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Get well.
>>16606207
>>16606231
I was only writing is the new it's just a prank bro.
Sigmund Freud, known as the father of psychoanalysis, recorded his observations of group dynamics in Group Psychology and the Analysis of the Ego. In his work, he refers to Wilfred Trotter as the group conditions its members, Freud states "opposition to the herd is as good as separation from it, and is therefore anxiously avoided.[2]" Such fear causes the individual members and even leaders of a particular group to go along with the decisions a group based in accordance to its culture. On a micro scale, the individual is conditioned to partake in the social norms of the said group even if they contradict his or her personal moral code. The consequences of such protest (may) result in isolation. Such, in accordance to Freud, is one of the greatest punishments than can be instilled on an individual. This would result in the inability of an individual to practice his or her "instinctual impulses." These instincts, in accordance to Freud, are the motives behind actions that the individual may take. The father of psychoanalysis further states that, "we thus have an impression of a state in which an individual's private emotional impulses and intellectual acts are too weak to come to anything by themselves and are entirely dependent for this on being reinforced by being repeated in a similar way in the other members of the group.[2]" Out of fear of isolation and to secure the practice of instinctual impulses, there may be little protest from individual members as the group continues to conditions.
Thanks Wiki,
Old fashioned man
I hope we talk again. I'll text you on New Years Eve to wish you a happy new year, you don't need to respond but it'd make me really happy if you did. And I hope everything gets better for you... I think it will. Don't forget about me <3
Dear SW
I hope you had a wonderful Christmas it was so hard not to text or call you. I was hammered so I think that little talk we had actually helped. I am slowly getting over you and I hope you have a happy new years as well.
Love, KS
S
I never believed you could love someone without ever even meeting them irl but I did, I actually loved you. And you loved me, didn't you? You had to, you didn't lie? The things you said were amazing. I don't know how I got so attached, this sucks so much. It's so fucking hard. I miss you and I want you, I want to be with you so bad. I wish you reply to my last text, please do, I need to know more. I'm probably making a fool of myself since this is tearing me apart, since it seems easy for you. You probably lost your feelings a while ago. I wish it could have gone a different way. We could have been together for years who knows. I just miss you so much it hurts, I want you back, I want you to be mine and me to be yours again. I don't want to not be with you. Why did you do this to me? I kinda hope you read this. I need you.
O
Nicely done not texting her, good luck bro
Dear S
Dude I'm sorry if I only would've accepted it earlier and not gone after a popular girl I could've asked her out before you are planning on doing it and I'm sure you know I would but I don't want to cause any problems
Sincerely J
I managed to survive the last two days with the help of my antidepressants, putting myself to sleep with drugs was the only way I found to stop thinking about everything.
You know what's funny? Even though I tried so hard to not remember the last christmas with you, when I checked my Facebook it showed a post from me exactly from 1 year ago, last christmas, as a "memory". Fuck Facebook...
I was so happy, I was overjoyed, it was the first real christmas I spent with someone, the first christmas I spent with you, and the gift I got from everyone made me work hard to not cry of happiness. I wanted to show everyone, "look what my love gave me".
That was one year ago, but I remember it like it was yesterday...I do remember, and I will never forget, no matter how many times you call me creepy for that.
Today I went to watch the new Star Wars movie, some girl I met recently paid me. She kept holding my arm and trying to hold my hand, I felt sick. After watching the movie I hurried back home, what can I do? I still fucking love you, I can't just move on the way you did. Do you hate me for that?
All I wanted for this christmas and for this new year that comes is to hear from you again, for you to not hate me, to be my friend again. That's all I want.
Dear Gi,
i hope you remeber we are made for each other and we've been together since the beginning of times and we will keep on finding each other until comes the day and age when we can finally be together.
I hate you, you avoidant dyke bitch. You and your empty promises.
>>16607178
hurtful.. fuck you.
Dear A,
You're fucking pathetic, always trying to stir shit up for your amusement and your shitty life "philosophy" is ridiculous. You're quite basic, despite your thinking that you aren't.
>>16607178
I'm sorry
>>16607380
Lolk
Dear D
I never liked the Montreal Canadiens.
You ended our relationship, don't make me feel guilty that you became a fat slob writing 12 year old girl edgy posts on Facebook.
I'm going on a plane after my surgery.
I have media credentials in one hand and tickets in the other.
You whined. I did.
I gave you my Widow when you wanted to play.
I gave you my uppers email to apply when you wanted to write.
You share a room with your brother half your age.
I am in hotels by the beach.
When you said our relationship shouldn't continue from the comfort of Butlins.
I lost so much baggage, I didn't even have to pay extra at the airport.
I miss you, but I have no room to hold your hand any more.
~C~
Dear Asa,
Holy shit you are a terrible fucking person. You're almost 31 and your life is so terrible it could equally be classified as either a comedy or tragedy. You're unemployed, emotionally abusive (at times physically), have a terrible attitude mixed with an undeserved sense of entitlement, you leech everything you can get from the struggling sister of our deceased mother who's probably tossing like salad in her grave seeing what you've done with the last 10 years of your life, and seem to be allergic to communicating with the outside world in any form other than music. You're a shittier planner, care about the most meaningless and petty shit imaginable, and pretty much embody damn near every negative stereotype regarding African-Americans. You're surprisingly ignorant considering your schooling and I have a sneaking suspicion you've been using our mother's death as a emotional justification for any action. I hope your gf of 12 years leaves you so you'll be deprived of any and all excuses of why your life is going no-fucking-where. I GENUINELY hope she finds someone able to take care of her, not just a fucking angry lump who is now pretty much in a contest with himself to be as aloof as possible. I can't wait to say goodbye to you, and many others for good. Over 30 and still actin' like ur in goddamn high school. It's a fucking shame we're related.
Your little fucking brother
D
Dear everyone,
I'm not comfortable with it. The future. The past. Anything. The way our society is moving. 19 years old and feeling dead inside already.
New York City recently passed legislation that criminalizes not using proper gender pronouns for a persons gender identity. This is the first time a philosophy is being forced upon me. It is illegal to bar transgender persons from using restrooms of the gender they identify with. I've never seen qualitative data being used to passed legislation in such a manner. I've always accepted quantitative data and facts of the world around me because they've been easy to accept, because they were given to me by people in authority.
Over time I've grown to distrust these people, because they've asked for irrational things from me, expected feats even more so, and made me believe in the non existent.
As I struggle with my own mental and physical health, a moral dilemma crosses my mind, as we enter a technological age the world eagerly accepts for the wrong reasons. The question is, where will my place be in this world? Will my life be worth anything? When I die, will I be remembered, will anything matter, will anything happen, or will it be eternal sleep? So many everlasting if's, so many everlasting unknowns, I feel so...lost, so alone. I've never been comfortable with something having so much power over me, our government, others...
so that would be it. As I get ready to move to New York my future seems bleak and uncertain but all I can do is move forward.
>>16607454
What surgery?
>>16606761
Dear baby daddy
I know i have fake tits and now a post partum bod but i am still at
Porn star quality and I always have been.
Fuck you for being a drug addict and so scared of intimacy you couldnt deal with me.
I can find someone better or you can lighten up.
>>16607495
Removal of a s1 iliac bolt.
N,
I genuinely can't believe you. I can't believe it ended like this.
All those years you were jealous of all my female friends, all those years you were so terrified I'd leave you, all that time... and you run off and hook up with one of your friends. If the rumors are true and you really did cheat... I think I might hate you. I can't imagine why you'd ever do that to me.
I can't believe you. I know we were growing apart but I never wanted it to end like this. Screaming, hating each other. I wish I could have helped you more. You had issues, and I didn't know how to deal with them, you always so against porn and redheads, when, you yourself were redheaded, and posted pictures of yourself online? I'll never know why you did it. But I already miss you. I miss waking up beside you and sitting at home watching Arnie movies and cuddling into the night.
What makes me maddest about all this is knowing you've got someone else. Someone who loves you while I'm sitting around being a miserable fuck masturbating and posting on a Himalayan Cave drawing community. The thought of you with another man, disgusts me, and I hate that I'm immature thinking like this.
I don't know if I was right for you but I loved you and I miss you.
I never wanted it to end like this.
W-
Hey man, stumbled across this and thought of you. Sorry friendship ended and I was a huge bitch about the whole thing. Still feel shitty for not saying goodbye, good luck, and thank you for the times we had. I hope some day we can meet as friends again, it always seems to find a way, funny how that happens.
I ended up listening to all the music you recommended me over time out of boredom, I really do like it. Wish I could've gotten more over time.
I hope your Christmas was merry and that your girlfriend and you are doing well as always. You deserve it without the stress of our in a way selfish friendship that we had.
Anyways, I hope you're not mad at me. Know that I am not mad at you either. Just regret not ever saying goodbye back. So this is that last reply I guess.
Best wishes to you.
>>16607484
>New York City recently passed legislation that criminalizes not using proper gender pronouns for a persons gender identity.
