So, /k/... How are you holding up?
>>29371465
Not great. Stuck in college, great state for guns but I won't have an apartment for a few months and by that time I'll be too busy working and too poor to become hazguns. But hey, at least I get to chill with horses a bit in the meantime, and the job is a good one.
>>29371497
>I get to chill with horses a bit
Don't date any horse grills, though. Seriously.
Things could be better. Went back home for Easter Break and found out one of the guys I went to BMQ with in the reserves has died. Other than that, I'm kinda happy to be home for a few days.
>>29371509
Find their... expectations, to be too high?
>>29371509
Can confirm horse girls are nucking futs.
>>29371509
Is...is this a joke I don't get? I have some classes in a stable but I've never been to /mlp/
>>29371465
Shitty anon
>wife has no job
>job I hate sucks
>every job I apply for doesn't hire me
>don't make enough money to enjoy my life
But, gee at least I have guns
>>29371465
not good, my best friend shot herself while talking to me
>>29371551
>horse girls
Yeah, they're a bit fucked in the head to say the least.
>>29371465
>How are you holding up?
Getting by.
>>29371567
On purpose...?
i'm just seeing how this life thing works out. currently trying to get a job as a web developer but no luck.
i'm gonna do that Anti-poaching thing with my fiance if it turns out to be legit.
also
>no guns
First gun i'm gonna get is an AR fifteen or a Ruger 10/22, i can't tell if i want to have squirrel or deer.
>>29371567
No she didn't
>>29371586
yes
dead end job
Dead end life
>>29371465
I've been better. Had to finally break off from a long time friend because of his problems and mine being too much for the time being. It sucks man.
Have a home, plenty of food, making money, and got a girl. Her eyes are blue and makes me comfy
>>29371465
>just moved to Florida from New Jersey
>piling money to buy car
>then pile money for new apartment
>rescue dog from local shelter
>should finish off paying student loans in 2 years
>acquire guns
>acquire land
>a family or waifu can enter the picture at any point or not, I don't really care
>be happy
It's a long road but a little bit every day and I'll get there.
Probably gonna flunk college, might take a stab at welding or a similar trade. So pretty bad I guess. I got my family though and if all else fails I can beg an old friend to get me on an oil rig. We'll see in a few years.
>>29371465
Not good.
Like guns but I live in UK, dont want to learn different language to move to a slightly better EU country, and america is fucking impossible to move to without already having a job there, or a wife. And neither of those are likely going to happen.
Things are pretty good actually. Literally for the first time ever.
A couple weeks ago:
>Uni is slowly killing me
>Have been pretty lonely for the past few years
>Got tinder 2 months ago
>Went on a few dates with one girl, went literally nowhere
>Consider just ending it all
>Decide it was for the best and move on
Now:
>met another girl on tinder
>literal waifu levels of perfect
>going to meet up with her when I come back from holiday
>Been sexting with several other girls as well
>Finally starting to see actual gains from working out for a few months
>Becoming the chad I hated so much
>Don't care because I'm finally happy
If I had guns it would be perfect. But stuck in bongland, so that's not possible
Everything looks good though
I am doing pretty great. I have a 3 day weekend.
going to shoot tomorrow with older brother and my best friend. Gonna test out my new ksg and latest AR build.
Yeah, life's pretty great, just like America will be great.
I live in britain, how do you think I'm holding up?
>>29371855
Do airsoft. /k/ will look down on you, you'll hate yourself, but at least you get to pretend you have guns
That's what I do as a britbong, and it's fairly fun
>>29371880
>>29371855
cant we just get shotguns?
>>29371761
I believe in you anon. Make it fucking happen.
>>29371561
You need to nut up and make your wife find a job. I was in the same boat anon. It gets better.
>>29371892
Yes, but that's about it really. If you want actual guns, like pistols, ARs etc. then airsoft is the closest you'll get.
They pretty much look/feel like the realsteal things anyway
>yuropoor
>noguns
>in mid 30's
having escaped seemingly unevitable bankrupcy a few years ago; I've started from scratch. Got married in October. Currently on a sick leave from a shit tier job. Spine surgery sucks.
>>29371930
But I don't do well in situations with large groups of people I don't know. Thats why I dont do it
>girl I love dumped me on Friday
>she was the only person I knew on campus
>no idea how to even begin to meet new people
>I've never been this lonely before
All in all, it's pretty fucking awful.
>>29371880
>Need a license for "Realistic Airsoft Replicas"
>Basically any airsoft gun spray painted black
I mean the license isn't hard to get at all, but fucking still.
>this thread
>>29371465
Don't ask those kinds of questions, anon.
>>29371561
Better than all that plus nogunz, Anon.You could try lying harder on your resume(everybody does it) or if you don't have kids, maybe the Military might be for you?
>>29371567
>>29371702
Lord Jesus, Anon. If you want to talk about it, we`re here.
>>29371594
Good luck, Anon. Though from what i understand, you`ll be nogunz in Africa as well.
>>29371727
Try your best, Anon! Maybe look into starting a side business.
>>29371734
Some people are just toxic. If they won`t help themselves, they can`t be helped. Now get to work on your life.
>>29371761
>rescue dog from local shelter
You`re a good man, Anon. You should check out Demolition Ranch`s side channel, Vet Ranch.
https://www.youtube.com/user/VetRanch
>>29371765
>>29371855
Aren`t shotgun licenses somewhat simple to get? Gotta start somewhere!
>>29371807
Let us know how it is, I've been eyeballing a KSG myself
>>29371938
Focus on getting better, and stay safe over there, brother.
>>29371945
Disregard females, focus on studies and join some clubs or volunteer shit. I joined my local Ground Search and Rescue lately and met some awesome people while learning how to operate inna wilderness.
>>29371972
You can open up to me, Anon.
>>29371940
Ah autism. She is a fickle beast
>>29371949
Oh yeah, definitely fuck this. It isn't even legally required, just shows that you have a reason for getting one.
Technically could just do dodgy private sales though, if you're too lazy
im at the point where im going to lie on my resume to get a job
I'm a high school teacher, and after dealing with horrible monsters all week, Spring Break begins with a washing machine connection leak.
>>29371556
Horse girls make crazy cat ladies seem sane.
>>29371551
Like anyone can resist those hot centaur women.
Ausfag:
About to join the army. No friends, no girlfriend - Never had any really. Incredibly lonely and miserable. I can't even wank anymore because it makes me feel like shit.
At least I'm hasguns. I've basically given up on life though, at least if I join the army I can die for a cause I genuinely believe in.
>>29372006
>dealing with high school students all day
I could never
>>29372011
>>29372006
Can confirm. I'm dating a crazy cat lady but she's totally innocuous compared to my horse riding ex.
>>29372039
It's like hell until a student makes your week by being an amazing person. My coworkers are starting to quote Fury Road in the morning before the students come in though.
>>29372006
Why would you do this to yourself?
>>29372061
>It's like hell until a student makes your week by being an amazing person
My Latin wrote in my senior year book in latin
>students like you keep me from staying home. one day I hope you know the same joy
I should email him and see how he's doing
Ended things wtih the girlfriend because we could never connect together.
Now I feel like shooting myself
>>29372119
>Now I feel like shooting myself
Relax, have a drink, watch some animu if you're into that. Plenty of fish in the sea, Anon
>>29372119
Don't do it man.
It was for the best. If you found a girl once, you'll find another again some time. Maybe one you'll connect with
It's better to be free than stuck in a dead end relationship
>>29372227
>>29372228
I am a sperg and have the hardest time finding women. She was the only person who showed interest in me in a long time.
