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>>36559516
utterly shit. matched with a qt on tinder who works at a top legal firm, googled her salary and she earns 100k a year meanwhile I'm a loser working in a shop. reminded me how much Ive fucked up my life. unmatched the bitch
Had to resign from my job as a detailer because every step I take with my left foot hurts my lower left back/hip area. Physical therapy didn't do anything. I'm only 20. Time to get some scans done.
Lost my job havnt worked in 5 months, neet life
>>36559536
>>36559562
>>36559593
God damn, whats with the bad career vibes? Or lack there of?
Week has been ok. Trying to adjust to the single life. Started my cut a week ago and its been going ok. Im camping in 3 weeks with my bros so im pretty excited about that. Gotta get a new chainsaw.
>>36559516
Great until Easter. Fucking fantastic until Easter. My youngest Brother and Father are family, but my middle Brother and Mother are white trash and the both of them gang up on me every time they're together. My Father's too much of a beta to do anything about their shit besides seethe and brood, and my other Brother will never take my side out in the open. After shit is said and done, he'll come to me and tell me it's fucked up how they treated me but otherwise I'm on my own.
I'm done with those two. My Mother is a fat do-nothing bitch who raised record breaking obese children (I was 325 6' at 12 years old, asshole-Bro was 180 at 5'7" at 12, and bro-Bro was 350 at 6'1" at 12) and threatened my Father with divorce every single week. The only time I hear from my middle Brother is when he needs money.
The worst fucking part is I know I can't have a family of my own. I know that the same seeds that make them white trash are in me. Good fruit cannot come from corrupt trees, y'know?
>>36559877
Sorry to hear that man just keep working on you brah dont worry about that negativity
U gun make it breh
>>36559516
I feel empty inside every day. I enjoy programming but I can't even motivate myself to do that. I just lift and go to class.
>>36559516
spent time with a qt
getting more convinced she wants the D
body fats dropped a % to 14
got a job interview tomorrow
feelsgood4once
Took the car for a car wash. I'll probably get another one on the 31st.
>>36560053
Underrated
>>36559877
Rubbish
You can raise fantastic kids with the TLC and structure you never had. Unless you know deep down that you are in fact white trash. In that case, good man, do not breed
>>36560010
Cut's going great, going harder than ever in the gym. It just sucks - I quit my job and I'm back at my parent's house until I can get on my feet again. I've tried to help that woman, but she's just hopeless. This 'empowered woman' does nothing but eat fast food and watch television. Growing up there were always horrible money problems - getting the story from my Father, she's wasted nearly a million dollars over the years using credit cards to pay off credit card debt.
I've been trying to clean this place up for my Father so he doesn't have to come home to a dump after work. The man still busts his ass every day to support this fat bitch, but it's hopeless. This woman has garbage everywhere, she's got 2 attics full of dolls - literally thousands of dolls purchased from ebay over a decade.
When I first found out I tried to support her, to get her to do something with them - she wanted to sow clothes for them and then resell them. Fantastic, if that's your dream go do it. She does nothing. They just sit there, wasted money. She's one of those women who thinks she's Martha Stuart because she bought every Martha magazine and watched every episode of Oprah.
I cleaned out their backyard today and found nearly 70 pounds of broken plates and concrete. Tossed it in the trash. This woman starts shouting at me, telling me she's been 'saving' those to make 'mosaics'. It blows my fucking mind.
I know she's being as hateful and crude as she can to spare her mess. Fuck her. It'll take me 2 weeks to get this place cleaned up if she stays out of my way. Luckily this woman is so out of shape she can't even follow me up into the attic.
in the best shape of my life, cut is really working out well. I genuinely dont give a shit about girls right now, 100% focused on achieving my fitness goals.
not sure if it's confidence in myself or not caring about girls, but I honestly dont care what they think at the moment. I just want to reach my goal before summer.
>>36560164
I guess I'm just afraid of failing my future children like my parents failed me...
325 pounds at age 12, mang. I was able to get down to 275 in high school to wrestle, but every time I tried to diet my Mother would literally sabotage me - she sabotaged her 13 year old son because she couldn't stand to see anyone else succeed. Even now, a decade later, when I started my cut she did everything in her power to fuck me up - a week into my cut the freezer was overflowing with ice cream, the cabinet bursting with cookies and pastries, this woman sweetly asking me if I wanted anything to eat whenever she was going to get fast food. Didn't touch a thing - this time I have my own car and my own cash to help myself.
