It's mental health monday, release your feels to have a good week for lifting and life brahs.
>Finals week
>Killed first final
>Bonus question "Write your favorite literacy quote. (Do not day you don't have one.)"
>Autism engages
>"We'll all make it. -Zyzz"
>Whisper to myself as I hand it in "Yeah we will"
other than that
>Crippling depression
>Anxiety for chem final tomorrow
>Insomnia still
>Stagnant gains
>But keeping positive and finishing this semester strong
Also here's a ultra rare and dank pepe
>>37008191
>on high doses of antibiotics, after 1,5 year of sickness
>slowly returning to my self again
>talking to girl
>asked her out last month
>she didn't say yes or no, but rather she thought it was too soon and we should be closer friends first
>hanging out a lot since then
>cant tell if she even likes me
>wonder if I'm just wasting time or are being led on
It's nerve racking
>still completely unmotivated in going to the gym still
I'm letting Zyzz down, I won't make it like this
>>37008562
>get rejected
>still hanging out and hoping for a date
>>37008562
If it's not a yes, it's a no.
>ran our of netflix membership
>only media I can watch on the TV I'd anime
>spend the last couple of months lifting weights, doing uni work and eating healthy.
>one of my friends recommends me a show, I generally don't watch moe trash but I still watch it out of curiosity
>fall madly in love with one of the characters, even more so than my own girlfriend
I don't know what to do /fit/, I'm starting to become depressed that no woman will ever be as good as Koko.
>>37008191
>Zyzz
>literacy
enjoy your shit score
>dry spell
>meet chubby/fat girl with hot thin face
>go for it
>gonna fuck her tonight
>my standards have never been so low
Any tips?
>>37008643
Don't let her on top
Be prepared for unpleasant smellls
>injuried again
>gain like 30 lbs on a year of recovery
>became a chubby depressed faggot
>nice job became shit since bussiness is going to shit
>thinking of starting my own bussines
>get invaded by fear of failure
>get nothing done and life goes by
>>37008643
Don't fuck fat girls
>>37008562
that's a no you orbiting faggot
>>37008666
Keep up the good work!
>>37008562
>it's nerve racking
How so? She already rejected your sorry ass
>>37008617
Koko from that show Golden? I forgot about that show.
>>37008643
>any tips?
Don't
>3 years of hard work
>finally have a stable job, insurance, apartment, new car
>fight my way out of depression over the course of the last year
>start running 6 months ago, start lifting 1 month ago
>keeping the house spotless, cooking healthy meals, staying motivated
>find over the course of the last three weeks that I actually have free time now
>actual, guilt-free free-time
>realize that I've neglected friends, hobbies, and other personal interests to get to this point
>having anxiety about this
I'm just venting a bit. I don't have anyone to tell this to.
>>37008710
Golden time, yes
>>37008617
>not lifting for the best girl, Linda
Faggot.
>>37008665
>>37008670
She's not that fat, her silhouette is still concave inward instead of a rectangle or oval. She's "thick"
>>37008729
there's nothing wrong with putting off bullshit to get your life together, don't feel guilty about it. take a deep breath my man
>>37008602
Perfect advice
>>37008739
Linda is shit and tried to make MC her beta orbiter. But when he finally started getting Koko to bend over and take his fat cock she wanted him back.
>Linda best girl
>wanting to relive your fantasies of being an orbiter
Pick both
>>37008743
Thank you.
I'm on the way to making it, I just need to get used to it.
>>37008562
You're her beta orbiter lmao
>>37008617
Recommend me some moeshit pham
All I've ever watched is mainstream anime
>>37008739
I like to think I have a pretty open mind, but in no way can I see Linda ever being even marginally better than Koko.
>>37008795
Golden time, it starts off a little slow but you'll soon warm up to it, Umaru-chan is pretty standard moe stuff and I recently finished Konosuba which I liked. I also heard K-On is pretty good but I've never seen it.
>>37008795
Ika Musume is actually good moeshit.
I'm stressing about finals. Also going to a community college is so depressing when all of your friends are at a university having the time of their lives.
>>37008643
Hate fuck her
Last fattie I lowered my standards for to get it
Out of slump made me lose my boner halfway through.
Told her that we were done and she left so fast she forgot to put her bra back on.
Was bad times desu... Regret doing it
strong mood changes the last couple weeks.
I turn 21 soon and I'm still a virgin, don't really give a fuck about sex but I feel lonley and unwanted.
I thought about suicide for fun the last days and it makes me feel warm and calm.. won't happen though.
> school was supposed to hook me up with a job for the next 8 months
> they ran out of work
> I'm now scrambling to find a minimum wage job outside my field so I can pay rent
> dark souls 3 doesn't run on my pc
> no gf
Feeling drained from permacut. (34 lbs since Sept) Wanna bulk but my BF % is in the high teens and stomach still sticks out further than chest...
Don't even look forward to lifting anymore, only enjoyment I get out of the gym is improving my running time now...
>tfw no strength gains for 8 months
>>37008191
>finals week last week
>exams on grad level diff geo and CFT
>did pretty well on CFT
>thought I did well on the diff geo exam as well
>lift, go home, shower
>trying to get comfy but exams problems keep popping up in my head
>realized that I've done several problems wrong on my diff geo exam
>mfw
>anxiety kicks in, heart palpitations and cold sweat
>distract myself with a bit of porn
>get results back
>got A- on CFT and B on diff geo
>feels like a rock has been lifted off of my chest
>fapped again
>she broke up with me on Wednesday
Feels bad man...
>lost job
>been applying places but no one is calling me back
>about to run out of money
>probably gonna an hero if i'm not eligible for unemployment
>will probably drown myself, hopefully it doesn't suck too much
>think i might start maining guile in sfv
we're all gonna make it brahs!
>>37008729
>
its worse to keep having that guilty free time with friends, now that you have acknowledge it go enjoy yourself
>>37008562
Look up borderline disorder
I wish i knew what it was 2 years and 3 dysfunctional relationships ago.
