How do my fellow /fit/ depressives stay motivated?
>depression
just smile, doofus!
Get some prozac(fluoxetina 20mg a day for 1 year minimun) for that shit and start lifting, if you are doing any drug, quit it(i was on weed), that's what my doctor said to me and the first month i was already feeling great after gym, i was in severe long term depression (more than 4 years) and now people tell me i'm a totally different person, also, if you are struggling with something say it to someone it does not matter how big your problem is, always telling it to someone will make you feel better, you should do other productive hobbies besides gym, get out of your fucking computer.
Good luck asshole.
Do you remember that time when you were happy, I want to feel like that again.
Rage.
Depression is also the feeling of powerlessness.
Powerlessness comes from fear of consequences.
Anger says fuck consequences.
No more powerlessness.
Only power.
Depression BTFO
>>36493889
It's the only thing I currently enjoy in life, so it's pretty easy to keep up with it.
>>36494143
>tfw happiest during elementary school
>not worrying about anything, only having fun
It's been downhill ever since
>>36493889
>>36494143
by realizing I am the own key to my happiness and it's my choice whether or not I'm happy.
I remind myself that I still have big hopes and dreams that I am always working towards.
I get drunk everyday to get rid of depression
>>36493889
Heard some use something along the lines of...
You only need motivation long enough to realize that the rest requires discipline.
It's true. Once those noob muscle and cardio gains plateau then it is all heart from that point on.
>>36493889
One day at a time.
>>36493889
>not having discipline
motivation is pleb tier
Do any of you faggots actually feel sad or depressed? Or is your "depression" more nihilistic and devoid of emotion?
>mfw
>>36493889
whenever I hit a new personal rock bottom, I bounce back after some sleep.
>>36494108
>take this pill that lowers your testo, makes your depression worse for weeks before it starts working, makes you an apathetic zombie without highs or lows in mood, and has all sorts of physical side-effects like killing your sex drive etc
Been there done that, fuck antidepressants. All you need is to get out, talk to people, and push yourself out of your comfort zone on a daily basis. No fucking medicines.
>>36494386
This. >>36494326 here, I was on multiple antidepressants for 2 years straight
>>36494108
That works for some people anon, but there are hundreds of anti-depressants and finding the right one is a shot in the dark. It doesn't help that they all have horrific side effects, take at least a month to work, and sometimes put you through withdrawal. And in the end, there may not even be one that works for a particular individual.
You just got lucky. Prozac gave me intense anxiety and made me feel like I was living in a dream. I've also been on Wellbutrin, Cipralex, Zoloft, and Abilify and they either did nothing at all or produced similar effects.
I don't. Still try to have a good workout at least once a week, and eat healthy.
Would probably be fine if I could stop drinking.
It's either run and work out or kill myself at this point. Therapy has been helping I'm just shit about opening up or whatever. Figure I'm not gonna kill myself cause I don't want my parents to blame themselves.
>>36493889
super setting dead lifts
>quit weed
>distract myself so I don't fall
>keep working out even if I feel like shit
>remind myself that it will pass even if it does last weeks to months ata time
>go for walks in the woods or mountains
>play vidya
>take a day off from all your responsibilities and chill
It doesn't always help and sometimes I feel worse, but it's better than doing nothing about it.
>>36494386
Do you rather not being able to use your cock because of your depression not letting you meet new people or be able to use it sometimes with lower libido?, also, there are not tons of side effects, there is only some and, yes, it lower your libido but helps you feel better, it does make you feel worse At the beggining but after it you start feeling GREAT, and there are highs and lows in your mood, it does not make you a zombie like xanax or alprazolam. Sounds like you have not tried it.
>>36494438
>>>36494108 (You)
Well for me is going nice, i have not suffered of withdrawal because i take my shit everyday At the same hour, you have to make a schedule and follow it, idk you but it cured my anxiety wich was one of my most prominent characteristic, the prozac treatment goes along with psychologicall treatment, you have to be an active person and try to always be busy doing something productive, (i was told to start lifting and write my activities besides of doing homeworks)
>>36493889
By cheering for the god emperor! HE WILL MAKE AMERICA GREAT AGAIN!!
