Sad feels
>be me
>little over 20
>doing personal trainer course
>decent body, 6.4 feet little over 200 pounds
>get a /fit/ gf
>lives in same dormmitory
>she uses clenbuterol and melatonin
>Ive made it /fit/
>11/10 gf
>she cheats on me with another guy
>guy is less muscular than me
>end of relationship
>been eating candy all day
>hold me /fit/
What should i do, and how will this affect my gains?
>>34832603
accept a buddhist outlook on life, everything is impermanent
your gf is impermanent and your feels are impermanent, so move on and be glad that you have your health now to lift and enjoy life
quit being such a sad cunt. there are many more 11/10s out there you just gotta get jacked and go find them
>>34832603
>10/10 qt at my gym
>want to talk to her to ask her out
>tfw ugly sperglord and I don't ave a chance with her
>tfw i'll try anyway
>tfw anticipating disappointment
>>34835402
It's not even that dank...
>>34835603
>le dank xDDDDD
go back to reddit
>>34832603
It's good she cheated on you and you found out. Now you know you were dating a cheating slut. Better to know then to find out...
>first cut
>week in, doing good
>dad buys a ton of candy and ice cream
>eat back whatever I've lost the week prior
Dammit dad, you're the one who always tells me I'm eating too much sugar.
>>34832603
>just got home from a first date with a long time crush
>things were going well
>making out in a park after seeing some live music
>walk her back to her car
>make out in her car a little more
>try to set up second date
>she says "I don't deserve you"
>doesn't want someone looking for a deep emotional connection
>tfw
All I want out of life is a job I enjoy and a woman with a pretty face and a nice body to wake up next to and put my penis inside of. I don't think that's too unreasonable.
>>34832603
Fuck her bf behind her back.
>>34836287
>>she says "I don't deserve you"
That's just one of many ways grills say "I'm not attracted to you" without actually saying it.
Kissing doesn't mean shit dude
>>34836384
>>34836287
idk, i've said that line to girls before and i've really meant it. sometimes it's true. some people are just out to fuck or just don't want to deal with emotions.
>>34836384
>That's just one of many ways grills say "I'm not attracted to you" without actually saying it.
I know this. She could have said this shit instead of agreeing to go on a date with me. She could also have said it before the first or second time we made out.
>Kissing doesn't mean shit dude
Of course, I just felt lead on. If I wasn't so sad, I'd be really mad.
>>34832603
>me 22
>live with gf
>been together 2yrs
>took her virgnity,i am only person she's ever been with sexually
>sex used to be bretty good
>now i can't ever cum
>she is too tight, has skinnyfat body with flat butt and small chest
>tfw no longer sexually attracted to her
>tfw can't breakup cuz she too dependent on me
>tfw the pain never ends (not even when gf)
help me anons
>>34836443
Try to stop watching porn. Similar shit with me, now we're apart and I realized I really cared for her more than I thought, also that I don't really want to bang sluts. It's a long story, literally went to the house of some 9/10 30~ year old craigslist girls house to fuck her while her chill ass (black?) C.uck boyfriend wanted to watch and she ended up staying late at work, couldn't make it unless I waited for hours, so I just went home. Then pondered it, don't really want to anymore. I just miss her a lot, also really want to fuck her more. Shit sucks, she's a peice of shit but the only person I don't genuinely get tired of. TLDR: you don't know what you got until it's gone.
>>34836384
>I don't deserve you
Goddamned right you don't if you can't be honest you fucking cunt, hate that shit
>>34836287
>All I want out of life is a job I enjoy and a woman
>All I want out of life is a woman
Sluts can smell this type mindset
You have two solutions:
Stop dating sluts
Change your mindset
>>34836414
> i've said that line to girls before and i've really meant it
C U C K
U U
C C
K K
>>34833722
this
no one is forever op and neither are your faggot feels
every day from now on you'll feel a little less sad about this girl
and you'll probably date ten more dumb bitches and think theyre perfect for you
>tfw crippling depression
>tfw when lifting is now meditative
>the iron is cold
>the iron doesnt discriminate
i just wish i could be happy one day
i cant remember the last time i was
>>34836472
I have stopped with the porn for awhile now. I think it's the zoloft. Increased from 50mg to 100mg about 6mths ago and sex drive just hasn't been the same.
>>34833722
>following the path to hell
retard
There is only one religion and one God.
Repent your sins whenever possible and trust in Jesus.
inb4 "this faggot is trolling"
No, I'm fucking serious and if I didn't care about you cunts then I wouldn't be telling you to do so
>>34835677
Does your dad force feed you?
>excuses
>>34836641
Do you need it to function?
>>34836651
I'm going to pretend this isn't bait for theological/philosophical debate's sake:
There is literally no reason one can't be a good buddhist (philosophically) and a good christian (religiously) at the same time.
>>34836662
whenever i try to taper off, i have anxiety attacks and feel very strange/suicidal
not sure where to post this but here it goes.
>go to house party
>have good time, pretty buzzed
>hostess (who I met at the party for the first time) comes onto me
>we make out
>end up having sex all night
>wake up next morning and do it again, shower together, make out some more, ect
>text her next day
>arrange to meet up
>she cancels on the day we were supposed to meet because apparently she had to go to dinner with her family
>arrange to meet up again
>doesnt reply to my last text, ambiguous if we are actually meeting up or not
>meant to meet this Saturday
what do /fit/?
>>34836702
Meet up with her Saturday. If she flakes again, move on.
>>34836714
should i call her or something before saturday (friday night for example) to find out if shes still keen?
dont exactly want to rock up to her place and get told to fuck off.
