>tfw depressed
>tfw anxious
>tfw no friends
How are u guise doing
>>36478812
Eh, bummed out as usual.
I need to make friends. I think I'm going to try volunteer work and sign up for a club next semester.
Any anon have any success with either?
about the same
back to the gym after like 2 months hiatus though, trying to regain what I lost
gonna fail my midterm because i put off studying too long. oh well guys maybe ill turn it around next year
>>36478812
i go to a christian school but all i wanna do is fuckin party, what do i do
I just won a game of Paragon so I'm pretty happy right now.
>>36478812
I feel depressed, have this tension in my chest some days and cry a lot over this girl I miss. But by some miracle I found a New gymbuddy that drags me trough it by lifting with me almost every day. Hope you find a buddy like that bro..
>>36478829
Become friends with people from a regular school, go to their parties.
>>36478812
be grill and want bara husbando to peg and cuddle
> why live?
>>36478827
>had a shit first semester after transferring to a new uni
>couldn't concentrate on material, was afraid I wasn't absorbing the material
>couldn't learn the material cause I was focusing on not being able to learn it
>realized I had a problem
>sought help
I've been on anxiety meds for ~2 mos. Made an almost complete turn around. More motivated to lift, I actually go to class, did well on midterms, and things are going well. Might be something to look into if this sounds like you.
Sorry for the blog, brah.
>>36478818
yeah, working is one of the easiest ways to get friends senpai. good initiative
>>36478812
Same for me OP.Add the fact i'm 5'4 and a NEET.
>have gf who has a big group of friends
>1 friend/gym bro who thinks I have other friends
>full blown autism talking to anyone but them
>went to join mountain biking group that meets up locally since I spend all my time mountain biking when I'm not at gym
>got anxiety about talking to people and rode straight past the meet
>remove myself from their fb page
>told gf I got there late and missed it
She knows I'm lying
Why even try
>>36478812
>tired as hell
>still anxiety
>still lifting so im good
pretty despressed here too, dont wanna go back on meds so fighting through it. The meds really fuck my gains.
I have very bad OCD with obsessive thoughts. Anyone have any tips on how to deal with those? Do they ever get better if i choose not to use meds and rely on mechanisms alone?
>>36478918
You were only one step away from doing something wildly out of your comfort zone. Try to try again, anon. Don't even try to talk with the people there, just be a big autismo and listen. The point is that you're there and you're trying. We're all gonna make it breh.
I have severe OCD but lately tried to work it to my advantage with gym and health eating. Turned those as my rituals over time so now I think if I don't eat right or push out that last rep something bad will happen
>>36478875
Cool man, thanks. Thats good to hear.
Plus that stuff looks great on med school applications. Two bird with one stone.
social autist, left a social situation feeling confident in how i was chatting to them etc. get home, get high, get real critical and tell myself i fucked everything up and now considering not seeing them again because i feel i made a fool of myself. this pattern happens continuously because although there may be conflicting evidence the feeling is stronger than my ability to reason.
i've always had this, even when sober, which is strange that now it seems to only be the weed making me think this way, although while sober i get to this point eventually.
anyone else get like this? smart thing to do is to stop smoking weed but i feel better being high + anxious/worrying than i do sober, unmotivated, bored etc.
>>36478812
Bummed out I'm not doing as well as I should have in school
Have friends and don't care about it
>>36478942
I want to. They seem to have big talks before and after rides plus lunches/drinks etc after. I just want to ride with people but not socialise.
I will try again. I use to be popular at highschool, huge group of friends, I fucked something up once and everyone stopped talking to me. 5 years later and I'm still convinced everyone in the world hates me. Need to grow up and start trying.
>TFW want to cry every time I imagine marrying my gf with her 100+ friends and large family and all I have is my 1 gym bro.
>>36478812
I just dropped 2700 on a home gym
I went from being a twink two years ago to being deep in the weightlifting world.
I'm not sure if I just made the best decision of my life, or the worst. I guess this stuff doesn't really lose its value.
>>36478993
When I'm alone thats definitely when the existential crisis kicks in. And only at night.
I guess the silence and lack of light just let's my brain run wild and always to a dark miserable place.
Everytime, I know that feel bro.
>>36478812
We are all gonna make it brah
>>36479009
When I have a completely free day around midday is when it kicks in hardest for me, night time on weekends when I should be out fucking something but instead through years of bad decisions and social ineptitude I am alone with no one to talk to.
Just pushing through with the hope that i'll make it
>>36479030
Buy a motorcycle. Solo fun. Helmet to hide who you are.adrenaline. freedom. Ride roads you've never been on all day. Not trolling. Got me through the worst of it.
Started lifting after my highschool girlfriend cheated on me when I was 17, currently 19, I've lost all the fat I have wanted to lose, put on enough muscle to be considered aesthetic, fucked enough girls in the last few years to make my middle school self proud, worked as an apprentice for 2 years, make more money than I should for my education.......but I just feel so fucking depressed, don't have any good friends to hangout with or a cute girlfriend who wants to chill with me on a friday instead of getting drunk, doesn't matter how many club sluts I fuck or how much I bench I just miss her and I miss how happy I was, wouldn't dare show a sign of weakness in my real life but it's just a weird feeling and I'm not sure if people can relate
Still cant accept my height, face and intelligence. Meditation is not helping.