>>37008795
fuck moe shit, watch shoujo
either will fill your lonely feels or make you crave someone
> Sukitte Ii na yo
> Ao Haru Ride
> Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun
>Finals week
>Friends birthday was last friday, so planned learning around it
>Drink a lot
>Girl I have a crush on is there
>She just started dating my best friend
>He's also at the party
>We're chilling around a fire with a pretty large group
>Best friend, crush, crush's friend, another good friend of mine and I decide fuck it and pop some 2CB
>Chill some more at the fire
>Drugs start kicking in
>Me and crush decide to walk for a bit and sit somewhere not to far from the party
>Tripping balls at this point
>Have endless conversations about absolutely nothing and continiously laughing our asses off
>Go back inside eventually
>Go to someones room with the other people I took drugs with
>Never have I tripped so hard in my life, feels like things are going back in time, can't tell what's real anymore
>Suddenly awake from the void and everything feels clear again
>Chill some more and eventually go back home
>Sleep for hours
>Wake up
>Take train back to my own place near university
>Take some ritalin (kinda like adderall)
>Prepare for exams
>Can't stop thinking about crush
>Know that she likes me, told me she finds me attractive multiple times
>Keeps kissing me on my lips whenever we take molly together
>Know that I can't keep hanging out with her even though we're very close friends
>Tfw just turned 21, never had a gf and still a virgin
Fuq the feels are killing me but I still have so much to do to prepare for exams
>>37009658
If she's your best friends girl and she is doing this, trust me from one anon to another she us absolutely not worth it, talk to your friend and tell him what is going on, no girl is worth ruining friendships
>>37008191
>Got really wasted with good friends friday night
>Went to see a German comedian on Sat with my dad (it was a birthday present)
>cleaned my flat on Sunday
>Master thesis going well
>Signed up for a lmao5k in 2 weeks with colleagues
>going to a spring beer festival with a qt next weekend
good feels breh
I got to work in the Psych ward at my hospital yesterday. Those people have it worse than all you guys
>>37009756
$mh, i been in there twice 2bh pham
>>37009679
He knows what's going on, he doesn't really seem to mind other than me feeling like shit. But I guess him not caring to much also gives me mixed signals. I have talked to both of them about it to some extent. We were planning on going on vacation with just the three of us, but after friday I told him about how I feel about the situation and that I don't think it's a good idea and he respects it.
I hate the thought of not being able to be friends with her
>did well on all my finals I've gotten back
>got 92 in genetics so incredibly happy
>finally got my average to above an 80
But
>grill I went on date with was fucking another guy the whole time so that wasn't to good for my self-esteem
>realized one right that I'm never authentic around my friends and that they're not really my friends, I'm just the runt of the group
>Prof fucked up my mark in an easy elective course, saying I had zero on the final and later realized he was wrong, now I'm waiting for him to change my grade from a 54 to whatever I actually got and it's stressful because it could bring down my average if I did somehow blow the final
>best friend of many years just got arrested for multiple counts of weapons, drugs, and paraphernalia charges
>i now have literally no friends or know anybody
>the only reason i leave the house now is to go to the gym and get groceries
>i am legitimately considering blatantly breaking the law in broad day light just to see him again
>>37009887
senpai don't.
>Six years of being friendless finally ended,have a fairly normal social circle now.
>have a job although a shitty one
Bad stuff
>virgin
>no gf
>poor
If I could fix my inability with women,everything would be awesome
>>37008191
you ain't knowin what we mean by starin through the rearview
So since you ain't knowin what we mean let me break down understandin
The world, the world is behind us
Once a motherfucker get an understanding on the game
and what the levels and the rules of the game is
Then the world ain't no trick no more
The world is a game to be played
So now we lookin at the world, from like, behind us
Niggaz know what we gotta do, just gotta put our mind to it and do it
It's all about the papers, money rule the world
Bitches make the world go round
Real niggaz do what they wanna do, bitch niggaz do what they can.
>we'll all make it
Not even the right quote faggot, kys.
>it's "We're all gonna make it"
>>37009887
You can visit people in prison without being incarcerated yourself, you know.
been putting off going to a psychologist for my potential schizotypal PD and can't really find the motivation to go. I'm sure that i have it though because ive had what could be considered delusions since 9th grade, things like remembering my life as a spirit before i was born, actually being hermes and his analogues in other mythologies and things like that. that and my beliefs about the universe really affects my day to day because i cant really find the motivation to do anything but skate by in life because it just doesn't seem worth it until we get to the singularity.
feels bad brahs
I-I think I got mired by my moms former co workers (aged 24 and 33)
>at cousins wedding at local country club with my parents
>mom used to work with a couple of years bartenders there
>both solid 7-8/10s
>I vaguely remember them when I was in high school (8+ years ago) but don't think I'd actually met them
>mom introduces all of us
>don't think anything of it
>during the reception, my mom goes out to have a smoke with one a few times
>mom comes back to the table after one of the smokes and says when anonette and her got outside, she said "that's anon?! God I don't remember him being so tall and handsome. Younger anonette said the same thing!"
>did some Facebook creeping and discovered the older one is single but the younger one has a BF
>mom talked to the older one across the room a couple more times and I'd occasionally look over and see her smiling at me
>tfw my mom might end up being a better wingman than any of my friends have ever been.
I don't think my mom would lie about that. And if she didn't, it made me feel kinda good, kinda nice to know I'm not totally invisible to attractive girls. Might have to pursue this and see how it goes. And for the bad feels
>strained my lower back doing absolutely nothing last night
>have to wait til it stop hurting to lift again
>>37010201
>a couple of THE bartenders there. Dunno where "years" came from.
feeling strength gains, not seeing them because of fat. been watching my calories and all, and taking diet pills (for about a week) but they don't show too much a difference. is it a bad idea to try to get gains when you only have meal replacement shakes??
>>37009655
This nigga knows the good shit
>>37010228
THANK YOU CHEEKY CHINO
>>37008240
>Please explain
>>37010228
THANK YOU CHEEKY CHINO
>>37010228
THANK YOU CHEEKY CHINO
>>37010228
FUK U LIL BITCH
>>37008643
dry spell or not don't settle for a fatty, you'll regret it srs and will feel ashamed after
>>37008795
Watch your lie in April senpai
Will cure ur depression or something
>dated a girl for 1 month
>everything was amazing
>she ends it cos I'm leaving the country in mid June and she "doesn't want a relationship"
>a week later, we're all out and she flips her fucking shit cos i was 'grinding' with a female friend
>we were literally dancing alone for ten seconds
>worst part was all her friends backed her up
>at the end of the night, she gets ready to leave with her friends
>ask her if she wants to get coffee the next day
>no
>dinner?
>no
>ask her if we're just friends then
>yes
>cue me feeling like absolute shit for the next few days
>few more days go by and i text her asking how she is
>say to her that we should get a drink, catch up etc
>she goes on about how it's not necessary cos we already caught up when we were all out
>ignores my last text
>fast forward to the saturday night that just passed
>come home at like 2am after being out in a bar
>phone flashes
>messages from the girl
>"ohhhhh X made me think of you"
>"your new whatsapp picture is awesome!!"
>read them and haven't messaged back
Legit, just wtf lol. Wtf is she playing at ?
>>37010523
Sounds unstable, probably better to stay away from
>>37010523
Sounds like a psycho chick I dated briefly. She didn't wanna date anymore and had a new man friend but was legitimately getting angry because I would go drink with a female friend who she hated. I didn't understand it.