>think I have enough muscle base to start a cut and I want to see my abs again
>starting weight 178 5'8" manlet
>start cut mid June
>successfully drop to 130 now
>barely any strength lost
>not much more ab definition can only see them if I flex them
>look lean as fuck everywhere else with crazy vascularity going on when lifting
>as I drop in bf% my gf becomes more and more bitchy
>weigh less than her now and less than her stupid fucking great dane too
>hate myself for still being in love with her
At this rate I'm going to be a fucking skeleton but I really want some ab definition before I go to the darkside and start a first cycle.
>>34836738
Yes.Confirm the date friday afternoon.
>>34836651
>goes on Taiwanese steroid board to preach the gospel of a manlet savior that didn't even eat two scoops
U w0t
>>34836763
thanks anon. i really need some self-confidence.
>>34836702
Chicks can be flakey anon. Often the ones that are into you then cease contact for a few days/ sporadically respond a day later have mental issues, and lose interest after the initial rush of 'conquering' you. (Often they'll try force a brief relationship just to prove to themselves that they can be seen in a romantic light, and break it off afterwards because they've accomplished their goal)
>Protip: Play it cool. If she texts you hours/ a day after your last text, and its clear she had time to read and respond, but chose not to, do the same back to her. Take the time it took her to respond, and add 50%.
It'll either make her mad enough to stop stringing you along, or it'll make her think that you are losing interest in her, and she'll make another effort at trying to be 'wanted' by you.
>>34836791
Thanks for the tip. I already delay my responses when chicks take ages to respond but only matching their time. I also crumble sometimes and make the deadly mistake of replying almost immediately. How do I stop myself?
>>34832603
>Been on perma cut
>6'4 290
>6'4 205 now
>been eating the same foods for months
>so close to looking normal I can feel it
>give in and eat whatever I want today
>chicken wings, Oreos, 2 famous stars from Carl's Jr, soft tacos and 2
Burritos, and some 4 oatmeal cream pies.
>realize how much of a fat fuck I am
>stomach hurts like fuck now
>vomited a few times
>I deserve this and time drop these last 10 pounds or so
>>34836680
>implying being a 'good person' will get you into heaven
>>34836772
Well I tried. Enjoy your stay at hell
>btw it's worse than having no gf
>tfw your brain has fucked your body over,
It's been 3 goddamn months and I still worry that I'm going to die Of a heart attack every day, I'm finally realizing it's all in my head. But man. I don't expect anyone to relate to this because I ge drunk as fuck to fight it. But damn.
In two weeks the time has come brahs.
>>34836859
>implying being a 'good person' will get you into heaven
I'm saying you can adopt a buddhist mindset while accepting jesus as your savior and following every single commandment and (modern) law of christianity. There is literally no conflict.
>>34836843
You steel your heart, anon.
Ice cold f.am
Frankly though, when I can tell a chick is losing interest, I legit lose interest back. If they respond sporadically and do the whole 9 yards of flaking out, I consign them to the category of fuck buddies permanently. From the get go you know it's not a lasting relationship, and just roll with it, have some fun once a week or whatever.
You don't want a relationship with someone who gets distant at the drop of a hat.
>>34836933
This is the problem though, I'm not really interested in any kind of relationship beyond fwb with this girl, but I still fold like paper. Not even sure she wants to fuck, but thats probably because Im bad at picking up social cues through texts.
Will probably take the other anons advice and move on if she flakes again.
>be me have ulcerative colitis
>been fine for 8 years
>been lifting, gained 15lbs over the summer looking way better
>get stomach flu and strep at the same time
>causes UC to flare
>lose 10lbs over 2 weeks
>finally get better
>start eating again gain back a couple of lbs
>get kidney stone most horrible pain ive ever had
>end up hospitalized for a week
>lose 4lbs
>literally lost everything i worked for this summer
>>34836869
God damn I know dem hypochondriac feels anon. I've found facts to be the best way to combat irrational fear. Why the sudden worry for 3 months?
>>34837039
3 weeks away from the gym wont lose 15 pounds of muscle. Almost all of that is water weight
>>34837063
It was more like 3 weeks of being bedridden and not being able to eat
>>34837068
I didn't workout of for a year and ate 400 calories a day for months due to depression, and lost like 15 pounds of muscle but gained it back in two months of lifting hard.
3 weeks should be like 2 weeks tops to get back
>>34836655
>Does your dad force feed you?
You don't know the half of it.
>>34832603
Have everything in life I want except good job.
>fit
>sexy gf
>friends
>hobbies
>work shit dead end job, 27
Such is life.
>try to get ex gf back
>realize I'm making a fool of myself and making it harder to move on
Just decided to block her number so that I don't have any good reason to contact her
>>34836760
same here anon, my arms are vascular as fuck but i still have belly flab, shit's weird
>>34837090
>blocking
>not deleting all of her contact info and getting drunk enough to erase it from your memory
Step up son.
>>34835402
I swear I've gotten used to that feeling of impending failure. it's like going through the motions for me at this point
>>34836850
in the grand scheme of things 1 shitty day really won't matter if you have everything else on point. but don't do it again for a long ass time
>>34837108
Hard for me to do that when she still wants to be friends and texts or calls me every now and then. She'll show up sooner or later. May as well just block her
>senior year of uni
>stopped lifting, look like shit now
>gf left me last year for my old lifting buddy
>thought I'd enjoy being single for a change but it's shit
>casual sex isn't actually that fun
>wish I had someone to love me
>almost killed myself last weekend but pussied out
>can't see a therapist for my depression bc parents will freak out
>probably gonna fail all my classes this semester
>then lose my scholarship
>then probably get kicked out of my parents house
idk what to do anymore. I don't have motivation to lift, much less do schoolwork. I don't even want a fucking degree it's probably worthless anyways
>>34837147
Lol that's is evil on her part. I'm friends with my ex but that's only because we hooked up all summer after we broke up. We rarely ever talk now. Fucked up that she's keeping you along in her life like that tho.
