Look up the Kinsey scale. It's not much advice, but it might explain a thing or two about what you're feeling

>>17368111
Stop looking at porn. Obvious.

How's your sleep?
How's your diet?
How's your exercise?

Str8 up.

>>17368120
I did that just now. Apparently I'm bi-sexual...
>>17368121
That's pretty hard. My current girlfriend is asexual and we rarely engage in any sexual things. I never really minded that, though.

>>17368130
My sleep is shit, my diet is okay and I do lift.

>>17368135
Sleep better.
Fuck hot nasty bitches.
Move on with your life.

>>17368120
>Kinsey scale
This. Gay and straight aren't absolutes but rather two sides of a spectrum, with a lot of area in between. It's perfectly normal to be "straight" but technically still be just a teeny tiny little bit bisexual, where you would maybe make an exception for just the right person or right circumstance or, in your case, the right porn. In fact, the majority of people seem to be this way. True straights that would never ever consider doing anything remotely gay are comparatively rare according to studies. Nothing wrong with a healthy trap fetish and it doesn't have to get in the way of your relationship.

More importantly, though, you should get off this site if you're underaged.

>>17368167
Thank you for the wise words, I'll take that into consideration. And I'm 18 so not to worry.

>>17368111
I was in your situation once too, my friend. There's a lot of pain there because evil thoughts loom and distract you from what you truly want. You need to speak with someone you trust about this, a mentor or fatherfigure, as well as your girlfriend. Absolutely NOTHING comes from hiding and keeping in the dark what needs to be shown int he light. Trust those who want to care for you. Be open with your gf because you need to get past this before you can even consider marriage.
Beyond that, you need to drop masturbation as well as porn. It's fucking insanely difficult, friend, but it has to happen. You will never recover from this damage if you hold on to the thoughts and downright wrong fantasies that consume you with lust.
Very high challenge friend, I'm sorry this path isn't easy or simple. Don't expect it to be quick either, this will take time.

>>17368175
This and Don't Be An Idiot.

>>17368175
...What the hell is a priest doing on 4chan?

>>17368175
But I absolutely love her. I'd marry her in a heartbeat if she'd ask me. I don't want to ever lose her and especially not because of a stupid kink.

>>17368187
This could hurt you and it could hurt your relationship, friend. If you love her, then you have to trust her, and you have to get past this together. If she was struggling with something wouldn't you want her to open up to you so that you could do everything in your power to help?

>>17368187
Know there's a lot people willing to waste a lot of your time and energy giving you vapor answers to a solid question.

If you feel comfortable admitting this to her, admit it to her. If you'd rather iron it out within yourself, do so (it's the manly thing), and breathe not a word about your struggle. If you wanna sit on the internet and be nervous because being nervous activates your reward center, you are allowed to do that for some reason.

>>17368196
If she's asexual I don't see why she'd mind being with someone who's mildly bi.

I do think you should share this with your gf, though, OP. But on your own terms, when you feel the two of you are ready to talk about it.

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>>17368207
She's the one who is into that yaoi and stuff. Being around her all the time for 2 years introduced me into that shit. Nonetheless, I'm going to talk with her about it tomorrow.
>>17368206
I've always kept struggles to myself, but apparently this one needs attention. It seems so silly when brought up but it actually does concern me.

>>17368216
>She's the one who is into that yaoi and stuff
str8 up fucking get away and slam your dick into the nearest sorority.

>>17368206
>(it's the manly thing), and breathe not a word about it
Are you fucking retarded, anon? Nothing good ever comes from internalizing. When has someone with internal struggle or damage ever come out victorious from silence and keeping to themselves. Best thing to do when you need help is seek help.

>>17368207
Regardless of whether she's asexual or not, this could hurt him and their relationship. Going year after year after year struggling with the lust of wanting a trap to fuck you is absolutely not healthy for any relationship. It'll either cause him pain and struggle, or cause her to get cucked (in a literal sense) and fuck the whole relationship. She's part of the relationship too, and she cares about him. She's entitled to know what she's getting into, but also to know so that she could provide support.