I am not that bad looking I just have the personality of a wet towel.
>>29372035
Good luck, cunt. At least you'll get to operate with an AUG, most of the rest of us will never touch one.
>>29371465
Pretty good so far, gonna have a bbq, work on some stories then get pissed.
>>29372279
I know how you feel. I'm literally the same.
I met a girl on tinder, first girl I ever went on a date with. Two dates later, she said no more. Didn't even get a kiss.
Fell apart because I was nervous as fuck. Felt like shit for a few days.
I got over her though, because I realised it would never work.
I met a new girl last week, going on a date soon. I thought I would never find someone else again, but then she fell into my lap
Seriously, you'll find someone else. Someone better
>>29372279
>I just have the personality of a wet towel.
Sounds like you need to start lifting and get some aesthetics. You go from being perceived as a creepy sperg to "quiet and mysterious". These hoes are simple, mang.
>>29371465
/k/omrade, I am too sober for this shit.
Why didn't you make this thread tomorrow when I have more than 4 beers in me?
>>29371465
>gf broke up with me last week
>stuck in shit job
>no replies to my college applications
>only gun i have is a norinco M1A
why live?
>>29371551
fucked a horse grill once, never again
>>29372367
>why live?
Them sweet, sweet Type 81's are coming in the fall, my fellow maple nigger. As for grills, see >>29372345
>>29371567
Hardcore.
>haven't had a gf in over a year
>poor as hell
>no job
>still in high school
I've been better
>>29372407
>still in highschool
Unless you're 24, you have no reason to bitch.
>>29372418
>Unless you're 24
Why 24? Is life sunshine and rainbows up until your 24th birthday?
>>29371465
School is going okay
Still single, but I'm not trying so that's on me
Don't have much money for ammo, so that's kind of a bummer
How are you holding up OP?
>>29371763
Trades aren't a bad gig, I hear. You ever watch ChuckE2009's shit on Youtube?
>>29371986
No shame in stretching the truth a little.
>"experienced in Gauss"
>mfw I opened it once and ran a script somebody else wrote
>>29372407
What >>29372418 said. All uphill from here.
>>29371544
underrated
>>29372430
WHAT IS THAT REVOLVER
I NEED IT IN MY LIFE
>>29371761
good plan anon, time for me to rewatch Generation Kill
>>29372439
>colt python
>>29372439
8" Colt Anaconda, I believe. You and everyone else, lol.
>>29372459
>unobtanium
EVERY FUCKING TIME
>>29372430
No I've never heard of chucke2009 I'll look into it. I have friends and family in the industry and I hear there's a demand.
>>29372426
No, because unless you're one of the extreme cases, an '18' year old faggot who lost his GF and got an B- in chem doesn't deserve to bitch.
Further, everyone I know would say they're "poor" but only a few are actually poverty level.
>>29371465
Pretty good, me and some mates are going into town to a surplus store. Hoping to be a participant in the milsurp threads. Looking to get a M1969 flak jacket. No reason but it has really struck my fancy recently. Probably going to be doing a little shooting later in the week. Nearly finished with my SHTF bag (file size too large), everything in it I feel confident in, but still need a tarp and a better bag cover. Bag cover needs to be big as fuck and quite long should anyone be feeling helpful.
This innawoods should be pretty accurate to my bag's contents
Doing alright.
Had a 2 hour drive home because of the snow/rain. Was going to go out to the range but decided to finish off the rest of the beer I have instead. Don't know how I did on my night classes exam yesterday, but the beer is well deserved. Was happy to see some 45acp 230 grain HST waiting for me when I got home.
Only issue was some ITBS during my 8 mile run today.
I'm doing...OK, I guess?
>well-paying job
>decent career/education prospects
>finally into guns
On the other hand, my personal life and fitness have suffered precipitous declines since this time last year, so guns are pretty much the only thing I'm unequivocally happy about right now. Hoping I can turn it around, but not entirely under my control, which sucks. It's a mixed bag.
I'm breathing. I got promoted to gm in 8 months and work 13 hour days. I cant shoot much and its fucking with me. Saving money for some land to build a house. Broke up with my 10 year gf, i finnaly relised that I shouldnt feel lonely in a relationship, flirting with a new 19 year old, its fucking scary i have no idea what im doing. I miss my dad and his guidence, its been 7 years now. All in all its going.
>>29371465
.32-20 is too expensive and nobody makes .32-40 brass. I'm doing ok I guess though.
>>29372430
thinking of stretching the truth a bit, saying i worked at this place for a year, gonna say two or still working there
im getting real desperate
Okay, got a new job but thinking about moving to Finland.
I have no idea why.
I recently felt like I wasn't whole, and after going looking for the parts of me that went missing, I found there was a hell of a lot more missing than I originally thought. High school and now college have slowly chipped away at me, and now I feel like no more than a shell. Hell I don't even enjoy my own birthday anymore.
Jesus fuck what happened to me?
I'm getting by. My depression isn't as bad as it was a year ago, but I have good days and bad days. My job sucks, but I might have a new one lined up. I passed my first GED test, another next week, then only two more to go. Hopefully it's not too late to sign up for for CDL classes, I want to be a trucker.
I bought a .223 rifle with the intent to hunt coyotes for profit with it all winter, but due to my current job and my cousin never getting around to showing me how it's done, it only kills paper, but it kills that paper dead.
I would have posted an image, but I'm on mobile and the gallery won't load.
>>29372491
>not entirely under my control,
If it's a health issue, follow doctors orders and do your best to get healthy. If you don't have money/time to hit the gym, calisthenics are way better than nothing
http://www.startbodyweight.com/2014/01/basic-routine-infographic-poster.html
>>29372491
Also live in enemy territory (AWB land) near the border, seriously considering buying a scurry black salt rifle or three and keeping them in my place in violation of the relevant law. I dunno lads.
>>29372525
Sounds like it time for an adventure. Save some cash, but a tacticool pack and go travel somewhere awesome. No safe basic bitch destinations, either
Good. I've finally regained some direction in my life.
Currently working on some lower back pain and getting into the best shape I possibly can become something I want to be in the military.
I've come to grips with the fact that in my face's current state, it would be best for me to focus on myself and my career, and then focus on finding a girl later.
I can live life for myself for once, instead of always helping other people through theirs
>>29372499
You did well dropping her, like you said no one should feel lonely in a relationship. Hang in there man, take some time for yourself.
>>29371980
College is kicking my ass, money's only getting tighter, and I think buying my first rifle was the final nail in the coffin for my already strained relationship with my family. I'm terrible at meeting new people, and I've lost contact with almost everyone I used to know. Typical 18 year old bullshit compared to other people's problems here, but it still sucks.
>>29372039
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6dncx6O5J4U
>>29371761
You actually fucking took a Student Loan. You fucking idiot...
>>29372499
Some tough breaks, dude. You'll make it.
>>29372516
Falsehoods that can be verified are a bad idea. Probably better to exaggerate your importance while you were there than to say that you worked there longer than you did, if that's a viable option. You know, "assisted in the rollout of ____" when you mopped the floor before ____ started or whatever.
>>29372525
>>29372572 is good advice. Getting deep innamountains on solo trips always helped me.
