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Hey. Re-read or previous conversations. You said you never loved anyone. Never tried to. Well, do you love me now, or am I just convenient?
I've decided i'm not going to kill myself. If you have a problem with my cheating ass you can just fucking deal with it.
I sound completely paranoid and neurotic but there is an old photo on facebook that I want taken down (friend posted it) because I'm concerned it may get re-shared due to that 'On this day' feature facebook now has. I want to ask them to remove it but it would seem bizarre if I asked for it to be removed. IDK
>>17337074
>but it would seem bizarre if I asked for it to be removed
Why would it?
>>17337080
I'm not friends with the person anymore and I think it may seem crazy if I now say I'm offended by the photo and would like it removed. Its 'lads' banter but now that I think of it, it comes across as kinda rude
>>17337087
Well, you either deal with potentially seeming crazy, or you deal with the photo being out there. There is also the possibility that you will still have to do do the latter even if you decide on the former.
I say talk to him about it, instead of talking to anon.
To you only other people are good or worth it. it has always been like this. But when you need my monie im suddenly the greatest person in the world.
Go to hell.
>dude I know cheats on his gf of 5 years and breaks up with her
>this is the second time this has happened this year
>Has a history of talking to other girls behind his gf's back, flirting/engaging with them
>gf already struggles because she has few friends/resources in the area
>not sure if I want to blast his ass publicly or just cut contact completely and do my best so support his gf/ex
He's been losing friends over the course of the last couple months when word got around that he's a cheater. I don't blame the gf for staying, because he's all she's got, but damn, I wish I could do something about it. Mostly just knock him down a couple of pegs because he's sanctimonious as fuck and thinks that there are "sides" to this story aside from him just being a lying, cheating ass.
I have some dirt on him, so I think I could make a compelling case, but I don't know if it's worth it to do so.
Anyone else get diagnosed with autism as a child?
How do you deal with being so different for so long?
>>17336913
I think i'm going to tell my dad that i'm trans today. Hopefully it will be a quick and painless death. Wish me luck
>>17337209
It's not worth it...
Don't do it...
Today my mom told me that my parents have spent the last 6 years or so terrified I might kill myself
>>17337377
How do you feel about that, anon?
>>17337379
Well, not good.
>>17337381
Then perhaps your worries about your parents and how you feel about this point towards you not wanting to kill yourself at all. If this is the case, make it more known to them that you might be going through difficult times (or you're just stonefaced by nature) but you won't off yourself and you wouldn't do that to them. Communication, nigga.
I get a kick out of rejecting women. I don't know why. It's only funny when they have never been rejected in their lives though so I don't get to do it often
Just fucking lost lost so many friends after one meltdown.
They all hate me and mostly they were the majority friends I had in my whole life.
Now I only have one friend I usually talk too and I'm just trying to keep him as a friend because i'm a lone fuck who is mostly unstable and needs at least one person to talk too.
And yes, I'm a newfag for /adv/ but 4chan.
I just wanna see how this board works when it comes to this.
>>17337396
What was the meltdown? Explain in detail and let's see if it can be helped. Take deep breaths, calm down and type type type.
>>17337391
Me too
>>17337405
>Mfw this site does care
Holy shit and I'll deliver.
I am stressed as fuck. I deal with a family that always yell constantly. And to make it worse, I live with a gay brother with tourette syndrome.
>Ha ha he gay
No fuck off, I'm not in mood for joking.
Anyway, I had so much stress building up for them that, I just lashed and I couldn't stop. I just couldn't. I was just blinded by anger. I don't hate them at all but they just all ganged up at me and mostly blocked me from their group place where they mostly hang out from.
And to make it worse, they are gonna tell more people and they said I should be in a mental hospital.
Well, I can't help it, I have ADHD, GAD, and Adjustment distorter. So I really worry a lot and it annoys people. I try my best not too but it doesn't helps. Like for example, that shooting this morning in Texas, I was worried that It was gonna start a race war. But then I had to tell myself that it was fine. Anyway, I'm getting offtopic.