>>37010523
red flags all other the place mate
cut contact subtly and get with the femanon from before
you better than that
>lost 100lbs last year
>ended in Anorexia
>became binge eater
>gained back 35lbs
>have to cut again
Just fucking kill me now. IT NEVER ENDS.
>did exercise for the first time in over 3 weeks
>didn't even do my full routine
>don't know if I'm going to exercise again tomorrow
>i feel dead inside
I don't know what's going on with me. I have no motivation to do anything recently. I just want it to end.
>>37010979
>>37010988
>>37011251
Her ex cheated on her, so she has some trust issues which I can understand but I just don't get what she tried to achieve by messaging me the other night. Like we haven't even spoken since she ignored me the last time.
>>37011381
Go to bed early, get up early, eat a good breakfast and workout. That always helps me when I feel like dying. You can do it anon!
>>37008191
How do you deal with the anger /fit/?
It's been over three months since my best friend fucked me over repeatedly, and the anger, if anything, is getting worse by the day.
Had to unfollow her on facebook, but if she pops up on the chat list or messages my house chat my mood immediately plummets. I wake up angry and miserable, I go to bed angry and miserable. I don't even think lifting has helped as a release, all it's done is increase my test levels.
>>37010523
She's just insecure dude
>>37011337
good form, pupper
Will most likely be put on academic suspension for next semester and I don't know what the fuck I want to do with my life, all I wanna do is work and get decent pay I hate school
>>37011545
1. Cut off all contact with her. Block her. Move on.
2. Forgive and talk to her about how shitty whatever she did made you feel.
3. Don't let another person determine your emotional state. You're in control.
What did she do?
Made a suicide attempt a week ago, clearly didn't go very well. Took a handful of aspirin, waited about an hour, slashed the shit out of my wrist and arm with a razor blade trying to hit something important. Turns out, not as easy as it looks. Could not get to a vein despite my best efforts. I blame the shitty razor blades.
Tried to donate plasma a few days later for money to get a quality box cutter and maybe convince a friend to part with his dead grandmother's half-full Coumadin bottle to try again. My resting heart rate was 133 BPM. Turned away. Those damn aspirin.
Now I'm depressed that I don't even have the option of suicide. Any time I get close to happiness, the fucking rug gets pulled out from under me. Like there's something saying, "You are so stupid. You fell for it again. It's never going to happen, so why do you keep trying?"
Nothing I do is for me, it's all directly or indirectly for someone else. I try to help everyone I can in any way I can. Karma is horseshit.
>Flirting with girl at work
>she flirts back
>don't know what the next step is because I wasted my youth indoors playing video games
>keep going back and forth for months
>stuck in limbo and have most likely already entered the friendzone
I should probably have asked her on a date or something, but I'm a boring fuck who doesn't talk much.
>Long time gf and I had trouble maintaining a LDR after graduating, decided to say fuck it and go our seperate ways
>Was going to ask this other girl I liked for a long time out since she broke up with her long time bf a few months ago and seemed to be single every time our friend group would hang out
>On the night I was going to ask her I find out that she and my best friend have been dating for 3 months but they kept it under wraps so our friend group wouldn't freak out
>Only I know they're dating
>I'm currently seeing another chick who is great but not nearly as cute/attractive
>Would drop her in a second for bro's girl
I was salty as fuck, but he really is my bro of bros, which is probably why he only told me. I just told them that's great while figuring out what the fuck I was going to do because I didn't know any other girls I wanted to go out with. Sucks even more because even if it doesn't work out between them, I can't just go swooce on in since they're both long time friends and we hang out all the time. Dating your bro's ex is not cool.
I shoulda just been faster with breaking up with my girlfriend at the time. Oh well.
>>37011621
>What did she do?
One day I'll drunkenly greentext it, don't worry anon
>1
I can't, she was my housemate until two months ago, all of my friends are still outwardly friends with her, though their relationships are mostly very strained, I was incredibly lucky that she had to take a year out from uni, but I'll be seeing her regularly next year, nothing I can do about that.
>2
I will not forgive her, nobody expects me to whatsoever and she doesn't deserve it. The only reason I would ever talk to her about it is in the hope that it would make her as miserable as I am, and that's not really going to happen
>3
>You're in control
Nope, I've tried to the extent I can manage while working my way through the hardest year of one of the hardest degrees at one of the hardest universities in the world.
A-at least I have lifting, r-right?
>>37011635
Ask her out you fucking dingus. Anywhere. Coffee, music, food festival, what the fuck ever. Just ask if she wants to do something with you that isn't netflix.
>stable, decent job the past 9 years
>Started going back college this past fall
>struggled to keep up with all my classes, 45-50 hour work weeks, And lengthy commute.
>barely passed them all
>Spring semester, family shit gets dumped on me as well
>I broke, going to fail the last 2 classes I didn't withdraw from
I feel like I will never get my degree. Behind on some of my bills, cutting it real close on paying my rent this month. Fuck, I woke up at 1am and just laid in my bed for almost 2 hours stressing about this shit.
>h-hold me pls
>>37011337
Good form, pupper
>Gym closed today for no fucking reason
What can I do at home to preserve gains? I think I'm just going to jump rope and cry. All i have at home are useless 30lb dumbbells.
>>37011690
>>I'm currently seeing another chick who is great but not nearly as cute/attractive
>>Would drop her in a second for bro's girl
How? I don't think I can be with someone while I secretly like someone else. I feel like this keeps me from asking girls out.
>>37008191
>thesis deadline on friday
>I'm making it up as I go, taking whatever sources I can that seem passable
>started yesterday
Kill me already
>be me
>2015
>not getting fit
>decide to change for 2016
>make physical, mental, and social gains
>break up with toxic ex of 5 years
>women are starting to show interest in me
>people saying "wow anon you look good are you lifting/dieting"
>mfw I visited my parents and my mom asked if I'm on steroids
I'm making it /fit/, baby steps. Every aspect of my life has improved since finding this board. Thanks guys
Very good
I haven't gotten closer to fixing my current problems but at least I don't let them bother me too much right now
Had a great workout, might be hanging out with the qt from the office on wednesday
>Ran into a girl that cucked me over about a year a go whilst out for a drinks.
>Cross her on stairs in bar
>Didn't realise it was her and she didn't recognised it was me at first.