>>29372544
>follow doctors orders and do your best to get healthy
That's what I'm doing, but it's been nigh on eight months now with no real improvement. I do what I can, mostly lots of chins and time on the stationary bike, so I'm not completely fat and useless, but I'm still a long way from where I was. (<Trump> Sad! </Trump>)
>>29372597
That Veronica Vaughn is one piece of Ace. I know from experience, dude. you know what I mean.
>>29372572
I'm on spring break, so I'll probably find my way up to Daytona tomorrow as a temporary reprieve. One hell of a car show this weekend.
>>29371980
I like your positive attitude anon.
>Girlfriend had a mental breakdown at work, got fired, and relapsed after 5 years clean.
>Got into a fight with gf after I found out she's been using again. Kicked her out and haven't spoken to her 2 weeks.
>My first job at a warehouse company refuses to work with my school schedule even after working there for 4 years, I had to drop drop down to part time.
>My second job at Goodwill is slowly making me hate humanity.
>My best friend was diagnosed with MS in February.
>Some spic's kid shot my dogs eye out with a air-soft gun last week.
>Someone hit and run my parked car in my apartment complex.
I wonder why I haven't snapped yet.
>>29372383
That's true, I'm excited for those, but I wanna get a new scattergat.
As for the get /fit/ idea, I go to the gym every day already and I've been told I'm good looking guy and also pretty outgoing. I'm not a creepy autist, I'm just really unlucky desu
CFI initial checkride soon stalker.
>tfw no busts yet
god help me
>>29372688
Daytona's a bretty cool place
>>29372700
>>Girlfriend had a mental breakdown at work, got fired, and relapsed after 5 years clean.
>>Got into a fight with gf after I found out she's been using again. Kicked her out and haven't spoken to her 2 weeks.
You did the right thing kicking her out Anon. If she tries to come back, just keep in mind that she has, in all likelyhood, been sucking dick for drugs/a place to stay. Not even /r9k/, I've just known too many female junkies in my time.
Sorry to hear about your jobs, what makes you hate goodwill so much?
>Some spic's kid shot my dogs eye out with a air-soft gun last week.
THE WALL JUST GOT TEN FEET HIGHER
>>29371465
Doing ok i guess.
>26k in the bank
>still live with parents
>Quit my job as a truck driver because mom and pops didn't like it.
>no gf
>26 yrs old.
>spend all day playing fallout 4
It could be worse.
>>29371465
Bretty gud. I've been on a spending spree because times are good at work and I've gotten a new AR and a lot of new gear which makes me happy. But lately I've lost all interest in college, and now I'm thinking about joining the military again. Part of me wants to be a spoopy spec ops guy, but the other part of me doubts if I have what it takes. All I know for sure is that I've finally started listening to what I want, instead of what my parents want
>>29372807
>Quit my job as a truck driver because mom and pops didn't like it
What do they expect you to do, exactly?
>>29372537
Good luck.
>>29372722
Good luck, are you doing a program in college, or just part 141?
>>29372525
>Hell I don't even enjoy my own birthday anymore.
You sound like a broad. Whats the deal with you guys and needing to feel special on your birthday. Only chicks get that into it.
Realizing I'm spending a lot of time starting up brand new projects and then leaving on to start another. Tons of half-finished shit everywhere. Don't know whether to finish one thing or just scrap everything.
>>29372604
>you're an idiot for investing in your education
Spainfag here, not that good.
Got my funs license about a year ago, basically I got two one allows me to own shotguns and .22 rifles, the other is for muzzleloaders or guns/replicas made before 1890.
I spent a lot of the money I had saved on getting this licenses and my uncle gave me an old shotgun of his, he'd been waiting for me to get my licenses so I can go hunt with him as I'm the only one in the family interested in both hunting and guns.
>tfw uncle had a brainstroke about a month ago.
GF also broke up with me 3 months ago, and I'm still not over it.
Also no job so I'm not able to buy more funs nor go to the shooting range as it's quite expensive.
You american bastards are lucky, wish I could go live there. I understand you don't want brown or black people but you should let us whitepeople in ffs.
>>29373050
It's not about feeling special, it just seems like I should enjoy the day, instead of feeling shittier than usual.
>>29373189
It's very difficult for whites to legally emigrate here. My step mom is 100 percent English and it took fucking years to get approved even though she married an American. Better off just going to Mexico and getting an inner tube to float over the Rio.
>>29373273
Shit anon at least I had the vague hope of finding an american qt, marry her and go there completely troublefree.
>>29371509
Yeah dude, chick's who are all about their horses and treat them like children are fuckin psycho.
I should be happy with life
>has guns
>good government job
>10k saved up in savings and constantly growing every paycheck
>great relationship with parents and friends
>not autistic enough to not have social outings every weekend
The only thing that makes my days hard I am still in love with my ex after almost 5 years of a break up. Wishing everyday I could spend my normal happy life with them. I've dated other people since, but it's hasn't been working out. Loving people who don't want to be in your life sucks man.
I hanged out with my pro-fun sister who recently got cancer. She is being bitched on by my other sis who is an anti-gun hippie. She is able to come around my apartment where we cleaned our first gun: a M1911A1.
My hippie sis came and then yelled at us for being "fur wearing murderers" or some shit. She tried to take away our Mosin Nagant on the side with the rifle being loaded and she chopped the nugget...so me and cancer sis kicked her out. Was meh day.
>>29371765
Just learn Spanish. They'll wave you right in.
>>29372789
Last I heard she was staying at her sisters place "trying to get clean". She did so well 5 years clean. I was with her every step of the way through rehab and she just had to let her boss constant harassment get to her. So instead telling me she got fired from work, she decided to hide the fact and started using again. Not sure if I want to even take her back after this, I don't know I guess time will tell.
As for Goodwill one word "retail". But seriously though I've seen so many drug addicts shoot up in the bathroom stalls, tweakers shoplifting, and entitled customers who think they are above the people working here. I work in the back as a truck loader and the material handler crew is completely short staffed. Management of the store have been trying to hire more material handlers, but corporate keeps denying them giving them bullshit excuses. Imagine getting 900+ donations on Saturday then 700+ on Sunday for 8 week straight with only 6 guys and 2 of those guys are useful as a bag bricks. And when I'm talking about donations I mean full on U-Haul trucks filled to the brim and donations lines up to 20 cars/trucks long. Sorting through all those donations is hell and don't get me started on furniture donations.
>>29372006
I feel your pain. I subsisted for a year as a substitute teacher. I finally found a job with shit pay and no benefits, but at least its a low stress job that I can live on.
>>29372061
pederast detected
>>29373358
Tell your sis anon said to kick cancer's ass.
>>29373358
My parents best friends are head-in-the-sand liberals. It's somehow so much worse when family is involved.
>>29372523
Pretty nice there. If i were to move to another country other than USA i'd move to finland.
>>29371465
Really damn weird.
I'm coming off of a year spent building trails in Utah in which I found great happiness as compared to my wasted 4 years of college with no degree. I've been visiting my parents and thank the Lord, my dad and I are reconciled after a decade and are super bro tier. After a talk with my god tier trades uncle and my father, I feel like I'm good to travel anywhere, work any job and grab a few trades to finance my future Slavic and AR harem.
But.
No joke, I have been put in contact by fate with around 5 senior AF Intel NCOs, former operators, AF pilots, and Army counter Intel officers who have spoken info my life and encouraged me to join AF in an IMGINT or Operational intel role based on my interests and their assessment of my potential.
Combined with the fact that my diagnosis with depression and anxiety disorder were bogus and disproportionate, there is a real chance I could get back on track to join the military industrial academic complex.