>>36478997
This
Turned down a party invite to my best friends though because gotta write essays and shit.
Feels badman.
>tfw ex fatty (not hamplanet but enough to put girls off)
>3 years of gains really starting to come through as I bulk with a solid stance on nutrition this time after a good cut
>Girls at work place comment as well as guys too
>one guy friend is jealous af "with that jawline.." "I wish I could have a body like anon"
>Girls that come into store supposedly flirting with me and giving me the eye according to many of these sources
>I never notice, too used to being fat guy mode and normally just assume they're being nice
I just can't see myself as this attractive person everyone says I am?
>>36479103
Meditation is only there to see your own situation from a clearer perspective.
Height is not a primary factor, confidence is. Im 6'6 and people think im a weird lanky loser.
Face is something different but fashionable clothes and hairstyle can always make up for it to a certain degree.
Your intelligence doesnt mean shit if you dont know how to use it. If you think you have lower/higher than average intelligence, learn to use it and then maybe you will het something worthwhile out of it.
Dont be discouraged bruh.
>>36479147
BDD is a serious condition fampai.
It's not easy to shake off established views on your body. So it's who knows how many years of a negative self image vs. A couple years of getting praised for your attractiveness.
It's a root thought and those are super fucking hard to get rid off. Consider seeing a therapist.
>>36479171
Thanks brah, we are all gonna make it
>>36478939
I've had it since I was 8. I'm 23 now but still to scared/shy too see a doctor. I've learnt to live with it. Still have my bad days though
>>36478848
What meds? What kind of side effects?
>>36478918
how did you get together in the first place?
>>36479049
That's a good idea. I'm going to look into that further. Thanks based anon
>>36478812
As I went through puberty i somehow went from a social butterfly to a recluse. Moved countries for Univ so lost all my childhood friends.
Make many acquaintances but keep them at an arms distance and make few friends. Kept coming up with excuses since i was all "muh introver" phase and now they dont invite me much.
A few days ago a friend called me and tried to set me up with some cutie and i shit you not i went "nah man im not interested". I didnt even know what her name was or how hot she is. So now the only guy who tried to help me probably think im gay.
It doesnt help that i graduated 3 months ago and still havent found a job.
Life's depressing man.
>>36478918
woah dude. Get your shit together real fast or she will leave you.
My gf just broke up. when we both moved to another city, she somehow managed to get friends. I did not, even tho it was a lot easier for me because I go to uni and she just works with 50yo hags.
she left me because I had no life beside her. that's fucking unhealthy for a relationship.
visit that mountainbike club thing asap.
>>36478939
I have obsessive thoughts and i can't deal with them i get full of rage and will take it out on anyone so i take Valium when i feel it getting bad and it eases them a lot.
Man up and take the drugs.
>>36478812
I'm in a fucking shitty state of mind right now, I ran out of fucking money, got some bills to pay still, got no gym membership anymore, parents also have trouble financially, school occupies most of my time so I can't find a job and I'm in a constant worry how the fuck am I gonna make a living until I'm out of university which is 8 years from now. Fucking hell, nobody around knows this shit and this is the only place where I can freely speak about problems so yeah, there it is.
>>36478812
I've got that feeling that I should be happy for what I do and what I have but I'm not. I just feel conflicted.
I'm a year away from finishing my bachelor.
I have a great group of friends.
I go out a lot and am very succesful in hooking up. I have travelled around europe and plans on travelling again.
Yet I feel so alone, so done with everything.
I have an extreme fear of any commitment, after 2 terrible relationships so i don't want to be with anyone else at the same time.
>>36479250
Visit /o/ and check out //dbt/ daily bike thread
How do you cope with lost occasions?
Like, how do you accept that you will never be/able to do X thing due to factors outside your control?
>>36478812
Bretty good, trying to find the hunger of the cutting dayz
>>36479075
I think hitting near and being on your early 20's is when things don't really make sense. But I'm sure it's all dat dere final hormones fucking us up and the fact that we start to realize we don't know shit.
I have very low feelings of self worth that i cant seem to escape no matter what i accomplish i dont think it means anything because im still a social tard. on the weekend yet another girl didnt show up. i think im done with women desu senpai
>pic related
If none of us have friends we might as well meet up and be fucking awkward together...
Corvallis, OR here.
I hate my face and hairline so much I try not to leave my house. Last year of Uni and I'm a kissless virgin. I want to stop lifting too, I've been lifting since I was 17 and I'm just bored with it
>>36478812
>roommate constantly sniffing his nose
Besides that, I'm good.
>>36478818
Yeah, I did salsa and boxing in order to meet more friends, it worked.
I also worked at a bar to meet more people, it worked even better.
Tfw at least 2 phone numbers a night
neet life for almost 2 years
i just exist
i have no purpose
>>36479000
that feel... it's do familiar... I hate socialising as well, the whole idea of small talk is just unpleasant to me, waste of time. but then again, that's how you make friends, by socialising
>>36479049
Don't buy a motorcycle, you're going to be riding alone for hours on end, wishing you could park and hang out with some friends instead.
>had a motorcycle and didn't get me any friends
>at least I looked cool
>>36479075
The more I think about I feel like it in a few years there will be movements similar to current feminism for men acceptance so they don't feel bad about their physical anxietys & about the ideal male goals there are.