>>36493889
Depression is not a state of sadness without reason, you know why you are sad, you always know, but some people are just too deluded to see this, so they end up on pills and make shit up.
Fear is the best motivator, if not the only one.
Is prozac a gains goblin?
>>36493889
Been thinking about getting on my bipolar medicine again. Have a doctor's appointment next Monday.
Relationship of 3 years recently crashed and burned, so I have been reaching out to an old friend who has helped me stay distracted and grounded at the same time. I know he can't be around forever though.
>>36494326
I bet most people on here are normalfags who have jobs, gfs, in college and pretend they have depression so they can seem different to their friends.
Lifting takes away the pain, if only for a moment.
>>36493889
I lift to have some control in my life.
If I didn't lift i'd reach rock bottom.
There's no motivation, there's only discipline.
X A N A X
A
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A
X
its that simple, fixed my anxiety
>>36494326
Actually it's nihilistic and with a wicked sense of humor.
>>36495804
but is there hope anon? :(
>>36495821
Stop gap solution. More power to you if you can use responsibly. I know i couldn't, and lost about 6 years of my life.
>>36495836
Maybe, maybe not. I'm gonna see a therapist again next month and I quit my job two days ago because I couldn't handle it anymore.
Still lifting though. I have to.
>>36493889
Who /depressed cause of a girl but it shouldn't be like that/ here?
Anime
Take some Vitamin A pills or go outside. Y'all niggas need sunlight.
>>36494326
I´m at the point where I try to avoid things that could make me happy because the downfall from that emotional and hormonal level down to my regular, all-day mood is way too high. does that answer your question?
>tfw you are really happy while doing sports/ hanging out with your friends just to be reduced to crippling nothingness five minutes after it´s over
>>36495903
>Got better in january 2015, still cold and dark.
>start getting depressed late summer after getting a job, working out and eating better
Sometimes, there's just nothing you can fucking do. It's comming for you and the only thing you can do is slow it down.
>>36495849
ive been on xanax since early 19, now im 24 and still taking it. i used to be sad fuck and depressed all the time with no friends. xanax did help with my anxiety and sleep, the only downside is that it dull your senses and make everything bland. i walk around numb like zombie most of the time. the worst thing is that realize this but i just cant stop taking it at this point. xanax is excellent drug for anxiety but is highly addictive and you have to choose if you want start taking xanax.
but imo its worth it
>>36495885
i just want to forget her forever, fuck.
>>36493889
willpowah
>>36495947
I don't want to forget her, i want to come to terms with it finally
>>36495981
I'm at the point where I want my depression to conquer me so I don't have that feeling of hopefulness with her anymore.
If that makes any sense.
>>36495924
Yeah it is a god tier drug as far as it doing what its supposed to be doing. But it fucks you up too much in the long run. Im sure your far better off than me because you're using it under a doctor's care and not necking 15-20mgs a day like i was. Im a zombie every day now even 10 months removed. Maybe ill feel better in another year or two.
You should consider hopping off it, maybe you dont even need it anymore, never know.
>>36496017
Why you still hoping though anon? It ended, come to turns with it or it will eat you up
>>36495885
>oneitis
Unrequited love is a bitch.
>>36496101
I'm over my oneitis, though not over the seconditis
>>36496101
this.
FUCK.
>>36493889
I've become an empty shell fuelled by self loathing. That's how.
>>36495856
That's good, anon. I've never seen anyone give therapy an honest go with someone who wasn't a terrible fit and not have it help at least a little.
Quitting was a good move too. Looking for a job sucks of course, but it's better than destroying your soul.