I'm gonna try, but there are so many mixed messages. I'm just glad I am free to make the choice and have removed my self induced over expectations of what I need to accomplish.
Atleast I'll have a cherry tobacco filled pipe, a printed PDF on the difficulties of SCUD hunting, a.308 raifu and the foothills of TN in a few days to help settle things.
>>29373057
Anybody that can come along side and give perspective on things? Used to have the same problem.
>>29371465
I finally found someone who makes me not want to die, and then turns out they don't like me as much as I like them.
I was prepared for disappointment, but fuck this feels worse than I thought it would.
Well, time to go back to depression, being bad at welding, and daydreaming about dying in a foreign country.
>>29373358
>and she chopped the nugget
What do you mean by this?
>>29371465
Eh, things could be worse. Could be better, but definitely could be worse.
>>29371465
I've had better days, family can't see me over Easter due to my condition and can't hit the local range for the same reason. I do feel like the whole experience has tempered me quite a bit, I no longer feel the reckless abandon I once did.
>>29373409
i used to work at goodwill, i was on the textile processing table but i helped out on the docks alot(more fun). same probelms, shortstaffed, overloaded work. shitty manager and if you dont make quota you'd get fired(no matter how loyal to the company or how fast you are processing)
and yea, retards were working the docks at our store also. fuck that shitty company. any "good" that place had is gone.
As for your girl, its for the best. keeping her around would just enable her and leech off you. putting strain on you too. kicking her out was the best, for both of you
>>29371465
>19 yrs old
>no job, lost my last job
>college dropout
>only $600 in bank account
>live with parents
>no car, borrow my dads
>no plans for future, wasting away my years
>not very skilled at anything, nor am i that smart
>also so deep in the closet im exploring narnia
but atleast im hasguns (bought em with my own money too) and my family is pro-fun
>>29373536
I just drove through Tennessee heading for Illinois (my state). Goddamn you live in a great state. I'm presently looking for employment there.
Go for the AF. VA hospitals aren't the greatest but at least it would be paid for.
>>29371509
Used to live near a fairly well renowned equestrian academy, can confirm
>>29373611
She went and took out a knife in a attempt to chop the Nagant. With a kitchen knife.
>>29373474
Thanks Anon. It really means a lot.
>>29373029
neither
part 61
>>29373303
Well I didn't say don't do it. I've met a few Spanish people in my life and I can say you guys are alright.
>>29373536
>Atleast I'll have a cherry tobacco filled pipe, a printed PDF on the difficulties of SCUD hunting, a.308 raifu and the foothills of TN in a few days to help settle things.
That's the good life right there anon, enjoy every moment
>>29373706
join the military and do something with your life
>>29371537
Sorry for your loss bro.
>>29371465
I should be happier, but a few things are prying at my mind
Pros:
Dads got plenty of guns
I got a few myself
Got a qt3.14 gf
Going for a Navy/Marine contract
Making a lot of great connections with important people in college
~$3k spending money on a new gun/guns
Cons:
Calculus II is kicking my shit in and that is ruining everything
Gf is stressed as fuck because of family and school bs
Haven't seen her in a while so I can't ease her mind
Relationship is falling apart faster than the north tower collapsed I'm doing a job I don't like. I'm 2k miles from home and pretty much all of my guns.
>I can't leave
>I can't quit I'm contract bound for 5 more years
>I can't drink pain away
>wakemeupinside.png
Pretty good thanks for asking anon
>>29371509
This was the local horse-girl back when I was in high school. Poor girl is bat shit crazy
>>29371465
Caught my girlfriend of 7 years cheating on me. She's set to marry the dude sometime later this year.
Other then that, it's actually not bad. Replaced that whore with a busty fuckin Irish redhead, managed to buy my house outright by abusing the fuck out of my stock portfolio, and I'm starting to work hard on my blacksmithing shop. Quit my shitty job about 4 weeks ago and since then I've lost about 20 lbs, started sleeping and eating better, and have gotten a boatload of DIY projects done around the house.
Pretty pleased, really.
>>29371465
almost got fucking killed yesterday but hey i got some soju so it's all good
>stuck in college
>taking a major that I fucking hate
>old drinking problems have reemerged
>the girl that I thought was in love with me, I love her, has suddenly stopped talking to me
>even though we've been best friends for over 6 years
>tore my acl and labrum so I will likely miss my senior year of football
>despite this I still have people coming to me for reassurance and support because I don't tell anyone this shit
>haven't slept a full night in over a year
>cat has cancer and will likely be put down
>too far away to be there
But on the bright side I'm going to be an uncle. All in all it could be worse. Some of you guys have worse problems
>>29373943
>almost got fucking killed yesterday
Sounds like we need a greentext, anon
>got some soju
Kanpai you bitch
>>29373851
I bet she would do the reverse cowgirl
Would totally bone
>>29371765
I'll marry you anon, nor in a gay way though. Just ti be range "butties"
Pretty damn conflicted (basically shitty).
Hate school, but love work which just so happens to be where I go to school. So if I drop out of school, that means no more work (at the school).
Pretty big decisions that will affect those around me if I drop out and has just been depressing the fuck out of me cause I don't know what to do.
Do I stick it out? Or do I go out and find my other purpose? I joined a Search and Rescue team (as well as a radio club) to get more involved in the community and start getting to know more people. It's a hell of a lot more fun doing that kind of stuff I'll say that much.
I can do what I enjoy without being burdened by the stress of school and beholdings to petty bullshit like grades and meaningless tests.
Still have no idea what to do. Really like the idea of becoming an elevator technician...
On the bright side, however, ordered a 92FS. Really excited about that.
>>29371765
>and america is fucking impossible to move toFirst of all it's America britcuck.
And it's only impossible for white people to immigrate these days.
>>29374042
What's the major, the year and hows the debt? Because it sounds like you might have fallen for the college meme and aren't laughing while building up a life outside of it.
Just got back from a movie, but I'm kinda bummed now.
>>29373742
Industry? I might be able to point you in the right region.
>>29373813
I'll do my best on both counts.
>>29373706
>not very skilled at anything, nor am i that smart
I don't know anon, I hate it when anons say that. You're very obviously a stop above the norm if you're browsing and posting here of all places.
I just think you haven't found a passion yet. It isn't supposed to be forced, but you should still actively look at what you're passionate about, what hobbies you're interested in.
Truly the best way to learn something is to learn something you love to learn about. You're 19, you still have some time to find something that fits you. Just explore different avenues, do stuff, and you'll eventually find that you love doing something particular more than others.
>19, turning 20 this year
>Best job I've ever had
>Starting my own buisness soon
>Got close but still no gf
>Slowly saving up money
>Cat is still mah nigga
>Live at home and still love my family
>I have a pretty decent collection of guns/gear
Life is pretty good, still lonely tho .-.
>>29371465
>Pepe memes
But every time I make an EDC thread on /r9k/ they all act like a bunch of beta nu-males and complain about how women don't like them when they don't shower for a week.
Had to put my dog down yesterday. Uncertain about my future. Not really happy in my relationship. Haven't really seen any of my friends lately. Been sick for the last week. Forgot to get shredded parmesan at the store.
You could say things aren't really going all that well at the moment.
>>29374112
Major is IET (Information Engineering Technology), second semester Sophomore, no debt.
Yeah, in a sense I've "fallen" for the meme, although the more appropriate description would be I gave in to the pressure of the meme.