So after that, they just mostly banned me and now hate me.
And now I'm just listening to Phil Collins and might go play some vidya do distract me from the heart breaking pain.
PS: Sorry if it's hard to read this, I try my best to put it in eligible writing
>>17337391
fuck you
I'm finding real love
>>17337418
Wait so essentially your family and friends simply dealt with you, someone who suffers from multiple social illnesses, the same as a perfectly adjusted guy? I mean sure, it's kindof really hard to put up with that stuff oftentimes but such a reaction shouldn't be dealt with in that manner (especially considering your family isn't much better with the yelling and tourettes). I think it's just your entire family (and i mean this in the most respectful way possible) just gives off a vibe of unstable. A lot of people would just see such a thing as more trouble than its worth and cut contact. Not everyone can handle such attitudes.
I think you're number 1 priority is to try and get yourself away from your family as possible. If you can't move out, then make a schedule or a plan of sorts so you're outside/away from them as often as possible. You are a product of your environment and if this constant bullshit is what you live in, you will be explosive 24/7.
Secondly, calm down and take your time to write a humble apology directed at the group and perhaps a few lines you can tell to your closest in this group. You tell him, he allows you access to this group maybe and you show it to everyone. BE HUMBLE, but don't take undue shit. If they keep ragging on you beyond what you deserve for it, tell them to stop. If they don't, fuck 'em.
>>17337436
I was hoping moving to Boston since it's like shitty, and far away from I live.
Anon, it's gonna take more then apology, I tried my best to talk at least one of them this morning, but mostly they want me gone.
So my only option for them is fuck em..
And for my family, yeah it keeps me explosive and stuff, but mostly I am hoping to move out the best I can. I just don't wanna live where I am. I just wanna get at least a job, money, and a apartment. I'm looking for a job, and since unemployment is a bitch, it's hard.
Might just work at the nearest Mcfatties if I ever get the chance.
>>17337452
Shit man, in that case you might be better off just remaking your life, yeah. Don't class small-time work as bad. If you can make some cash flipping burrgers, go for it. It's not forever.
>>17337459
It's ruined right now.
That's why I'm hoping to make a new start when I move to Boston if I ever get there without even killing myself.
>>17337466
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tYzMYcUty6s
>>17337468
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BbNg5_Jtd8k
>>17337316
I probably should have been, but i was always "gifted" and my parents were immigrants who had never heard of autism so they never took me to a psychologist. Probably same with my dad and my great-aunt, they've also always had emotional and social difficulties.
Now i've been diagnosed with schizoid (for context: Asperger's used to be called "schizoid disorder of childhood").
>How do you deal with being so different for so long?
The hard way, i guess.
This is how i grew up and it's how i am. I've never known anything else.
Sometimes i try to act normal, try to pretend to be like everyone else. But it's a thin disguise, people can easily see through it. And there's no point anyway: after all, why pretend? Easier to just do what comes naturally, as unnatural is it is to other people. Fuck them. If they can't accept that some people are different from them, they deserve to be uncomfortable.
>>17337396
>Just fucking lost lost so many friends after one meltdown.
Those weren't real friends, anon.
Ever heard of "fair-weather friends"? If they duck and run when a storm comes, that's what they are.
>>17337486
Well fuck.
Now i'm back alone again and now I gotta make friends the hard way.
I flirted with other girls while in a relationship. Kissed two of them. I felt and feel really bad about it but my girlfriend won't stop belittling me for it. I feel very small in this relationship and always have (which is why I think I went to outside relationships), and I'm trying to work through things with her. It's getting really hard though to fix things because she keeps putting me in positions to feel like shit.