>>34836539
>tfw the first touch of a cold bar in the morning feels better than sex
feelsgoodmayn
>>34836688
try switching meds, it's very common for different people to have different reactions to different meds, but they all do the same thing
>>34837147
She'll show up sooner or later because you're letting it drag on. The only response you should be giving her to anything she says or does is; "Go fuck yourself bitch". She'll get the point if you say it enough times.
>>34836702
Sometimes girls use guys for sex just like guys use girls.
You just gotta accept she wasn't into you and was just looking for a fun time with a guy she had just met at a party.
Sad feel and good feel tonight.
Turned 26, nobody really said much and didn't have any plans...so I made plans with a barbell and PR for 405 deadlift.
Got it once and felt pretty happy.
We're gonna make it, right bros?
>>34837144
Ohhh yeah I know breh I just feel like shit and don't wanna eat that anymore for a long ass time lol. Funny how it works out
>>34837082
>Edgy reply
You're on an anonymous board talking about your problems but you won't go into what the actual problem is.
This is what not making it looks like anon. Tell us why your dad touches you at night.
>>34837205
Happy birthday you filthy animal
Go get some friends holy shit quit feeling sorry for yourself
>>34836443
>>now i can't ever cum
>>she is too tight
?
>>34837192
Yeah I know I'm dragging it on but I just don't think telling her to go fuck herself is the right move desu. It's just not me to say something like that. Ignoring her seems like the best move at this point. Thank god I won't have to work with her any more,
>>34837205
Happy birthday, bro.
>>34837252
>>34837278
Thanks bros, I don't really feel sorry for myself.
I've got some good friends but 26 really isn't much to be excited for.
Just been a lil bummed of the regular routine of life. Work lift sleep.
Thats all.
>>34837283
shit nigga that's life. As long as you have a job that'll provide for you and possibly family with decent retirement, then lifting and sleeping is all that's left. it's not something to feel meh about, it means you're that much closer to making it.
>>34836539
I know that feel quite well. Happiness is something that happens to other people.
>>34837327
I've been saying for years that some people are just born not to be happy. People call me pessimistic but i think it really is true.
>>34836443
force her to squat
>>34837237
Because my mom is fat and I look feminine.
>>34832603
>tfw chucking chad is my fetish
done it twice & it feels good breh sorry for your lost she isn't worth it desu senpai
>>34837163
whats your degree in friend?
>>34836897
>Idolatry
>Year of our lord 2015
>quit smoking cold turkey since September
>been doing fine
>go to dinner with a colleague yesterday
>he offers a smoke
>I decline
>been thinking about it ever since
This is harder than no porn brehs.
>>34837163
Tell your parents anon, it's the first step to fixing this
>tfw studying abroad, not so many friends here, no gf to be seen
>feeling pretty good living by myself tho, also my gym here is better and i can cook by myself for optimal gainz
>get back to my hometown for a couple of weeks
>go out with old friends, we have a blast, we get to do both nerdy and normie stuff, no silences or bullshit, it's like i've never really left
>met a girl
>meh/10 would bang b/c thirsty but would never be in a serious relationship b/c we don't have anything in common
>Met another girl, we have a lot in common
>She's not your "usual attractive girl" but i really like her because she spergs out more often than not and is really cute
>My best friend's gf is Girl n.2's best friend, they say me and girl n.2 would be a great couple
>my friend went out of his way to explain to me that we would be /fit/ and /cgl/ and she would really be the right girl for me
>Girl n.1 really likes me and waits to tell me that by text when i'm back here
>No clue if Girl n.2 actually likes me that way
>Failed 3x5 175lbs bench last week
Just fuck my life up senpai
>try to be funny and make jokes in class
>hear girl that I thought was different silently say "you're going to be a virgin forever"
Well fuck them, they are all the same, no more jokes in class, I will become an edgy manlet now.
>>34837087
Please find a job that you like.
My dad says he hates his job but he is getting to the age where it is hard to find new work, since younger people are more desireable. I can just see how its eating him up to have a job that he doesnt like, dont make same mistake.
>>34832603
forget dumb sluts and come lift heavy shit with me at the gym brah
>>34837163
We'll all make it brah
>Looking quit joocy after my first 15 months of training
>178 cm - 82 kg - 20 years
>Girls mire me, telling me how big i look
>Chat with my pretty tinder matches
>Get their snapchats
>Send a selfie
>No replies, its always like this
>I look like a turd on pictures and only somewhat decent in real life...
>>34837163
stop making fucking excuses. man the fuck up and push forward
>>34837595
So your jokes were really fucking bad?
She doesn't even know I exist.
they were laughing but I make jokes most of the time and I have to stop that, it's turning me into a class clown without even getting any girl.
>>34837664
s-same here anon
my gym crush was there today
hold me
she's lovely
>>34836651
there is a similar mantra in the bible
>this too shall pass
great mantra to live by.
>>34837116
feel with me anon
>>34835655
He did find out...
>get bf
>6/10 low self esteem sweet, kind average guy
>but I know he's the best
>I introduce him to lifting
>we have fun going to the gym together
>barely half a year passes
>/fit/ lied to me
>superior lift genetics do exist
>when did my bf become a 9/10 confident, fit dream guy?