I mean most men go through the same as most feminists the only difference is men don't usually express it. You guys do it anonymously here don't get me wrong though.
Anyway, to keep it mental health I must confess that listening to pink floyd made a click inside me about social anxiety & social life. If you all are feeling down listen to pink floyd, specially the song Time.
>>36479103
I'm 6'1, decent face, rich as fuck in my shitty country and >=135 IQ according to Mensa.
You know what I did with all that? Nothing. I'm a 22 y/o virgin who spent his teenage years playing WoW and failed my first college only started doing okayish now after switch.
Girls literally told me to go make out to another room with them and I'd just give them my autistic smile.
It's all about your confidence, trust me.
>>36480001
Thank anon, best of luck
>>36478812
>have closed myself off to dating for many reasons
>finally open up to a gurl that i find attractive
>we hit it off amazingly well
>three weeks later, complete 180
>tells me she has so much shit to figure out in life
>replies to texts, but it's obvious she's just being nice
Now i remember why i don't make myself vulnerable and put up these mental walls. I feel like shit
>>36480032
You feeling like shit will make you stronger, embrace it and confrint the girl. Mental barriers will ruin you.
>>36480046
What's the best thing i can do? Don't be a douche when she texts / calls, but not intiate contact at all? I'm tired of feeling anxious and bummed out.
>>36480032
To fall in love means allowing yourself to be hurt, just part of the process.
>>36478812
are you me?
>>36480116
Simply ask her what she wa ta from this relationship and if it doesn't comply worn your desires/goals say nice to have met you and move on.
>>36480129
Wow grammar. Sleepy, my bad anon.
>>36480116
Go meet more women and stay friends with her.
Biggest mistake you can make is cut her off, unless you behaved like a major beta in front of her.
take low dose of zoloft, rirtalin and vitamin d no health problems in this house b o i z feelsgoodman
On bus to ecology lab
Gonna get breakfast after
Three Hunna bang bang
>>36478812
Ehh I'm alright. I'm really bad at cutting and making it to the gym everyday.
Been single for 3 years.
Work 55 hours per week
Live alone
2 friends I see once a month or so.
Haven't gotten laid in 4 months.
Nothing interests me. I smoke pot, drop lsd, and eat shrooms in my free time.
What do
I woke up and my right arm was numb. Classic ulnar nerve palsy AYYY shouldn't be such a computer fag
>>36480122
>>36480129
>>36480155
Good advice, brehs. I'll stay friends with her but move on mentally. Just crushing, being that she was everything i wanted physically and personality-wise.
You're right; everyone goes through it. It's what can happen when you actually ipen up. It just reminded me of why i'm so cautious
>>36480232
I been there anon. Recently a pretty qt lifter ghosted me out of nowhere. It sucked ass but moping won't help much. Every instance of pain is just a chance for growth breh.
>>36480232
>>36480275
Pain=growth
>>36478831
How is it?
I started some new meds that make me a functioning member if society, but I can't have alcohol any more which bums me out.
I was legitimately considering quitting them because if it, I'm such a dumb cunt.
>>36478918
break up with her before she breaks up with you
>tfw avoidant personality disorder
I'm thinking maybe once I lose more weight I'll get over it, but there's a part of me who's morbidly terrified nothing will change... Last two attempts ended in rejection after-the-fact, so I pretty much shut my social factory down until I'm not such a fatty.
>>36480335
What meds? What makes you a non-functioning member of society?
>>36480347
You probably don't have it. Stop self-diagnosing online just because your a bit awkward. I'm no better, I do the same. I think personalities are maluable, and personality disorders are for the most part bullshit.
>>36478939
Oh wow, finally some ocd folks here. Meds worked amazing for me, literally made me obsession free, but made me get ED and kinda slowed my brain down. I'm off them now because I can't study well on them, but my quality of life is pretty shit when I'm anxious.
I say take the meds, I would've killed myself without them no joke
>>36478969
I did that too but it's a bad idea. I got sick once and when I couldn't go to the gym I felt extremely bad for over a month. Try to see it as a fun hobby or else it gets horrible if you can't gym for some reason
>>36478985
I made it in to med school after trying hard as fuck last year, you're gonna make it too bro
>>36480207
>roshes
>300 bang bang
At least wear AJ1's if you are going to act black
I feel completely dead and haven't gone to the gym for over a month. For some reason I have no energy to do anything, can't sleep and feel like crying like a bitch half the time. Even at work I just stare at the screen and can't get myself to do what I need to do. I'm gonna get fired because of this shit.
>started getting WL coaching
>in the gym 5x a week now
>gym-work-sleep
>work-gym-sleep
>repeat
>no time for anything during the week and to tired at weekends
>no motivation at work
>shit pay
>all money goes to food and gym
I have no life whatsoever, JDIMSA.
>>36480570
see a therapist or a doctor before its too late
>>36478812
>tfw anxious
>tfw regularly staying awake 36hrs at a time
>gym schedule has been fucked for a whole 2 weeks
>thankfully havent gained any weight because I eat no more than 1000 calories a day and the rest is coffee or gallons of water
>working on a website for admittance to a coding bootcamp while going to college
>tfw gf who loves me keeps me sane
Im holding on. Really bothered that I havent been as consistent about making time for cardio lately, I used to do a 6 day split. Now just 3 days. Thankfully, when I hit the weights M/W/F the caffiene keeps my lifts, my focus strong.