I know we should break up and we probably will soon, but the issue right now is that she lives with me and is trying to join the military. If we break up it will just create a more tense household and it will be worse. The only reason we are together is due to that fact I think. I have shown myself that I could at least /strive/ for better women than her. What I really need to do is pay off the money I owe her (it's a little over 1000, she helped buy furniture), and then buy my own car. That would completely separate us financially and give each of us independence. The thing I worry about with that is our two cats. I would feel bad taking them back to a shelter, but I'm away from home 10 hrs a day and I don't know if I could care for them. I'm stressed out and want to just be an independent agent again. Not even to pursue a relationship, this was my first serious one and its left me very salty. I just want to be in control of my own life again..
>>17337391
you don't get to do it often, implying that only the deepest desperate dregs of female humanity hit on you
i bet if you hit the gym and stop being such a flagrant fucking loser you could turn down a higher caliber of girl!
Are we making the best choice? Am I making the right choice... It doesn't feel like it. I wonder what you think of me.I just want to know. It might make this easier. I think the world of you. Even after all this.
I'm slowing dying terminally and don't know how to deal with it
By deal with it I mean I wake up and don't feel like doing anything since I'm dying. Can't look forward to anything either. I kinda just wish it would end me as quick as possible
I'm scared that no relationship I build will last because I like to study/work in different places (currently got a gf from Uni in the UK).
Also, I'm scared that distance and certain events in her life will tear our relationship apart
>>17337552
What illness do you have? And honestly I always think if you're terminally ill, you're literally free to do anything. You have the dubious privilege of knowing roughly how and when you will die. Your destiny is now yours.
Travel, do something zany you have been wanting to do since forever. Nothing is holding you back now, no future plans is making you save your money, your reputation or even your fucking health! Seriously, get up and go skydiving in the Maldives for giggles while you ponder what kinda wacked-out shit you can do.
I had lots of friends when I was maybe 14 or so but I withdrew from all of them. I've been a loner since.
They're all completely different people now, and probably with three times more life experience. I hear one just flunked out of uni. At least i'm not a fuckup.
I think my boyfriend either doesn't love me/is cheating on me/both. When we first started seeing each other he said he didn't know if he wanted to be in a relationship for like the first 6 months. We were both still in unhappy relationships when we met but we only kissed before we quickly ended them, at the time he was very busy and would just leave me hanging while texting all the time. Flash forward after many times of me giving up and him trying to win me back and we are "officially" together although it's long distance, he doesn't leave me hanging any more, says he loves me every day, and is making plans with me but I still can't help but think maybe we are incompatible and it's hard for me to feel comfortable with him after feeling rejected for so long. He finally made a very sweet gesture a few months ago and sent me a birthday present via snail mail and wrote a note confessing his love, but I still don't feel secure in our relationship. When there are silences between us that would normally be fine I always feel on edge, and I feel like sometimes he is just replying to my texts in short responses because he doesn't actually care. He also doesn't seem terribly interested in having sex with me and has trouble keeping it up - although to be honest that has been consistently an issue so may be a chicken/egg thing. Am I being strung along? Is he just keeping me around until he finds someone else? Why didn't he know what he wanted from me for so long until I stopped communicating with him? Am I paranoid?
It is kinda annoying hearing her name alot, or music with her name. For some reason I almost think it's a sign to do something.
I was at work yesterday, and Maggie May by Rod Stewart began playing on the radio, followed by Your my Best Friend by Queen.
And I randomly saw her posted on a Faces of /b/ Thread that night.
I'm a fucking idiot. I always want more than I have. I really don't know for sure if I've gone farther than trying to kiss a girl when I'm drunk. To be honest I'm scared to find out because I know how much that would hurt you.
I couldn't have picked a worse person to do something this shitty to.
You're so goddamn genuine that it hurts to be as horrible as I am. I know you'll never be able to trust me again the same way you used to, and it fucking hurts. I love you.
I wish I was someone else.
I am woman crazy.
If I'm not looking at porn involving women I'm looking up google images or listal pages and ranking the most beautiful women.
