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Being too nice to people
2016-03-22 20:19:05 Post No. 16946042
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Being too nice to people
Anonymous
2016-03-22 20:19:05
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Can anyone to relate?
I've always been very gentle -natured since my childhood, almost docile, but not in a sense that I would let people use me for their own benefit, I usually cut all contact at that point before I let that happen.
I don't held grudges or talk shit about my coworkers behind their back, or criticize my friends behind their back, or even just gossip around about anyone's business.
I had really drastic ego-death experiences during my 20s with LSD and MDMA and it made me feel almost universal love towards almost every living being. Sadly, those experiences just made me feel more alienated around my peers.
People like to talk shit all the time about everyone. Coworkers talk shit about other coworkers, about my boss. Friends talk shit about friends etc and gossip about their (private) business.
Usually those people who criticize and talk shit about people behind their backs to you, will probably do so about you when you are not around. This cycle depresses me more and more and has alienated me from my social circle in general through the years.
Most of my coworkers almost hate me for this thing. They think probably that I have some "holier than thou" -attitude that I don't generally banter (friendly or unfriendly) about anyone and tend to keep to myself.
I fried my brain with acid and eastern mysticism too long ago and everyday I get up and leave my house it's like entering some utopian Reptilian world where everyone is in a hurry to not care about hurting feelings and rights of others. It's make you just more nihilistic in the long run, even though you find may some absolute gems on your journey, that is, my closest friends.