>Notices me (I've made a lot of gains in the past year)
>Awkwardly throws her hand on my chest and runs it down my back
>Just keep going knowing once a whore always a whore
It really hurt to ignore her cause she's hot but fuck her
>dad has been an alcoholic for 40 years of his life (he's 63)
>he tried checking into rehab 1.5mos ago to clean up
>a friend of his died of a heroin OD after he got out and he relapsed into drinking 2 days after getting out
>all the health complications from drinking for 40y straight added up after he drank vodka for 2-3 weeks straight
>broke his wrist and split open the top bridge of his nose while waiting to check back into rehab, he started drinking even harder because of this
>he went back to the hospital on thurs because all the wodka he drank gave him a G.I. bleed so he's got bloody polyps in his esophageal tract
>his platelet count is dangerously low (38/ml) and I'm not an oncologist but apparently that means something in his body is shutting down
>preparing myself for the inevitability that he's most likely going to die very soon
>all the while I'm taking care of a new puppy and helping a friend of dad's who just got out of rehab too (also for booze)
>wondering when the wild ride ends and I can get a life
>>37009148
Just keep at it. I did the CC thing and then transferred to UC Berkeley. Just focus and stay on track, get good grades and then transfer as soon as you can, then enjoy the university life. If I could do it again, I would also have taken an extra year at my university instead of graduating after two years.
>>37012399
I respect my bro more than I want to be with the girl. It doesn't really "hurt" to be around them, you just put an off limits veil over them and continue functioning like nothing changed in your friendship.
Always be looking out for more potentials then you won't get stuck having a crush on a girl for 10 years only to have them date some other guy.
This only shook me when I didn't have options.
Even though I know on average I have a few decades left, I feel like the end of my life is rocketing towards me. Why can't my brain chemistry or whatever be normal?
>Taking 5000 IU of Vitamin D a day for a few weeks to see if it gets better
I know it won't help but I already bought the vitamin bottle, so...
Too much stuff to do, too little time, struggle with sleep and eating and I don't know if I'll make it how I wish and have to. Feels are either fuck it I'll die before I give up and despair and resignation. God damn it. At least I'm somewhat healthy and haven't completely lost my mind.
why not post
>moved to a new place out of the city, sharehouse with some 49yo complete failure
>whatever it's cheap rent
>work new job at minimum wage ( in aus so it's still like 700AUD a week )
>put uni on hold for this year so I can work, get a bit of money behind me and work on my side business
>was meant to cocoon mode; Save money, get it, put on muscle, work on things like style and social skills
>have hardly any time for anything. all I do is work, gym and home
>it's kind of a part of cocoon mode but I feel isolated as fuck.
>barely have enough time for business aswel
>no gf, no sloot to bang on the side because no time, I go alright for a few weeks then have a day where I'm completely incapable of work because I'm fucking horny af and try and find loopholes to get cheap hookers.
>triggers a bit of depression now and again, but I am improving on that regard
I need to do cocoon/monk mode properly. but god if I don't feel isolated.
>>37012595
>3rd injury in 3/years
>Doc says 'IDK, Ibuprofen, rest, come back in a month'
>regretting career choice
>family has major problems
Decide to get my shit together
>start reading 25 pages a day for myself.
>start tracking my studying using pomodoro technique
>get diet in check, bulk cook healthy meals
>start going for leisurely walks in the nearby countryside
>Get second opinion from amazing doctor who identifies the cause of my problem, and tells me what to do about it.
> I can still lift
I think I'm gonna make it brahs.
>>37009354
Take a week off and then get back at it.
>finally get My head str8 and start liking life again after a year of depression.
>10/10 dream girl shows me interest out of nowhere.
>we talked for two hours today.
>tfw too socially inexperienced to show any kind of sexual interest back.
>Didnt even manage to give her a hug before leaving even though i knew i had to do something
>tfw she probably lost her interest now since i didnt do my part.
I just couldnt make a Move. The regret hurts so Much. Will see her at uni 2mrw (same class). We will both be with our own friends. Wat do?
>>37008586
it'll happen bro, same thing happened to me, and after a few months, she asked me out.
>Binge drinking Sunday because I thought of her again
>Overwhelming sense of worthlessness and depression, heavily consider shooting myself
>Work related injury took me out of lifting, so still a fat fuck with no progress to show
Maybe we weren't all meant to make it. Have no desire to eat shit anymore, so I guess there's something positive from my life.
>>37008191
WHO FUCKING /LIFELONG/ HERE???
>>37012769
Missed your shot when you were 1 on 1. Approaching people when their friends are surrounding them is weird. Most you should do is say hi or something, just try to catch her again when she's solo or only has 1 friend around with her.
I was sick two weeks ago just when I was about to hit two plate squats for five and I was making steady gains on all my lifts. Then it all went to shit and I've decreased almost 20 kilos on all my lifts.
Here it goes.......
>long term girlfriend left me 6 months ago
>Failed college repeats so have to wait another year to graduate
>had a job but it was only temporary so I'm broke now
>Acted like a fool and tried everything to get her back
>She played me for a fool and manipulated me to keep me coming back and trying with her just because she liked the attention
>All our mutual friends choose her over me
>Only have 2 friends left, my gym buddy and my best friend from secondary school
>Both are busy and I only see gym friend regularly to workout, other friend is busy with his girlfriend.
>I'm severely depressed and have suicidal thoughts daily.
>Rarely drink because now when I do, I make a complete fool of myself and end up walking home on the verge of tears.
>Making good gains in the gym and have women miring but too depressed and bitter to act on it.
>I should be studying but I can't seem to make any consistent effort at it.
>Literally nothing to do all day but eat, browse Internet and wait to go to the gym
>Joined the reserves so I'll have something to do and maybe make more friends but the vetting process is taking forever
>See many people I know from school on Facebook with their lives going well and feel even worse about myself
>Feel so guilty that I'm letting my dad down
>If it wasn't for him if be dead already
>I'm going to make it, I just have to, if not for me then at least my dad, he's been through so much, I just want to make him proud.
I know many of you won't read this but I'm desperate for any advice, the days are blurring into each other and I can't take this shit much longer I'm trying my best to improve myself but these thoughts and feelings just won't go away.
>math class
>coasting all semester
>currently have 90.8
>not paying attention for this last unit
>take quiz, forget some empirical rule shit
>highest possinle grade, maybe a 63
fug
22 year old, self proclaimed narcissist and sex addict going on 5 year of college. I don't even know wtf I wanna do with my life, I'm pretty /fit/ so I'm just thinking of becoming a military officer my record is pretty spotless.
I just need to finish up my classes but goddamn I'm unmotivated. Finals coming up and I'm sure I'll pass and get my scholarships back though, eventually make graduate hopefully next fall.