If I were a normal person, I'd be sexually active as fuck. I'd be an absolute freak.
The thing is, I'm not even masculine. Im girly af. It's like I'm a trans woman dying to sleep with as many lesbians as possible.
wtf
>>17337010
why is it always the assholes that survive this shit?
fuck off and die you pig
I can't handle the real world. There is no point in moving forward. I spent a whole year improving my self-esteem only for it to go down again. I've gone full circle.
I'm bitter and hateful again. I'm holding grudges against people who insulted me in the past and wish death upon those I envy. Just like before.
I really need people to admire me, but I don't think I have what it takes to reach that, and I'm too scared to find out.
I volunteeraly give "Sexual Education Workshops" in Schools (8 and 9 grade) in my City we teach them about genders (not tumblr genders, calm your tits) and about STD/STI and Protection
Im an 18yo virgin.
Is that ironic ?
>>17337944
Promote abstinence; that will make more sense.
>>17337949
>Promote abstinence; that will make more sense.
Please Elaborate, I dont understand it in this english im an eurofag
>>17337536
I think you're freaky and I like you a lot.
>>17338004
kek for die antwoord lyrics
I met this guy a few weeks ago and hung out with him once since and I'm 99% sure he could be into me, there was definitely something. But when chatting I'm the one messaging first every time (except once) and I guess I feel scared he doesn't like me anyway. He's out of town next week and I told him to hit me up when he gets back, so if he doesn't I should take it he's not interested right?? I mean I'm the one messaging first all the time, he can't be in doubt that I'm into him.
>>17337975
Here in Fatfuckistan, we used to have abstinence-only sex education, which meant that the teachers would encourage the students to abstain from sex as the best means of preventing diseases and unwanted pregnancy.
It would make more sense if you promoted such a program since you would be practicing what you preach.
>>17338004
God damn it :(
>>17338010
Yes.
Id on shirt?
>>17338039
What?
>>17338029
Why does that make you sad, anon?
>>17338042
Yes he is not interessed.
Could please tell me the identification of the shit the girl is wearing on the picture?
>>17338057
I wouldn't make that conclusion yet...
And idk it's just a normal gray t-shirt. Who cares
>>17338046
Because I'll never know if it's from her.
>>17338061
Well since I'm a him, you now know.
I wish I had a younger sibling. I might become a parent just so I can get that experience secondhand.
>>17338071
Want to kiss?
>>17338010
Depending on the personality of the guy it could go either way.
If he is a bit shyer, maybe he's just a bit nervous as well.
I am in kinda a similar position with a girl.
>>17338080
Only if you're a qt twink.
I'm playing it cool so she doesn't know but I'm super excited for our date this Sunday.
>>17338059
>Who cares
The person that's asking
>and i don't know if he is interessed it's just a normal guy. Who cares
>>17338010
There's some people just don't know. A couple times I never realized that a girl liked me just because I was busy all the time.
>>17338083
Well when we met for the second time i thought it went great, it wasn't a date just like hanging out/getting to know him, but towards the end he put his arm around me and it was just really nIce. But now I'm wondering if he thought maybe I seemed uninterested and platonic because I was afraid of coming off as desperate? But he can't possibly think that I'm not interested when I keep trying to talk to him... And when we chat he seems interested, asks questions etc. He just doesn't really initiate (although to be fair it's only been like 2 weeks). I guess I'm desperate to meet him again so I can try to act more flirty and spill less spaghetti. I dunno, I'm bad at this. But I like him and don't want him to slip away lol :(
But I told him to hit me up when he's back in town, so if he doesn't I should just give up right?
E,
Never told you I was raped as a child. Never told anyone, actually. This was why I was such a mess, I am sorry. It was the only thing I ever kept from you.
Ruth B - Lost Boy
Great song, strikes a chord with me, for whatever reason.
>>17338095
Yeah this guy is very busy right now so I'm thinking that could be why. Idk
>>17338104
Honestly, your situation is so similar to mine, just with reversed genders. So I cant really help much Sorry.