That's if you're a landlord or a fucking business. Like it or not, but employers have been limited in what they can say to their employees for several decades. Likewise it's not illegal for you to call some random on the street a "nigger" or a "fucking faggot," but it's illegal for you to call your employee that. Understand? This isn't some shocking defeat for free speech, the idea that certain kinds of speech are unacceptable in certain contexts is not new, this is a simple expansion of what's considered unacceptable. If you think that gays are degenerates and think it's your right to freely express that, then not being able to is a philosophical imposition too, just as much as this.
Anyway, the point behind the legislation isn't to force everybody to agree that trans people are literally whatever gender they identify as, this is a simple acknowledgement that gender dysphoria is real, it's not something people can control, and being called by the wrong pronouns amplifies what's already a very painful and distressing condition. If you believe that people deserve protection from those in an official position of authority over them then the rest follows. I don't buy the party line that trans people literally are "men" or "women", with no qualification, either -- although it does me no harm to refer to them as such and so I do -- but they never asked for their condition and it's a hell of a lot rougher than anything I bet you have to deal with.
You're never going to date me, are you?
It's been a year, man. And I kind of feel cheated for investing so much time in you.
I tried saying goodbye, so I could move forward, find someone else to fall in love with... but you became a broken man. So I let myself fall victim to infatuation, once more.
And still, you don't want me.
greetings fellow projector
C
I could handle almost anything but your rejection
Why couldn't I just be that nondescript guy
Death would be kind
D
>>16607380
you sound like a very supportive person and very desirable to be around
>>16606761
To K,
I still remember the day I met you, you were introduced to me through your boyfriend. From the minute you entered the room I knew you were as close to perfect as I'd ever see in anyone. Every day I think about you and it crushes me that you're still with him; I'd never stand in the way of your happiness so I've never said anything to jeopardise this. Through the past three years we've become incredibly close friends and this has enlightened me with an everlasting feeling of ambivalence. I don't think I could ever abandon you but this feeling has grown ever stronger; every time I learn something new about you, It's beautiful yet soul crushing. I've argued telling you, or anyone for that matter countless times, but I would rather see myself relentlessly emotionally tortured than rest these wearisome weights upon your shoulders. I think one day I may have to break away, but my mind body and soul is seeing this fight to the very end. You are beautiful, amazing and everything I can never ask for. Please never change.
Love J x
Dear D,
All this time, since you said you didn't want to be friends anymore, I thought I was the problem. I thought that I had done something wrong. I thought that there was something I could have done or not done that would have kept you around as a friend even longer. Truth is, you were the problem. You admit that too.
I know you have been talking to my neighbor. After you sent him a picture of yourself, he came over to my place to ask if you looked familiar. He swore he saw you hanging out here on occasion. He was right. After talking to you for so long and hearing what I thought was going on, he sat me down and asked me to read the conversations he was having with you.
Most of them were about us. You and me, Most of the time, It was YOU bringing up the conversations as well. You clearly stated to him that you have problems keeping good people in your life. You also stated that you wished it never would have ended between us. When he asked why you have trouble keeping people in your life, you said you had anxiety/depression (which you told me about), you said your personal insecurities wouldn't let you get close to others, you stated your past experiences.
D, why do you admit this to people you will likely never meet but not to the ones that you clearly care about? You stated "I don't fix my problems, I run from them". I hope some day you are able to face yourself. The more you run from who you are, the more it will catch up to you. Each time it does, it will only get worse. You always ask why people never accept you. Why do you push away the ones that do? Truth is, I don't think you even accept yourself. You chase people that treat you like shit and push away the ones that want you to be happy and succeed (friends and family). That is what I think is the saddest part. My neighbor showed me the pic you sent. After knowing you for a year, I can clearly see the pain in your eyes.I wish you would let me give you a hug. You clearly need one.
(1/2)
>>16607874
Most people are governed by their habits, their fears, and the opinions of others. You are one of them. Breaking that mold will be the hardest thing you might ever do. It would be one of the most rewarding things you ever do as well.
When we first met, you had ambitions and dreams that only drew me closer. You gave all that up for booze and the party life you said you hated. Maybe this coming year, you might change. It could be scary but I truly believe that you are stronger and more courageous than you realize. I would some day like to hear of your successes. You are important and you are worth it. You just have to believe in yourself. I think that is what you need to work on.
If you ever do want to talk again, You know my contact info and you know where I live. I always told you, if you need to get away from all the stress, you can have the spare bedroom for a while. I mean it too.
I hope you find happiness in 2016. I hope you finally accept yourself. I will always miss you. Don't ever let anyone treat you like shit. You are worth so much more than you give yourself credit for.
E
(2/2)
R,
It has no basis, nor reason, but I'm afraid I'll lose you. I fight these feeling so maybe I wont. You're
everything a guy like me could ever ask for. You're kind, caring, understanding, and the thought of
losing you terrifies me. So I won't say a word. I won't act on those fears. I'll bottle these feelings and
sip on my misery alone. I don't know how long we'll last together, but I hope it's for a while longer.
I can only promise my best for you, and all I can do is try.
I love you.
M
>>16607743
Initials?
Please just tell me we'll talk again. Please just tell me that some day, even if it's weeks from now, I'll wake up to a notification and by the night time we'll be talking again. I know you're doing this cause you care, but I can't stand the idea of not talking to you for too long...
D,
I felt something that first time we worked together. An instant spark of attraction--something that I never felt for anyone else. I got along so well with you that time flew by and I was sad that our shift together was over. That's really hard for me to do with a stranger, to be honest. It takes a lot more to feel comfortable enough to open up so easily and not worry about not knowing what to say. But ah well... that little spark just has to die. You're already married.
That stupid little spark. I'm sorry for feeling this way about you.
jez girl would you just give me a signal to work on,
I mean I know me and you still have a thing for each other but its hard trying to process some of your behaviour.
gve me a sign, give me a motha fucken big sign plz...
Why did I break up with you? You were the first person I ever loved, and I just wanted you to be happy. I guess I also wanted to bang that 10/10 slut without feeling bad about it. She was bad at sex and it wasn't worth it. Then again, you were bad at sex. And you weren't the prettiest. And you weren't the smartest or funniest. But you were the only person I've ever loved. I know you still are upset about the breakup which gives me hope, but there isn't any chance is there? I wish I could talk to you again and remember why I was okay with breaking up with you. I've always been near emotional death, but you made me feel something for a short period of time. I still love you Mariel/Max.
K,
I am glad life is going well for you, it makes me happy to hear it. I know you are busy all the time, and I have not made it easy for you to care about me like you once did, but I am in love with you so it hurts me when you don't seem to put effort into our conversations anymore. You were my last chance but don't worry, that wasn't dominant reason I made my choice. Be happy, you deserve it.
C
>>16607546
>masturbating and posting on a Himalayan Cave drawing community.
The internet can,has and always will do crazy things to us.
>>16607976
Initials?
Things don't always have to die, just because that would be the sensible course.
T,
Would it be hugely inappropriate if we watched porn together? I get turned on when I'm around you. And I'm interested to see the things that you like to watch. Maybe I can tell myself that it's the porn turning me on and not you, then I won't feel so guilty. I don't think I'm ready to admit to myself that I've moved from obsession into desire - and I'm certainly not ready to admit that to you.
A nice, civilized, porn-watching session. Where potentially we both get sexually aroused. I'm sure that wouldn't end badly. Let's do it.
>>16607583
it's "dysphoria" as in, you feel unhappy that you have a penis or tits
another hard time bred by soft fucking people who have nothing better to do but pay attention to the faulty wiring up stairs
>>16608846
well the upside is that trans people have a high suicide rate even after they get their surgery so the problem is self-correcting
yeah you think you're a woman but you act like a character out of anime. right. it's not a delusion at all and you're not a complete freak. and people with cotard delusion are for real zombies!
JM,
I find you ridiculously attractive, tell me I'm not imagining that there's something between us. I hope we can get together sometime in private.
L,
What's your deal? Do I even want to know? That first weekend we had together was mind-blowing. I don't understand why you turned so ice cold. Maybe I don't care to know but the thing is I want what we had before. If you do too, then call me and this time don't be a huge bitch to me.
C.
dear me
you can't have her
just let it go
from, me
>>16608865
ouch. hits home.
>>16607947
DWL
>>16608865
I feel this and it hurts even more when they tease you too
>>16608819
haha of course it has to. What am I gonna do? Just hold out and hope he splits up with his wife eventually? That's silly.
My first name starts with A. I'm sure he's not the type to go on here.
>>16609428
People split up. Unexpectedly sometimes.
But no, you're right. Hope is toxic. And trying to engineer something would be... bad.
Die, spark, die.
J-
Told myself I'd stop writing about you, to you. But I just have to say the only thing keeping me from being a total pissed off wreck is remembering you telling me happy birthday twice.
Well, I guess it isn't the only thing. I saw most of the people I care about. I don't know, some stupid part of me wants to tell you about the stupid shit that happened last night because I feel like you'd know what to say.
I shouldn't hang my hopes up so high, when you likely don't think about me. You're probably just being nice. But I can't help myself. You've always made me feel like the important one. You've always paid the most attention to me, and I guess I'm just gonna cry because I'm sitting here feeling sorry for myself and making everything about me.