>>17368225
After a while, you forget about it because you stopped talking about it. That's the concept.

>>17368216
>She's the one who is into that yaoi and stuff
What are you even worried about? Sounds like there's a chance she's going to be happy about this.

>>17368225
>struggling with the lust of wanting a trap to fuck you
That, uh, doesn't sound like what's happening at all. You projecting, friend?

>>17368225
The thing is, I'd NEVER cheat. I have more self control than to do that. There's plenty of women who have come onto me and I've told them all to fuck off because I'm taken. I'm not concerned about me being unloyal, I'm concerned that I might be half-gay.

You're a trans woman. You're only disgusted by masculine men because you hate those traits in yourself not in the partners you eventually will begin imagining fucking you.

>>17368238
What, you wanna find out?

>>17368232
Hopeful. Accountability helps great amounts, and fighting out of your own strength is not likely to see success.

>>17368235
>I've started to find myself attracted to feminine men. Examples being traps, drawn yaoi, and the like.
>I can't help but have these fantasies
Sounds like that's exactly what's happening. What else would fantasies based off attraction be?

>>17368238
If you're concerned about being half-gay, and you don't want to struggle or deal with the gay thoughts, then pursue healing and restoration from this.
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>>17368249
Just fantasies. I've seen some pretty weird ones over on /d/, but the majority of the people there seem to understand where their wank ends and reality begins. You can have a good fap to something a little off from your regular routine once in a while without having some deep internal conflict eating at you and turning you into a perverted raping nympho sex werewolf or something.

>>17368254
>samefagging

OP here. Just wanted to thank everyone for taking the time to give me answers. I think my main problem is that if I continue this fetish I'll eventually lose all attraction to women and focus only on that. So yes, I'm going to limit my porn browsing and all that, and I'll talk to my girlfriend about it tomorrow.

>>17368289
Thank you for hearing me out, friend. I'm glad you're choosing to take action.

>>17368289
That's called repression anon. Porn can't make you bi or gay it can only allow yourself to explore what is already there.

If you are young and start repressing what you are you are going to have two things happening to you.
1) miss out on your young years when you are at the height of your interest to the demographic you claim to have an interest in

2) it'll come back to haunt you harder than it ever did.

Good luck to you either way.

>>17368299
Yeah, but I'm genuinely afraid of this. What if I start only liking men? Am I overreacting? Is this merely a guilty pleasure?

>>17368304
Friend, you are overreacting. Trust me on this.

>>17368304
So what if you only start liking men? What if you only liked men from the beginning but you grew up in a society where no one talked to you about how thats normal, so you just assumed the role that everyone around you also had.

If you are bi you are probably going to experience what most of us do, your sexuality goes from gay to straight in periods every once in a while.
The important thing is just to accept that, thats just what it is.

>>17368304
The mind is always subject to change, and with porn and fetishes it's no different. Lines can blur very easily. This is something which has newly afflicted you - not something you've had all along. You need to overcome this, not just repress it. Your mind will be free of it with time, but every time you come in contact with it you push the date back and damage yourself further. If you're genuinely afraid of this damaging you or your relationship, then work to overcome it, deny it. If you label yourself as bisexual, fully accept it, then there will never be a time where the thoughts fully cease.

>>17368304
>What if I start only liking men?
That doesn't happen. I know a guy that was married to a woman and had three kids before eventually they divorced. He later went on to date some men, happens to be with a man right now, but he's still bisexual. He still dated a few women even after he came out of the closet and began more often pursuing men, and he still seems to have an amount of attraction towards some women, very likely the same as when he was still closeted.

>>17368326
But you can start to favor one over the other. Even if the original preference isn't completely dampened, the new one will generally be the primary source of lust.

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>>17368339
I don't know. It's all just stressful for me. I think I'm just gonna ditch porn and focus on my girl alone.

>>17368350
That would be best and would absolutely help you. I urge you please deliver OP.