I'm 30. About 10 years ago I found one of these while on a summer getaway with my bros, it's a sea urchin skeleton. Mine's dark emerald green, perfectly clean, the size of about a 1 Euro coin and intact and. It is also extremely fragile, owing to the countless tiny perforations in it that support the sea urchin's innards. It's still in my room, I can see it from where I'm typing, where it's been all this time. I have been planning to strengthen it with glue/resin and make it into a very special necklace or earring for a girl that shares my mutual love and spent some time together, it's meant to be like a birthday or christmas DIY gift.
I'm still waiting..
>>17338160
D'awh
I'm tired of questioning everything I do or think about. I'm tired of not being able to live because my brain won't stop analyzing my feelings or lack thereof, won't stop comparing myself to everything else to make up for my lack of self confidence. I'm tired of being sexually confused at 22. I'm tired of thinking every single day that I'm stuck in depression for the rest of my life and that I'll never get back to the intensity of feelings I experienced just a year ago. I'm tired of waiting for those SSRIs to work. I need to get a better job and to quit my shitty studio.
I'm fucking tired, and I don't even want to sleep. Will it get better?
Having done anything wrong to anyone nobody can understand that I don't smoke anything illegal I don't do anything. The one day I try to go out and live my life you people find a way to fuck it up for me. Whatever I did to deserve this thank you for ruining my life with rumors and drama. Thank you so much
>couple of months ago
>girlfriend wants to go out
>feel sick, let her go with one of my best friends
>trust them
>mistake
>found out they were feeling each other up
>kissing
>no sex occurred (as far as I know but I'm pretty sure now)
>break up with girl
>drama
>decide to keep her around, she thinks we're working on a relationship
>start messaging friends ex, he still has feelings for her
>keeping them both on the leash
>former friend founds out about his ex and cuts off all contact
Am I a bad person for this?
>>17338026
I see what you mean,but its Sex E.D. but it not everything is sex related you can get some STI/STD or HIV without having sex if you are unlucky and we teach the symptoms curing methods and shit.
anyways, good luck in life anon
The thing about it is if that person worked out their shit with who they're currently dating it's done and over with. If the ex is still burned they need to talk about it and move on. Especially when the person has papers and know that it's just other people being rude and obnoxious
>>17337682
>Why didn't he know what he wanted from me for so long until I stopped communicating with him?
Because he's human. We tend to take things for granted until we experience what it's like without them.
Go listen to music there's 40 trillion songs about this.
>>17338010
>>17338104
Don't worry so much. Relax, he probably likes you.
I'm coming out of depression for the first time in almost five years.
It's like seeing the world in color again.
Not much of a religious person, but thank you god. It was all I asked. Thank you.
I was extremely close to lose my virginity with a girl who showed interest in me.
She was drunk as fuck tho and she already has a boyfriend and kids.
I'm confused because there was not single moment in my life when a girl showed interest in me up until today.
She constantly wanted to fuck me, but I refused. I think if I fucked her it would end up up terribly and my mind was on constanly on that I would not be able to face in the mirror ever again.
What I want to ask is that I might be a beta, but I would lose a lot of things if this happened, including the whole village would hate the ungodly fuck out of me including the girl, because I taken advantage of her. Also drunk confessions are kinda shit for me, it doesn't felt right at all.
Did I cuck myself or did I do the right thing?
>>17338219
what was the process?
I turned 18 seven months ago. In those 7 months I managed to become a longhaired, unshaved, fat alcoholic. I was the opposite of that 7 months ago. Just woke up one day and decided there is nothing to life. Beard is like Sir Davos sized, hair is Jon Snow sized, and belly is Hodor sized.(95kg, was 80) Don't really feel suicidal or anything, just wondering if I should continue like this or is this bad. And how do I break the spell.