>>36495885
>>36495947
>>36495981
>>36496017
Stay strong guys. If you can't work on making yourself happy, the next best thing is to work on improving your life. Keep yourself occupied with productive things and you'll get through it. If you give in to the despair, you'll never stop feeling this way.
The real tragedy of Romeo and Juliet wasn't that they died, but that they never lived long enough to realize their love wasn't worth dying over. Don't be like the idiot teenagers in that melodramatic piece of crap.
>>36496168
>Stay strong guys
Thanks man, i'm pretty happy for the most part, got money, a job, working out for myself, the only thing that i miss is sharing my happiness with a girl. It's a really nice feeling to make someone close to you happy and doing that to friends is not even close to what you'd experience with a girl at your side.
>>36493889
Spite. Everytime I think of hanging myself, I think
>One day, I'll show em all
And then I feel motivates enough to go through my day. Fucking hormones tho. Giving me depression but not test
>>36496120
>>36496136
When I lift, I don't do it for her, I do it in the hopes I'll forget her.
24 and still virgin, i think im going for wizard mode, no hope for me
>>36496197
i was like that too, but then i realized im gonna die anyway so i just going with the flow and waiting until i die, and meantime i just lift feels away
I work as much as possible.
>>36493889
When it comes to things like working out, I just don't think about it. I just pack my bag and leave before I could sit and think, because as soon as I start thinking about it I'll lose the will, and stay at home like the fat loser I'm trying to leave behind.
>>36496252
thats not a solution
>>36496213
Me too, though she lifts and that ultimately leads to thining about her over and over.
accept depression and know that it will pass
>>36496278
also do things you really like to do, if you still can enjoy anything at all. if not, just keep searching.
never stop searching.
I'm a paradox. I want to be happy, but I think of things that make me sad. I'm lazy, yet ambitious. I don't like myself, but I also love who I am. I say I don't care, but I really do. I crave attention, but reject it when it comes my way. I'm a conflicted contradiction. If I can't figure myself out, there's no way anyone else has.
>>36496292
i keep forgetting things
exercise = endorphins = good
also you need some kind of vice that won't kill you if you're not stupid. you don't have to be a neurotic health freak. i found that to just make everything worse.
>>36496303
same here mang
i know none will read this but fuck it...
im always a second choice , as long as i can remember i always was , no matter how hard i try i always end up being someone to talk to when they are lonely or bored , but when there is always someone better than me wich they replace me with , no matter how hard i try to have someone , someone to love and care about , i alawys end up being just a part in thier life which they cutt off . they always tell me how much i mean to them and how nice i am . but deep down i know that they just trying to be nice to me , and after a few weeks they always find someone better .
… i always see couples , its like i can feel the love between them , it makes me happy in some sort way to see them happy , but myself .
sometimes it feels like im doomed to taste a little bit of it from side , but actually never be a part of it . im locked in a invisible of rejection..
>>36493889
Just remind myself that this workout is one thing that I have absolute control over. Why fuck up the only thing that is truly mine?
>>36496276
Why do we do this to ourselves?
Give our love to someone who doesn't want it?
Do we value ourselves so little and consider affection we give so worthless?
It sickens me how much I do this to myself.
And yet. I can't stop.
Didn't go to the gym today...
Might go on nextwednesday, really need to get my shit to gether and finally go 3x a week and not like 2 days a week max.
>>36496346
>Why do we do this to ourselves?
Cause we're those kind of people that just love to give i guess
>Give our love to someone who doesn't want it?
Did she want it at first?
>Do we value ourselves so little and consider affection we give so worthless?
Nah, we know exactly what we give, it's not our fault that they don't want to except it fully.
>It sickens me how much I do this to myself.
Me too, but, i'm not gonna go off my ways of doing what i do with woman, i choose my woman really carefully, who i open up to, i just don't date every girl i see. Probably why i've dated only 2 girls in the last 4+ years.
My depression starts to lift if I stop masturbating every day. Doubly so if I stop masturbating to porn every day. I take Trintellix and it seems to work pretty well.