I so want to be a better person, and I'm taking steps every day. But it starts to fall apart when I realize I can't have you.
-M
>>16609453
Hah, pretty much. And besides, sabotage is just plain evil. I want no part of that nonsense.
J,
I love you so much. I wish I could tell you. We've been "together" so long and we still haven't told each other that we love each other despite the fact that we practically live together, laugh together, cry together. I think it just took so long for things to become more serious and now it's awkward. I feel like it's very implicate but I want to say it. I don't know why I'm such a pussy. Just waiting for the right time I guess
>>16607484
A fucking men. I seriously hope these are just silly trends and this "era" will pass. I miss the 90s and early 2000s. This is literally the #turnup social justice generation and it's so gross and embarrassing and it makes me not even want to meet new people because everyone literally like 16-27 is a fucking loser
>>16608842
Initial from?
>>16609531
Sometimes, just sometimes, somebody is sitting where they don't want to be, waiting for someone with a spark to give them the push they need. Waiting for some sign to give them hope of their own.
Almost certainly doesn't apply in your situation, of course.
this is going to make me feel like a creep but
J, I'd move heaven and earth just to feel your skin against mine. I can be strong and self-restraining and completely apathetic, but not with you. If you were to give me a nudge I'd crumble into dust.
sincerely, L
D
I saw you're torrent download folder. With the amount of porn you download I finally understand why your dick won't stay hard for longer than ten minutes. This isn't going to end well. You should research porn endured e.d. might save your next relationship
Dear J
I'm in a tropical place with very very good looking women all around but even with all them here you still come to my mind..... it is my fault for how I feel towards you even though I think you're just teasing me to give you and your friends a kick
From J
So long, farewell. Never, ever again.
You-
Thank you for everything. You made me feel like something when I've felt like nothing for a long time.
-me
Dear wine,
Why have we been apart so long? I'm so sorry. I've been.... distracted. Selfish. I've been a poor friend and a disappointment to us both.
Let tonight serve as a fresh start. I find it difficult to speak truthfully to you, difficult to talk about you, difficult. Although I've not told you, you should know that I love you. You give me what I need, you help me through life when times get tough. You never ask anything in return (although I have sacrificed a lot, probably more than I should have, for you).
I've been away, but now I'm back. The last year was... unusual. Difficult. Miraculous.
The last year, I fell in love with one woman and realised that I'd fallen out of love (fallen? Been pushed?) with another. Stupid. Stupid, stupid, stupid. These things are not for me. Please overlook my foolish adventures and welcome me back with open arms, the way that I shall welcome you.
It's been too fucking long.
I don't know if I love you, but I need you. Give me your kiss, tonight.
Yours, forever.
D.
I want to spend all day in bed with you and your bear like arms around me.
E
I think I love you. I don't know what I'm going to do when you go home to your country. Please give me something to let me know how you feel.
K
Dear V
You are the love of my life. You make me feel happy and loopy and make me feel warm. The only problem is the way you make me feel when we're together for too long. When we went for a month and you left I was shattered. Bed ridden for 2 days and sick for 3 more. Now it's been a week and it's going to be another week I'm sure. Please be gentle when you go. I love you so much, you know I'll be there to get you later. I will always chase you.
Love, me
Vered,
Where did you go? Are you happy? I hope you're happy.
Picky.
Dear M
I considered you as my best friend, even though you never considered me as your best friend. I've spend so much time with you, went to the same classes and relied on you for when it was hard for me. And even after all this time I'm still bitter as fuck. It wasn't really only you treating money as game, but also your whole attitude and using your illness as an excuse for being lazy. I can understand having a hard life, but you're not the only one you know. I still get bitter whenever I see you prancing around in your new burando at meets, knowing your parents probably paid it for you while you just sit there and get your money from the gouvernment. I hope you enjoyed your fun games of taking months to give me my money and clothes back, you deserve overpaying for the bag. Have fun asspatting that fatass of an A. Glad I moved.
C
>>16609842
*your
*induced
you did use "than" correctly though, props
Dear J,
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J. J J JJ.
J JJJ,
-J
>>16610200
Initials?
Dear Me
Facing to worst sober can often be the best. Remember that buddy for next year.
>>16608019
initials
R, you're a beautiful person, inside and out. Don't forget it.
J-
If you could have just gotten up the courage to hand over your number, you may have had a chance. But it looks like our timing is off, and I'm gonna aim in a different direction.
Nothing against you. Because, holy hell, I'd still go for you, it's just I feel kinda weird if you so obviously could have just given me your number and didn't. Someone else did, and so I know you definitely could have. So what the hell, man?
M
Dear J.
I would really like to write you. Because Im lonelier than back when we've been together. Not lost, just less whole.
I will not agree with your god. I will not hate him for taking you. I will be ok with it. Just ok with it.
Respect your decision.
Not write you.
But I'm lonelier nowadays.
I love you. I really do. I just don't want to be with someone who doesn't want to have sex as much as I do. I am not asking for much, just a few times a week. I know porn is the only thing you know, so stay comfortable, stay with it and let me be with someone who actually wants me.
>>16610065
>tfw initials and situation perfect
>tfw you're not her
Q,
we both thought about me.
You thought about me, then about you.
I thought about you and me.
Theres a difference there, I know.
I know, remember, and think about you and only you.
Atleast sometimes.
Sometimes, when I'm remembering and listening to music, i listened to, 3 years ago.
To me
You just have to keep going.
Simple as that.
I'm bored... I hope you're doing well.
J-
You are such a fucking fuckboy. *
*Actually I don't know if that's true. I know you fucked me and maybe that woman I saw you with but in all fairness this footnote is necessary
*ktttch* come in, earth
H
You're a fucking heartless coward and I hate you for lying to me and using me.
K
J,
You totally fucked me up. So many reasons to be hung up on you. Great sex, good times, one of my best friends and all that shit. I'll get that again, but for one month I was a different person. You put me in situations I'd never expect to be in and they made me a better guy. I'd feel you tremble just from standing near me and god damn I would feel like a king. I know things can't ever be as simple as that month, now that you've seen me at my worst, but that was the only time in my life that I felt the drive to be the best I could be, and at the same time I was content.
I think I've been chasing that time in my life more than I've been chasing you. Things are pretty shitty right now. And I know that guy I was briefly, he could get through this and make bad circumstance his bitch. I need to adopt that mindset, but I don't know how.
I know you'll never respect me the same way. Familiarity breeds contempt. I think our story might finally be nearing its end. Someday soon, I'll tell you I'm in love with you. You'll clam up and stutter something fake and I'll never have to talk to you again, and my life will be easier.
buh-bamp
M
I miss you a lot, these days even more than usual, since we talk less and less. You truly are an important person in my life and I wouldn't want to lose you, but perhaps it's better that way. I'm quite sure this semester will be the last one for me, at least when our major is concerned, so most likely after June we won't see each other. I predicted that long ago, when I tried to cut the ties for the first time, predicting that gradual decline of our friendship would be more painful. I'm trying to be a big brave girl so badly, but I still get overly attached like a needy child... Should have known better by now.
Anyway, M, I wish you all the luck in the impending 2016; hopefully your 'nogf' times will end, you will pursue your passions even more ardently than you do now and finally manage to become a man you wish to be.
Love always,
>>16607874
>>16607878
This hits way too close to home for me. If you are the E, that I am thinking of, I am sorry.
Don't take me pushing you out of my life personally. I push everyone away that I feel I get close too. I hate who I am. I'd give anything to be straight. I don't hate who I am, I just hate that I can't be what I want. I hate that I have to hide who I am from everyone just to fit in with my own family. I hate that I fucked everything up. You were just about the only person I was ever comfortable being myself around. I could finally be me and not hide it from someone. You accepted me for who I am. I thank you for that. You will never know how much it meant to me.
I have a difficult time keeping anyone in my life. I have diagnosed anxiety and depression. I am insecure about who I am. I struggle to accept myself. All of that leads me to drinking like I do. I know you aren't cool with that and I think you caught on in the end.
All the times I called you when I was drunk, I remember them. I say I never remember because I am ashamed and I want to forget. I said things to you I regret. I was just angry and I knew you would pick up so I took it out on you. Yet, you always saw past that. You saw though the bullshit and the mask I wear to hide.
I don't know why you still try to hang on. The letters, the texts, the emails, I read them all. It is nice to see someone cares about me as much as you do. I pushed you away because I am afraid that I haven't hit rock bottom yet. I don't want you around when I do. You deserve better than me.
I've blocked everything. I won't get your messages anymore. If/when I do come around, I hope you are there. You were the one bright light, the one positive influence in my shitty life. Thank you for cheering me on and helping me as you did. You showed me not everyone is a piece of shit. When this is all over, I will contact you if you keep the same contact info.
I am sorry for everything,
D
To myself and anyone who needs to hear it,
Stop trying to control the outcome. Relax, breath and be yourself. What should happen, will.
A
You are, and always have been, my best friend. I hope most sincerely it will never change.
I hate your parents and despise your family for the way they treat you, hurting you over and over again, causing you so much grief. I do not respect them; these are adult people we are talking about, they could at very least remain civil and polite, but... Anna, whatever happens, know you will always find family and support with me. My parents, as long they are alive, are willing to help too. You are not alone with this burden, kitten.