>he's WAAAAAAAY out of my reach
>everyone knows he's the best now
>it's only a matter of time...
If he leaves me, I'll either become a tumblr landwhale who rants about fit privilege or a fatty chaser.
What should I do?
>You will never find another one like her ever again.
Sure there are other great girls out there, but they won't be her.
>tfw it was all my fault
>>34836443
r u my bf? sorry :(
>>34837578
stay strong senpai
Yesterday my birthday
Only 2 people remember. One of them is best friend.
Is my last chance to get a gf approaching random girls?All the female friends of my bros have bfs....
>Tfw I don't want to become a wizard
Also,any advices on how to do it?
>>34838325
kill me
>>34837592
>Failed 3x5 175lbs bench last week
damn senpai
>>34836760
130 is tiny dude. You cut too much or didn't have enough muscle to begin with.
>>34838325
>tfw no one to blame but yourself
>tfw you wish you could start all over but the only way you can move is foward
>>34836505
what would a 'healthy' mindset be?
>>34836760
>130 lean
>no strength loss on cut
well dude, guess it's time for some serious bulking action
>>34838303
lift more, become sexy af.
>>34836688
Just get a script for viagra you faggot. I take 1/4 a pill every night. If I fuck my gf good on me. If I don't I have no sex drive anyway and don't care
I have no worth bros, been abusing myself for months - beating myself and just screaming that I'm worthless and no one cares for me, and it's getting really tiring. I just want to be happy again. On the bright side I have a girl I met at uni who's been supporting me the whole way, we aren't attracted to each other but it's like this brother/sister type thing and it's actually really nice having someone I can lean on when it gets too much.
Also dr's gave me codeine for injury (Aussie here) and it's becoming an escapism to the pain and beatings that I give myself :(
>>34832603
Are muscles all you are?
>>34836651
kek am I really reading this on /fitness/
>went on date with a girl couple of times
>she rejects me
>cuts all contact
>on my birthday
>make shit load of gains since then
>feels good man
>randomly by chance walk past her
>she realises its me and completely avoids eye contact
>she doesnt get to see all the gains i made
>dont try to date anyone
>dont try to make friends
feels pretty lonely and i only have myself to blame
>>34838818
See a doctor about your mental health. Its the first step to ease the pain.
>see doc
>get meds
>wait 2-3 months
>feel better
>>34838818
good look broski
try reading some books by the dallai lama, will chill you out and help you appreciate life more
>>34837397
I think it's true though. I want to be happy, and I have moments of not-sad sometimes, but deep, soul cruising sadness never actually leaves. Happiness never actually comes. I think I have most people fooled that I'm happy because I hide it well and can smile Like everything is normal, but I think you're right. I think we're cursed not to be happy.
>>34839047
I'm the same friend.When will i stop being a lazy fuck mfw
>girl will always laugh at your tiny dick when they get together with their friends
>it doesn't matter how much you lift
feels pretty sad tobh
>>34840650
>being a slut
My ex of 2 years left me for someone new and took most of my new friends with her
When do the painful ass feelings leave
>>34840701
>2015
>judging girls who exercise their right to do what they want with their bodies
>>34840737
found the guy with herpes!
>>34836760
If you lost 40 pounds without losing strength you prob don't have much muscle desu. And maybe you should start hitting abs every day and not fall for the squats and diddles are more than enough for abs troll
>>34836843
Honestly if u guys fugged first night you met she probably isn't gf material. Keep her to fwb and only talk to her when she's drunk because that's when she'll be easy mode
>>34837163
Hope you read this because it will solve all your problems my friend. Go see a therapist seriously. I know you don't want to but he/she will help to start fixing your brain. Don't go on medication though, only do the cognitive behavioral therapy or traditional therapy route. Your parents will get over it and if they don't, they don't prioritize your health over their self image and you should cut them out of your life. Telling the therapist about your academic problems will usually allow you to get your grades waived and you won't have to worry about passing them and you'll graduate since its your last semester. It has to be a uni therapist though. If that doesn't work, get them to prescribe meds because that will certainly get your grades waived. Ultimately I wouldn't take the meds even if you get script. 50% chance of them even working in the first place but they will fuck up other aspects of your life possibly permanently. Behavioral therapy is much more effective and doesn't result in remission for the most part. GL anon and godspeed <:^)
>>34832603
>>she uses clenbuterol and melatonin
Lol wut
That's like saying he uses crystal meth and drinks wine
>>34840650
my dick is tiny when soft
but it's 7" or so when hard
she laughs now but she'll be crying later when her cervix gets stabbed
>>34836287
>she says "I don't deserve you"
Totes gonna borrow this line
PS I'm a dude
>>34836651
Christianity is literally a meme.
>>34832603
My girl friend just told me she is back with her boyfriend. We were pretty close this week, and to be honest not fucking up our friendship may be better on the long run, but the way she said it and the wall of text she sent me later, made me feel like she really wanted me to tell her to not do it, but I won't pursue. Oh well, another near-virginity-loss experience.
/blog
>>34840896
This so much. Sound advice anon.
>>34840712
I'm sorry anon. It will pass, you dodged a bullet.
so I tried the "go to a bar by yourself" thing yesterday
the only hot girls were bartenders, and most people were old or fat. how exactly is this a good way to meet people?
I just went home, no point wasting gains with alcohol.
>>34836688
How did faggot with made-up mental illnesses function before meds were invented?
>Forsooth, Edmund sayeth he cannot toil upon the field today, for his Bipolar Disorder doth ail him. Truly we art doomed to starve, but #raisebipolarawareness
>Oi, listen yous.Ug no want be called Ug no more. Is Uggette now. I is a pretty berrypicker and yous is inflicting heteronormative patriarchal violence on Ug if yous says different.