Right now I'm fucking this one chick who's a total nympho and it's real fun we can do it literally all day which leads to rather nonproductive days/weekends. But I don't think I want anything serious with her, even though we're technically bf/gf at this point. She's just still young and crazy. On the other hand my ex wants to get married and shit and is more mature etc but Is just generally less fun . Idk man. First world problems . I used to stress way less over all this shit though. I feel when I was a few years younger I was happy to even be getting my dick wet but now idk
>>37008665
Kek
>Been sleeping like complete shit
>Depressive Bipolar
>Stressed out bc of workload
>Gains have been bad lately
>Feel like breaking down but maintain a tough exterior
I'm trying hard to turn it around bros... We're all going to make it
I'm hanging in there. Did squats, OHP, and deadlifts today.
I only started lifting about a month ago, so it's nice to have noob gains. For example, I started at 45 lbs for the squat, and I just finished doing 80 lbs today.
Am I gonna make it, anons?
>>37010228
THANK YOU CHEEKY CHINO
>>37011337
good form pupper
>>37014150
I can relate to some of this man, girlfriend left me for someone else as I was also severely depressed to the point where I had a mood and personality disorder.
Didn't tell her I had talks with my psychiatrist about being sectioned.
Was 8.5 stone didn't sleep, didn't eat and stopped going tot he gym. Decided to finally go back to the gym lifts were down and felt like shit.
Kept going back, kept improving and kept on getting better.
Thought to myself she will regret breaking things off with me seeing how much better I ma now.
I am 12.5 stone after 6 months of clean bulking (student so I have to buy the same cheap stuff everytime so no junk food).
Currently on placement but when I go back to university she will be there and I can't wait to see the look on her face.
Just remember what you're lifting for.
Also talking therapy helps a lot, I would definitely recommend going dude and if you don't like it you can just stop.
All the best,
Anon
>finals upcoming
>gpa might fall this semester, tons of stress
>need to find a subletter
>need to catch up on readings
>had 2 really harsh rejections from women recently, ego is beaten down
>depression getting severe
>can't leave the house without panic
>supposed to leave the country in a month, not prepared
>ashamed of myself, ashamed to talk to family
>no friends
>no one to talk to
No matter how many random bitches I fuck over the weekend... I still think about her at the end of the night.
She truly is the one that got away. FeelsBadMan
>>37009351
> dark souls 3 doesn't run on my pc
I know that feel anon
>>37008191
>been in love with grill with years
>long story short we became best friends but things got complicated and i got btfo
>i still drunk dial/text her from time to time. she never responds.
>tried to get my mind off of her. fucked a whore last week. felt empty. still thinking about her.
>picture of her and i hanging above my desk for years. it's a picture of us laughing. a reminder of good times that used to be.
>realize it can't be healthy to own this. the crippling depression has been making me think of suicide lately.
>take the photo down and burn it. she's not worth it anymore. she'll only bring me pain, just accept reality already.
>last point of contact i have with her is her number in my phone. i finally delete it.
>a wave of relief comes over me. it's a sad relief, but still relief nonetheless.
>find myself more motivated and focused to get /fit/ now. actually eating and working out. staying away from booze because it only amplifies my depression.
>realize she's been my biggest gains goblin this entire time, probably why i haven't made any real progress.
Still feel like shit, but at least I'm motivated now.
>starting uni in august
>math scores are shit so i might be a year behind other engi students
>back pain keeping me from lifting
>gained 20lbs during this semester
>diet and social life are going to shit
>living with alcoholic dad that wants nothing to do with me
Wew lads just end it now
>>37014495
It means a lot to me that you took the time to respond
4 stone is a lot, Fair play!
I gained 8kg in the 3 months immediately after and then kinda plateaued but I'm back on track now.
We're gonna make it
>>37014945
Chin up cowboy
>>37011629
How about failing at failing anon
Seems like you can't even commit suicide, might as well fail at failing, probably get you places other than OD with that type of skill.
>>37009251
Sounds a little serious. Definitely talk to someone. You got this, Anon, I believe in you
>>37008729
I know that feel bro. I work hard and often, and I'm just now trying to get back into lifting.
But also feeling unfulfilled. I'm a fucking virgin, I need to go out and hit on girls. Fucking no idea how to talk at the bar. WELL FUCK.
>>37015184
I dont see a reason to go to bars by myself
being lonely will only make me want to drink more desu
>>37015216
Oh man I was borderline alcoholic for a while. I don't drink before or during work, but I'd get home and get plastered. Every morning I'd have some semblance of a hangover. But nothing will change if I don't so I'm working my way out of it.
>>37015235
people say to go to bars but I dont see why
there are people with their social circle, and they dont really want to talk to people by themselves, I dont see how this would be successful unless you are clearly a 9/10+ and people want to talk to you
>>37011629
i'm not good at advice but you need to see a therapist or something anon
>I try to help everyone I can in any way I can
focus on yourself first or talk to your friends about it
>>37008191
I've been struggling harder with depression after I had an injury last year that required surgery and I had to stop going to the gym for many months. Before I could bench 2 plates and I felt fantastic, it's a struggle, yesterday I did 175 on the decline bench and I was so proud of myself, I think I can make it but having my 135lb warm up weight be my max for a long time was messing with my head. I want to be bigger, I want to be shreaded for summer. Thanks for reminding me that we're all going to make it OP.
I sought help for my depression last year after I worked up the courage to ask for help. Talking to a therapist has been very helpful to me.
Depression fucked me up the last two school semseters especially hard, this semseter I have made 0 friends at school.
ADD is a bitch too
I have a paper due tomorrow and here I am sitting on /fit/
>>37008191
>try to help friends and girlfriend financially even though i'm just as broke
>people don't pay me back and girlfriend left me
>have another friend furious over 40 dollars when i'm out ~400
>can't find job
>no money
>kill me
>>37015261
I have trouble talking to girls
I went out to a bar with friends and I got really drunk, and I started talking to girls, I don't know how I did but I did it. I ended up making out and grinding with a cutie. Still a virgin but I feel more confident know that girls like me I just need to overcome my inhibitions.
>>37015261
I was just about to say this. Bars/clubs are a weird scene socially. I used to go to raves because strangers were just high and super friendly to each other. But even that scene became populated with all the Chads/skanks from the club scene.
I've made a lot of friends from playing shows, local shitty music stuff. But I got sick of that for personal reasons. Now I have only a few good actual friends, but now they're busy with grad school and/or moving to other states. I'm slowly becoming more isolated and I'm not into partying/meeting new people anymore. Becoming a lone wolf is rough. One of the reasons why I'm trying to get into lifting.
>>37015345
I dont have an issue talking with anyone
I just dont see why random girls would want to talk with me, idk
it seems so forced I guess?
>>37011629
Do things for yourself. That is your purpose in life, isn't it?
>>37010367
>>37008795
yes watch this.... this show is amazing and the sound track is incredible.
>>37009426
it gets better dude. My gf broke up with me almost 5 months ago, I haven't spoken to her at all since then, but I still miss her.
the pain doesn't go away, you just live with it.