I know you miss me. I told you the other day that you are the only person (from that very modest group of people dear to me) who has never disappointed me. You are very important to me and I hope you know that; I think I actually told you that once or twice but we were wasted back then so maybe you don't remember.
I love you, and I will be back soon and you will buy me a beer (because I won our scrabble bet and I remember that) and anyway we will get blissfully drunk and sing stupid karaoke and complain about life. So hold on, I'll be home soon. And things will be good, you'll see.
>>16607380
Luke?
My dear grandmother Irene,
You were the only grandparent I ever had. I knew your death was coming, I saw it lurking in the shadows of your bedroom, when, in the twiligt of your life, I tried to feed you, to encourage you to drink tea and talk with me. I can't forgive myself that I didn't make it to the hospital; I can't keep going on with knowledge that I didn't get to say goodbye, that I didn't get to say how much I love you and how grateful I am for everything you've done for me and taught me. I hurts.
Recently I remembered how I made a promised that you will dance at my wedding; you were still healthy back then, but you just laughed. You knew, but I didn't, I really hoped you will live well into your nineties, and for years I fervently believed that you will stay with me, dance on my wedding, see my children, always, always protect me with your love.
It's been almost four years now. But I miss you all the same. I still dream about you, still wonder if I could have done something more to help. Still love you.
I just want to stare at you and watch Dexter more than anything in the world right now.
I don't know why I throw the things I love away. I'm so sorry.
>>16611646
Then let's do that <3
>>16611646
And... Check your cellphone.
>>16611651
I wish I wasn't so scared to do it. I really deserve it, and I'm not worth anything. I don't know why you would want to bother with me anyway. I feel so done tonight. It was a bad night. I don't know why I hurt the people I love because I think they'd be better off without me, when I'm obviously not better off without them.
I'm really sorry. I'm just sitting here crying and I kicked everyone out of my house basically saying, "Get out." because people are so fake and I'm so tired of it. I just want to back to being anti-social and alone.. life feels pointless. Pointless. It feels so fucking stupid right now and that's not because I'm a little drunk.. and I just want to eat more cake, drink tequila, cancel my Star Wars movie crap tomorrow and lay in bed all day crying and trying to figure out what the fuck I'm supposed to feel these days especially without smoking. I don't know what to do. I'm such a mess. I'm not a 'together' person, why would you want me?
I am so fucked up. So fucked up. I just need someone who genuinely cares about me to help me through this, and I'd be so good to them, and I would stick with them and never leave them, and yet I have so many trust issues so that could never happen and I think they would leave me regardless.
I'm nothing.. just like I always was.
Shit.. I'm done.
Just reach out, respond, anything. We don't have to be over. We can continue on like nothing ever happened.
>>16606761
Dear blacks,
Sorry I talk so much shit on pol. I'm just bored
Love,
Anon.
>>16611682
I wish you were my ex. I've been wanting to get in touch with her but I know she's mad at me and moved on. Damn.
>>16611677
You are something. You're something to me. You're worth a lot and I'd do anything to make you see that. I know you have trust issues but I promise, cross my damn heart and hope to die, I love you and I care about you. You need someone, I wanna be there as your friend. I want you because you're you, and I know you hate yourself but I think you're amazing. Always have, always will.
Look, I know you're going through a really rough time right now, just please please please don't forget that I'm here for you and I care a ton. Reach out on here or add me on steam or text me back. I know that rough place, I was in a rough place around Christmas time 8 years ago, you know my story... I needed someone who loved me to just listen to me and tell me it'll be okay. Let me be that person. Cause it really will be okay, I swear on my life. And that offer remains, btw, for Dex, or any movie or TV show you wanna stream. I've been dying to watch Dex for a while now, though. Don't be scared. I'm just me.
btw, I'm not better off without you. No one is.
>>16606761
B,
I fucked up when I broke up with you. I was just scared as usual. I'm not going to hit you up or anything. You're better off without my bullshit. I miss the fuck out of you and I still love you. I know you're out fucking dudes and having a good time and I deserve to feel like shit over our break up. If I hadn't broken up with you we probably we would have worked out. I wish I could stop dreaming about you because that's what is killing me. I'm ready to move on and date different people but part of me wants to call you right now and get back together. I honestly hope shit works out for you.
Love, j
>>16610909
Did they join isis?
I don't think we're a good match. Find someone else. I think that would be best for all parties involved.
Please don't give up. Please don't forget how much I care. Please keep your head up. You'll get through this.
>>16611790
I have found someone else. Get over yourself.
Thanks for the talk. I'm glad we're here for eachother. You're great. Have a great night and I hope we can watch Dex sometime soon.
>>16606761
Dear S,
Work hard to pass everything so we can spend more time together, I really want to get to know you more, the kiss was wonderful.
C
Dear Luis G.
I'm sorry I didn't invite you to my birthday party 19 years ago. You used to tease me, and I didn't like you because of it. Yet, the day you found out I invited everyone but you, there was a hurt in your eyes that never equaled mine when you called me ugly or made fun of my hair. It still haunts me. I never want to hurt anyone like that again.
I know your mom told me to say you forgive me, but I would have understood if you couldn't have.
I know it's weird to bring this up so long after it happened, but sometimes I dream about that day at the mall. The same I feel for having done that to another person never leaves me.
>>16612138
I forgive you Fox.
Dear N,
I'm genuinely upset that we're not friends anymore. I made the effort of apologising to you for using you before and for not being particularity nice after you decided you didn't wanna be friends anymore.
I don't have romantic feelings for you, but I do care about you a lot. Of all the best friends I've gone through, you were the closest thing to a real one. Maybe you're just good with people, but I honestly feel like you're the only one who got me a lot of the time. And our sense of humour was the exact same. Being friends with you was worth any effort that we had to deal with, like your panic attacks and that stuff. I'm really glad to hear you're doing well now anyways. I hope you keep doing welll and the last thing I want is to drag you down again but if love for us to be friends again... Maybe it just can't happen.
I saw you text your ex last new years to see if he was doing okay.
I wonder if you're gonna do the same for me.
B,
Even though I realize that it's best that we never enter any kind of romantic relationship together, it being very unlikely in the first place, I can't stop thinking about it. It was great working through all the shit that was the classes we took last semester. I hope you'll be happy at your new university, and if you decide to permanently transfer out and we don't end up graduating together like we thought we would, I honestly hope we'll see each other again some day after having met all the goals and dreams we talked about.
I still have no idea why you neglected to mention you were in a long term relationship, or why you spent 15+ hours a week alone with me, discussing some seriously personal shit. Figuring out you had a boyfriend seriously hurt for a while, and I think it's always going to be a nagging thought in the back of my head. I guess I'll never know if you felt anything like the way I felt and still feel about you, but I can't convince myself that you'd been so completely oblivious as to think my feelings for you had remained completely platonic and the time we spent together and the way we spent it was something on an exclusively friendly level.
Whatever the case is, I hope you'll do well until we meet again. I've only met someone I synced up with as well as you one other time in my life, and maybe if we end up staying in the same place we can become better friends. Until then, however, I need to cut off all contact and isolate myself, meet new people. I had no intention of falling in love with a friend, much less during such a weird time in our lives, and it's going to take some work to push this shit to the back of my mind and eventually get over it.
- K
>>16612148
I know you aren't him, but this helps in a weird way.
Dear S
I remember when we were together you said you hated it when people didn't respond to texts. You claim it takes 10 seconds of your time to read and respond and people can't do that? Then you do it to me. You couldn't take 10 seconds out of your day to say "thanks" or "merry christmas" back? I sent it to you early in the day but you couldnt take 10 simple fucking seconds to respond. You hurt me and you don't even realize it. You do this all the time. Why do I even try. Why did you have to break my heart. Then after that do it over and over again. When we broke up you said we can be friends but fuck that. I hate this feeling I get when I think about you.
D,
You are so attractive, maybe it's because you're a Scorpio but you have real sex appeal. You have all the qualities I look for in a lifelong partner. That hair cut you got just Wow! It suits you perfectly. Damn you have me making love song playlists and imagining a life with you. I just hate the fact that I won't be seeing you again for at least another two weeks.
E
>>16611628
This shit hit way too close to home man.
Word for fucking word.
I don't know if this is wrong because someone else is telling me that it's wrong but I feel this so let me just like, try my best not to let this happen again. We weren't necessarily put in the best position to make the best decisions.
You can't be hard on yourself for these were the cards that you were given so you have to understand that these, like... that's not who you are. You're trying to be the best you can be but that's all you can do. If you don't give it all you got, you're only cheating yourself. Give it all you got, but if it ends up happening, it ends up happening.
That's what it's....that's what's happening with me. It's like God I'm giving it all I got, sometimes I'm weak and I'm gonna do it, and it's like I'm not giving myself grace, I'm just like understanding, that's just how it is.
But I won't let me lose you
And I won't let us just fade away
After all that we've been through
>>16612259
>>16612252
Who is this.. ?
>>16612287
Justin Bieber ;)
>>16612291
Oh fuck off.