Since HS I was wise to the whole College scam. I knew what it was and what it had become, but because I had teachers all around, my counselor included, as well as my parents who were urging me and bringing up all these "facts" regarding college and college graduates, I gave in and went.
Partially it's because my parents let me stay as long as I'm in school. Honestly, the best way to describe college for me is literally okay, but also mind-numbingly boring. I love my field (IT), trust me on that, but the way that the school system is set up, it has sucked me dry of passion and love for my hobby. What replenishes it is my work, which happens to be the Colleges IT department. I love the stuff I do there, but I hate school.
Do you see the predicament here? If I quit school, I can't work in the IT department anymore since it's a student job. What makes the decision even more difficult is that I'm basically my bosses favorite tech because I get shit done and (usually) done right. He expects me to be there for the full four years that I'm (expected) to be a student, but if I quit on him now...well that's just a shitty thing.
I'm also under the burden of stress from my parents as well because, my dad especially, is really proud of me because I've gotten shit done while in college (net sec club and work) for being only 19 and I can't bear the thought of having that converstion, where I say "Hey dad, I know you're proud of me and glad I have my head out of my ass, but I'm just going to drop out of school now and find something else to do with my life".
I've been stressing over these things for the whole semester, and it's only getting worse.
Fuck, sorry. I literally could write a essay on how I'm feeling right now, but I won't torture you.
>All I have is a Rem 700 and a Rem 860.
>Last gf left me for my best friend
>they just got together yesterday
>been talking to my other ex
>tells me she still has feelings for me
>want her back so fucking bad
>tells me she just wants to be friends
>other girl then starts telling me why our relationship was so shitty
>all my fault
>dog died
>had her for 9 years
>no job
I'm doing alright I guess
Been doing pretty okay tho
>>29371465
-Dont know if I like my university subject. Borderline failure grades,
-Apathy towards pretty much everything
-Political/Social situation is going down hill by the day (Bavarian-Austrian border town. Were fucked essentially.)
-Eu gun ban will come
+Had several women (and men) tell me how handsome I look.
+Will get a million or more from my father as premature inheritance to avoid some tax regulations.
+Have started doing more sport to get out of that winter hole. Still at a good weight but I have also added four pounds during the winter. I need to get that off.
+Have a lot of friends, a sister and a lot of other relatives that love me
+Will buy a nice AR for around 1,500€
+Will also buy a Mosin for the funs
+Yesterday I helped my neighbour, 19 year old hasnogunsyet-girl, to find a good shotgun store. She will be happy with the one I trust. I like helping people.
+Have pretty much given up with women. Much happier spending my time on the range or just talking a walk down the rivers.
Lifes ok.
>>29373536
>Atleast I'll have a cherry tobacco filled pipe, a printed PDF on the difficulties of SCUD hunting, a.308 raifu and the foothills of TN in a few days to help settle things.
Nice.
>>29374222
>Live at home and still love my family
Couldnt wait to move out at 18 personally but if it works for you.
i'm alright I suppose.
>Moved to South Texas from Arizona a few years ago
>Going to school
>Working
>Engaged
>But no friends no komrades here
>Usually vacation to AZ couple times a year
>Should be there this week but plans got fucked
>Stuck in South Texas
>Drinking beer alone listening to music
>>29374274
Damn your situation is very salvagable. You're not going to like what I'm going to say, but it comes with living with tech folks and being a dropout myself.
Stay in. Until you start manifestation of mental illness, suck the suck and enjoy the good times. Do not give up. Staying in will open up so many doors. With a degree in your hand and all those resume ready accomplishments you will have a major chance at getting where you want to be and getting in jobs you like. It's only 2 more years of the game, but 60 years of life which you seem to be working on a good foundation.
To cope, get out side, take walks, exercise more when things get dull. You can fight the good fight. You don't need to be stressed, drop the expectation shit. You're doing this for you, and life is not over if it comes crashing down. But there no need for it to crash, you only need to have faith and play the game for a little while longer.
>>29371938
I had surgery for a herniated disk in december. I feel 100x better but I still can't stand up for more than 30 minutes at a time. Weirdest burning/wet sensation on my right side toes, they say it may take a year for that to go away, if at all.
>I had just bought a brand new Colt Gold Cup and was going to start steel challenge
>>29374490
I rise a Shiner Bock and a Blue Oyster Cult album to you by the light of the moon.
t. RGV.
>>29374557
Believe me. I've had this entire spiel read to me multiple times over by various people in real life and on the internet.
Not once has it really convinced me anything thorough. I don't want a life of complicated situations, working for corporations with more than shady backgrounds, dealing with shitty people in the work place.
I love my field, but I'm just as equally content with picking up a trade instead. In fact I might even welcome it more because I've always found myself to be happiest when I'm doing physical work, fixing something or creating something. I have no interest in being academic, my personality just isn't like that.
Truth be told anon, one of my greatest desires is to become an apprentice to a master in a trade (smithing would be awesome, but elevator technician is actually more realistic for me), who teaches me one on one and on a personal level. None of this University bullshit which is nothing more than a business which takes in kids and pumps out "graduates" into the workforce all in such orderly factory fashion.
No, that life is not for me.
Other than my studies, everything is going to shit. No money, no job, barely any family left.
I've been in a long distance relationship for almost 1.5 years and it just keeps going downhill. What's worse is that I fucked up last week and ended up banging one of my friends. She has a boyfriend so we pretty much reached a mutual understanding to not spill the beans on anyone, but I keep feeling guilty time and time again.
The thing is that I still love my main girl, and she has been nothing but good to me. She's one of a kind, but this kind of relationship is hard to maintain and I regularly find myself making up excuses to not speak to her. I've been thinking about breaking up with her or just give time for both of us to be apart.
Really wish I said no to the whole long distance thing back then.
>Getting screwed overby West Point rejects when it comes to my VMI application
>Hoping to god that I get accepted because I didn't work my ass of to get a 4.0 in CC so I can get screwed over by some senators son
>If don't get accepted I'm just saying fuck it and going enlisted
>Questioning if I'm too overly selfish and how I can make myself a better person
>However I ain't really worrying about that now because in a year I hope someone beats that shit out of me
>Have decent friends in college, can't complain.
>Love life is pretty much non-existent, mostly because I freak out when ever someone attempts to hit on me.
I might sound like a faggot in that but I can't complain about my life, I got people/family who care about me and plenty of life options. Just rolling through purgatory that's all.
>>29374253
Hey dude, at least you can still get that parmesan tomorrow.
>>29374637
Then
A. Keep seeking wisdom and hopefully change your mind.
B. Take a gap year/part time student or so to try some new things.
Or
C. Drop out after this semester and go do it.
I would strongly encourage you to try B. Really encourage you to.
But if it's between A. or C., choose C. Your early on, which means you can get on the right tract easier. Do your research, get ready to defend your decision to your peers and friends, but get an apprenticeship lined up and get out there before you end up like me and burn out longer down the line though the warning signs were there.
Again, seek the gap year. Your thoughts are literal echoes of mine, down to the negative fantasization of post college possible work experiences I had at v that stage. A gap year would have helped me, maybe you can save yourself.
But if you're set, try to finish the semester then GET THE HELL OUT OF THERE AND GET THAT APPRENTICESHIP THIS YEAR.
>>29371980
she's had a really shitty life and it finally got to her, I saw it coming a mile away and I kind of blame myself for not being able to help
>>29374776
Yeah, actually option B was exactly what I had in mind. I figured i needed a breat at least, so I'd take some time off and focus on other things to see how I feel.
