>Bottle raise a husky from a pup
>Walk her every day
>Dog was basically me, no one understand her but me. She loved me so much.
>She was 5
>leave town to go to university
>She had a seizure one day and dies
>Broken up over it for two years every week I still cry over her
>decide to go get another dog to numb the pain
>find one I like at the humane society
>young but only one good eye due to birth defect
>clearly scared around all the barking dogs
>take her outside, she instantly calms down
>I am going to give this dog a good life, I'll help it.
>Fill out the paper work
>Brother insist he take it for a walk
>Harness breaks
>dog runs off
>Feel terrible even the humane society people tell me it isn't my fault
I can't deal anymore lads...
>>2157808
I can understand how bad you feel, but dogs are living creatures just like you are. You shouldn't try to live their life for them. It ran away, and that was not your fault. Your dog had a seizure and died, and that as well was not your fault. These things happen to all other creatures on this planet including humans. Bad things always happen for the good things to come. Don't hinder your growth as a person because of things that are out of your hands.
This was my Bichon, Kira. Found her dead, poisoned, near my house.. I..I cant even.
>>2157818
>Leaves dog outside
>b-but why did my dog die
I Can't feel bad for you.
>>2157808
This i can have some sense of sorrow for. Its things out of your control. Try to make sure that you are the only one taking care of the dog. It seems that the people you leave your animals with tend to care very little and not know what to do when someone else's dog is having problems or takes off. They don't see it with sentimental value like you do.
Its best not to dwell on their death, rather remember the time you gave them knowing that it could never do the same for you. You gave those animals comfort and care while they were alive. At least they got to have a good experience before it died, instead of living in fear and being driven by hunger to eat other things alive. It couldn't have had a better life.
Goodluck anon. Hopefully you can get another dog and get past this.
>>2157808
You need professional help, girl.
I'm really really sorry about that OP. I actually went through something similar. My dog of thirteen years died earlier this year from a seizure as well, and it hit me like a ton of bricks. After a couple weeks of crying, I decided that the best way to honor her was to get another dog in need. The very same day I brought home a newly adopted dog, who was shy and didn't like being around people or other dogs, and being outside on the way to my home door, she fought the leash, bit me, and wriggled out of her collar and ran off. I ran after her but was nowhere near fast enough and by the time I turned the corner I saw her lying in the middle of the street in a pool of blood. I felt like a fucking piece of shit, I didn't even have her for a day and didn't get to help her like I told her I would. I cried and felt traumatized.
My intentions were good though, and so were yours. I just got another dog from the shelter and she's been a real sweetheart and after getting over her initial feeling of a new home, she follows me everywhere. All I can say is cry it out and after you feel better, you can always try to help another dog who needs it. There are many others after all.
