and then she left
Ever since my best friend and grand parents died within 2 years of eachother, I have had this nagging suspicion that I was next on the chopping block. Now in a little over a week I'll be able to find out. I can't say I'm too happy with the hand I've been dealt, but I try to be a positive little bugger between tragic and stressful events.
>>30233594
Got any book suggestions?
I start chemotherapy on Monday and have had food poisoning since Tuesday night.
Im doing alright, though tomorrow or sunday will be fucked if i c kendyl but im gonna try really hard not 2
>>30234682
Koreans in Seattle are cool, Washington nature is cool. At least compared to the boring drudgery of Kansas
>>30233540
Depressed, unemployed, single, tired of all the shit.
>>30233664
That plus alcohol arw pretty much my coping mechanism, acceptance being the hard part.
Still stiff upper lip and all that limey rot; in any case I refuse to commit suicide with a gun for the sake of statistics if nothing else and I find the other usual methods distasteful.
>>30233564
The fire rises. Hopefully trump or johnson will save us from having to dirty our hands
>>30233556
I heard California recently has raised its smoking age to 21. Very progressive.
>>30235553
Did you cum in her butt?
>>30235712
Am Calicuck, can confirm.
>>30233540
My towns army surplus burned down. I am torn on confession my feelings for one girl or the other and while debating to join the military as well. But I'm a lifeguard so I get to see a lot of hot women that I work with. So that's a plus.
>>30235712
Hawaii and new York city did it and then California followed. I'm actually worried that there is going to be a race war or a need for us to pick up arms against the government in the coming years.
>>30235712
>>30235720
Personally when this goes into effect I'm considering hanging around my local high school on weekdays, especially around three, and selling smokes to American citizens for a profit
>>30235728
Who needs gurls, when you have guns.
>>30235710
At this point dirty hands are a small price to pay
I'm in a bit of a rut.
Make that rut uphill, and also slippery. I try to take a step forward and slide on two steps back. I give my all to move up in my career and every tiny fraction I claw up, the government, taxes, cost of living/economy takes tenfold. At every turn I do everything I can to escape the dying town I was born in, and at every turn I lose everything and crawl back to a sorry corner. The dreams of success, the goals of having bare minimum are snuffed not only by life and country, but by existential dread of the pointlessness of my existence.
I don't know if I'm going to make it.
I wish I was gif related because I can't actually afford alcohol.
