I am socially dead. After highschool, any hope of a maintaining a "social life" died for me. I tried to ignore it. I followed my dreams and became a U.S Marine, and for awhile things were going good. But now when I'm not in the barracks, I am usually alone. Nobody invites me to anything, and I don't know wtf I am doing wrong. I struggle with low self esteem, being a virgin doesn't help. I thought I was doing a good job at hiding it, but people seem to be able to sense it. I feel like people think I am some sort of freak. I want to talk to a therapist, but I am not sure where to start. Or if it will even help.
>>16612524
Allright OP
you're introverted, you aren't someone who is known as a social butterfly
you feel worthless because you think everyone should be a social butterfly.
Tell me son, you got a family or something you care for outside the barracks?
you got any kind of goal?
why did you join the marines?
why do you have low self esteem?
>>16612539
I've got family, I enjoy spending time with them. Right now I don't really have any big goals, straight out of highschool I had a bunch. But the real world kinda made most of them very distant. I joined the Marine Corps to serve my country, I won't say I regret joining. But the Corps is very different than I had imagined it being. And lastly, I am not exactly sure. When I was young people used to make fun of me a lot, for no apparent reason. I look in the mirror today, and I see a perfectly healthy 19 year old male who isn't bad looking at all. But in the deepest parts of my mind, I can feel something telling me I'm inferior. To what? I'm not sure. Everybody, I guess. I don't know why.