It really is most likely what I'm going to do.
Not well. I've been working full time and doing 21 credits this semester. I graduate in May, and have a vacation to Europe scheduled and a job lined up. But I am starting to feel fatigued, and I may end up not graduating because of super difficult class.
Tl;dr, I'm a big baby bitch.
>>29374804
Damn fine decision there, damn fine. Just don't squander it with vidya or Netflix. Be intentional.
>>29374805
>Full Time
>21 Semesters
Might want to reconsider that balance anon.
>>29371465
I wish the happening would happen, other than that, its only late nights like these when I can't shake the uneasy feeling that it will never happen, and I am just going to die and be forgotten.
Man needs adventure, but there is literally no adventure left in my life. I can't join the military, so it looks like I'm just going to die in the same corn town I was born in. At least I have work to keep me from going insane.
>>29371509
THIS
SO MUCH THIS
I grew up around horse girls, they are hot, and seem sweet at first, but they are the biggest fucking cunts you will ever meet. That said, I wish I wasn't alone constantly anymore, turns out socializing is harder than I remember, so take a horse girl over solitude. Hell, who am I kidding, they aren't really that bad once you get past the constant bitchiness.
>>29374832
Of course. I was actually wanting to focus this summer on becoming more active in the Search and Rescue team, get certified and basically start going around innadesert finding people.
Thanks for the discourse anon.
>>29374844
Definitely true friend. I just have to last 6 more weeks.
>>29372499
It's OK I miss my dad too anon.
>>29374866
My local Ground Search and Rescue is almost entirely a volunteer effort (collaborating with the Air Force) but if there are any fulltime paid positions within yours, I'd do whatever it takes to secure one. Gives you something to strive for. Pretty noble job, too.
>>29374858
>I wish the happening would happen
Pretty much this. The entire reason I lift is to be a post-apocalyptic homosexual warlord.
>>29373817
everyones been telling me that, i dont know. dont think i can deal with signing away my life for 4 years like that.
>>29374177
thanks for the advice anon
>>29374866
You're on the right path, and kudos in catching all this early. May this year reveal the truth and may you grow anon. Might I ask which desert?
>>29371465
im feeling this as the thread theme, for some reason. probs cuz i heard it on the radio on the way home.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mh3Kk5tZSmo
>>29374917
>dont think i can deal with signing away my life for 4 years like that
Here's a bit of perspective from a 30 year old who wasted his 20's: 4 years are going to come and go faster than you think regardless of what you do with them. You can use 4 years to work a dead-end job, party a bit and get fat, or you can use 4 years to get seriously fit, learn a trade and get paid to operate.
Your call, but if I had it to do over, I'd have joined up myself. I'm even considering it now.
>>29374917
I want to echo that anon's statements.
That being said, the military offers opportunities, really great ones. Start thinking about it in those terms and then start doing your homework to find something you like.
Disclaimer: DO NOT BECOME A NAVY NUKE, AN 11B INFANTRYMAN, AN MP OR AIR FORCE SECURITY FORCES. ESPECIALLY THOSE LAST 2.
>>29371465
>no guns
>no job prospect and about to graduate in 2 months
>hopelessly in love with someone who claims to love me too but I don't really trust him because he's a shameless flirt and basically sleeps with anyone who's willing. also without a job I can't stay in his country. maybe this is a good thing. maybe I'll actually be able to get over him then
>>29374901
Mine is also volunteer. I might see if I can work at the UPS store for a job in the meantime.
>>29374923
New Mexico.
>>29371465
I'm alright I suppose. I have guns, a job, and a place to sleep. I'm just so sick of everyone's bullshit these days that I spend all my time either at work, playing vidya, or watching anime. I've lost a decent amount of IRL friends in the past couple years and I don't seem to care. But oh well, I'll just keep going through the motions I guess.
>>29371465
>get comptia A+
>get warehouse gig repairing laptops
>it's pretty shitty so I leave
>now even with a little under a years exp and certs no repair place is calling me back
>thinking about getting n+ and CCNA but I hate wearing businesses attire and networking
What do?
Any anons here work in IT that don't wear businesses attire for work?
>>29374930
>>29374951
thanks anons, i'll look into it more
>6K to my name
>Live with parents after I left college
>majority of that 6 thousand will go to getting a new more reliable car.
>2 rifles; a Marlin 795 and a Mosin Nagant 91/30
>No GF in 6 years. I am 24.
At least things are on the upswing now I hope.
>>29375062
Sound like it. GF is not required, you have guns and cash reserves. I would suggest not dropping a lot on the car. Used reliables at good prices can still be found. Plus, more to feed your guns.
>>29371465
Could be better, could be worse. Finally had a good long stretch of time to relax, no work and mostly no school, but I'm still faced with finishing up the remaining semester and 2 more years of school and being single at 28.
Wish I could go shooting more often, but there isn't an outdoor range for miles, ammo is too expensive for me, and other than one person who lives in the boonies, I'm probably the only one at my school with at least 1 gun.
>>29372035
>...I can die for a cause I genuinely believe in.
Don't sign up. Army has been able to choose who it wants for a long time now. They don't think highly of depressive losers that see service as a last ditch attempt at getting their life on track. Do something else.
>>29375119
>Do something else.
I'm open to suggestions.
>after almost three years I've finally said fuck it and resorted to my gypsy folk ways
>travelling out to a dear friend I haven't seen in too many months
>unfortunately I'll be spending a few hours in a Detroit bus station
>>29372475
needs more jerky, plus what revolver you got?
>>29375125
Get a cool job? Travel the world? Go on a coke binge and fuck so many hookers your dick falls off?
>>29371465
I'm getting pretty bored with life. I'm only 21 but I already feel that there's nothing new under the sun. All jobs are the same, some just give more money. I don't really value material objects much so money has little value and I don't have any reason to invest in a career.
I'm happy, but having no life goals and nothing to really look forward to is boring as shit.
>>29372604
Lol...
I have $30,000 in student loans, but I have a job that pays $90,000 as a result of my education. I am ok with this.
>>29375147
Cheeki Breeki that shit
>>29375147
>gypsies vs niggers
I'd pay to see it
>>29375186
I have level III plates in my carry on, I should be fine until I can escape that glorious hell hole.
>>29375168
You, you my friend, you need a trip out West. Save money, go see cold war missle bases and aerospace museums. Utahs where its at
>>29375198
Go to Detroit on literally any day and just walk around. You'll get a free show.
>still in high school, but its a trade school so its not all bad
>just barely getting by in academics, but passing with flying colors in trade
>have a decent amount of friends
>dont get to see them all that cus because different schools and work
>when we do hang out we always have a blast together
>have had GF for about 2 years now
>feel like things are shaky sometimes, but we're both happy and love eachother
>working a really shitty pizza job, feel like everyone hates me there
>lining up a job at a Cabelas thats opening up in the area, so hoping to get there and quit pizza job
>pretty much got rejected by college I was deadset on going to
>after further review on it, they said they'd take me if I can prove I can keep my shit together in community college
>only get to go shooting like 3 times a year
>uncle gave me 4 of his old guns
>hobbies leave my wallet dryer than california
>doc said i have to watch my cholesterol a few months ago
>lost 20lbs and still run/hike/go to gym regularly
All in all pretty good. Some shitty parts, but I really can't complain on any of it.
>>29375208
This is high up on my list of things to do. I've got a car, enough money saved up, and a whole summer potentially free. I've considered spending it just doing some Kino's Journey stuff.