No, boy. When I said take care after, that was the end. I wasn't gonna remove you but once you removed me that was it. It's one thing to be unable to trust me more or even as much as someone who hits you, apparently. It's another to try to make me jealous after I say we're done. Why did I need to tell you again and again that trust comes before "I love you?" If you don't trust someone, be with someone you can trust. I am far more likely to walk away from something that would make me jealous, but you know that now. Take care, it was brief but you'll either find someone better for you or get back with the ex you blog about. Either way, my name will be a distant memory.
Dear W,
I know you have a ton going on in your life right now. I hope your future is bright, because you really do deserve it. I wish things didn't get distant between us, but I know life has a way of messing good things up at times. I really appreciate the moments we shared and I feel like I learned a surprising amount about life, relationships, and myself during the time we spent together. I learned that time isn't always a determinant of how much you can care about someone. I hope we can cross paths again in the future when our lives are in a better place to share feelings with another person again. Thanks for everything.
finding your soulmate doesnt mean you get to keep them.
>>16606761
Miss Universe,
I'm doubtful about making a project using such a limited budget like this. I'll ask around first, you're too seductive for me and I just might say yes and regret it in the long term.
Mr. Calamari
>>16612920
Soulmates don't exist. That's romantic idealism that wouldn't make sense in reality given the population.
>>16612938
You are what you attract
>>16612958
But two positives repel, so you can't be what you attract.
>>16612966
Except people aren't magnets.
>>16612200
Gotta let it go fox.
The only solution is to walk away. So I will, none of this matters and will be out of sight anyways.
Done with reading these letter threads for now if you use these threads without therapy you're just going to be fixating on your problems more than proactively solving them.
Good luck on your catharsis anons.
I'm sick of your lies and this time it's for good. I would've wanted to be your friend but I don't even want that anymore. Good luck and get the fuck out of my life. Thanks.
>>16612989
Hits too close too home.
>>16612978
They also aren't so simplistic that attraction merely applies to those of the same qualities. If you limit it that much, magnets aren't that far off
>>16612993
Nobody wants to be in your life willingly.
Friends right? That's all we were. I'm still a little sad it won't be the same when we see each other again.
Done with this idiocy.
I wanted to tease you. I wanted to pinch you on the couch. I wanted to go hiking with you. I wanted to cook you all my favorite foods. I wanted to see you laugh and smile every minute of every day. I wanted to ensure you'd never have to deal with being sad alone ever again. You could have talked me to death, shopped me to death, beaten me to death and I would have loved every moment. Just holding you while we read books would have been enough.
But I fucked it up, babe. I'm crazy and I fucked it up. Maybe if I was healthier. Maybe if I was a better person. Maybe if I wasn't a coward. I could have at least shown you what I'm worth before burning it all to the ground.
When I woke up today I was thinking about you. Our last conversation really hit hard. I love you so much it hurts. When I called you and you didn't answer then you called me back and the first thing you say is "You really need to stop calling me." Not even a hello or anything? What was with the sudden change of attitude? Must have been the new boyfriend and not the uncle watching movies with you. Cried for you 3 times now this is insane. I hate the way over the past year you hurt me so much and you don't even know. Anyways, if I see your man I'm kicking his fucking ass I don't care about my probation or going back to that shithole. A year of mental torment is worse than 2 years in prison.
>>16611467
Perhaps not the M you're writing to, but I felt good reading this, hope the M it's meant for reads it too.
>>16613034
I want to ask for an initial but there's no use. These threads just bring out the narcissist in us all.
Pretty sure I'm mentally fucked which is why I kept dumping you over the 6 years we were together. You even brought up my family history at times. I don't blame you for not wanting me back. I've accepted you're gone and I won't get you back. It's just weird without you. I pretend you don't exist because it's easier than accepting I gave up something good. This is the first time I've even acknowledged I miss you. You called me and I told you I needed time to get over you, you texted me a few weeks later and I ignored you. Now I know you'll never reach out to me again and it sucks because I don't have the guts to reach out to your first. We will probably never speak again because of me. Part of me hopes you'll somehow read this and call me but I know it will never happen. You're gone for good and even with other women I feel alone without you.
I hope you're doing well in Seattle. I'm sure you've moved on by now. It was fun while it lasted. I love you b.
>>16613034
How many times can a woman get rejected before she starts posting as the guy that rejected her.
Delusional idiots.
I wish you hadn't failed when you tried to kill yourself. I hope you try it again and succeed this time. Fucking bitch.
>>16606761
Entrapment Tactics of Single Moms – Learn and Survive
Puts you into contact with the child as soon as possible. This will happen on the day of your first date or very soon thereafter. It is a play on your provider instincts and an attempt to establish a bond. It is cruel to the child, because they tend to attach to anyone who is kind, and it is irresponsible because she has not vetted you. However, if you are an obvious beta provider target, those considerations will not be high on her priority list. Studies by the U.S. DHHS periodically confirm that the most dangerous place for a child is in a home with mom and her boyfriend. She is taking a risk because locking down a provider is more imperative. In the early stages of courtship, she has no way of knowing whether you are safe, but if she plays the bonding card right, it will pay dividends all the way through to marriage and divorce.
Lots of enthusiastic sex. The hook is obvious, but the insidious element is in her approach to birth control. Remember, this is a woman who took enough loads to get pregnant and carried through to full term. She knows first-hand the process and significant consequences of pregnancy, and she has a regular reminder in the form of a small person. If she is ever casual about birth control or tries to seduce you into having sex without contraception “just this once”, her intent has been revealed. It could be the only sex you’ve ever had, so in the fog, you may not notice or care. That’s dangerous. This trap is general to all women but must be treated with absolutely zero tolerance in the case of a single mom.
Uses the phrase “proud single mom” or a derivative. It is perverse that pride would ever be encouraged as a healthy or reasonable emotional response to a profound life-altering mistake. It is perverse that a man with great potential should consider sacrificing his lifetime for another man’s spawn – especially when that other man is still alive.
(1/2)
You said you'd be devastated if anything ever happened to me... I feel the exact same way. I don't know what I'd do without you, really. I know you're going through a hard time and you had a rough night last night, and I hope you wake up today feeling better... But please just keep your head up and keep moving forward. It may feel like it, but it's NOT the end. Your story is far from over. I know you're strong enough to not give up right now, I believe in you cause I can see your strength... I hope you know that and see your own strength too. Text me if you're feeling bad again today. I'm here for you always, especially if you need me. Have a nice day today <3
>>16613254
None of this matters to the modern single mother. Pop feminism has brainwashed her into believing that she is above judgment for her past actions, and she believes it so strongly that you may start to as well. Once you have bought into her paradigm, she will expand this immunity from judgment until she is beyond reproach in all aspects of your relationship. When you realize that you have lost all high ground, and that you let it happen, it will eat you from the inside.
“[Child] will always be number one.” She will use this to bolster her moral position and as a challenge against your honor and ego. If you hear this phrase, it is probably because you have done the math and realized that if [child] is priority one, she is number two, and you will always be three – or four if bio-dad is still in the picture. That’s a bad deal worth rejecting, however she can make you bury your concerns by playing to ideals. Military guys with their doctrinal loyalty are especially vulnerable to this tactic. In this relationship, you will never be promoted. Get out.
Says she is a single mother, but isn’t. A divorced mother with joint custody of the child is not a single mother. She is a part time mother. However, “single mother” provides victim status, and that is key to victory in her game of catch-a-beta. I do not recommend a relationship with any single mother, but at least those who are single by unfortunate chance – war, accident, illness – cannot usually be held accountable for their circumstances. The distinctions between “baby mama”, “divorced mom”, and “single/widowed mother” are very important. All single moms think they deserve the same special status as widows.
Trickle truth. Women generally do not regard lying by omission as dishonesty, and single moms wield half-truths with great expertise. Practically, this trap cannot be defeated.
(2/2)
>>16613260
Single Mom has a colored past, so she has to keep it secret long enough to get your ring on her finger. Still, she has to feed you something, because [child] obviously came from somewhere. If she ever gets stuck in her web of lies, though, this guaranteed-to-work thought-terminating plea will come out: “He was abusive.” She is counting on your protector instinct overriding your rational mind. Walk away.
(+1)
>>16613259
No thanks, not falling into this psycho woman's trap again.
>>16613269
You're not who this is meant for, don't worry.
Dear me,
26 years that I've wasted and I'm sorry. I've -been worthless so long that I don't know what it feels like to be positive. My only way of bonding with others is through blabbing my mouth. It's how my family did it so it must work but boy was I wrong. It's affected how others viewed me but I was angry and I didn't care. You say I'm a psycho and a sociopath? That's not my fault, I was doing it to sell my image so I can survive on my own. It's true that if it wasn't for my relatives I wouldn't be standing at all. I'm in the wrong for acting this way but I'm not ashamed this world owes me for mistreating me. I don't know who to blame anymore but I sure won't blame myself.
>>16613320
Not only that but I'm turning 27 next year and I'm still a virgin, morbidly obese and somewhat autistic. I'm not going to make excuses to why or who is at fault but I have a lot of unresolved issues. I hope sitting around blabbing my mouth will solve it but it won't and I hate that. 2016 is going to be my new 2012.