>>36480676
Meds can deal with the anxiety, m8
>>36479837
Good idea bro
Love these sad cunt threads. They remind me of how far I've come and weak most people really are.
>>36479229
Sorry for the late reply, I went to sleep.
I'm on Effexor now. Only side effect I've noticed is slight constipation, but after taking it I adjusted my diet and consume a lot more fiber so it doesn't really bother me.
When I was younger I tried a bunch and had some issues with side effects. Each med will treat you differently, Effexor is the first that has really worked for me after trying like 6 over a few years. Don't get discouraged if that happens to you.
>>36482083
yeah I love these threads, just a bunch of sad anons talking about sad shit.
we're all gonna make it brehs
>>36482137
>we're all gonna make it brehs
No, only the ones who choose to make it will make it. Everyone else will wallow is self pity and despair
>>36482083
>>36482137
Same boat as you gents. No fucking clue how anyone can consider their life is this terrible when you can compare them to people's lives that are ACTUALLY terrible. Sick job, solid older girlfriend, getting fit for summer, LIFE IS MY COCAINE AND MY NOSE IS BLEEDING!
I'm starting to hook up with girls now (21 yr old) and there is a reoccurring theme that keeps happening to me. In the moment when I'm with them, I feel awesome and great and happy. But once I am alone at home or not with them, I feel distraught and sad. Especially after the fling breaks off I feel so damn lonely and worthless
I want to care more about myself but for some reason I feel validated and complete when I'm with a girl. I'm so tired of feeling like shit for a few weeks after
I didn't check the catalog and made my own thread, I'll repost here.
Keep me on point /fit/
I'm 23 y/o and I'll be starting a CS degree in January. I've been hitting the gym for 6 months but I'm losing confidence. I'll be 26 by the time I finish my degree. I don't know if I can make it, I feel like a complete failure. It's really fucking with my head.
I still live with my parents but they're pretty old and I maintain the house. I work part-time and pull in $400 a week. I have $12,000 saved up. Enough to cover most expenses. I don't have gf, although I've been in a few relationships.
Getting fit has definitely helped me build discipline, but that's it. I still feel like a wreck.
I'm lonely, I don't have any friends, my social life is non existent. I have no idea how I'll get another gf, and if it's even worth it to keep going.
>>36482275
A lifetime of matriarchal education and influence will do that to you. Men are taught to be ashamed of acting on their sexuality. The best way to get through it is to keep hooking up, but on your own terms. Don't be afraid to pass up sex if you're not feeling it. Also, don't make sex your main motivator to go out and do shit. put equal focus on male friendships and personal accomplishments.
I just want to be sober, be a good influence on somebody, and feel wanted. I've never achieved any of those since I graduated high school, but now I'm on the straight and narrows. My health and my attitude towards others is a work in progress but I'm no longer afraid to ask for help.
>>36482288
>Wants specific things out of life
>Doesn't want to do the extra work to obtain them
>Thinks he has built discipline
Entitled sad cunt bullshit. Cry less, do more.
>>36478812
I used to be depressed and anxious until I starting lifting weights.
>>36482288
Failure is what happens when you give up. Until then you're a working progress. Keep moving forward towards your goals and you will never be a failure.
You think you're a failure now, how will you feel a few years down the line if you quit lifting, quit your degree, and still live with your parents?
My advice is to hit the gym hard, enjoy your life at college, make friends, get good grades, and move up in life.
>>36482384
>platitudes
I literally just want to lift weights and spend time with my bros
That is all I want to do, ever
On another note, why am I so fucking nervous/scared about having sex? My dick is fine, slightly above average. Good body, nice face. I guess it's because of lack of experience right?
>>36482409
It's because you watch too much tv
There is a podcast that replays classic episodes of Loveline with Adam Carolla and Dr. Drew. go listen to them and you'll be a lot less nervous about sex
>>36482355
Work extra? S
enpai, I'm taking care for my household. My parents are on disability and I grew up without much. I work Friday-Monday, four 10 hour shifts and pull in $400.
I am working extra, I am putting in an effort. But I'm finding a lack of incentive or feeling that it gets better. Feeling like shit your whole life isn't fun. What's worse is when you start lacking motivation and drive. Discpline is there but the pleasure of life is diminishing. I can't find myself feeling happy.
I don't really want sex, I don't need a qt gf or even a sane one, I just don't want to go to bed alone anymore.
>>36482492
Feel that too. I'm just want to be with someone. tfw you had gfs in highschool but didn't know it would be so hard to get one in your 20's
>sleeping gf in my arms while I'm in my phone
Feels good
>>36482489
You need to be incentivized to take care of your family? You're not motivated or driven to see that they are taken care of? Do you feel that you are entitled to a reward for being a decent human being?
Have you considered that you are unhappy because you are a human piece of shit that pretend not to be because he think that life will owe him a reward afterwards?
>>36482535
I don't know if you're baiting me. I'm assuming you are.
I do all this to support my family. I'll continue to do it. I'm not asking for a reward.
I guess I'm probably depressed as fuck and don't want to feel like shit my whole life.