>be that one guy
>shy but always nice
>don't talk bad about people
>try to be everyone's friend
>used by friends as a tool for advice and their emotional support
>never around or always too busy when I need it
>friends get into argument over stupid shit
>try to help resolve it
>now I'm the bad guy
>again
>now laying here lonely and depressed shitposting on /k/
>thinking of next purchase
>realize that no matter how many guns I get, it won't erase this feel
>wonder what I ever did to deserve this
Why does it always turn out like this
>>29375232
Gypsyfag here, what I do is usually just spend a year or so in one place and travel for a bit. It keeps shit interesting and sort of recharges you. There's always a lot of cool shit to see, experiences to be had, and people to befriend. Do it and have a blast.
>>29375247
>present self as stepping stone
>surprised when people step on him
>>29375247
>>be that one guy
>>shy but always nice
You don't have to be a dick, but you've got to start putting yourself first, Anon. Here's something you should read.
https://7chan.org/lit/src/Robert_Glover_-_No_More_Mr_Nice_Guy.pdf
>>29372499
Broke up with a girl I'd been with for 17 years for about the same reason, then got south a 19 year old. 4 years in and feels great, man.
Trust yourself, keep your shit together and prosper.
>Haven't done anything noteworthy in months.
>Getting burned out where I am.
>Can't leave anytime soon.
>Can't find the right information for my hobbies.
>Tfw they literally don't make your clothing size.
>My phone is an expensive alarm clock.
At least I have good food and know how to cook.
>>29371465
Well work is going well, college is not and I am contemplating dropping out, the one year anniversary of my friend offing himself is around the corner. All things considered things could and have been worse.
>>29375217
>Doing Great In Trades
>Not doing well academically
>Still trying to college
Anon, don't fall for the college meme if it's not funny to you. Focus more on a trade future.
>>29375300
>Tfw they literally don't make your clothing size.
Since I know for a fact spooky skellington is in fashion right now, are you somewhere in the neighborhood of 600lbs? Maybe you should work on that first, m8
Honestly I'm feeling great.
I'm moving out to the country with my grandparents, which will allow me to do the things I want again.
I've also developed my 5 year plan, which if I can pull it off will be the best accomplishment of my life
>>29375316
My brother has the same problem. He's not fat though he's just a fucking 6 foot 5 giant that has to wear 5XL clothing. I'm only 3XL and 5 foot 8 inches but I'm fat as fuck.
>>29375316
k, that was a bit of an exaggeration. Brick and mortar stores literally don't have my size.
And other spooky skeletons usually don't have 28" hips. Then when they do they aren't 6' tall.
>>29371465
Times are... trying.
I recently started work as a part time online shopping attendant at Kroger, which is basically a service where people order their groceries online and I bring them out to their car when they come in for pickup.
It's a decent enough job, and gives me something to keep me occupied, but Armageddon couldn't keep my mind off my situation.
College didn't pan out. Two semesters down the drain, and all my fault. I feel like a machine assembled incorrectly, doomed to repeat the same task and fail it in the exact same way, over and over again. Forever.
As you might imagine, that hasn't help my self image in any way, and it was already miserable to begin with. I truly hate myself, have for a long time.
My folks have talked about getting me to see a therapist, but I feel it'll just be more money wasted on me. I don't care how prestigious your degree, no one can hope to fix me.
I've been told that friendships can help to soften the blow of these sorts of things, but I have no friends to confide in. Not even online ones. I don't really see myself as being "friend materiel", if not for my dreariness and general unlikeability, then for my total lack of social skills. I get the impression that I really will be forever alone.
That's how I'm holding up.
>>29371980
C-c-can I be your friend anon?
>>29375325
I'm... Literally doing this exact same thing. ONWARD /k/OMRADE TO VICTORY AND LONG LIVE THE 5 YEAR PLAN.
>>29371465
Meh.. got kinda fucked on a 22 trade in, but got a really fucking good deal on a Sig, so im kinda medium+, also family is leaving town tomorrow morning at like 5 AM, so im pretty happy, I'm letting myself have tobbaco for the first time in a month and a half as celebration.
Getting CCW soon, getting job as soon as paperwork goes thru, kinda psyched for future, just getting by day to day, night to night is that hardest, being alone and such, so alone.
All alone, whether you like it or not.
Alone is something, I'll be quit a lot.
>>29375360
The five year plan is important, comrade. But what you do each day to accomplish five year plan is much more important
>>29375358
I'll always be here for you, Anonymous. I usually hang out in the Canada General, though. I just started this thread tonight because the atmosphere seems heavy and I thought people might want to get some things off their chests.
>>29375357
Oh, also, nogunz.
Actually, considering my self-loathing and the truly disturbing thoughts that swim through my head very now and then, that might be for the best for now.
>>29375357
You are lying to yourself. Worse, you're actually believing it. Unless you have military ambition, go seek counseling and listen as they try to unwind the very shackles that bind you to a depreciating, mind numbing hope killing narrative of the gift of your life. Please do it.
t. An anon who used to believe these same things about himself, almost to the letter.
>>29371465
I think about killing myself hourly now. the only thing stopping me is the fact that my parents are alive and they'll think it's their fault.
>>29371556
Have done it more than once.
Scary stories from it.
>>29375375
A good reminder. Let there be others that come alongside us and remind us so we do not falter.
>>29375383
Good call anon. Much darkness tonight, but hope is being sparked here.
I'm graduating from Uni in whereabouts of five weeks with a good GPA that got me a crap degree. I'm applying for a civil service program, I used government assistance so I would prefer to pay it back through labor.
I'm scared about my nonexistent long term plans, but not scared enough to solve it yet.
>>29372227
Anon is telling the truth.
Anime has helped me through the lowest times in my life.
Btw best Waifu pic related.
>>29371465
>22
>still living with parents
>quit school 6 months ago
>quit my first job about 2 months ago
>currently in full NEET mode
>decided i'd join the Air Force
>trying to meet minimum weight for MEPS
>feel like i just quit whenever things start to matter
>want to ship out
>but i can't because my family doesn't even want me to enlist
>cousin will kill me if i'm not there for her wedding
>can't leave until august earliest
>vidya offers no reprieve from the boredom and depression
>don't even have the will or energy to really keep up my exercise
>brother and sister constantly giving me shit because i'm enlisting
>constantly telling me i'm no better than a murderer because i want to be a pilot
>i don't really keep in touch with my friends at this point
>looking at the possibility i won't even make it through MEPS
I think I've just given up, and i think the recruiter sees it. I just feel empty.
>>29375405
Hey bro...just listen...or don't... I can't make your mind up for you. But just give this a thought:
>Why kill yourself? Why waste your life/death? You only get one.
>why not sell it dearly in service of a cause greater than yourself?
>if you have something worth dying for you can have something to live for.
>>29375405
Having passed by that feel not so long ago, I'll tell you that i'm living just to spite myself. I want to prove myself wrong.
>>29375449
>air force
Don't go for an open contract unless you want to be security forces or maintenance. Unless you don't give a shit and just want to ship out ASAP which sounds like you do.
t. Avionics tech
>>29375405
Go die in a battlefield in Syria fighting against ISIS or some shit then, better to die for a cause than to hand yourself like a Fucking puppet
>>29375541
>>29375405
This Anon has a point. Combat Tourism is probably the biggest it's every been. I guarantee there's some militia or battalion that fits your person views and is accepting foreign volunteers.