>Hail and well met, Marcus Antonius. Commst thou to the Colisseum this eve? No, for thine OCD restricts thee to thine villa? Ah, fututus et mori in igni
>>34841121
>girl friend
>our friendship
>wall of text she sent me
Get outta there dude.
>>34837595
>I thought was different
Ya dun goof'd desu senpai
>>34832603
>>34832603
What the fuck is up with people and cheating nowadays? Shit is way too rampant. Have some self respect people.
>>34841390
I tried the same thing a few weeks ago, same result. But I'm in the suburbs outside a major city, I guess the trick is to go to a popular nightlife area in the city, but that adds a logistics problem if I actually do meet a qt. I don't want to say "yeah now let's go to my place 30 minutes away" ya know.
>>34836688
Tell your doctor that your sex drive is kill and get different meds retard. You didn't need to break up because your faggot ass can't get it up and didn't want to work past it with your woman.
>>34837557
Liberal studies cuz I didn't know what I wanted to do
>>34836702
Move on. You learn to give flaky people one extra chance then you drop them. She's already used up all your good will imo.
>>34836651
buddhism isn't even a religion. it's more than that but the western world tried to shoehorn a name onto it
>>34836843
Are you in high school? (not bullying) I only hang out with adults and nobody in my age group cares about how long it takes to respond. If its convenient for me to respond right away I do otherwise I just get to it when I can.
>>34837163
What kind of parents would get mad at you for wanting help? I'm sure they would prefer you to be alive over being dead.
>>34836850
Bro I know what you mean. 6 foot 6 reporting in. I was 250 and I did this from time to time as well. Its honestly okay to pig out once in a while just don't do it to often. Also pace yourself he'll even have a cheat DAY if you want. Just don't go to crazy to the point you throw up.
Pic related is me
>"Since men who become embittered never win respect or admiration, those who sough fame did not rail at the undoubted hardship of their lives and inevitability of death.
>Rather, they endured it or, even better, laughed at it.
>Men and women expected their share of trouble and the best of them attempted to use it, to rise above it and carve out a name for themselves through bravery and loyalty and generosity."
To all you sad fuckers out there. The northmen did not sit around and mope and think about how horrible their life was. It was because they believed that their life was fated to end and they had a destiny that they could not avoid. Instead of being depressed and bitter, they instead rose above their sorrow and laughed at it. Those who didn't overcome, got no respect of those around them. Its a good philosophy and I suggest some of you take it in mind.
>>34841741
They'll just think it's for attention. I tried to open up about it by hinting at stuff but they basically just said to suck it up, although maybe if I went to a therapist without telling them they'd realize it's serious cuz they're not pieces of shit they just think I am
>>34841844
those people never lived in the modern world
they dont know shit.
>>34842177
You're right, life was much more harsh back then. We have no excuse. The philosophy is good is what I'm getting at. No one has any sympathy for the person who wallows in his own misery. Everyone has respect for the man or woman that takes their hardships in stride and comes out a better person in spite of it.
>>34841855
Obviously being dead isn't for attention. Get some outside source (possibly therapist) to tell them to be supportive. It starts from the home outward.
warning long read
>recovered skelly
>used to be 130lbs at 6ft
>now i'm around 165, <10% bf
>little experience with girls, but very good conversationalist. just my introvertism & gaming held me back in the past years
>have a friend whos in a frat
>last thursday night he had 7 underage girls over
>we decided to throw a party
>girls are complete basic bitches, no meaning of life except for social media
>engage in mutual conversation with petite 7/11 qt3.14
>shes underage (i'm 21)
>idgaf
>rich & clean white family
>I do volunteer work at a law firm actually so know good lawyers
>I also live in the Netherlands so fake rape accusations are rare
>we go bar hopping
>me and frat mate go to the frat bar
>girls aren't allowed in and go to pleb bar
>have a great time till about 3am
>frat bar closes, we go to pleb bar
>underage sloots still there
>spot qt 3.14
>she starts dancing with me
>grinds mahdeek
>get a chub (lmao 8x6 she must have felt it)
>jealous whore whale friends try to seperate her from me
>one even tells me she has a boyfriend at home (she told me was single for 2 weeks later that night)
>dont care about boyfriend, fite me irl cunt
>probably mad that i ignored them all night
>probably jealous of the girl
Fucking whores, I spend hundreds of hours on Chinese cotton plucking boards to find ways to improve my aesthetics and they expect a piece when all they do is eat mcdonalds and drink wine every night?
>qt 3.14 buys me a drink
>equality yay
>she's really drunk at this point
>4:30 am I leave the bar with qt3.14 and 3 others
>we walk home
>out of nowhere I lift qt3.14 up from behind (thank mr ripfart 4 functional str)
>she's lovin it
>put her down again
>minute later she asks if she can ride my back
>she grips around my neck, which fuckin hurts
>put her down and carry her fireman style
>put my hand on the inside of her ass, brushing her pussy
>shit was cash
>cont...
>>34841757
From June to Sep that is excellent progress. Keep up the work and your frame will fill out. Don't fall for the tall guys always look skinny lies. I'm a 2m/ 6'6" guy and at my heaviest I weighed over 150 kg, and looked a lot like you, narrow shoulders, big fatty hips and mantits. Now at 120kg and it's amazing. I thought I always had weak shoulders and big hips, but turns out being a lazy shit for 19+ years doesn't help with improving your back muscles lol. Anyway keep on it, tall guys with good proportions (i.e. no big fat gut and gyno) are afforded so much more basic respect that it is wierd.