That said, I doubt you've had to help your parents out of the bathroom, or have people laugh at you when you take your parents to the mall so they can get out of the house for a bit. It's not fun getting the shit end of the stick your whole life.
>>36482448
Ok thanks mate where can I find them?
>>36479959
Wrong
The purpose is a negative one
It's to consume
Saying this as a neet myself... Need to get better...
I've managed to work through most of my shit. I was on pills for anxiety and depression but that was awful. I learned lifting and physical activity were all I really needed to feel alright. My biggest issue now is that I try to hard to be liked by people which it makes me easy to use and hard to respect. I'm just lonely since I'm dealing with my mom's death. Carrying that stress makes it hard in uni. I'm happy for the opportunity but I just want people to acknowledge that I'm carrying that extra weight
>>36482570
You really are a fucking douchbag.
Firstly, you've completely lost perspective. A vast majority of people in the western would would send their family into a shitty assisted living home and forget about them. You're doing something that, to anyone whose opinion is worthwhile, would be considered extraordinary. But you're such a selfish prick that you can only consider how bad you feel, how your life is so shitty.
That brings me to point number 2. You're not getting " the shit end of the stick", fuckface. Your parents are getting "the shit end of the stick" because that cannot take care of themselves on their own. What you're dealing with is bullshit in comparison, but you're such a selfish shitstain that your parents problems need to be all about you.
You are one ungrateful, selfish cunt and you deserve to feel like shit
>>36482590
http://www.lovelinetapes.com/
Enjoy, my friend
>>36480551
Yeah going to need school is my dream. I've never been as driven or determined to do anything in life before and I'll walk through hell and back to make it.
Thanks for the vote of confidence anon, and congrats on making it, you're an inspiration.
>>36482570
>I doubt you've had to help your parents out of the bathroom, or have people laugh at you when you take your parents to the mall so they can get out of the house for a bit. It's not fun getting the shit end of the stick your whole life.
Yea, life really fucked you worst of all
>>36479235
Im wondering this too
Fell in love with a girl who broke my heart. She ended up having sex with my ex roommate in my old bed...I ended up breaking all contact with her afterwards. Don't know if she was trying to turn me on though. Masturbate to the thought of her fucking him. Part of me wants to contact her and see how far we can take sadomasochism.
Take medications now for bipolar disorder. Going back to school in the fall scared and excited about the possibility of getting off medications. But I am also weary that I may get worse. I seem to attract girls who either have very low opinions of themselves or girls who want to hurt me. I'm scared of finding a girl like my ex who breaks my heart and possibly makes my mental health worse
>>36482876
dude you sound fucked
>>36478812
>last week was spring break
>stuck inside for a week with retired parents
>contemplating running away after this semester
got to see friends for a day or so for st patty's, god bless the irish. shit's been pretty rough though, all this stagnation is demotivating me from doing anything
>>36483123
>all this stagnation is demotivating
You would think being stuck living with your parents would motivate you to move out
>>36483046
how so?
>>36483136
it's an idea that I've been juggling around in my head. it's a tossup between my mental health, and leaving her alone and the guilt that comes with it.
>parents
meant to say just my mom.
>>36482492
eventually, you learn to not want these things anymore.
I train, and feel great when I look in the mirror. this must be what a monk feels like.
A little depressed since I dumped my oneitis one year ago. The >tfw virgin
is overwhelming, but I'll join a gym next month which is my first social hobby since six years. Maybe I'll lose it then and make some further acquaintances (18 now)
Not been so good lately. I'm feeling >tfw no gf full force, and that combined with regret over the bad decisions I've made is not fun. I'm gonna turn it around, though. I joined the rowing team this semester, and I'm making some friends and becoming less of a hungry skeleton with all the lifting and conditioning. Training's the only thing that makes me feel okay right now.
I think 200 mg of Zoloft made me lose my inner voice and consciousness. I feel like a walking corpse
>>36480357
Wellbutrin; depression and alcohol dependency.
I am you. Literally today I gathered some balls and went to a doctor to ask for a referral to a psychiatrist. Going to my first appointment day after tomorrow.
She also gave me some Xanax to tide me over.
I feel relief already.
Go get help.
>>36484455
Boss just saw that and slapped my ass and gave me a promotion thanks
>>36478939
my OCD is mild but there was a point where the obsessive thoughts consumed my life.
I found what helped me most was to let the thoughts flow rather than try to repress them and you eventually get desensitized. meditation also definitely helped and I only get like that when stressed now.
once again your situation might be completely different than mine so get professional help if it aint working.
>>36478838
dude you should suck on his pickle to say thanks
no homo though
I broke my ankle last month, still in a cast for three more weeks. it's really dragging out
No friends really, Feelsbadman.
>>36478812
>spent fall semester sitting in a room shaking and crying after failing all of my classes
>gf is smart enough to tell my parents about the situation
>go to a therapist regularly, find out I have "major depression", "adult ADHD - inattentive type", and "OCD". currently discussing the idea of having a "ruptured identity" or w/e according to therapist
>take the semester off for myself, gf leaves me because i'm not "doing anything" (going to school, having a job, etc.), just meditating, writing in a journal, and going to the gym for a few months
>don't know if I should believe my therapist or if its all bullshit
regardless, just recently starting to find peace. when I'm outdoors, lifting weights, gardening, or taking care of my pups. we'll all make it, brahs
Mentally I think I am struggling.I'm approaching 3 years into my diet I've dropped 100 pounds.I spend most of my time pacing in the house. I've made arrangements to move out of parents house soonish but right now it's a struggle. I'm only somewhat happy with how I look physically. I can only drop about another 10 pounds and stay in healthy bmi range.I get a lot of compliments on my body from people who knew me before but I still feel so pudgy and ugly.