My libido comes back pretty quick if I don't jerk for a day or two as well, which I thought I had lost because of depression but it seems porn was causing it.
Do you ever feel like your life is a bottomless pit? Every time you think this is it, I've hit rock bottom. Then you get depressed for a few days and come out with this kinda positive only-way-is-up attitude and you get your shit together for a while. You attend all classes and follow your diet religiously for a while and you even load up tinder and get some matches in. You're doing good but then all of a sudden shit hits the fan that's still covered in shit from all the previous times it was hit with shit. You realize you don't have any real friends left, the bulimia you thought you conquered years ago comes crashing down or you start thinking about how you're turning 25 and still haven't got a degree yet. And your life is just this string of these events and every time you sink deeper and deeper, you get fatter and fatter and lazier and lazier up until the point you just feel like your life is unnecessary and should just end already.
I think I might have actually hit rock bottom now /fit
>>36496403
Once lamented to a friend "I'm sick of epiphanies on how to change my life, I want the part that comes after".
Lifting and cardio (really cardio, but weightlifting gives me those sick aesthetics and self esteem points) are proven to help with depression, so I do them often to help me with depression, and that's good enough motivation. But then after you get yourself motivated long enough with that it turns into routine and it's a lot better
>>36496433
That's a good way to put it. I've always liked what the girl says in this comic about the topic.
>mfw not on SSRIs but bupropion
>one chance at life
>25yo
>fat fuck in rehab
>99% chance of loose skin
>look like a retard because my deadbeat mom dropped me as a baby
>parents and brother made it a habit years ago to bully me
>losing friends because I'm going out less
>never had a gf
>exclusively had sex with prostitutes
>good chance the sore in my throat is an std I picked up
>below average benis
>self-loathing at an all time high
Nothing to live for in the moment, nothing to live for in the future.
>>36495768
Good luck with that.
No matter where I am, or what I am doing, there will always be this voice telling me I am not good enough, and that I deserve to die.
>>36493889
I spent so so long depressed and angry and only recently found the solution to all problems.
[run-on sentence incoming]
I filled my life with shit to do. I started learning harmonica, I started taking extra care of my folks even though I don't live with them, I draw again, I talk to neighbors, I workout any time and all the time, I'm doing alot of manual labor, I'm eating reasonable but delicious meals instead of being super strict on diet, I exercise mainly for fun and health instead of specific size or strength goals, I've been listening to a lot of philosophical, educational, and other such podcasts, I read much more. Also, I do exactly what I know I want to do, not what my lazy fuckup depressed mind wants me to do. Like chores I know will be easy and quick despite making it feel like the worst when I'm upset or depressed.
Be who you want to be, rather than who you feel like being. Good shit adds up, new experiences enrich the soul.
>>36496486
Just kill yourself already LOL
i just hate my whole appearance, there is nothing good about me. all of those 'depressing' things i post on here, they're all true. i hate my personality, i hate my body, i hate my face, i hate my hair, i hate myself. i have no friends, no family. none
>>36496579
nice tumblr post faggot
Turn your depression into a state of permanent rage.
ez gains
>>36496618
Not that easy when you're socialy anxietty
>>36496625
stop overthinking things...
>>36496639
I know i am anon, but doesn't really help
How do I stop hating myself?
My current routine is wake up, work, Sleep on mwf
Wake up, work, gym sleep tts
Saturday I get groceries and clean.
I have a doctor's appointment next month, should I ask for a psychiatric evaluation or just tell him I'm depressed?
>>36493889
>how do i stay motivated?
