ITT: Describe your life with a /co/ related image
>>84125985
>>84125985
>>84125985
Go away AncientReality
>>84125985
Doing pretty good, actually. Happy times.
Here, have a Pandadog. He'll make you happy too.
Just started a new job that doesn't make me want to kill myself.
![[Dingo] Steven Universe S02E29.png](https://i.imgur.com/ElZpOrV.png "[Dingo] Steven Universe S02E29.png")
>>84126608
you're not a failure anon
>>84126678
Much appreciated words, anon. My post was in reference to how I usually try to chase goals, but aren't achieved.
Its going pretty good, got done with all the moving and my marriage is happy considering we've been married for 3 months, and my new job is great.
I'm not being very responsible with my money.
>>84127673
Do you have any more like this?
>>84125985
America God dammit
I suppose things are getting better, I'm starting a better job here in a few months, moving to a place with a lower cost of living and into a nicer apartment, have my financial shit in gear more or less, and patched up a relationship with my mom.
I just wish I still didn't feel so goddamn grumpy and cynical about everything though.
Surprisingly, pretty great
Me = batkid
Supes = physical metaphor for job as a whole
>>84125985
Anyone who posts anything other than this is lying.
>thought had my depression under control
>its back and feisty
>gone back to drinking my sorrows away again
>getting feelings for my straight best friend again
>basically relapsing all over again
>even though I've gotten a raise at work and work at a great job with great people I still feel miserable and occasionally think about suicide.
>>84125985
Life's alright so far, until I get a job that is.
>>84125985
>>84128658
Why do you think the depression came back?
>>84129026
>no longer in school so I'm not being challenged intellectually or being distracted by studies
>no creative outlets
>home is a very depressing place
>this time two years ago tried killing myself
I know what I can do to help myself, its just a long road to get myself back on my feet. Its a road I'm taking one step at a time so its slow, but progress is being made.
Kill me
>>84129099
You can do it, man. Don't give up, don't lose track, know that you can. It may seem simple and stupid, but it fucking works.
>no longer in school so I'm not being challenged intellectually or being distracted by studies
>no creative outlets
I think we can kill two birds with one stone. Are you a writer? An artist?
Just wasting my time.
>Getting laid off next week
>Gotta go job hunting yet again
Just lost my longest best friend because of an argument over his drug problem.
The sad part is I'm not really sad about it as much as I am angry that he got upset and cussed me out over it.
In fact I'm outright pissed off about it because I used to look up to him so much because he used to be one hell of guy. Now he is just an asshole who would rather drink and do drugs then play vidya and play music with.
I swear if not for my parents and my gf I would honestly think humanity was a mistake.
basically
>>84128658
>feelings for a straight best friend again
Tell him/her. Seriously
my life is a mess, but I love it
>>84125985
Alternatively, ANY nedroid and about half of non-edited whomps.
>>84125985
Or any other suicidal ones
:^)
>>84125985
It's been a long, dark, winding path I've traveled these last 15-ish years.
I've made a terrible mistake
I can't undone the things I've done
34 and never even asked a girl out or held their hand
>>84133193
Did you just stop trying too?
>>84126120
congrats. I start my new job in 3 weeks, I hope it all goes well.
i want to say i'm happy with my life, but i'm not, i want to say i'm sad or angry with how my life is, but i'm not. i'm just sort of 'fine', that comfortable middle-ground between good and bad, but i'm working on it.
>>84132925
Vanilla love is the final /d/egeneracy. In the end we all just want to be loved and held by another.
>>84133045
This! I need to fucking stop.
>>84133221
after have a decade, yeah
>>84133261
Too fucking true, anon.
>>84133295
You're better off.
>>84133193
Did you also get threatened by groups of girls in school to never say you had a crush on anyone because it would ruin their reputation too, or was it something else?
Story time?
>>84125985
Yep...
>>84133342
what the fuck? I never notice until it's too late. i used to talk to girls and hang out with them, but we never hugged, shake hands, or take pictures. One day i woke up and realized i was 30 and never had a real meaningful relationship and simply shrugged it off. Now that my male friends have like 2-3 kids and wives it's hard not to think about it.
>>84133514
Oh
That's much nicer than being told by a mob that I wasn't allowed to be romantically interested towards anyone
>>84133635
talk about being a kuck
>>84128658
All you gotta do is keep changing things in your life. Just little things. That way, you'll get into the mindset that your depression isn't a constant and can be easily flipped around.
>>84133635
I don't understand what sort of scenerio you could have been in that made it so that you couldn't simply tell them to fuck off.
all I do is exercise so I can work up a fucking appetite for the next meal
I literally live to be able to eat more and I don't know what the FUCK is wrong with me
>>84133861
The scenario was a group of girls who beat me up and threatened to do it repeatedly
I was like fucking 12 what would you expect a kid to do when he's ashamed of telling anyone he got beat up by girls and knowing that teachers wouldn't do shit even if I did
>>84133929
This is turning me on
I can do a lot of cool shit and everyone sees potential in me but in reality I have no idea who I am as a person and that causes me to obsessively get involved in working.