>>34842514
>we arrive at frat house
>my friends asleep on the couch
>take girl into my friends bedroom
>wasnt planning on fucking her there but wanted to convince her to come to my place 1min away
>my buddy wakes up, walks into his room and finds us there
>tells us to fuc off
>we move to the couch
>i sit down and she lies down and puts her head in my lap
>hear the well fed crabs in a bucket enter the house
>they are here to "rescue her - THEIR WORDS literally
>she's still got her head in my lap
>she doesnt want to get off of mr bones wild ride
>start playfighting a bit
>crabs say "we tried" and they fuck off
>cancer whores pls2burn in hell
>qt3.14 "trying to hit" my dick (just trying to grab it)
>carry her and place her on a seperate mattress
>she's so drunk she cant even handle her phone
>asks me to set an alarm (she has exams in 4 hours)
>find an alarm saying "antibiotics + medicinename"
>ask her about it
>she has pfeiffer
>np I had pfeiffer as a kid so I cant get it anymore
>remember that its really bad to mix alcohol with antibiotics
>probably why shes so fucked up right now
>give her a bottle of water, tell her to drink it all
>whale friends around, frat boys around, shes underage, borderline passed out...
>too risky for me
>decide to go home
So after about 3 months of literally no social contact with any girls and after not going out for 3 months (besides family, cashiers etc) this happens to me.
I found her on facebook. But we dont have any mutual friends on fb. I forgot to ask her phone number. She goes to school in my small town. I'm not sure where to go from here - do I add her on FB? Or is this too desperate? I might run into her whilst partying on an average thursday, but she lives 2 hours away and I'm not sure how often she goes out at night...
>>34842564
Yes, bc you were worried about her health....an you want to check if she is allright
.
>>34841417
... This might be the greatest thing I've read. Here's a reward.
>>34835402
Don't. The gym isn't a place to pick up chicks.
>>34842217
getting over a serious wound or disability? people are impressed by that.
getting over crippling anxiety or depression? people will avoid you for that.
>can't gain weight
>have been around 140 lbs for three months
Will it ever end?
>>34841417
Nature weeded their pathetic asses out kek. Great post btw
>>34842564
The lawyer talk at the start got me to think that it'll be a story about how you got jailed or smth
Tbh was anticlimactic this way
you should've sent a message on fb the next day, now with all this waiting i'd just wait for the next chance (or see if she adds you)
>>34842564
How old is underaged in your country?
>>34837595
how bad was the joke
>>34836287
Be glad bro, you don't want to end up with a girl like that
>>34843026
Anythin below 18, shes 17.
>>34832603
>IKTFB
>gf of 4 years left me for a dude who lost the lower half of one of his legs
>left for a dude with 1 leg
>1 leg
>considering killing myself tonight
>>34837592
post pic of qt sperg girl pls
>>34838360
happy birthday anon i luv u
>>34842546
Post a current pic?
>>34835402
She probably already has a boyfriend.
I'm warning you, anon.
>>34841757
I still have this lower stomach fat pouch thingy.
>tfw I don't even want to be lean
>tfw I just want a flat stomach so I can bulk and make size gains
>tfw probably mid 20's on bf%
>pic related
I feel like I will never have internal peace or be 100% happy with being myself. How do I learn to like myself?
>>34842564
You could literally cut out 99% of your story and still get your message across. Can you at least try to make it seem like you're not uneducated
>>34843459
>I feel like I will never have internal peace or be 100% happy with being myself.
Nobody does. We just get increasingly good at hiding this fact.
>Girl broke up with me
>shes probably doing all kind of stuff in life
>meanwhile I am at home on a chinese animal rights activist imageboard
I would never take her back, but I want to improve myself so much to spite her.
>>34843480
Well that the sort of thing I was expecting from place where most people lift to reclaim/ salvage lost love.
>>34843459
no1 are actually happy with themselves and the ones that are has abonded the idea that a entity such as "yourself" even exist
be like water my friend
>>34843464
Glad to have wasted your life you salty dipshit.
>>34841707
Im at uni. I usually dont care either but when they go from replying in under 2 minutes to multiple hours/days I get pretty annoyed.
>>34832603
>Fuckbuddy calls up at 10.30
>"anon I don't think we've got anything in common yada yada"
>convince her it's not all bad, she wants to keep meeting up as friends for now on
>dying to fuck again,
No idea if she's testing me, she keep dropping sexual hints and telling me how attractive I am despite barely showing any initiative.
>>34832603
>mid 20's
>hairline of bozo the clown
Tfw no amount of lifting will restore my hair.
>>34836702
sounds like she plans dates with multiple guys on the same day. you must not be first on her hit list
>>34845027
It's a shit test bro. Ignore her and chase other pussy. She'll come running back.
>>34837163
pussy bitch
lmao at your life
>>34845602
Only thing is I don't want other pussy. I also don't want her running into some other dude she likes better.
I know what I should be doing, but somehow I'm unable to ignore her or play her off.
>>34838303
suck his dick more often
>>34839047
why couldnt they be saved? or just climb down?
>>34841757
dem birthing hips
sorry anon
>>34841000
Wow anon you're such a virgin, 7'' is pretty average.
>>34841121
holy shit that pic
>mid workout
>my thoughts begin to wander
>memories resurfaces mid set
>an old injury I experienced as a boy
>a humiliating moment in front of a crowd of classmates
>another memory being rejected by my first love
>memory of my grandpapa
>don't wanna let him down
>feeling tears slide
>i keep going
>the sadness turns into aggression
>I get very angry
>do every set until im red
>finish lifts satisfied
Clear mind now for the rest of today
>>34832603
wtf op? are u gay?
