>procrastinate
>daydream about being a pro
>get my dopamine rush without actually doing anything
>repeat
wake me up
>>2464553
>be pro
>literally drowning in work
>yolo just gonna play vidya all day
>living the life
>xD
i'll... i'll start working off my queue tomorrow LOL surely!
>procrastinate
>dream about having enough free time to just draw for 2/3 a day every day
>realize that will never happen
>get sad and shitpost on /ic/, tricking my brain into thinking I'm learning about art
I'VE BEEN LIVING A LIE
THERE'S NOTHING INSIDE
>>2464553
That's ok, even if you managed to make it you would be wracked by impostor syndrome, so those daydreams are the closest you'll ever get to that dopamine rush either way.
>>2464613
>Have all that free-time
>Don't utilize it due to crippling self-doubt and depression
: D
/ic/ is the most meta and self aware board and I love it.
>Work in studio
>do only work that I'm given a deadline for
>don't work on any personal projects aside from shitty doodles
>die inside
>It's okay I'm still making money tho
>another anime post complaining about how you want to draw instead of actually drawing
you aren't gonna make it, enough shitting up the board with your crying. it's past the point of being cute anyway
>have lots of people believe in me
>hate self
>sleep to negate self loathing
>draw something
>feel good
>feel bad
I can only slow down this downward spiral, but I can't stop it.