>>29375125
Neck yourself. Stand by your convictions you weak individual.
>>29371465
Good, how's your duck hanging? Low I hope?
>>29375525
>Avionics tech
That's what I think i should be shooting for. Y'know build a career and shit
>qual for E67
>work as a tech
>network with manufacturers
>leave with a job waiting for me
That's the long-game plan, but really I'd just like to put all that time i put into DCS and Falcon to good use and drop some bombs or flag down Tu-95s over the arctic. Of course, wanting that makes me a cold-blooded killer.
>>29374803
None of that was your fault, anon. It's just a tragedy that she let it all get to her, no problem is worth what she did to herself, and it will hurt for a long time but it's not your fault or any other's above else, remember that
>>29375590
You could also try to qual for 9S100, you help write shit for cybersefense or something like that. My recruiter was telling me about it before I decided to go open. Can't remember much about it, but it's some TS shit.
I'm in an interesting situation.I have a lot of common problems but in reverse.
> Too skinny. Can't gain weight.
> Love current job. Too comfy to try to advance.
> In a decent relationship. GF makes 2x what I do but her job treats her horribly and makes her break down every week or so.
> Keep asking her to take job at zenpayroll which would pay her 80k what she already makes and has literally best benefits in the world, but she refuses to listen. They literally tried to recruit her and she turned them down.
> Dropped out of college but couldn't be happier. Making good connections and could easily advance to 50k job within the month if I wanted to, but current position is too damn comfy.
> Live in CA but prefer Mini 14s and other fudd guns anyway.
> Unironically enjoy driving a Volvo.
This past year or so has been pretty weird
>Graduate with a B.S. in ChemE at the age of 24
>Scared to shit about not having a job and still living with parents, decide to make myself a self-improvement schedule until I find a job
>Find a job almost immediately as an engineering tech for a small company
>Try my best to be funny and charming for my coworkers even though I'd much rather not have to talk with them
>Now stuck as "that guy with the weird jokes" that somehow manages to piss off one senior level engineer by just existing
>Go from loving my job for the sake of being a functioning member of society to wishing I could watch the place burn to pure ambivalence towards my situation.
>Get promoted in the course of a few months to associate engineer, become a permanent employee rather than contract, but still only make 40k.
>Saving up money, planning on moving out when I hit 26.
>No gf, massive crush on one girl even though I know it's only infatuation.
Things are looking up, but I'm still not satisfied. Having a job and giving money back to my parents has really boosted my self-esteem. It's great to be able to meet my own reflection in the eye. Still, I'm afraid of becoming complacent instead of following my dreams and becoming a real engineer. Even if I have to keep my guns with my brother-in-law I want to work in Europe for a year or two and get my traveling itch scratched.
Still, bought a Sig SP2022 with my first paycheck, built an AR when I got my first raise. Now I'm thinking of either buying a P63 as a trunk gun or buying a single-shot 12 gauge for custom loads.
>tfw all the jobs you want require 3-5+ years of experience, six sigma training, and are still considered entry level.
>>29375449
Same age and know that same feeling besides the military shit
>>29375405
Been there and done that.
Impossible as it sounds, shit'll improve.
For real.
Hang in there, anon, enjoy the little things.
The world needs more /k/omrades, not less.
fwiw, Jesus loves you, anon.
>inb4 thread derailed
>>29375721
I don't know man, I find myself faking confidence and putting myself danger a lot more often. I'm not sure if that counts as suicidal behavior, or if I'm trying to push myself out of this rut.
>>29371465
I'm finally barely getting over the worst of illness after 5 years, 2 of which were spent literally bedridden. Just had an ultrasound of my heart yesterday, in fact. Don't have a girlfriend, or much of a social life, because of it. I technically still have yet to graduate high school, as I spent my junior and senior year in bed instead of in school, but I'm a hair's breadth from graduating, and should be finished before the school year's out. After that, I'll probably take a year off before heading into college to make sure I'm not wasting money by being sick and missing class because of it.
But you know what? I'm still alive, and I can still move forward. Because of that, I'm happy. I've got my life, and that's enough for me.
>>29371509
I married one. I do love her and she is a fantastic wife and mother BUT that shit costs money especially if you live in an urban area.
Tldr; Love as condemned me to a life in poverty.
Not too good. Lost my job a few years ago, and shortly after that my wallet with all of my identification, all of it, every last bit, was stolen. Social Security won't give me a card without my ID. DMV won't give me a card without my social. Living at disabled aunt's house, trying to make her live a little longer while I'm feeling like a helpless ghost. Got a baby on the way, absolutely no idea what I'm going to do to support her.
Pretty shitty desu senpai
Lost my guns and my license until July.
About to end 6 months of glorious NEET lyf. Going back to my first job as a tour guide at a tourist trap to support my only addiction: things. Put down 450 euro on motorcycle gear yesterday, there's gonna be a bike in 2 or 3 months and I can't make enough for that with odd jobs.
It's going to be ugly, I'll be around awful people again, my eating/sleeping/workout schedule is to the wind, but at least it's only part time and insurance is paid with a little left over, plus enough time for profitable odd jobs when they arise. I just hope I can handle it, I'm not a strong person, I can handle shock, exposure to long-term awfulness grinds me down to nothing.
And of course the day I decide I'm not spending money on bullshit until I own a bike is the day my LGS gets the first shipment of FABARM STF/12's.
Ah well, unto the (wage slavery) breach once more
>>29375449
>cousin will kill me if i'm not there for her wedding
Just tell her to pick a different cousin
>>29375874
ggwp
>>29371465
My depression is finally managed after getting over a bad relationship, I'm has guns now, I'm getting promoted at work this week, and a cute girl at work and I are hitting it off. Life's pretty good for the first time in a long time, friend.
>>29371465
Found out grandad has terminal cancer couple days ago.
The rest of my family knew for months. They just kindof forgot to tell me, apparently.
Love the shit out of grandad.
Lost good friend, maybe two today. Stabbed in the back as per usual. One of them was the one grill I ever gave a shit about, somebody I really trusted.
Didn't have alot of friends left to begin with, shit's going to be lonely now.
Tired of letting people fuck me over, tired of never accomplishing anything, tired of just being my father's faggoty little uncomfortable son who barely talks. I want grandad to be able to be proud of me before he goes, for fucks sake. Considering tossing a free ticket to university and enlisting, like right fucking now.
I've had worse, and even my worst isn't as bad as some of the shit in this thread.
But i'm fuckin' pissed.
>19
>Unemployed
>Spend all day working out, eating big, and playing vidya
>Got a contract for SERE in the USAF
>Love (and I mean with a passion, if you tossed me in the wilderness for a month I'd be happy as a pig in shit) being outside, hiking, climbing, etc
>Father who is a Lt. Col in the USAF got the opportunity to be the one to swear me in
>Been spending really good quality time with my GF of 3 years, have such good communication skills that we haven't seriously argued in over 2 years
>Finally seeing gains from working out
>Did even better than last time on my PAST test
Problem is with how good I'm feeling and how well things are going, I can't help but get really stressed out thinking something is going to go horribly wrong in the next few weeks/months or I'll get injured, or something. It's a weird kinda feel.
>>29371465
Wife who was pregnant died from head on car collision with a drunk. She died on impact, he manage to walk away with not even a scratch. Have spent the last few weeks drunk / high on what ever...still doesn't take the pain away...an hero should would though.
>>29372700
ironic that a place named goodwill has such a rep
>>29375983
fuck im sorry man