Bad:
>stabbed hand with scissors yesterday by accident
>was still bleeding today under my bandaid
>will have to wait til Wednesday to lift again
Good:
>aside from this, been consistently lifting, boxing, and stretching
>on track to reach 1/2/3/4 by the end of the year
>on track to do a full split eventually
>my job is chill as hell, i left today to watch a movie with my friend and came back and no one cared
Medium:
>sometimes my social life is getting in the way of working on my personal pursuits and my necessary introvert recovery time
>>37011635
"hey lets get coffee sometime"
its not hard
>>37011337
good form, pupper
>>37008191
Hey Nick. I know you made that dank.
I am doing so well brehs
Can finally see my abs in a mirror
Finally banging this smart sarcastic Goth girl I know with a ridiculously high test ass who I have lusted after for literally years. She's naked on my couch like six feet away from me, feels like a dream.
I am making it breh and it feels good
>abs when i stand up
>flabs when i sit down
better than before when it was always flabs
>>37011635
Are you me?
>>37015342
>Giving people money
>ever
Why would you ever do this. Even if you're a helpful/empathetic person. If YOU can't afford to give away shit, don't do it, no matter how altruistic you are.
>>37011337
good form, pupper
>>37009842
Worth it if you are 21 yo virgin. Once you lose it you will be so much more relaxed
>>37015491
Thank you for believing in me
>>37014919
I know this feel all too well brother
>>37011635
basicly im the same
>wishing i never bought that xbox360 when i was still in school and hang out with my friends outside more
>>37015498
Green text the sex pls
>Been on and off with a girl for several months
>Together, off, together, off, then together again
>Third time wasn't the charm and we're barely talking
>Havent talked/texted/interacted with her since yesterday afternoon
>Felt nothing all day, don't really care
>Now that it's night and I'm doing nothing I kinda wish she would text me
Ehh. I've been flirting with a cute new co worker and I'm ready to get out of this cycle but I'm getting a mild case of the feels.
>>37010228
THANK YOU CHEEKY CHINO
Hurt my shoulder somehow during pull ups and now I have some bump ontop of my left shoulder and now can't do shit for god knows how long. Should I just kill myself? How am I going to cut for summer shredz when I can't even lift? I'll just end up losing my hard earned muscle. Man I dunno what to facking do...
>>37015901
>Hurt my shoulder somehow during pull ups and now I have some bump ontop of my left shoulder and now can't do shit for god knows how long. Should I just kill myself? How am I going to cut for summer shredz when I can't even lift? I'll just end up losing my hard earned muscle. Man I dunno what to facking do...
Me again. Would it look fucking stupid if I just work out the right side on my body? As in one handed rows, one handed chest press, one handed everything until my other arm heals and then just wing it?
>>37015826
have a wank
no joke, it gets rid of all bitch related feels
>>37015793
If you want breh
>she just moved back here, I message her
>we get pizza
>go back to my place to chill
>talk politics, put on black and white movie, etc.
>mirin her hard
>fairly thin pale girl with somehow huge butt stuffed into black skinny jeans
>start talking about what we think is attractive
>you know how it goes, that kind of conversation
>she tells me aggression turns her on
>I stupidly be autistic and ask her more about that for a while instead of being an alpha
>she tells me I talk too much and to not be an autist basically
>she is right I gotta work on that
>so I get aggressive
>we make out semi violently on my couch
>finally the moment is here
>stand her up in front of me and jerk those jeans down
>amazing big round pale goth girl ass
>eat her out, reverse cowgirl, doggystyle, violent prone boning
>bite down on her shoulder and bust a huge nut inside
>go get food and post on 4chan
>write this shit and start feeling it again
Bout to go crush it then sleep
Sorry for being lewd everyone
>>37015925
actually did and it made it worse lol. But keeping my mind occupied on here helps a lot.
Like another anon said, I think she has Borderline Personality Disorder. She displays nearly every symptom. Feel kinda bad for her.
>>37015970
>prone boning
I must be old. What's prone boning?
Also don't be sorry. Was feeling down today but your story has somehow re-activated my test and now I'm inspired to bone my gf after work.
>have to start to take meds for tb, scared of side effects
>cat might have liver problems
>big final Friday and I'm worried as fuck
>tried to workout today, left gym nearly in tears due to depression after only 30 mins
>going on /fit/ to see if there will be anyone who can say anything nice to comfort me because I'm just a loser piece of shit faggot
Is tonight the night to end it? Probably not because I'm a fucking coward and I'll just get drunk and cry
>>37016015
Listen to Cold and Jaded by Adema over and over. Thats what Ive been doing.
I refuse to feel. I refuse to be weak..
>>37016079
>cat might have liver problems
I'm not ready for these feeliorinos. Stay away from the bottle, brother. You know it'll just make it worse.
>tfw crush is best friend
Just end it for me already senpai
>virgin at 19
It the only thing that is keeping my from being focused, honestly. It's always in the back of my FUCKING MIND REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I just want to fuck you bitch and that's it senpai
FUCK
I wish I didn't feel like I need attention. But my experience with girls is so limited that I feel like I can't help myself. I'm needy. How do I fix this? Sometimes living alone for the rest of my life seems like a good idea because I won't be sucked into caring too much about some girl. Maybe not ideal, but I could be happy.
>wake up a few weeks ago feeling weird
>realize that for some reason no longer feeling the crippling depression I had
>get excited that I finally beat it
>two weeks go by and one of my co-workers that I'm on good terms with pulls me aside in the office
>"Hey man you alright? You've bee acting really strange lately. Your face has been completely blank no matter what this past few weeks. And your voice has been lacking any emotion at all man"
>realize that I've moved on to being a husk of a human being
>>37008191
>Don't have as dank of Pepe's
>Calculus tossing my brain like a salad
>Feel myself falling in a monotonous routine with seemingly no escape
It's honestly not bad, but I tried to channel my feels just for this thread senpai
Good:
>Feeling less depersonalized, more days a week
>Got awarded a scholarship just recently
>All but two finals are gonna be a fucking cakewalk
Bad:
>Realizing my whole year went//is gonna go by without a single hookup/gf
>Lower back's been really tight; haven't been able to DL or Squat heavy
>Don't really want to stick around for my summer internship
>Feel like getting an IB internship next summer is going to be fucking impossible with my complete autism and utter nontarget school
>>37014150
You're man enough to admit you made a fool of yourself, and seem to have solid grasp of the situation, so all you can do is take a step forward.
Suicide will never be the solution to your problems, regardless of what they are.
Studying will never be fun, but liken lifting, you need to be repetitive and consistent, even when it's painful at first.