I remind myself every few hours to hold strong to my calorie counting. A part of me just doesn't want anything to do with life till I am happy with how my body looks. It's strange, cause I was arguably more confident in some areas of life when I was an obese fuck. I hold must of that on how unaware I was of how disgusting I looked. I just want to look in the mirror and see something I can be proud of, and say "ok yea I can make a life out of this, I'm worth having friends now, I'm worth dating now, my life starts now!"
I'm just not there yet though
>BDD
>OCD
>Psychotic depression
>Agoraphobia
>Can barely feel emotions due to Zoloft
Fun shit guys
>for some reason I get easily irritated and aggressive in the evenings
What causes this? Only started happening a few days ago
>>36478812
She...she's ignoring me. Why am I such a loser, /fit/? I hate myself
>>36478812
I stopped giving a fuck about anything really
also, I feel like I'm getting dumber by the day
>>36478812
Learn to meditate.
>>36478812
>massive slut to compensate for low self esteem
>hate myself more because of degeneracy
>seriously struggle to talk to anyone that I don't have to and even then holding a conversation is difficult
>the really bad ADD doesn't help, I keep wandering off in the middle of conversations or jumping around topics
>I've started to rely on memes and black twitter talk to talk to people
>know a lot of people and are friendly with them, but no friends
>all but got the email saying I've failed Uni
Oh, I finally met a girl I liked and even got her phone number! It's been a little over 2 weeks... Still haven't done anything with it...
Thinking of just running off with the YPG and hopefully die out there, removing kebab.
>>36478812
>Hitting 22 in a few months
>In university, my first year, I'll be 25 when I graduate
>I have no friends
>Everyone goes to parties, fucks girls, goes on dates etc, has relationships an I'm a kissless virgin
>on top of that I'm living in a foreign country
>Both my parents live in separate countries
>I don't even know what's the point anymore, too lazy to get a degree and I procrastinate too much
>Regret almost everything in my life
>Lifting for almost two years, but I hate a tiny frame so I still look small
>Ugly face so women and shitty accent, so nobody is ever going to be interested in dating me
>>36486797
forgot to add that I'll fuck anything, I have no self respect. Also scared that any girl I like will find out what I'm like and be put off, as they should tbqh
I just want to win the lottery and live it easy
>>36478993
>>36479009
I have the same thing, if I smoke it kicks all the depression shit to the front, All I can think about is how I fucked everything up, how I don't have any real friends and how fake and meaningless everything is. It puts me in an awful mood for at least a couple of days after and during that time I can't see myself as anything other than a piece of shit that doesn't deserve to be alive.
I don't smoke anymore. It's helped.
Everything is pretty much fine but I am having a hard time feeling anything at all.
How do I have feelings again.
>been shitposting on here for past few weeks
>gf broke up with me almost 2 months ago
>been super depressed
>she still talks to me almost every single day
>im so lonely i text back
>had to help my brother move all his shit out of his apartment so he could move into a decent sized house with his wife
>hes 21, making $75k a year and married
>i feel like hes 40 or some shit
>his best friend from highschool helped him move
>i was the first person his friend ever drank with
>have a little bromance going
>reconnect with him and hes gonna come up this weekend to head out to big bar event
>he gets laid all the time and hes very charismatic
>got myself a wingman
>finally looking great, weather will be nice so i can show off guns, got my own place
>hoping to get laid so i dont have another 9 month drought like i had after previous ex gf
>>36478812
I'll be your friend, anon
>come on /fit/ just to watch people get in shape and hate myself for not getting in shape, and making better choices
>remind myself that if I just go outside, I just walk around, then I'll have done something
>but I don't, and I hate that I don't
>and that hate should be inspiring me to go out and keep going, but instead it just shuts me down harder
>I think about ways I've failed people from years ago, ways I don't live up to my best standards, ways I wish people felt about me the way I feel about them, and just wallow in how pathetic and emotionally sick it feels
>not even sad, just emotionally unresponsive
>motivational posters just feel like running your fingers on rusty metals, flaky and sort of painful, no idea how a Bruce Lee quote makes people feel anything
>hide it all in life with jokes, snark, passion about politics, minor collection hobbies, building lego things, but deep down I'm tired, all the time
>some days I want to be noticed
>some days I want to hide away forever
>I don't know who to talk to about any of it
>parents don't get it and think it's about sin
>no friends to talk to
>therapy just loaded me up with pills that fucked up everything harder
>I feel stuck and tired and
>and I don't even know why I made this
Help I don't know how to stop it, I can't stop finding new ways to hate myself. I think I'm genuinely insane. I'm not even getting a rush from this, it's just like a defense mechanism, like I need to tell myself I'm pathetic.
>>36478812
>miles away from friends
>no job so no work friends
>Dont talk to anyone at uni
>no gf
Business as usual I guess
>>36478812
>anxious
>depressed
You might try masturbating. That might help with your depression and anxiety. Sorry, I don't know what to do to help you about your friends.