>lifts
>destroys his gains cuz of some hoe
what has lifting really done for you? little bitch.
>>34836641
Oh ya. It's like, definitely that. Sertraline will straight kill your sex drive. So for whatever it's worth, it's not you that's defective. It's the meds making you defective
>develop a crush on a girl
>become friends with her over Facebook (we chat multiple times per week, sometimes for several hours at a time)
>our interactions gradually become less and less frequent
>some time later, trying to rekindle the friendship
>we agree to go see a movie together
>things seem to go well, but when I ask her if she wants to hang out afterwards, she blows me off
>not wanting to seem overly eager, I decide to let her make the next move
>we haven't spoken in over a year
>mfw I still have dreams about her
What kind of Hell is this?
>27
>virgin
Hold me bregs ;_;
>>34846880
I know that feel ;_; hold me anon
>>34832603
that's the problem with beautiful women. they can never be trusted.
marry a submissive 5/10 and bang attractive women on the side. that's the best advice i can give you.
>>34846880
that was your first mistake anon, never make friends with a girl before asking her out. you have to be at least a little romantically intriguing from the get-go or it messes with their heads
>>34840088
I used to be like that and I just stopped thinking about.
Couple years later and everything is alright.
No experience with women, few friends, no one to talk to, but I'm alright.
I feel like this is happiness because a majority of the time I'm not upset or have trouble thinking anymore.
Still hard to sleep tho.
>>34841417
They probably committed suicide anon.
I hope you're underage if you have the mentality about others.
>>34836651
This.
Have faith is our lord, and know there is a path he has made for you because he loves you.
Things will get better OP, use the feels to empower your gainz, and maybe find Christ in the process, nothing will give you morewill than the holy spirit.
>>34833722
When will the Buddhism meme end?
>>34847462
Same here, i think hapiness is just when you stop caring about your problems.
>>34847668
happiness is just like any emotion, we can't be happy every minute.
should look at it as if you're fulfilled or not, content or discontent
>>34847668
I think it depends on the problem. Unavoidable ones, sure but the ones that aren't need to be eliminated before you can find happiness
>meet qt eastern european girl over summer
>spend a lot of time with her, sleeping with her, watching movies, playing cards, talking
>i have to go return home at the end of summer
>we don't text each other a lot
>i tell her i'm thinking to come to her city again in december to see her
>excited
>today i see her liking the instagram photos of some greasy disgusting manlet from her city who looks like he's done 2 weeks in the gym on a brosplit and is now uploading photos of his ""abs"" to social media
>she probably met up with him and fucked him
gunna forget about her and tell her i'm not coming anymore. who knows how many guys she's fucking.
>have exam tomorrow
>can't stop thinking about Fallout 4
>feeling a little fat cause I'm bulking
>keep telling myself I'm just getting outta hungry skelly mode and I can cut once I'm done
I do like the additional mass tho
should probably get back to studying tho tbqhwyf
>>34847725
Good plan. In fact never leave the house and assume every woman is a std riddled slut.
ok guys
when you make jokes, you make them to amuse yourself, not others
>girl is really into me
>I'm into her, but she wants sex and I want a relationship
>she has a bf
>if I fuck her I'll never be able to trust her if we enter a relationship
>regardless, I really want to fuck her
>my parents will die some day and I will regret not spending more time with them
I can already sense how I feel when my dad passes.
>>34847807
Are you a homosexual per chance?
>>34843639
not true, you are in denial because you like to ignore bad feeling, like almost all do
you do not even aknowledge the deeper bad feelings so you will be clueless of finding way to true happiness
>>34847807
http://www.scientology.org/videos/category/twth/dont-be-promiscuous.html
>>34847830
>tfw in 100 years everyone living right now will be dead
>>34847831
>she cheats with you, she'll cheat on you
is this tru f4m?
>>34843266
>tfw have 1 leg
>no hope for anything anymore
>qt starts flirting with me
>think she's toying with me
>mfw she isn't
>mfw I have hope now
You will be alright senpai.
Having 1 leg doesn't make you less of a person, so her leaving you for a guy like that doesn't say anything about you at all.
Good luck bruh.
>>34847695
>>34847715
I agree with the emotion thing family.
"Finding happiness" doesn't resonate well with me.
I've just let go of most of my bad thoughts about the past and everything feels distant now, as if it happened to a different person.
Pretty comfy desu.
Still need to work on my anxiety tho, it's still there in large groups and it's keeping me from being more than content.
Being in the gym is the worst thing possible to me, I recently make a jurryrigged setup for curls and bench.
It's not much at all but I enjoy it, so hopefully I can get an actual homegym at sometime.
>>34837592
where you studying senpai?
>>34847857
in 100 years you will be dead, anon. ded
>talking to girl on kik
>she asks how my body is
>send her flexed arm pic
>she's mirin
>she asks to see my abs
>tell her I don't have any
>"You have nice arms but no abs? lol"
i'm b-bulking
>>34840650
>have a nice dick
>barely have sex
feels like a waste desu
>>34846880
its same as "first love"
human likes to study new things, feeling love is just that thing that people arent familiar with the first time they feel it.
you also gain pleasure from feeling love, even when you know nothing of the person. those times your mind connects the "first love" to perfect match, that is often unperfect female that is slim and akward, yet beautiful and wise on some extent
thats why anime is popular. its man made females, kinda like if you turn into female for a day, you would abuse the "power" over males all the time and act just like they do write female charasters in anime. people who like anime for the girls, masturbate for the ideas created by some other males.
once you come to study your own feelings, your own mind, your own body functions, then you can claim that you are in your way to become human, or something more than average human, someone who is truly selfaware
love is just feeling, like hate, anger, ilness or pain. all of which you can study something from
>>34836443
If you're not happy, her being dependent on you isn't a reason to not break up, it just means you'll both end up being unhappier, until it either gets to the point where it's unhealthy, or she gets sick of it and dumps you anyway.