Being homeless doesn't help.
Love ya... Hope we can spend some time together soon, cus I miss you.
>>16613266
many words for "i'm a manchild who's afraid of responsibility"
please let me fuck adult virgin women from eastern europe who stereotypically don't have any expectations for a man and act like a surrogate mother so i can continue on into my 30's watching anime, playing video games, and shit posting on 4chan
fucking sad loser
>>16613378
oh, and allow me to claim a victim status of my own when said eastern european ersatz mother uses me to get citizenship in my native country and then divorces me
>>16611628
She's always going to be with you, just like my grandmothers are. I never really said goodbye, but I think we all knew, deep down, when it was going to be the last time. I cried so hard at my Nana's funeral, mother's side, but not at all at my grandmother's. I think I had cried it all out while she was languishing in the nursing home, while my Nana was gone so suddenly it hit me like a sack of bricks.
I still miss them, even eight years later, and I would give anything to pick up the phone and call them just to chat.
It never really goes away, because I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes thinking about this. I'll always love them, even though they're gone, I still feel like they're watching me and protecting me, even though I don't believe in that shit.
You did everything you knew to do, and I guarantee you she still loved you just the same and understood.
>>16612206
how fucking fragile do you have to be that someone not responding to your text breaks your heart?
grow the fuck up. this person clearly doesn't want you in the way you want them. move on.
There's something wrong when you randomly insult me months after we last had contact. Please fuck off.
>>16613581
nah, said moron is just getting it off their chest
i can imagine since you were so clueless as to how or why they'd be so pissed off that you wouldn't even bother to ask why they did what they did
another strike for this generation's clueless lack of empathy so horrible it borderlines on straight up autism
>>16613595
You should probably seek help before blindly slapping your own issues against someone else on an anonymous image board.
Who cares if I prefer virgins. I just think a sandwich is better to eat without someone who fucked it
>>16606761
Fuck you and everything you represent. I learned a lot from you and am really thankful for that, but you can still go fuck yourself.
Cheers, you bitch.
>>16613581
There's something wrong when someone goes on a letters thread and thinks a random insult is meant for them. Probably because they're an asshole who deserves it. Please go fuck yourself.
>>16613828
Read the op and tell me again why you assume that refers to a post in this thread you paranoid genius.
>>16612913
Initial?
To my future self,
I hope that someday you will get over your crippling social anxiety, extreme fear, lack of self confidence... if not then I hope you've found some place where you are accepted just the way you are.
I feel so alone in this world right now... be better soon
What the fuck was I thinking talking about a potential love interest with you? How did I know you would twist every fucking word against me? And who the fuck do you think you are "giving" me a second chance? That's pretty arrogant to assume that you are the one giving chances when in reality it is the other way around. And so what I called a girl proper. Of course you would take offense to that. Well fuck you if you think that I am going g to tell you what you want to hear you are solely mistaken. What would you rather have me say? Refined? Polished? Polite? Honestly the fact that you took offense to what I said shows you are insecure about being "proper". You're bitch fit on social media reflects your immaturity in this matter and your 40 something. Was that really necessary instead of Manning the fuck up and talking to me in person. Honestly in this situation you look like the fuck up. There you go interpreting the letter of the law instead of the spirit. You know exactly what I meant when I said proper.You just wanted to take it the wrong way. You have biased bullshit tthinking that the way I view new women is wrong. You are still hung up about the past.
Suck my fuck!
Dear Abe ,
Why did I like your swollen face and Franken Head? Yes sexually I was hot for you. No not anymore !!!! U digest me!!!!#
Disgust u don't digest me only disgust
Well I think it's decided: I will never wish you a Merry Christmas ever again. If that is your idea of "moving on" then fine. I would t ever talk to you again. I know you would be happy with that never hearing from me again, wanting to forget about me but really how can you forget about those nights we shared? I know you are still hurting but did you ever try and see things from my point of view? Try to understand my break down and hospitalization? No you didn't. You are content to wallow in self pity and harbour resentment because you learned from the best. We are going g to see each other for the rest of our lives so how longdo you want to hate me? Yeah i left you but I also had a fucking g mental breakdown and left school and all else I cared about. Honestly you are the selfish one. You still hate me and wont talk to me. You think I am not over you but trust me. I am waaay over you. I never want to get back together with you. Your fuck everything mentality dosent fly, your new tattoos and piercings are off putting. Your self harm is bullshit and your lack of self esteem is your fucking problem. Your suicide attempt was over the top. Yeah I've got schizoaffective but at least I am not borderline personality disorder like you.
Hey friend, how are you doing today? Hope you're well.
I could tell you
If I wanted to
What makes me
What I am.
But I dont
Really want to
And you dont
Give a damn.
>>16614555
This letter, this could actually be sent to the person.
Do it.
A poem for you. Wish I could show you.
A Schizo Aff met a BPD
and for a moment in time
shared the world with
each other .
Neither talked about their
illness they just knew
it was a part of them.
No labels just love.
Yet further along the
stress became too much
for the Schizo Aff and
he had a breakdown,
a hospitalization, had the
world flip on its head.
So he threw up walls
And never uttered a word
to his parnter in crime.
He just cut it off.
Sharply and quickly
To lessen the blood flow.
The BPD never knew why
or received an explanation
so to the grave she will
carry the resentment.
Once lovers they became strangers.
Dancing around each other
until the day they die.
well I've blocked you on every social media account you have. what you don't know- it's the hardest thing I've ever had to bring myself to do. I know you're fucked up and that you would do anything to get what you want and I can't risk the emotional toll you've taken on me ever again. you said you're not in love with me anymore. I believe you.
I don't think you ever were. i was so, so in love with you despite that.
flower child, guardian of the trees, you're the first person I've ever allowed to love me, and it was all for what? for you to come in and destroy my life?
I can never speak to you again; I may just fall back in love with ya.
M
Why you no love me.
I love you.
Your life has been spoiled by people that treat you like shit.
I live only to see you happy. Your happiness is the only thing I want.
Sadness I have, that you don't want to merge with me. You want me to be happy, yes - but that's just who you are, you'd want the same for anyone.
I want more. I want to be your rock. But I suppose I can get by without your love... It's just a shame, that's all.
Shame shame shame.
>>16614544
Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
You, you have no idea how you made me feel during like 5 minutes, until I finally got to finish the your post and realized it wasnt for me. PUT YOUR FUCKING INITALS THERE, MOTHERFUCKER.
Don't you have a freaking heart? Don' just post this kind of shit knowing someone else could read it and think it's for them, you made me feel the worst person in the fucking world, one step closer to a mental breakdown, but guess what, it's wasnt for me...
I laughed with happiness to know that this wasnt for me, but at the same time, I broke, I was sure it was for me, it had to be for me, and I cant stop thinking that the person I love the most could easily say those things for me.
Jesus, what's wrong with everyone? Why cant people have a fucking heart? I'm speechless, it blows my mind, everything is so fucking wrong, it just sounds like a damn nightmare where everyone is a damn crazy fucker.
>>16606761
C
I've spent two awful months because of you. you blew it all. we could have had something amazing, i would have done so much for you, and I did. still wasn't enough apparently. i know the distance part was hard, but if you truly cared about me like I did about you, i you truly held on and made efforts, it would have worked out in the end and the waiting would have been so much worth it. It's over now and while i'm having a terrible time, feeling numb and careless about pretty much everything, you've already replaced me and i think that, right here is the toughest part to go through
part of me would still want to be with you even if you made me suffer so much and i know we can't work out. I know that in the end I'll get over you, but it'll take time and i'm only two days in and the waiting is so hard. It might be selfish and mean from me, but i kinda hope, no let's be honest I really hope, that your new relationship doesn't work out. I know you probably won't come back to me even if it does - and even then i know it wouldn't be a good idea to get back together - but i can't bear the feeling of knowing you're we've someone else, and he's having what i want so much and what i deserved, because let's be honest i treated you so much better than you treated me, and I truly loved you. Still do apparently
G
>>16614880
Been in your same exact situation. It gets better with time.
>>16613581
I doubt that's the actual issue. It's probably just the most recent issue between anon and whoever they are talking about.
>>16614880
Are you me?
>>16609888
Puerto Rico?
>>16614885
>>16614903
It's nice to see i'm not alone
The worst part is that I need someone to cheer me up and hold me, but not a friend or family. I need a lover, and that i have not anymore
>>16611781
nah, she just found jesus
not that much of a difference though
>>16614941
>>16614885
We should be friends.
>>16614941
>>16615058
Hell yeah, we could all smoke crack together.
>>16614824
Chill the fuck out and get off the internet. You need a break.
Winter weather has finally come to the 6, stay cozy, senpai. Drink some tea, cuddle your cat, and wear warm clothes.
you all keep leaving me is this a sign, what are you trying to tellme? please lose all your friends, confidence and lovers then we can be on equal footing and sort of support each other. Its getting worse and worse and you all keep saying your different and it seems like it just maybe the case but it never is and its getting worse and worse more loss, are you trying to guide me life? do you want me to disappear forever? I just need a extra push what have you got next in store for me can I just get it over with already just give me the push to reach the abyss or giveme a new shot at life.