>>84133514
I feel like this is me in 10 years
>>84127673
CAN'T...HOLD...ON...MUCH...LONGER
>>84125985
>>84132534
I know that feel. Since I know I can never escape, I'll just move to Austin instead of staying in this boring city.
>>84130153
All that over one guy?
>>84125999
I love Tom Taylor so much.
accurate
>>84133247
I distinctly remember that scene making me feel like shit when I saw it.
>>84125985
>>84125985
>>84128658
If it makes you feel better, I've been depressed for ages (if I had to pin down a number I would realistically say 14. I did tell my psychologist that I wanted to kill myself when I was 12 though.) I've also known I was bi since I was 15 but I haven't told anyone yet. I'm 25.
I live in america and own an arsenal. My friends don't understand. This speaks to me.
![flex-hoaxer[1].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/2WH9W5D.jpg "flex-hoaxer[1].jpg")
>>84127379
Ayyy congrats Anon!
>>84135399
>I can do a lot of cool shit
examples?
>and everyone sees potential in me
that's what people who love you say
>but in reality I have no idea who I am as a person
do you want to be someone better or different? life is not about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself.
>that causes me to obsessively get involved in working.
what do you mean by this?
>>84136600
Fuck is this
>>84125985
>>84136416
>depressed since 12
>bi since 15
are those two related?
as other people have suggested in the thread, keep your mind busy. creating stuff, anything really, will keep you busy and give you a sense of accomplishment. if you don't exercise (or better yet, lift) you should. your Dopamine levels will increase exponentially and it will be impossible for you to feel blue.
being in a world of normies is killing me
>>84136695
>depressed since 8
>bi since 9
I never told my parents about the last part. Or how it happened.
>>84135433
I relate all to well...
>>84136834
kys
depressed since i was 5 and had to watch my father slowly die from Chemo as he forget about us because of the tumour in his brain.
when you're five your dad is your hero, its like watching batman/superman/spider man/captain america slowly wither away until they just stop being there.
that shit can do some serious stuff to a kid, was in therapy until i was 13 and i learned to pretend to be happy, became a shut-in, stopped attending my "accelerated" classes at school, and started failing my regular classes.
now i'm 23, have 3 friends, friend 1 and 2 are dating and i barely see them, and i'm fairly sure the other one is gay for either me or friend number 2, so hanging out with him alone is always weird. i keep myself focused on random crap to avoid sinking into the pit of thinking about myself and always deflect people asking if i'm OK with jokes about how i have a collection of nooses at home, and the only thing stopping me from killing myself is my inability to choose the perfect knot.
>>84127126
keep it up, man. Things are always difficult.
>>84125985
>>84137005
That got a little silly near the end.
>>84137107
weaponize comedy is a powerful thing anon.
>>84137005hook up with the gay one
>>84137178
but i'mnot gay, anon,i'm one of those faggots that only likeswomen.
>>84137314
I was literally asked by a friendif I've ever tried being gaytoday, because I'd probably have better luck.
Also, mine.
>>84137479Not that it's any of my business, but he's right. Guys are way easier. If you feel comfortable, I say go for it.
>>84137554Nah. Dicks are gross. I don't even like looking at my own junk in the shower.
>>84137554
>but he's right. Guys are way easier.
Premium bullshit.
>Think bad thoughts
>Have a bad time
>>84137687
C'mon, you know I'm right.
>>84125985
Is my life real and not some kind of weird simulation?Sometimes I can't tell
>>84138039
why would it be? or are you talking in a spiritual sense where your soul and the body you host are separate things.
>>84125985
>>84138058
Sometimes everything feels so weird...expecially because I've often problems in uderstanding people's behaviour
>>84138085
that's personal. i believe anything can be interpreted. also, whose behavior and what did they do that you don't understand?
about six years ago, I just stopped bringing it uponly one person has realized this, and asked early this year
>>84138085
sounds like disassociation. does it often feel like your body is at arm's length from your consciousness, metaphorically speaking?
Everyone's an idiot except for me.
>>84138138>>84138148
I'm happy that you're interested but I'm afraid that everything is caused by some kind of autismo sadly
>>84138240
you don't know what actual autism is. that is incurable. don't let 4chan's memeing fool you either. a simple mental disorder that has developed over time by an event or a multiple of them can be treated without drugs.
you're anonymous, i know you want to reach out to someone about your condition other wise you wouldn't have mentioned it.
>>84133247
I was gonna post this
Gotta make my friend watch Season 1 and 2 with me before I watch season 3 when we're in college together this fall.
I'm about to start college so that's going to be a huge thing for me, involuntarily living my life as a shutin for 16 years thanks to my agoraphobia mother, and even though I've had a car and freedom of movement on my own it still feels incredibly strange getting out and doing things.
For a little bit I had a girlfriend, and she helped me with getting out and doing things and interacting with people until she decided to dump me and ruined all my progress but I'm slowly bouncing back.
