who else unemployed average tier artist who lives in existential dread about the future here?
>>2315339
Yo.
I'm so scared, I even sabotage the opportunities I do get because I feel like I'm just gonna build myself up for disappointment when it all falls apart anyway.
>>2315342
this is super normal anon. failure is a prerequisite to success. everyone who made blew countless opportunities on their way there.
i've let potentially great opportunities and jobs pass me by never replying to emails. i was so anxious that i waited for so long trying to word it and draft it perfectly, eventually it would have been so late that i chose just not to reply at all. lol.
>average
I fucking wish...
>>2315348
I had a casual gig for a professional trying to get into book making. I sent him a lot of drawings but then let a lot of time pass and stopped corresponding with him. I've improved since then, now there's no pressure but I don't know if he'd even care at this point, he liked what I showed him but I still I feel inadequate when I share my work.
I think I'll look at the pdf and go above and beyond and draw images for each page. even if he doesn't care anymore I think it'd be good practice and nice to have in my "portfolio" *shrug*
>>2315348
I don't want it to be like this though, man. It can't go on like this. I have someone waiting to commission me who I just haven't even replied back to for like 4 days, and that's not taking into account the other people who were already waiting for commissions. I went and looked at setting up a stream channel and found out I could probably do it all in less than an hour and I just didn't. I just didn't. I set up the actual streaming software and it works, the channel goes live, but I didn't set up everything else even though it looks incredibly easy. What the fuck is wrong with me? How do I get past this shit?
>>2315370
go to a doctor and let them fix it.
>>2315381
It's funny you say that, I actually am being treated for some stuff right now. I wonder if it's really just that. I've been a lot better about accomplishing things since my treatment started. But other people are here having the same motivational problems and I really doubt they're all having the same medical problems as me. Fuck, I just want to be able to draw and do the shit I need to do.
my feels
>I'm starting to get illustration gigs...
>not worked on it the whole morning :/
>client satisfied, I'm not
>family pushin me to get a shitty job, 0 support for freelancing, they can't give any good tips
>burned out this month, too pain to focus
>no more /ic/ neet mode ahead
>meh tier, few decent artworks
>>2315439
Post your best man
>NEET
>study art all the time and keep getting better
>no worries
>lost any motivation to do art
>i am not even good
It hurts to browse this board.
Ever since Manley fucked up CA.org and CGhub went down I kind of lost hope.
>>2315488
CA was fucked anyways. Forums are outdated since the advent of social media.
But I know what you mean, the online art communities have disappeared or gone to shit.
>>2315488
But that happened yeeears ago and you're still here. If you had given up hope you wouldn't be here!
>>2315492
CGHub went down only 1.5 years ago
>>2315493
That's like decades in NEET time, man.
>>2315494
this guy knows whats up
It felt like half a decade ago since cghub went down
>get a decent amount of offers
>only ask for 100 bucks
>not a single follow up
hundreds of cold calls and posting my shit everywhere and I finally gave up. If my stuff isn't even worth a hundred bucks why bother
>>2315535
post your work
>>2315535
If it isn't worth a hundred bucks then work on it and make it worth a thousand. The sky is the limit and space is the place.
I have a problem where I feel like everything I do in life is going to negatively impact me and keep me from being a successful artist. I've been aspiring to be an illustrator since I was in middle school and I think some of the preconceived notions and naive ideas about being a creator, and the world and general, have just carried over from my childhood and I haven't been able to shake them. I feel like I need to be a perfect person in order to stand a chance at having even moderate success.
I scrutinize everything about the way I behave and always wonder if artists whom I admire would be disappointed in me. Whenever I fall into a bad habit I say things to myself like, "you're not a real artist, [insert artist name here] didn't act this way at your age, he/she studied and improved their art. you don't belong in the art world"
feels fucking bad man.
>>2315339
They are all afraid of becoming Tom Preston and Christ chan clones.
>>2315960
taht's pretty kawaii senpai. "your favorite artists would totally hate you for doing this!" don't take yourself too seriously, man