Most importantly, you have something to stand on and drive forward from brother, making your dad proud. Any improvement is improvement, feeling lost is normal, and where other people are in life or who they're fucking is just interesting facts. You have something to fight for, you have a reason to get up and breath in each day.
Make your father proud and make yourself proud anon. We're all gonna make it man.
>>37015364
I get that, I don't know what to say if I were to approach.
If there's something that happens where we get to talking it feels more natural to me.
Found out my gf been cheating on me since feb. So embaressed to tell anyone she was cheating on me, the diffinition of a cuck, shes leaving tonight, 6 years down the drain.
Been bulking since jan, made gains but look like shit. I've lost hope in people. Dont think i can grind my life out like this much longer.
>>37008665
>Don't let her on top
>Be prepared for unpleasant smells
I never had a problem with that. Only time i smell fish is when i go missionary position.
>>37010338
I once fucked a large fat girl to help fill out my chart, could barely keep hard. It was hard!
Off-topic:
The captcha is actually improving my image recognition skills. I'm way better at identifying storefronts than ever before. I wonder if the machines are training us...
>>37014505
Hey brah don't give up- shit gets better. When you're overseas you can be whoever you want
>>37010523
Come on, man. You're moving away so obviously you can't have a long term thing, but she wanted to enjoy her time with you before you left.
This one actually makes me kind of sad since I've left girls behind in similar situations.
good form,puper
Is Lithium bad for your gains?
>>37017591
Thank you
I'm after screenshoting your post.
I'm going to look at it whenever I get discouraged, I think it will help.
Thanks anon
>>37012126
Check out /r/bodyweightfitness
>Woke up after 4 hours sleep, couldn't get back
>Finally decide to get up, have some breakfast
>Have oats for first time in ages, not as nice as I recall (and makes me pine for the days of Nuttella)
>Go for a run
>Usual fleeces are in washing machine, have to wear ill-fitting one with a vinyl hood bought from a "future fashion" store years ago
>Feel like THE faggot
>Running like shit
>No energy
>Ankles start to hurt
>Cut planned coarse to head home early
>Still out of breath
>Run through big, wet dog shit
>Hobble home and scrub shoes
It's not the worst start to a day anyone's ever had, but damn if it didn't set me up to be bitter today.
>>37008191
>Group of friends slowly drifting apart due to uni, work etc.
>Girl I'm seeing says she doesn't want anything serious, just wants to see me when suits her, said "yeah maybe this'll end in a few months but at least we had fun right
>Uni course is piss easy so I stay home and study alone
>Basically see noone ever, alone all the time in an empty home with 3 dogs
on the upside...
>Making phat gains
>Killing my papers
>Girls everywhere mirin (albeit if they dont want to be waifu)
Loneliness setting in, came to 4chan because of it and this was the first thread I saw, needed to get this off my chest.
>go to sleep
>dreamed >she texted you again
>wake up
>>37017882
desu I was the one who wanted to carry on seeing her until I left, but she didn't want to cos "at the end we'd just separate anyway".
confused man.
Ex-NEET here, getting fit and back to school.
I feel like going back into NEETmode. It's all so incredibly difficult to handle.
I won't though, I'm going to keep trucking. Lost 60 pounds over the course of a year and mustered enough courage to go back to school. I can't back down now.
3 exams in a few hours followed by finals next week. Someone please tell me I'm going to be alright.
>>37020265
you are going to be alright
>haven't worked out for 2 weeks because of depression or whatever
>>37020326
just work out m8.
>>37020265
it'll all work out m8.
>Take a trip to snap city last week
>Manage to slip a disc with a warm up weight on squats because I was dehydrated, because I didn't think to massively increase my water intake on clen
>Realize I'm not going to be where I want to be by summer (ausfag planning to go to europe for a couple of months)
>Haven't lifted for a week, start eating like shit again, go back to fatty lifestyle
>Stopped returning mate's calls, can barely get through the day at work
>Should go to the physio but don't want to because she's a qt3.14, we're always flirting n shit, but don't want to see people while I'm a mopey sack of shit
>tfw realizing the only thing I do consistently in life is give up at the first sign of resistance
>tfw my life is just a series of unfinished goals, everytime I set a goal I don't fucking achieve it
>tfw not gonna make it
>Been lifting 3 fucking years, lost 85lb, so fucking close and yet I'm probably going to throw in the fucking towel.
>>37014380
It's perseverance now. Gotta keep yourself going.
>>37011337
Good form, pupper.
You do not have to cut. Try eating at a maintenance, clean bulk. It'll be hard but look at your cycle of diet, binge. Try not to repeat it.
Good luck dude.
>>37020395
Eating a good, high protein diet will minimise your gains.
Never give in to despair.
Think of any great story with a hero, they all have a time of low spirit, low morale, failure seems imminent.
Ride the wave and come through this. Overcome your adversity.
Go see the qt 3.14 and let her do her fucking job that she trained to do. Be a model patient.
>>37010228
THANK YOU CHEEKY CHINO
>>37008191
Feelin utter disparity am I fucked /fit/
In terms of liftin
>last 2 weeks change over to ppl
>been inconsistent and incomplete
>struggle to recover from training
>keep pushing it to the next day
>less load but still training only 3 times instead of 5-6 times a week
Now mentally im at an all time low havent feel this depressed in years could of been a weekend binge.
>Roll three mdma capsules a month and a half ago
>Roll one mdma capsules two weekends ago not to mwntion next day got extremely drunk
>Roll again a week later taking 5 caps
>Realise all my heavy lifting has potentially been affected by this
>Mentally drained
>realise everything I do is to distract myself and escape from reality
>just one insignifficant person out of seven billion people
>no one likes and feel like im just around
>know a lot of people but not even close with a single person
>this whole week has been just me cutting my ties and already burning my bridges with people I know or go out with not that they care.
>isolating myself
All this and im pretty /fit/ now to get even more /fit/ at loose cutting the loose ends and taking a week to revise will allow me to focus on my lifts and have no distractions. If I'm lucky might fail when I try 99lbs skullcrusher's and actually drop it.. to bad I have the devils luck, always bad things but lucky enough to just get through it.
>>37020636
MDMA destroys your motivation and your central nervous system. It also destroys your appetite.
Regular use is retarded.
Do it once every 3 months if you absolutely have to.
Take tryptophan or 5-htp afterwards to restore serotonin levels.
>>37020829
Ty, should I just take this week off until I am restored? I lft regular and haven't taken time off in over four months and thats being modest because I know I havent had a week to myself other then a deload more then that. Also not planning on doing it again for a very long time. One of the reasons I cut ties too funny enough after drinking it brought me to a level of depression I haven't felt in well over a year since making very good gainz which reminded me that I might be distracting myself from an underlying issue Im not depressed when I lift but I never am happy or satisified even so but despite what I'm saying I feel more so dissapointed in who but most of all emotionless I kind of want to feel sad or feel like I should be sadder then I actually am feeling at this moment.