COURAGE AND HONOR
>>36496595
Stop making fucking jokes about suicide, you never know who is hurting that bad around you. You never know who made a suicide atempt and gets triggered by your ‘joke’. Stop acting like that. Suicide is never funny
>>36494326
I have actual apathetic clinical depression that isn't self diagnosis so
>>36493889
If I skip a workout session I feel like ive let down my future grandchildren who idolize me
>>36496720
>If I skip a workout session I feel like ive let down my future grandchildren who idolize me
Did exactly that today
FUck
>>36496661
That sounds like a pretty damn normal routine to me. Welcome to the real world
>be me
>be depressed
>be shit at everything
>be in love with someone I can never be with
>try to kill myself one day
>fail and cry like a little bitch
>get reported by my "friend"
>end up in a mental health place
>locked up for two weeks with no tech or anything
>get released
>fuckeverything.png
>eliminated all my "friends"
>all love interests
>no more fucking
>no wasting time on people
>get on anti-depressants.
>start lifting
>start doing well at school
>almost a year since then
I live to read and lift now. That's all I think about before sleep. Not how much of a piece of shit I am or how much I want to die. I just think about hitting my goals and reading my books. I'm a sophomore now and it's going great, this is the best academic level I've been at since elementary school. But I don't really have many friends, I don't talk to people about my problems or shit like that, I just live like that now and it's fine.
>>36496758
>get on anti-depressants.
never gonna make it. pls dont reproduce
>>36496486
Honestly when life becomes so hard you think it couldn't get any worse. When you're sitting in the darkness while others enjoy their life. When others have the privilige to be "normal" to lead a good life while you're completely fucked, thats when you just embrace it and laugh at it, take pride in how hard it is to live the life you live and yet you're still here. You still didn't choose the easy way out.
WHENEVER I AM SAD I THINK OF ALL THE XENOS I COULD BE KILLING INSTEAD OF BEING SAD
>>36496758
TFW thinking about reaching your goals and educating yourself on the matter but still thinking about how much of a piece of shit you're and how much you'd like to die
do you guys believe that when you die you respawn again like somebody else? i was born as ugly fuck and i really hope when i born again im gonna be some handsome rich guy
>>36496877
ik that feel anon, i really do
>>36496303
Narcissist?
>>36496758
So you could say your friend who reported you did you a big favour. Getting your life moving in a more healthy direction.
>>36496877
>>36496895
I'm in that same zone brehs, my diet and training has been on point for months and I'm making great progress but I when I wake up and look in the mirror I still just hate my own guts. I think I want to make it as much as I want to kill myself, it's odd.
>>36496333
You don't have selfesteem, so you can't accept compliments or you shittest them. This pisses people off, which makes them really hate you. Selffullfilling prophecy.
>>36496720
>I have actual apathetic clinical depression that isn't self diagnosis so
OH WOW A DIAGNOSIS
that makes it so much more real, anon, jeez, now it's a part of you. you can wear it as a fucking badge. YOUR depression. all yours.
i was diagnosed with "major depression" too, dude. what do? fucking work through your feelings by yourself, know who you are, and throw the stupid pigeonhole label in the trash.
>>36496618
I definitely do that when I lift.
Turn the sadness into anger, topped with fast metal, lift fueled by hate.
>>36494326
>Or is your "depression" more nihilistic and devoid of emotion?
Wow, exactly this. I don't feel sad that often, but I do feel rage a lot, but that's probably because I hate most people. Other than that I'm like an empty shell. Drinking helps, but I know it's not a definite answer so I don't really do it that often.
>>36496747
>Welcome to the real world
fuk
Just go to the gym and train your arse off.
Ive got major depression and PTSD, going to the gym and seeing changes on my body really does change the stupid thoughts in my head.
I hate having recovery days, my whole personality shifts to the shit.
So for motivation i have to lift weights and do Intervals on my day off, push yourself to the max and make yourself feel good... but of course its never enough so do better next time and know that you are stronger and fitter than 85% of the people who go to the gym
>>36495768
What meds?
>>36494143
>Do you remember that time when you were happy
no lol
>>36494108
But doesn't it decrease test level ?
>>36494326
>nihilistic and devoid of emotion
>>36496303
This. Can someone fucking explain why I'm like this like it bothers the living fuck out of me
>>36493889
This keeps me motivated anon
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9RAhxhIHdpM
>>36496333
me too bro.....