>>36487394
join a sports team or society anon, might be a tad late, but def do it next year
>>36487420
I played baseball in high school, probably could have played in college, but I seriously fucking hated every single kid on the team. They all thought they were so much better than everyone and acted like complete fucks. I quit before my senior year of hs.
Id like to play a sport again I guess, but im not sure which one to sign up for and I dont really want to have to try out for anything.
>>36486598
I feel you senpai
Then
>Morbidly obese
>GF, pretty happy and confident
>Decide to lose weight after lurking on fit
Now
>Lost 60 pounds
>Hate my body
>tfw no gf
>No discipline to stick to cut
>constantly obsessing over food
>Depressed
>Literally beat myself up when I fuck up diet
What the fuck guys I wanted to get fit not mentally ill
>>36487355
Well it sounds like you need to get /fit/
it's actually really easy, just do IIFYM and lift couple times a week for a few hours. Literally spend 2-5% of your weekly time of the gym and count your damn calories. that is all you have to do. how easy is that for gods sake?
>be an attorney
>would work at a public interest firm, but hate poor people
>only choices are unemployment or 90 hours a week
>>36478812
you're my friend.
![[Doki] Hitoribocchi no OO Seikatsu - Webcomic 01 - Page 02.png](https://i.imgur.com/lel4aqg.png "[Doki] Hitoribocchi no OO Seikatsu - Webcomic 01 - Page 02.png")
>no friends
>no job
>no drive
>no gains in the last months
>my only friend and family are on the other side of the continent
>my roommate, who also happens to be my brother is pretty chill guy, but he's also a fucking slob, which triggers my ocd and makes living with him quite frustrating
>I'm cowardly and dishonest person and I despite myself for that, I managed to fix that at one point and was quite pleased with myself, but then something screwed up along the way and I'm back to hatin my guts
>sleep schedule went to shit
>I just feel like I'm a hindrance for everyone
I feel that Uni is pretty much the only hope for me at the moment. I should get the response from my first choice any day now, but I don't have good feelings bout it. I tried pretty hard, but from what I've seen on the interview the level of necessary qualifications seems to beyond me and I'm really worried now. I have no idea what to do if I don't get in
I really suck at living
Sorry for the wall of text, but just wanted to get it off my chest, even if it's witch some anons on chinese imageboard
>hot wife
>big house
>great car
>great job
>big social circle
>not really fit, but way more than most people my age
>more miserable than ever
Who else here has social anxiety and claustrophobia because they smell like shit?
>>36486797
>I fuck people all the time
>I can't talk to people
Jesus fucking christ just fall in a pit somewhere.
>>36489791
why
>>36489791
Any clue why that might be?
>>36489768
Lad, everyone sucks at living. Try not to compare yourself to others and what they consider success. Keep hitting the gym, get your sleep schedule back on track right now.
Even if that means you go to sleep whenever tonight but you wake up at 8am at the latest tomorrow. Or earlier if you need to. Then no napping tomorrow and you'll fall asleep like a baby.
I hope you get into your first choice uni, but even if you don't. Just go to a community college for the first two years and then transfer, but during those two years you have to give it your all.
When I was feeling like you this summer I got myself into a rut but then when September came I forced myself to be more positive about everything in life and since then even my worst day hasn't been as bad as my best during the summer. You gotta stay positive anon.
We're all gonna make it.
>>36489800
This is an easy fix, nigga.
Shower + deodorant.
>>36487194
Never text the ex again, cut her out completely
>36478812
I've had it. Just gotta delete the pr0n stash, then I can peace out
>>36480217
Get a hobby
>>36480490
>maluable
>personality disorders are for the most part bullshit.
oh the fucking ironing
i had to do meth to get a girlfriend, i abused meth, speed and weed (sorry for that retarded rhyme) and I ended up with a fat bitch with self esteem issues that tricked me
her parents are abusive, they don't let her go out at all and they don't let me invite her to my house and i can't go to her either because they're so fucking insane they throw tantrum fits they start yelling that they're not comforatble with me in their house
I always stop in front of her house and finger her, one time i fingered her for a half an hour man, people were passing by and she wasnt in the mood and i managed to do it, i gave a bitch that has anxiety issues an orgasm on the street and my hands were stained black because of the color of her pants that stuck to my hand somehow
i can't have sex with her because her mom threatened her with a visit to the gynecologist if she suspects a loss of virginity, im not even kidding, her parents think that a piece of skin that may or may not exist show that she fucked or not
she only ever gave me a handjob in front of her house and i kept telling her to continue, man she was tired after 20 secs and i wasnt even after half an hour of fingering
I came on her hand and scarf on purpose, i didn't even warn the stupid bitch
I wrote poetry for her and she told me "try again because this time it wasn't that nice"
now she posts messages on facebook, shit like pics made using apps that say "your secret admirer is going to gift you an iphone 6 on ur next bday" and i asked her why do you post that and she said "so what if I post?" i told her that she looks like a whore and people will think that our relationship is shit which is but still, and she wouldn't listen
I'm filled with so much anger man after all this, after all this autist and hard work, after I let go of everything that made me a loser and started bettering myself and became independent this is what I get
parents that know their kid less than I do and cant take her of her at all
>>36490541
>had to do meth to get a girlfriend.