>Went out Friday
>Messaged a girl I met the day after
>She has only just replied
Aside from that, I've come down with something so I'm stuck in bed. I also don't know how to reply to that girl so I'm ignoring it until I feel less shitty.
>>37020945
I know exactly how you feel.
You don't need to take a week off of lifting but don't try to lift too heavy or you might hurt yourself as you will be more prone to injury, also to disappointment of falling lifts will make you feel worse so set real expectations for the next week or two.
My advice is to take walks and think about things but don't force it and mess around with a hobby that requires creativity such as art or making music.
Take this time to reset yourself and then start to focus on rebuilding and moving forward.
If there is an underlying cause to how you feel it will come to you during this period and make itself known.
I can't say for sure but I think it you take my advice your Outlook will change for the better. You probably just have low serotonin give it time and you'll be fine.
Pic related, it's what happens to people who abuse MDMA, I know first hand.
Treat it with respect and only do it a couple of times a year with as much space as possible between.
Good luck
>>37021323
Lol that pic. Seriously psys are better because at least they expand your mind and you have an opportunity tolearn something new about yourself or thev world. After you learn social gains from mdma you should seriously leave it alone. Personally i enjoyed mda much more.
>>37020636
This is not responsible drug use. This anon does not represent all drug users.
>protip: frequency of use is far more harmful than dosage
>>37021323
Cheers I appreciate you taking the time. I think there might be an underlying issue but hopefully its something making more gains will solve, I'll get back to lifting first thing tomorrow even if I can't complete a full 5 day this week I will next week and for another 4 weeks until I start my bulk and its back to my modified SS with accessories. This is all I have now. Thanks again I've been walking more frequently I do 6km not including work just as a standard walk a day before I start training however I find it tires me a little especially this week. I try to listen to a lot of sad music but I just don't feel that much, maybe I'm already beyond sad.
>>37021385
>>37021387
I agree with both of you
Careful with psychedelics though HPPD is fucking horrible
>>37021387
Whats with the disclosure? Who are you trying to explain justify drug use at all too. I mad a few mistakes I know a lot of people that take every weekend to at least a month and in no means does that justify me but Im learning that its better to not do it at all as good as seems in the moments mentally it is taking its toll for the moment.
>>37015141
If only I could figure out how to trick this curse of failing with reverse psychology.
>>37015301
I know. The problem is that I'm too honest and can attempt to rationalize anything. That would get me put in a nut house real fast. Also, I'm poor with no health insurance and even if I had the money, I can't apply until November because dogshit new rules.
>>37015301
>>37015373
I feel like shit when I do things for me. My only happiness is making others happy. I'm overly sympathetic. I would love to find someone else like me, but when you are a Giver, all you attract is Takers. (Probably not a sexual reference).
I've talked to my friends about it to the point where I've lost some of them because it's such a buzzkill. They don't want to hear that the guy who always makes them laugh is unhappy, in pain (shitty neck, back, & teeth), and alone; with scars all over his arms that are clearly self-inflicted. I feel like they're distancing themselves so they won't be as hurt or feel guilty when I'm dead.
>no gf
>great job with good pay right out of school, but hate being there 8 hours a day 5 days a week.
>the pay means nothing to me since I never spend it on anything but food.
is there more to life? feel like I'm gonna wake up 40 doing the same shit. starting to realize programming all day every day is boring as fuck.
>>37008795
Yuru Yuri is great, best openings ever. K-on is pretty good, A Channel is a bit boring but not bad at all.
>>37010367
Shit show, absolute garbage.
>>37019333
Don't mention it anon. Faltering is natural man, just keep your head down and dig in. Good luck.
>>37020636
like everyone else fucking up with drugs and in particular mdma, you went against both of the golden rules:
-doing it when you're not in a perfect time and place in your life
-doing it too often
trust me I am speaking from experience. drugs can do good things for you and completely turn your life around (in a positive way), but it can also be the complete opposite. it all depends on the individual.
most drugs wont give you a better experience just because you increase the dose, ESPECIALLY true with mdma. the sooner you learn this the better. be grateful for the experiences and insights you gain from a trip, dont be greedy and ask for more the following weekend.
stay the fuck away from it for at least 3 months, and recharge. if anything, limit yourself to substances acting on dopamine. speed or speed + cannabis and alcohol is a great combo when you're on an ecstasy / mdma break.
>>37016110
tfw also a 19 year old virgin
You're still not loser status. You got a few more years to lose it
>>37008191
I can't find a fucking job because I never got the education certifications (teaching and esl) with my degree and the only options I have right now are fucking minimum wage part time jobs, which I still cannot even get an interview for. I'm also living with my parents.
I am 24 years old with a B.S. and a 3.4 gpa. Where did it all go wrong...No other problem in my life is worse. I want to self-harm.
>>37021873
Yeah you're 100% I would definitely do it again but as you say when or if i ever get into a better mind space and very far into future from this day on. I knew all of that but as I was out and also feeling down I just wanted a pick me up it was a stupid idea Im usually never this weak willed however time and fate has tested me and so far all my decisions are leaving me conpletely empty time and time again I don't even know what the right decsion is I jist go with what I think is right and it never works out. I would like for a magical change but the reality is that some must endure so other can excel, its the balance soughting itself out. I like to think because shitty things happen for me that good things happen for someone else. It keeps me going.
>>37015434
are you me?
except i injured my hand boxing, remember boys if u hitting hard put your wraps on.
>>37015901
I got a bump on my shoulder after falling while snowboarding. Shit hurt a lot and couldn't lift for a week. After that it got easier. I still have a bump and my shoulder makes noises when I rotate it around but otherwise it's fine. You'll be alright
If you guys could give your 17 year old self one piece of advice, what would it be?
>>37021608
oy mate i am at the same place as you, just start collecting you dang cash and when you finally get about 10k$ start trading or invest it somewhere
>>37022254
Don't put too much trust and time into girlfriends and friends, most people will eventually hurt you.
you only need a couple of friends.
NEVER TRUST WOMEN!
If someone displays loyalty to you reward them with the same, it is hard to come by these days.
Focus on what you want in life and be selfish.
>>37008191
>I cant seem to muster up the courage to ask her out without feeling like I will spill spaghetti everywhere
>Just kill me now senpai
>>37016033
Prone means lying down, face down.
>>37021323
>tfw did everything in that picture except fucking strangers
>tfw spent best years of my life high on mdma but couldn't even get laid
>>37022829
I didn't think that was possible