Sorry for the rant, brothers. I'm just... I'm on a crusade and as soon as I'm done I'm getting the fuck away from her forever.
>>36560312
Your mom being a real gainsblocker cuz, feelsbadman, my ex girlfriend was like that, she wanted me to gain weight so she could feel better about herself, ended up makin me want my shredded physique even more.
>>36560373
Why do women act like such insufferable cunts to stay comfortable? Glad you made it, brah - hope you find a woman who works with you instead of against you. If you already have, rock on.
>>36559516
Mixed feels
>tfw I probably failed two exams last week(thankfully they're not worth too much of the final grade)
>tfw got drunk and made a fool of myself a couple of times recently, only drinking in moderation when I go out now tho
>tfw doing pretty well in two of my other classes
>tfw after over a year of separation I'm still not completely over my ex but the bad feels are pretty rare now
>tfw I have not one, not two but three qt3.14 grills that are currently flirting with me, went on an unofficial date with one of them last week after exams
>tfw all three of them resemble my ex in both physical appearance and personality (._. )
>tfw my sleep cycle is fucked and I'm using stimulants to function, haven't slept for 24 hours as of writing this post, hopefully it'll be back to normal by the end of the week
>tfw trying to do nofap in order to motivate myself to leave the house and go get a gf but I keep getting horny from stimulants and jerking off for hours, nofap might be a pseudo-scientific meme but personally after two weeks I basically turn into Chad Thundercock
>tfw almost broke and can't find a job
>tfw even though I have friends I don't really have anyone to talk to about my feels IRL which is probably making all my problems worse
Any thoughts, comments or advice /fit/, I honestly feel closer to you guys than anyone IRL right now.
I started power cleans today.
I'm still new to lifting, but why does it seem that its assumed that you should drop the bar from your shoulders? Why not just reverse and lower it down? Seems like only half an exercise when you just drop it.
>>36560053
top lel
Well it's Monday so this week just started.
Regardless, more job interviews lined up fingers crossed.
Got an A on one of my midterms, hopefully the other one too.
Discovered farmers walks, and they're awesome.
So, it's alright.
Pretty terrible.
>stopped taking benzos
>world is on fire for the past straight week
Light at the end of the tunnel I guess.
>>36560243
>2 attics full of dolls - literally thousands of dolls
pics?
>Associate asks me if I showers, tell him yes, he says sure pal
>Sitting behind a girl, she puts her nose in her shirt and always starts looking around thinking I'm staring at her if I move my head
>Walk by fat kid, he starts waving the air in front of his face
>Assosciates friend asks me if I shower also, asks if I'm sure, I say yes then she says good
>She gets close enough to smell my deodorant and tells me I smell good
>Always trying to hug me, tells me I smell like a man because she can smell all the deodorant I put on to try and drown out my odor
>People constantly say it stinks whenever I walk past them
>Walking in halls and go past a group of 3 of my classmates, some lightskin pizza face bitch, a fat girl who thinks she's pretty but can't pronounce her R's, and the fat bitches friend zoned servant, they all whisper in their dumb little fucking group and point at me saying I stink
I hate my life so fucking much
parents crashed my diet for easter weekend, whatever, its a family tradition, and only 2 days, I can live a little. Me, my brother and Dad moved a 600lb entertainment system, so that was a real bitch. Other than that, classes are going well, studying a lot more this semester. Plus I actually dedicated myself to a proper cut this time, already 15% bf and not gonna stop till i'm at 9%. Kinda wish I could get a gf or loose my v-card, but thats secondary to improving myself and keeping on top of shit. Overall there's been ups and downs, but things are looking better than before.
-end blog
>>36559516
EXAMS
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not good
>>36562019
Eat better
shitty
theres this qt grill at the store i see a lot but cant talk to her i can only do small talk and boring stuff
>>36561751
If this thread is still up tomorrow I'll report back. The worst part is that dolls have always creeped me the fuck out - I blame Child's Play.