>>36494108
>acting like weed is some terrible drug
It's not 2005 anymore
>>36496579
good advice dude. genuinely.
>>36496994
Don't understand why youre lashed out like that. I'm just saying that I have clinical depression, how it was diagnosed and how I keep myself from skipping gym days. On topic with the actual thread discussion
>>36497929
you know that it´s not the weed per se, but how one uses it? if someone self medicates his depression, be it with weed, alc or other stuff, than that substance will have a terrible influx on the depression
>>36496994
>asks if someone is actually depressed or if (insert fedora tipping)
>gets buttmad when someone mentions his actually diagnosed depression
>>36494147
>rage at something hard
>try to overcome it
>just get cucked again
>get even more depressed
>repeat
>>36493889
Get a gf
Wasted my entire life away so far by running away from it. Spent a majority of the time alone playing games on my room. Hadn't had friends for around 8-9 years now. Haven't even met most of my relatives in that time, save for grandma sometimes. Other than that only my parents. Flunked out of high school, even though I tried my best. Been having major depression for the last 5 years, and in an out of depressions the 5 years before that. I have no talents and no real hobbies except for vidya and watering my plants, one of which I killed a few weeks ago. And 4chan. Been here for at least eight years now.
Without my dogs I would've committed suduko a long time ago, but they're growing old and grey now and I'm so afraid of not having them here anymore. Been several times with counselling and psychologists, medicine and CBT for a year. Nothing really seems to work for me. I also suspect I might be gay or maybe bi and I hate myself for it.
I've tried starting to exercise and do weightlifting a few times. I've kept up with it for a month this time, and for the moment it's the only thing that keeps me going. Because I do feel like I'm at least managing to do something right now. Instead of just sleeping half the day away and wishing I was asleep the other half.
I'm hoping I can keep it up this time.
>>36497499
it's the two side of your self. You have your higher self and your lower self. Your higher self want you to have the best life possible but in order for that to happen you have to face pain first. Your lower self doesn't give a fuck about your life and just wants to experience pleasure right now. It's something every human deals with. Dont worry anon.
>>36496213
>>36496276
I see her at the gym almost every day. It's the worst thing ever.
>>36494143
yes
you will lad
>>36494326
being devoid of emotion sounds better than being miserable bud
have you ever woken up from a pretty good sleep on a nice sunny morning and cried? open your eyes and just break out into sobs. that's been happening to me a little bit over the past few months and it terrifies me
>>36496303
hello self
>>36496333
if your insecurity is too obvious people are genetically programmed to discard you
even if you know you're worthless and hate every fibre of your self pretend you are great
>>36493889
motivation is for the weak
develop a habbit and just stick to it whether you want to or not
mind over matter
>>36493889
>How do my fellow /fit/ depressives stay motivated?
What a crock of pussy shit.
Be helpful to your fellow man.
Make lifting an enjoyable part of your day.
Quit making "muh muscles" part of your self worth (because only other men care).
Get stronger. Read. Be selfish.
OR
Kill yourself. Seriously fuck off unless you have genes worth spreading.
>>36494147
what have you done to yourself to get this stupid
>>36498310
Listen this is working for me right now:
I'm socially anxious/agoraphobic the way I cope with it is learning to like fear. I take 5 cups of coffee a day and try to watch only horror movies. I try to always maintain eye contact, and flirt with girls autism style girls usually laugh or make a disgusted face or whatever I stare at people in the street never aggressively if they take offense just say sorry and move along I'm taking public speaking classes just about anything I can do to keep myself scared and out of the comfort zone. I'm not sure how you'd apply this to depression maybe watch a lot of sad films and date/break up with girls idk. This is just what worked for me if other nervous people wanna try
>>36496224
20 and a virgin. Brown and disproportionate. 55 inch chest, 42 inch waist. Huge quads, no calves. Brown with one eye lid drooping
>>36496758
Any book recommends
>>36493889
get a shitty job, save 2000, go travelling several months in thailand/cambodia/burma/PH
>>36493889
seeing results in the mirror
it keeps me going. I used to be depressed, but not anymore. get stronger, you can get out of that hole anon.
good luck!
