EATING DISORDERS
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We are all in it for fucking bitches, a healthy lifestyle, athletics or maybe just pure narcissism. But at what point does it hurt you more then benefit you?
I started out fat, proceeded to diet down for a year and have been lifting for a few years now. I weigh everything I eat and log it. More and more, I feel like I am obsessed with being under 10% body fat. I think it may have gone too far now. Yesterday, I was out for brunch with some people. I realised that I had eaten over my 2100kcal limit and told them I had to leave early to run some errands. What I really did was run to the gym and hop on the exercise bike for an hour before I had to go back. Later that evening, me and some friends bought candy together. As soon as I payed for it, I regretted my decision and gave it all to my friend, claiming I couldn't it eat. He told me how fucked up that was of me and it just hit me how far I've gone. I can stand in the supermarket and feel nothing but anxiety as I see all these things I can't eat. And I know that when I start to eat, I can't stop. I mean like i'd drink 1L of milk, eat 8 sandwiches and every banana I can find as a snack if I wake up at night and feel hungry. The morning after I count it in to my daily calories and try to starve myself through out the day, or burn it off with cardio.
Now, I'm not some fatass who can't into dieting. I'm 6'3 180lbs and approximately 10%bf. I have surpassed the 1/2/3/4 long ago and played pretty tough sports like rugby and american football.
I know everyone victimises themselves with these mental disorders these days, but I think there are more guys like me who simply can't eat properly anymore, because it's either massive binge eating or strictly controlled diets.
I just can't stop thinking about food. Has anyone else developed a problematic relationship with food since getting into fitness?
I'm in this exact situation man. I used to be fat-fuck mode, settled into a 3 year relationship, and had no drive to improve. One day I cheated on my gf, came home, told her I wasn't happy, and we broke up. Fast forward almost 2 hours later, I've dropped 55 pounds, from 230 lbs @ 6'2", to 175 lbs. I dropped the first 30 pounds through just eliminating sweets and soda, chips, etc. Also hitting the gym 5 days a week, 45 minutes of cardio, and a few sets of resistance training. But the last 25 pounds. I've logged every day for the last 2 months into a fitness app on my phone. Exercise and diet. I know I'm working toward a goal, but I don't know if I'll every be happy at any goal. I eat well, usually 1800 kcal/day. But man, the hunger. I sometimes binge and feel terribly afterwards. Doing cardio to burn that extra sandwich. I know this is rambling, but I looked into Bulimia after my family voiced concerns about my obsessive logging. I think we fall into that clinical definition.
>>36915601
Two years**
Same problem here. Cutting for 2 months and as soon as I wake up I think about food... Just looking at the clock to count when I can eat.. I can eat clean for a week but then last week I binged almost every day. And almost threw up every day.
It's either clean cutting or binging, why not in between?
I'm wondering what I'll do when I reach my goal, because even now I'm afraid to go back to normal eating
I've been lifting for a year and a half, made great gains, looking good and strong. But im so insecure as an ex fat I can't turn off anymore. I turned 21 and my sister made me an amazing peanut butter cake, I had been cutting for ages and finally made it to sub 10%, ate half of the cake and then purged later that night.
Purged on my fucking birthday.. I felt so pathetic. It's a downward spiral and I have zero clue how to stop it.
>>36914371
im in the same boat, used to be happy as fuck, strong, active and pretty fit but had excess body fat which always got me down, started browsing /fa/ and believed all the bullshit some of the nutjobs on there spout, about how the best way to drop wait is to cut out meals and only drink black coffee. went from around 90kgs to 68. Tried to get into lifting after that and started tracking macroes meticulously, made no gains because i was too afraid to ramp up the food and eventually dropped counting all together. Dropped my testosterone, always cold, slowed my heart rate all the way down, constantly tired, no sex drive, depressed, lost my girlfriend, Got into cycling and starting doing 3-4 hour rides fasted to the point where i felt i was gonna pass out, pretty much fucked my thyroid. Accepted the fact that the only way to get better was to eat heaps and managed to put on maybe 10-15kgs since the start of the year, all fat. I look like a pear now because i lost all my muscle when i starved myself but feel a million times healthier than when i was light. Trying to convince myself that i need to diet down a little to lose some flab but cant get past that mental hurdle of feeling hungry again, feels pretty pathetic desu
Same as you at the moment, cant eat like a normal person, destroyed all hunger cues, live every day obsessing over food even though im not hungry, hate myself senpai
OP here. I don't know how to stop it. I know the first step might be to not count macros anymore, and just eat healthy without tracking it. At the same time, I wonder what will happen to me then. I'm a pretty fucking good looking guy desu, but that's the only thing that keeps me in the social game. I'm very anti-social, but getting /fit/ has given me so much. I lost my virginity in a fucking threesome, get comments daily about how good I look and mires at the gym all the time. I'm afraid all that will stop and I'll go back to being a fucking loser.
>>36917526
This is a pattern you cannot break yourself. Seek a confidant and see a specialised psychologist after.
>>36914371
>your friend told you it was fucked up not to eat candy
Sounds like your friend is fucked up. Any way you look at it, candy is not food and arguably poison. Why is it fucked up that you care about your health and want to provide your body with what it actually needs?
The only reason you feel any anxiety about this is because we live in a world where eating shit is the norm.
>>36917978
It obviously wasn't about the candy. He saw how anxious I became and how I forced him to take my candy.
>>36918032
Yes but you are right to fee anxious about putting poison in your body. My point is that if it weren't the norm to eat this crap, you would not feel like you were doing anything wrong by refusing to eat candy.
Just feel secure and confident in your assertions. You are healthy and you don't eat candy, end of discussion. No need for anxiety.
>Lifting and dieting is healthy!
>Lifting and dieting is manly, not feminine!
Y'all are on the level of teenage girls, just saying. Do you really want to live this way? Grown-ass men behaving like cheeleader bitch queens from high school?
>>36917978
>>36918088
Strong pro-ana posts, sister!
>>36918148
Fatty permabulker detected
>>36918135
>Thinking greek god mode is feminine
see >>36918220
>>36918088
I don't know how you could not understand my OP. It's not about the candy, it's about food at all. I would have done the same thing if I had bought a fucking kale shake.