Going to college in a town hours away from my home will be a big change, I'll have an actual community to be a part of and a town to live in instead of being stuck in my middle of nowhere rural shack I live in currently, and people I can interact with in person instead of only socializing via the Internet.
I hope I can handle all that, I really do.
Does anyone else feels like 2016 is an exceptionnaly shitty year for everyone ?
>>84138444
2012 was my last really and truly good year.
>>84125985
>>84138453
2010
>>84125985
I admittedly have a pretty good life for an ugly fucking fat girl who lives with her parents
But I still have crippling depression and anxiety that flares up occasionally and causes me to be a shut-in
>>84125985
>>84138461
1993
>>84138491
have you tried to lose weight? ever been to /fit/?
>>84125985
>>84138628
as a /fit/ ugly guy, you can have the most sculpted body ever, but if your default face shape is "wonky potato" then there's no hope for good looks. that being said, its always worth working out a bit, means you get to live long enough for life to give-up on kicking your shit in, and sometimes you can even out-run the beatings.
Me on the left
>>84135644
GOD SPEED CLIFF HANGER!!!
>>84138769
being /fit/ and ugly is at least better than being fat and ugly from a self-confidence perspective. plus just exercise in general literally forces your brain to be positive and motivated. your face can't that be that bad unless you have some sort of deformity or acne/pockmarks. the lower your BF%, the more symmetrical and instinctively appealing your face/head becomes.
>>84138798
not deformed, just weirdly round, with large ears, my face looks fat no matter what.
>>84126209
>when school starts again for the underaged users
I understand pity sex now, but I'm still socially retarded
>>84135644
kek
I have no talent and I must scream
>>84136467Did this actually happen to you?
>>84131943
Ha Ha It brings me great pleasure that I never experienced this pain.
>>84139003
I hate pity sympathy of any sort. People got mad at me when I had breakdowns in class because I'd reject their very obviously guilt-tripped advances at treating me like a human being while I was breaking down because if they actually gave a damn they'd have tried communicating before I made a spectacle of myself
>>84139292
oh i get it, because no one would ever consider even doing that to you. Ha Ha it makes me happy that you're that pathetic.
>>84138444
2012it's the year when my dream of becoming a chef started dying
>>84139470
No it's because I was in independent study and had no social interactions outside meeting with my teacher once a week for 6 years thank you very much.
>>84138007
Is this am actual Simpsons cap? Did they actually just type in comic sans over the art instead of fucking drawing in the words?
>>84139281At least this mini-arc has a happy ending, Anon
>>84139791
>>84132579
This all the way.
>>84133514
See, there's your problem: having friends.
A life of solitude means you never have to see other people happy.
Out of sight, out of mind.
my family says boys shouldn't get sad so they get angry at me if I come home depressed
>>84139495
I'm currently trying to squeeze a serve safe certification out of a local fast food restaurant, but our general and district manager are sooooooooooo slooooooow, and the people I work with are infuriating and sad.
>>84140050
>boys shouldn't get sad
The fuck? Are they robots?
>>84140158
Or women.
>>84136431
My older brother became a bit of a gun nut after he got a job and moved out. He's been joking about running out of space in his apartment for them.
>>84138444
Started out that way, I got fired from my job, but it's for the best since I wound up getting a position that pays less, but is more rewarding and I have to deal with less bullshit.
>>84136646
>what did the autist mean by this
http://i.imgur.com/rkxBqL7.mp4
>live alone
>dead end job
>waste life watching cartoons
>no friends
fuck im a loser
>>84125985
>>84137717
You're really not.
>>84126020
I just recently started watching this. Is Carl really that retarded? Holy shit
Currently at one if not my lowest point
>Marry high school sweetheart
>buy a house together
>been together 8 years
>she has depression
>can't leave her home alone or she'll stay in bed all day watching tv feeling like crap
>can't get her to do anything because she doesn't have any willpower
>Can't talk about these things because thinking about it gets her deeper into her depression
>Takes pills but they don't help that much
>Doesn't do dishes, take care of the yard, vacuum, clean or pick up her stuff
>I want to have kids but don't know if she'll be a good mother
>Can't tell her this because I'm afraid she'll kill herself
>have anxiety
>can't seem to find a passion to make a living
>want to get out of my parent's house
>>84141452
Good
Now there's nowhere to go but up
>>84125985
>>84141794
I'm in my mid 20's and had to move back, so you're not alone.
>>84125985
>>84141801
You can always go lower, always
But yeah, going up would be great
>>84142226
Planet is a sphere
So, even if you keep going deeper, you'll start going up eventually
>>84139821
Oddly enough, this one has really applied to me as of late
>>84141839
I lived with my parents for about a year after I graduated college and was looking for a job. Actually worked out pretty well, I saved up enough money by working two part-time jobs to eventually pay my way back into grad school.
>>84136695
Not really actually. Kind of a drop in the bucket more than anything. I'm actually in a better place than I have been but I'm still pretty depressed.
>>84137005
>so hanging out with him alone is always weird
You deserve loneliness