Awesome, I just got a job as a waiter in the bar with the second biggest terrace in all Canada and all my coworker are chill as fuck. I'll also go back to study and then go to university to get my engineer degree.
I'm only 19 and ottermode and everything will be alright.
>>36562019
So maybe take a fucking shower ? It's not that hard not to smell like a piece of garbage.
>>36562097
Ok, I'll keep an eye on it.
I'd be more creeped out by the woman with thousands of dolls than the dolls themselves. Dolls are the most 'social outcast' kind of hobby people can have I think. Like furries or mlp for old people.
Anyway, why are you so concerned with these people? I'd say they need some proffessional help desu.
>>36560045
hi me
>>36562123
The thing is I shower every morning, and I also wash my clothes every night. Don't you think if I wore deodorant I would shower also?
>>36559516
Okay. I hit 1pl8 squat today, which I know is nothing for a lot of people here. I started with 20lbs on both sides so I'm proud of my achievements.
In other news, my lifts are asymmetric as fuck:
Incline bench: 1pl8
Squat: 1pl8
DL: 165
OHP: lmao60lb
But I like lifting, so I'll continue. Thanks for showing me a new hobby, /fit/
>>36562019
Senpai, it could be your clothes, look into some new threads, My clothes used to smell harshly like mildew from me being a lazy fatass fag who didn't like doing laundry.
Otherwise, think about using a cologne. That creates, like, an orb of smell, might help?
>>36562186
If you leave the clothes wet in older washing machines they smell terrible. You gotta dry it fast.
My friends told me i smelled like wet panties once.
>>36562144
These people are family. They were, at least. Right now I live with them, though that can't last much longer.
Honestly, I want my Mom back. Ever since her Mom passed away nearly two decades it's like she died too. I want to see her make it, brah. If she makes it, my Dad can make it. Otherwise, they're both already dead.
>>36562211
Nah, I know man. For me, I just left them in the hamper to rot for weeks on end, just wearing the same thing over and over until I caved and learned how to use the washer for once.
>>36562211
>>36562186
I take my clothes out of the washing machine and put them in the dryer immediately after there done and let them dry for about 1 hour or more depending on whether or not they're still damp. And when I take them out of the dryer they all have that nice, freshly cleaned clothes smell. And I also got this washer 5 months ago, and whenever I'm done with it I set up a fan pointing at it to dry it out.
>>36559516
Not bad.
>semester is almost over
>few friends separately mentioned they saw a physical difference in me
feltgoodman
>>36562217
Ah sorry, I missed that in your first message.
You're already doing what you can, man. I think helping her clean, or her helping you can be good for her. At such a low point everything seems like an impossible mountain to climb. If you can help her with small hills it might be helping her to get some feeling of accomplishment back.
Good luck.
>>36562272
Hmm. Like I said, though, It could have happened once on accident, just look into it senpai, Sorry to hear you have a bunch of shitters as coworkers though. That's never fun.
>>36562321
Trust me, it's not just a one time accident thing because this happens on a daily basis. I can also smell myself sometimes if I walk sideways or backwards. Funny thing is though, if in I smell down inside my shirt or jacket it just smells like my deodorant and body wash. I'm also now taking 4 supplements every morning to try and get it to go away.
>>36562390
Damn shame breh. Good luck making those smell gains, or, losses.
>>36559516
It has been pretty good actually
>Hit new max weights
>Went down a pant size to 32 waist
>Found a new job
>Will make $5450/month after taxes/deductions
>Only 4 month contract though
>Reconnected with some old friends
>Made some new friends at church
>qt3.14 in my bible study spilled her spaghetti hard talking to me last Wednesday
>her friend told me on Sunday that she likes me
>Going to ask her on a date when I see her this week at bible study
Life has been pretty unfair to me and I am happy that is finally starting to work out for me.
>>36562019
Brush and floss your teeth after every meal
>Seriously
>>36559516
I fucked ur nan
>>36562550
I do that after breakfast every morning and after dinner at night. I eat lunch at home so I don't need to brush after eating, but I always have a fuckton of gum on me so my breath always smells nice.
>>36559516
Why are goats such qts?
>>36559516
I started doing sit-ups and now when I need to take a shit I need to take a shit immediately.