Nigga what?
We need to stop on the first line, because this is a fucking hydrogen bomb of a statement.
How? Why? What made you think a girl was for doing meth for?!
>>36490552
relax nigga, I stopped after one time and meth doesn't directly damage your body, it only modifies parts of your brain related to pleasure, you're exaggerating
I had problems with anxiety and depression, it was either this or running away from my parents house or killing myself, I couldn't stand that burning feeling anymore so I had to do something
>>36490569
Alright, so this girl used you.
If it's the same girl from the rest of the story you need to drop her like a bad habit.
Block her on everything, EVERYTHING.
Facebook, phone, twitter, snapchat, email, fucking carrier pigeon do not accept anything from her at all.
She is dead to you and that needs to be permanent.
>>36490581
thanks for helping me but I can't, I'm sexually frustrated and I live abroad now, if I lose this I lose everything and won't be able to have another relationship till I finish uni and then I'll start my dating life with the wrong foot because of my lack of experience
I can't, just wanted to vent off
but thanks a lot, good night senpai
>Be 6'4
>Girls think im handsome and hot
>Be athletic build
>I have actually anally penetrated my asshole since i was 12 years old, fantasize about being the girl in porn, and have a stash of panties, lingerie and dresses and fap while choking myself and pretending older men are raping my ass
My rectum is broken btw, i have to dig out poop and i considered le suicide. My physical body is pretty much built to be a stud but mentalstate is the fault. At least im not a virgin.
>>36490569
You're stupid as shit if you think meth doesn't fuck up your body . that shit literally eats away at your brain cells, causes hallucinations, fucking EATS away at your body.
Did that shit for about 6 months. I was lucky that it didn't have the same effect on me that it had on others.
>>36490643
I've used meth for far longer than 6 months and I've never had hallucinations or mental/body damage, maybe you shouldn't have binged for weeks without eating or sleeping anon
>>36478812
Are you me?
>wanna be fit
>suffer from low-T
>work a shitty job with shitty hours so im always tired
>at best I squeeze in some cardio
>tfw no friends because youre on the edge between a normie chad and an autistic fuck
Living on the line is hard.
>>36490832
Neither have I but I've seen its effect on people who've abused it for years. People in there 40s who've been smoking it since they were 16.
I'm just saying just because it didn't effect YOU don't say it doesn't have a mental and physical damaging effect on the body because then that's just straight bullshit
There are some people like us that are lucky but the majority of meth users out there are fucked up for life. don't kid yourself buddy
>>36479000
Plz tell story of why ppl hate u plz
>>36479003
Actually, it depreciates pretty massively, especially in regards to machines. No idea why you'd drop 2.7k on something most do for 3-5 hundred.
>>36479282
>tfw can feel this about to happen to me within the next week :'(
How are you coping dude?
>>36478812
MFW my gym bag is still at Brussels because I didn't dare to take it with me from my desk.
>>36478812
I cleaned my room. It got really dusty, not sure how I lived in here for so long. It felt cathartic at first but now it just feels empty.
First month on university almost down, been hitting the gym 3 - 4 times a week which is great.
Not always that stressed but everything is starting to add up, home life isn't bad, but sometimes get anxious about coming home after classes or work, not always the best environment to study in, barely getting enough work to pay for board, fuel and gym, waiting on dat sweet government hand out to be processed and back paid.
Get time to hang out with mates maybe once a fortnight so that's good.
I have a months placement through April poorfag incoming, the combination of both is starting to wear on me, and it hasn't even started yet.
Relationship with the misses is kinda getting, i dunno, difficult, poor communication at times, starting to feel like its just adding more unnecessary stress in my life at the moment, i love her, known her for years been dating for almost three, but dunno where its all going.
I guess i'm just stressed, which is leading to depressive symptoms and mild anxiety.
I've got a lot of thinking to do, in a time where i need to focus on my studies and cant really do much else.
Thanks for the vent, think i just needed to get it out, even if it's to you guys.
>in a long distance relationship
>go and visit gf to find out she started talking to her ex
>after a few days of leaving find out she cheated with ex
>admitted to still love him, but says to also to love me
>try to forgive her after lots of bullshit
>visit her again
>after leaving she starts staying at a friend's house sleeping in the same bed because of "uni homework"
>says it's normal and I should understand
>gets pissed because I get pissed and says I'm obsesive
>while arguing over the phone she mocks me with her miserable room mate
>after breaking up says she hates me cuz I'm too obsesive and wanted to control her
>basically lived for her
>still find a way to feel sad because of her
>going to move where she is in a couple of months
>Only and best friend from another country doesn't talk to me anymore
>parents in another country and haven't seen them in years
>living alone and have nothing else to do other than school, gym and play guitar
>social faliure even girls think I'm handsome and actually have decent body.
>always go full autismo when in presence of other beings
>recently haven't found motivation to do shit after ex gf bs, not even gym
don't know if being a little bitch or actually going through serious shit. i just feel so lonely. seriously contemplated the idea of suicide various times
>>36492082
Fuck man you can get through this, and when you do you'll be proud of yourself for it, just find more social experiences and I know it's hard but talk to more people
>>36479988
Why would you reccomend pink floyd to a depressed person?Just so they pull the trigger for once?