C
You asked me that you needed a signal and I just tried to change the subject and kept huting you. Shit, I did to you the same thing that they have done to me, play games. Now I'm on the receiving end. I didn't want to make you feel that way. I tried to keep you away, but I like your company. seriously, I will let you do whatever you want with my body, but I don't know why I can't love you. Tomorrow I will make it right. I'm going to answer your question, it's the least I can do for you and you deserve better.
Love, J
Dear, Everybody.
You're not very nice. Everyone thinks they're better than everybody else, everybody is so fake, everybody thinks they're so smart for figuring things out socially, well most everybody is on the same level.
What I don't understand though, is how you people can't understand that some people ARE just different. Yes I like the color pink, but because it's a silly color. No I don't try to be different because i'm a hipster, I JUST like different things. No i'm not gay, and I have no interest in men. I just want to be me. I want the world to be quiet and kind and understand that the only thing that matters is death.
When Daniel died, I realized swear words don't matter, hell, words in general don't matter. Retard, cancer, insults, tasteless jokes, none of it matters but death, because we're all that we have, and we take it for granted. We always will.
Just because i'm "young" doesn't mean I don't know what I want, it doesn't mean I don't understand what you're talking about, I've had one hell of a life, one tougher yet easier then most, so don't tell me I don't understand. All I want to do is live, love, and experience life, but you won't accept that, because i'm just like everybody else to all of you.
R, my power is out. That's what happens when it snows in the middle of nowhere lol. I was lucky enough to see your post last night, which is how I knew I needed to text you to check in and remind you how much I care, but that might not be possible tonight cause of this weather... so if you need someone, text me. I'm here for you, man. Stay cozy.
>>16614880
Oh my god, I literally just experienced this. My heart goes out to you, pal.
>>16615058
Not the same guy, but i'd be more than willing to skype or play a steam game with you guys, you all seem like very kind people. If you're interested, it's USTR_TRUF on steam.
I wish I knew more as to why you did this. Why it have to go this way? Why did you change? Why did you give up? Did you lose your feelings towards me? Why can't it be different when you wish so? I still can't believe how strongly you affected me and got into my heart. How did that even happen. I didn't know it was even possible. I still want you back, I'll be missing you for a long time. I'm probably better off without you but you were special, there's something so special about you. Something that made me love you and now miss you so much. How did this even happen? Why did it have to end? I wish you could explain more, I deserve to know more. This is really not fair how you handled this. I hope you know you did wrong. I hope you miss me. This can't all just be easy for you when it's so hard for me? I wish we could have been together for a long time. You never even got to know the best of me. I should just forget about you and move on, maybe I am better off not having you. You weren't all good, there were some really bad parts. Somehow still I want you. Please contact me, I know we broke up but I have to hear from you again, please please answer my questions, it's the least you could do. Ps Am I completely embarrasing myself? Probably. I don't understand why this is affecting me so much. Is it all easy for you? Do you even think about me? Maybe I need to go on a slut spree to make my body forget about you. I really really don't want to though, I only want you. They say there's plenty of other fish in the sea but there's no other S fish.
O
i sit waiting for the right one not becuase i want to but becuase i have to. i dont love i select. i select the ones i care for based on who they are. i loved you the only one. you shut me down for silly reasons. you still love me ik it. thats why you want to still talk becuase your scared of abandoment but its diffrent with me but is it am i just imagining this am i crazy am i obessing no you like me ik it im not delousonal
>>16615661
Actually never mind it's back on. It might go out again though so... Text me if you need me. Have a nice night <3
>>16607558
I read through some of our messages, a dumb thing to do. You were one of the sweetest people i knew. Thank you for being in my life.
-Marfie
>>16606761
JR,
It's been a while but I heard you were suicidal your whole life. Recently your friend told me you were a closet homosexual and he blocked all your contact because you creeped all the straight men around you out.
It must be terrible to have schizophrenia and bipolar disorder this time of season. I heard you have new tattoos and you have been hiding it.
Your friend J said you were having sex? He's the guy with the earrings I think.
This is pretty hilarious and it's real. I've lost all respect for you, I know you called yourselves "faggots" when you hang out and smoke weed but didn't know it was literal.
What happened?
I got a girl and you did the 360 . Dam son.
-E
I hope you're actually alive out there. It's been months since we've last talked. Hell, months since it's been confirmed you're alive. I miss you. I hope one of these days we get to see each other again
Riley
It's been about 3 months since you've been gone. You stopped talking to me and then ended it abruptly. I think about you every day, and I hate you. I hate the way you post on your instagram, the way you act so fake, I hate the way you talk to others, and I hate the way you were raised. I hate the fact you mean't the world to me, and the way you made me feel, I hate every laugh we shared, and I hate that you were my big deal. You were my first love, and my Best friend, you broke my heart and I don't know if you think about me, but I think about you. I hate the fact you've moved on, and I hate the fact you've cut me out of your life, but the thing I hate the most, is the fact I still love you. Not any less, not anymore, the same I had when we were alone.
>>16616019
-Jonathan
Dear J
I wish I could tell you back then how I really felt about you. Back then I truly loved you and you were all I could think about. I should have told you on that night on that hill overlooking the town in March of 2012. I've lived the last four years regretting that. While some of you posts on Facebook may make me cringe I'm happy to see you doing well in life.
-Daniel
The longer that I wait, the more that I'm afraid that someone's gonna fool your heart and take you away.
You pack your bags, you say "I love you but I cannot stay"
So I started smoking, thought the signals would scare your wolves away
>>16616830
Your energy feels interesting. Do you do anything esoteric?
F
Sometimes I wish I wasn't so blind during that time. Maybe it is still part of my imagination or maybe I actually missed something that could have been beautiful. If it's the latter, I'm sorry and if it's the former I'm still sorry because I still should've done more. Everyday I wake up and wonder what could have been and frankly still messaging you with the little replies I get hurts. I struggle to see this friendship we have lasting into the next year.
A
>>16616844
I do... Or at least, I'd like to think that I do.
>>16606761
I don't know if I love you anymore.
-Me
I do legitimately want to die, quite often. And I'm sorry, it's nothing you did or didn't do. I just get bored. So fucking bored all the time. I've been bored for so long.
Is this all life is supposed to be?
>>16616866
Find excitement, then. It's out there. Life is what you make of it. Go to a big city, then explore a small town. Eat ice cream at 4 am. Waste some money on something cool. Talk to strangers. Accept love. Life is more than what you think it is.
>>16616858
Care to share? I'm curious.
I told you I trusted you, but I don't completely yet... Please show me that you undoubtedly love only me.
>>16616873
Nothing too exciting. I walk around every single night because the darkness and quietness is the best, I take every "open" path and see where it leads me. I always look for teachers everywhere I go, I try to let someone teach me something everyday, whether or not they mean to. I smile at random people and see if they smile back. I write poems or incomplete songs and post them on community boards. Every time I visit a new city, I try to catch a sunrise or sunset there. I try to support small businesses cause they have the most interesting locations. I've only ever been to dive bars. I go to the nearest Buddhist temple at least once a month just for the expereince... Shit like that. I just like living life for myself and for the experiences, and people have called me arcane or esoteric before so... I guess I am.
>>16616893
Something about your energy. Last time I felt similar energy, I found a student.
Are you curious? Here's my email address:
[email protected]
>>16616924
I'm honoured, no joke. This is what I mean... Everyone's a teacher, and I always find them in the weirdest places. Thanks. I'll email you soon. Have a nice night... It's time for my walk. Gotta see what's out there tonight.
Please read my last texts, please please still reply to them. It's the least you can do. Or did you forget about me already?
I see you
Ice, I freeze
Around you, fresh
The smell of the flesh
Hair on the wind, flowing
Dark as the night, your eyes
Breaks the shadows like sunshine
Take me with you into the endless ride
A Love Letter to Cabin Fever
Wake in a pile of down and cotton, trapped pockets of hot air--
hear scratchy crunching oddly muffled and the scrape of plow on icy asphalt.
Stretch arms against soft sheets and remember mornings past when that distinct sound
evoked feelings of terror as it tore me from apocalyptic dreams--
my overeager mind sprang not to snow but to nuclear winter.
Today I am eager to see my own hot air condense in crystalline clusters before me
but I am still careful as I prepare for the day ahead:
first I don woolen socks, "GO HIKE", burgundy and grey
then tie-dye leggings I made at college orientation, almost faded away
a pale blue circle skirt, fit for Sunday Best, which I am wearing into the ground, torn and stained with curry
green drapey sort of shirt that feels like home, green merino sweater from my best friend
and I might as well get my ski-coat on;
the damn house is never warm enough on a day like this.
Now! I'll spend the morning
sipping coffee and listening to crooners
later I'll make biscuits; I've been planning to for ages, life gets in the way
dreaming of biscuits hot with a pat of butter and a dribble of maple syrup
and eating cold cereal
Ah! today's the day,
the white-out outside is here to stay,
'til midnight at least, or later
I'm happy to say:
today is for play.