I don't know, do you have a plan? I want to retire at 50 and start traveling the world by then. I'm 22, comp sci graduate, have a kid, no wife, working 40hr/week, sometimes even get calls on weekends/holidays.
I just think to myself that I will still be "young" when my kid moves out. I'll maybe retire at some place where prostitution is legal.
>>36493889
if you're talking about motivation for the gym.. I don't need motivation I just fucking do it breh
>>36500756
>Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can't Stop Talking
It's a book about being introverted and accepting that it's not a bad thing
>>36493889
Stay away from alcohol and tobacco. This includes most other drugs too.... Not herb. Plus when you wake up go for a walk or walk your dog. Just get out of bed. Some days are harder than others but just getting out of bed is a start
>>36493889
Not sure. I just wish I could sleep. Alas, sleep is just a time warp to my meaningless office job. Insomnia has got to be the worst gains goblin.
>>36500590
I'm rooting for you Ahmed Jamal dw sex is not much better than fapping especially with the kind of girls you can get now. Just keep lifting keep low bf and get a long exotic cut. You'll be banging 6/10 in no time
>>36500802
Always wear a rubber
>>36501138
True. Try to detach your feelings from what you do. Don't think "I'm not in the mood for this". Who fucking cares if you're in the mood? Just do it.
>>36496758
Do you live alone? If so how do you deal with loneliness?
>get very close to someone
>they start asking me personal questions
>answer truthfully and have to reveal I'm bipolar since it's important
>"oh yeah I'm bipolar too sometimes!"
>"lmao that's not even a thing."
>"just think happy things! Life is so great I'm sure you'll get better!"
I guess it's better than the alternative where I say nothing and then they think I hate them. Maybe the ideal solution is to never get close to anyone.
>>36501374
you just gotta find other people with legit mental problems. ive got depression, and my best friend has anxiety. we make quite the team. a shitty team, but a team.
>>36500141
Aside from the selfish part that sounds pretty stoic to me.
"I can't achieve happiness but I can be useful, and that will suffice."
>>36496758
Stop putting friends in quotes. He's a better person than you
>>36501374
Girls are stupid anon. My mom has started telling people she doesn't eat meat (even though she does) just because I don't. It's like they want to mimic people they like even if it makes no sense
>>36501394
>>36501509
I have one best friend who I think has mental issues, he's just never actually gone out and gotten diagnosed. But he's at least very understanding and never asks too many questions, which I like. It's mostly just certain family members and me trying to find a gf. I just don't know what to do when I open up to a girl I'm close to, and she just belittles me and trivializes my illness. I feel like I can't blame them because they sound kind of naive when they try to pep talk me. On the other hand I don't know how to explain to them why life isn't as simple as they think.
For example one time I had a girl say if I'm not happy I can just change my life. "Like if someone doesn't like their job, they just find a new one." Man I really wish this mental illness was like shopping for a new job where I can just pick up a normal person's brains and screw it in.
>>36494143
briefly
I just want the warmness to return to my home
I think about what I could be.
>Taking anti-depressants without changing diet first
>>36502431
Heh, works if you don't have anxiety issues.
>>36497208
RisperDAL 1MG
Shallow envy of the men soaking up all the female attention.
Deep seeded feelings of inadequacy brought on by the rejection i've faced from oneitis.
I want to be the type of man she'd turn her head for.
DON'T DEPRESS EXPRESS
VIBE
VIBE
VIBRATE
SHAKE YOUR BALLS
SHAKE YOUR BAWWWWLLLLSSSS
STOP BEING SO DAMN RESPECTABLE