I can almost guarantee that she's not as reliant on you as you think, there's always other stuff. And even if there's not, ask yourself if she'd stick with you if the situation was reversed.
But seriously man, it's not worth it.
>>34847830
My father had a brain injury and it's hard to be around him.
He has so many disgusting traits now and a lot of things I respected him for are gone now, it's depressing.
The struggle is real, remember for what he was or be depressed but there for him.
>>34847918
woah f am
>>34847748
I know this feel. Just broke 160 but a bit of definition in my face is gone and my belly folds now and then. I want to cut now but I doubt that's what I should do
>you will always have bacne
>>34836539
>>34837178
>tfw breaking a bench pr made me feel the happiest I've been in a while
It wasn't even heavy ;_;
>>34848797
I know this feel
>tfw when finally bench 120 without a spotter
feels good man
>>34844658
Yeah that's inconsiderate and fucked up. Drop and move on.
>>34837039
Hello UCbro. I lost literally everything this summer, 1.5 years of progress when I had surgery to remove my colon. Dropped from 215 to 190. Just got back up to 220 and I'm hitting PRs now. When I was able to lift again I was at square 1 with all my lifts, but within 3 months I regained all my strength. You'll be ok, bro.
>>34849002
what was the point of this post
thanks, I guess. didnt ask for your life story.
fag
fuck u
>>34838818
mix that lean up with some xans if you REALLY wanna take the pain away
>>34836287
where do I met girls brehs? can't go to bars yet and have a windows phone so no tender. Am I fucked?
>>34848821
good job, keep at it
>in the gym today
>just starting out
>do 10kg bench press, feeling pretty happy
>old man gets on bp after i'm done
>does 15kg
I know 10kg is absolutely nothing but what a knock to my confidence
>>34839047
>on the bus
>see q.te girl
>I know she will reject me but what the fuck
>man up
>ask her if she wants to go out with me sometimes
>"haha oh god no"
I expected it and spaghetti'd, but it still hurt
>>34846005
This is what I often do too. We must burn the feels as a fuel for our journey.
>broke as fuck
>cutting so not too big an issue on the food front
>can't afford gym membership until Jan
>going to lose any muscle I actually have
>will be joining the gym with all the new year twats
Fuck this
>>34850340
How the hell can you do a 10kg bench press when the bar alone is 20kg?
>>34851760
I think he meant the added weight, so 10+10+20..
>>34850383
c'mon man, there are thousands of places you'd expect to talk to a girl.
A bus is hardly one of those.
>>34847906
Preaching to the choir bud
>>34832603
you should've known she's a cheater when she told you she's taking clen.
>>34836897
Buddhism encourages nihilism, which is opposite of Christian hope.
>>34836760
BULK
U
L
K
Is there any easy way to get a girlfriend without leaving the house?
>>34837578
Download the stop smoking app. Almost 1 year smoke free
>tfw life is good but I don't have a gf
Anyone else know this feel? Everything is going alright but I don't have a girlfriend... oh well
>>34847002
Ur 3 years away from wizard status anon! Stick it out and become a druid!! I wont ever know the power of being a warlock and am slightly jelly of the near infinite power that abstaining from females grants you
>>34836680
I Agree with this.
>>34840737
>By sleepin around and getting looser than O.J
I excercise my right to call them what they are.
>Slut shaming
It ain't called women, temptress, etc. shaming for a reason meng.
>>34847725
idiot maybe it's her dyel cousin and she's trying to encourage him
>deloaded 60 lbs on my squat today because I video taped myself and was horrified at my form
>form is top notch now, felt the burn at 160 more than my prior 220 5x5
>best workout in weeks
>still drinking almost daily
>probably gonna get more methadone even tho i promised myself id stop because it makes me not drink
>this is all over a bitch i was with for 6 years
>traitorous whore, long story, we have a kid so i have to see and intereact with her every weekend
>i just wanna be clean again so I can get my best gains
>bitch took my car, no ride
>good job
>my own place
>5'7 manlet but great genetics, v shape, pretty face, put on muscle really easy
>all my friends are back home, 600 miles away and i cant move back because of child and job...fucking seriously lonely with no support.
i dont even know whats going on anymore, fuck it. fucking homesick for sure. Never get involved with a liberal female, thats real advice there for you younger guys in here
>>34858465
Opiates(oids) are never the answer man. It's way too easy to self-medicate with opiates. Just keep slogging through the shit and everything will eventually get better. I dead with depression and loneliness too, but its much more manageable with lifting.
Source: former 342lb IV meth/heroin addict.
Now clean, down to 230, and nearly at my goal weight. If I can do it, you can too man.
>>34837595
you're probably not funny desu senpai
>>34859049
yea i know, i know exactly what i need to do yet i do the opposite. if (theres that word) i could get a hold of some trazadone or something kicking would be a lot easier. i just cant sleep clean. i dunno.
>>34859503
Well it sounds like you know what you need to do. Eventually you'll get to the point where you'll do it, or you won't.
Just seen too many lives destroyed by opiate addiction, you're treading in dangerous territory. Everyone always thinks the same thing- that they can control their use, and it always ALWAYS ends up spiraling out of control into addiction.
>>34842564
how about stop being a creep and go for someone your age?