>>16617167
I feel like there's an interesting story behind this. Is there?
Jon-
If you want your chance, you're running out of time. Like, I'm talking, days.
I can't sit on my hands forever.
-M
The things I would tell you if you cared:
I was a restless child. I took long walks after midnight and until just before three am, so I could be in bed pretending to sleep before my mom came home. Both of my parents worked nights, and I was practically a latch key kid.
I've been troubled long before you met me. I used to wake at midnight and never fall back to sleep. And so I would walk for miles until I found comfort in the night and I could go home to sleep.
No one ever questioned it or even knew, and the only time I was caught was the only time I ever lied successfully.
I thought I was scared to be alone until I was alone all the time, and I'd talk to the sky, pretending there was something listening to me, though I never believed in God. I would beg for love, I would hope for happiness, I would wish to feel as free as I did on those sunny days where it felt like I was weightless and my heart was soaring.
And I knew, even so young, those days would end, and I would be caught fumbling for them, and I knew freedom was the only way.
And now I'm just waiting for myself. I'm waiting to disappear again. To just drive away, to go somewhere new, or vaguely familiar.
I'm not waiting for you, though.
>>16617290
A soft kiss from the morning breeze
Cleared up the mind's myst
Through your sight I've found
What so long I've missed
Charlotte i m fucking caught by you, that innocent smile, that accent when you talk Spanish, how you are able to keep on conversation and never shut up. But fuck I'm such a beta when texting you, I'd just hope I could be able and tell you everything to your face but most of all pass some time next to you.
-YM
>>16617323
>Through your sight I've found
Referring to a seer?
>>16617354
When the dream is shared
One can paint the distant songs
You see within what belongs to him
>>16617405
Interesting
If you don't mind me asking, is there someone you're seeking? Perhaps someone you've seen in a vision or dream?
Your verse, though to others may be ever so strange to read, makes some strange sort of sense to me. And truly, I find this ever more Interesting by virtue of a clue that was given to me:
"Look for a way towards the light. Seek the one who has the far sight."
Unfortunately, quite cryptic are my clues. You wouldn't happen to know anything about this, would you?
>>16617436
I seek dream songs to paint
I'm sought for my freedom
Although my wings are tainted
I soar through different realms
Above every crown, the sun rays rise higher in the sky
No boundaries, no threat, cut unnecessary thread
The distance shortens at the thought speed
You can reach out, let your soul speak
The heart is the guide and judge is the mind
Remember to keep them aligned
Be wise
>>16617557
I am The Magus who seeks a High Priestess, my partner and fellow traveler to be, that we should create by blood and flesh great alchemy.
I am The Hierophant whose counsel is often sought, but concerns of the heart are most often to me brought.
Some select Pages have even learned to scry from me.
But that's more about me than you likely sought.
Now then, it seems that you've actually read for me; I thank you for your words, quite well worth considering.
Now, a gift answers a gift, so they tend to say, so I've pulled a Celtic Cross for you today. Would you like me to interpret it for you, or do you already know what to do?
I miss you. I miss every little thing about you, even things that annoyed me. You meant the world to me. Why did you have to overdose? Why didn't I die too? I wish you could speak to me one last time. I love you and I wish I could have told you that one last time before you died.
I don't live any more. I just exist without you.
>>16617613
May your winds be favorable
And the Fates smile upon thee
Your journey be safe
And your Priestess a bliss
Please gentle Magus,
Sing thy picture to me.
Gratitude for your kindness
Blessed be
>>16617613
>>16617751
Of course, fellow poet; here are your cards intepreted:
A major theme at this particular point in your life has to do with the aftermath of your inner strife. It seems to me that your emotions are often causing you to lash out, and you likely hurt those against whom you shout.
Your intution is blocked, and you're being insincere: not just with others, but also yourself. You thought you moved on, but you haven't as completely as you previously thought. The suffering continues, but you want no one to see, so you play the part of the cold heart in company.
But it's actually something about your family, isn't it? You don't talk about it, but your more perceptive friends can feel it. You should understand this, because you're likely behaving selfishly. But, you know that already; yet, you don't want to be the one to reassess the strategy.
Very soon, there is something that causes you to reconsider what you believe to be true. The Strength is in the position of advice, and it suggests that, at this point in your life, you should behave less forcefully, and perhaps more compassionately. You'll be surprised by what you see.
But the cards somehow think that you're unlikely to: The Sun in reverse is the projected outcome for you: selfishness, self-centeredness, and delusion shall likely ensue.
Forwarned is forearmed: you can still turn this around, anon.
>>16606761
Dear W
I know it's been like 5 years,but I'm still waiting for you. I at least hope you're doing well and haven't forgotten about me. Thanks for the good times, I'm really missing you.
Posting something so you can call me a faggot, as requested. Find it yourself faggot.
Try harder pleb
J. we only met recently but I feel like you are the first person that has truly ever understood me, we have so much in common and I can not help it, i am falling for you hard. I know we live very far apart but if you feel the same way, I will find a way to get to you.
D.
>>16617773
Misery enjoys my company
Though I'm not ignoring it
There are forces beyond me
Luring me to trickery
My nature cannot be tamed
It's wise to keep anger in a shell
So no beast finds you wounded
Or under the earth I might dwell
When around wolves
Forget you're a rabbit
For those seeking harm
Beware, I'm armed
Expecting a heart warming event
Perhaps putting the fight an end
I'm not forcing anything,
Just following the current
Your song speaks of a heart frozen
Recent cut of old bounds
The wound outside is closed
Inside, wild it burns
Soul seeks for pain relief in strange sheets
I hide in smiles and delighted whispers
Their honey I hive but no sweetness I taste
They're no match for the one I've always crave
>>16617955
>Their honey I hive but no sweetness I taste
>They're no match for the one I've always crave
I too prefer premium grade A dark amber maple syrup over honey
Hickory dickory dock
I want to suck your cock
Should sperm come through
I'll down it too
Hickory dickory dock
>>16617955
Carefully crafted and artfully scribed, a poet knows others by the way that they write, but the mad know true madness by what their words hide. You're mad; that's almost assured of you. I'm so certain because I'm mad too.
I've found little girls to carry big guns before, and I'm reminded of one in particular once more. Funny...you feel familiar to me. I wonder how many times our paths have met before today, moreover in how many diverse ways.
I think you and I understand each other's allegory; that's not the most common occurrence with me. I don't think this will be the last time we run into each other. But, well...I'll just say my email address is in this thread. Whatever happens happens.
>Oh where oh where has that little hare gone? Oh where oh where can he be?
>>16618142
gay
>>16618169
Lying still in the courtyard
Entrenched half-way in coma
The in between of uncertainties
Milling about in endless daydream
Everlasting hope
Endeavors that will us forward
Alone at times
Though wracked with tricksters
Yelling and shrieking
Obliging our insecurities
Under the veil of
Raging hormones
Pampering our lusts
Anointed with moral ambiguity
Numbing our personal disregard
Through boundless kink
In essence
Etherizing the ego with
Self-servile hedonism
>>16617820
n-no b-baka senpai! it's not like i wanted you to like me or anything!
>>16618240
most people believe
the lie that wanton sexual promiscuity
feeds the ego; stuffs it full, bloated, gluttonous
rather than suffocates it, leaves it wanting, lacking
which is truth
of course, most people also believe
the lie that ego is something
the enlightened soul
should seek to kill
sad world
>>16618142
Enticed to see who the unseen is
Will I climb the burning rocks
Or sink in the salty sea?
Madness consumes the lovers
Entangled in a single flame
A poet is in constant fever
Shivers, aching for their soul mate
The big Spider crosses paths and bonds
Knitted this encounter not by accident
A riddle mate you can find in a time of need
A helping hand the journeyman can reach
>>16617620
Bruh. Right in the fucking feels man. Sorry for your loss anon.
>>16618582
My bait is now laid; now it's up to you to take. You're curious, right? I don't think you're the type to let your curiosity remain.
So, now I'll just wait.
>>16606761
Why the hell aren't you talking to me? You have my fucking cellphone and you said you would. I'm still waiting for fuck's sake.
You told me we would get to know each other better, just to abandon me the next day?
Was it something I said? Did I hurt you in any way? You sounded happy...
I'll always wait for you. The saddest part is, I'll probably never talk to you again.
Yet I'm still here,checking my phone and my facebook like a goddamn idiot.
>>16618817
Also, you said your phone's broken and stuff but it should be fixed by now, so either you're a complete liar or something came up. Either way, I'm feeling like shit, and I can't escape this stupid waiting game.
A,
I'm so glad I met you. Our 1st date was really fun, and idk where this is leading but I'm really excited for where this goes.
M
>>16611467
Your initials?
>>16608861
Chris? Does this JM live far away?
P-
New year and I'm finally getting rid of you. Stay out of my turf. I don't want to see you ever again. Take your bs victimized drama, anxiety attacks, and pathetic cloud of weed and shove it. You will watch everyone around you move forward while you continuously stall out. I hope you choke and die
>>16618889
He'll know if it's him. You can guess or tell yours and I'll confirm though.