>>17338225
Sticking with the medication as much as I didn't want to. Staying mindful of how much struggle within myself was caused by being bitter and expecting things to return back to how I was happy and how I felt before. Just had to let go of the past. I was holding onto the past when I didn't deal with depression now, why would I have done it then? It's a lot easier said than done.
It's a really hard thing to articulate. I wrote this a while ago on my whiteboard and it helps a lot:
The answer isn't entirely in a pill. It's in setting realistic goals for yourself, establishing a proper attitude towards completing them, and repeating that process until it becomes second nature. It takes 28 days to form a new habit, it literally creates new pathways in your brain. The best way to get any place you want to be is through discipline. Don't throw that away on shortcuts, it defeats the purpose.
If you ever find yourself wishing you could get into hobbies that you enjoyed when you were younger, don't go into it with the expectation that you'll enjoy it as you did when you were a kid. You didn't come to love what you did that way in the first place. Approach things like that as if you had never experienced them before.
I hope it helps.
I wish you people could see that its actually worth talking about your problems like adults before getting mad flying off the handle and doing this to somebody because of something you think they did. For the love of everything please leave me alone. Like I said, anything done in my past has been discussed with my SO and he knows. Ive taken responsibility on my part the best way I know how. The best thing for me to do is to move on. If an ex is still mad then actually talk about it like an adult. I wish people would stop spreading rumors when they don't know the truth. I cant even go fucking bowling or get a fucking ice cream without bullshit. Thank you for the people who have blown this way out of proportion . Thank you to the people who make fun of me on the daily basis. Thank you so very much, it's made me stronger. Talking does know good because you don't want to see the truth, you people only want to hear your version. So have fun raise your families I'm so sorry I'm such a burden to you for doing absolutely nothing to you...
>>17338232
It's really hard to accept that you're going to evolve as a person when you're at a point when you're evolving into someone with less feelings than before. But you pretty much validate what I thought about how to get better, though, thanks with that.
I'm also glad I've been only feeling this way for less than a year, I imagine that the damage is easier to reverse.
I really wish the people who hate me the best. It's wrong to have somebody treated like this everyday. I know you guys sleep well at night but I'm emotionally drained at this point. I have to deal with this stuff both on and offline. Cant even get a decent job because of the threats and side remarks being made to me. I don't want to throw in the towel, I don't want to give up. Its just so hard to deal with people when they're being this unreasonable. I try to be a good person, I LOVE my friends and family but other people have completely ruined it for me. I cant even keep a straight face anymore. I hope you all are happy, not like you cared to discuss it with me anyways. I didn't mean for it to get this bad, I really wish we could've talked things over. Now I'm just the piece of shit everyone wants me to be.. I'm the basket case who nobody wants to hire, I'm the failure you want to see get hit with karma...but its a two way street. The things people have done to me and the awful things said; will slowly appear in your life as well. Theres just no end to this, its ridiculous. Over a rumor that was made because I needed help. I told the truth to the therapists and professionals I told the truth the whole time .
>>17338286
Cont. I'm probably better off homeless in another country than having to be treated like this for no reason. I have to get through this, I know I can. To all the people who saw my screen there was a reason behind what I did, it wasn't malicious at all. You assumed it was and they were told about it. Half the people just shared the same last name, they weren't even the correct people. I have nothing against anyone. The only thing I feel now is regret and sorrow. I wish I could take it all back, I wish I would've moved when I still had the chance. There is so much beauty in the world and I cant even enjoy that anymore, confined to my home. Venting to anons, this is what I am right now, its all I can do. trying to make friends and do the right thing wont help me. These people are too far gone for logic and understanding. They wont listen to me, wont give me a chance. Ill just be broke and stay inside so I wont be a burden to these nice people.
>>17338286
>>17338236
I'm sorry for what happened.
I'm sorry that mean and judging people exist.
I hope you'll be able to trust people again someday.
a hug
Lyla
>>17338293
reading this is breaking my heart, because i had a friend that said the same, and i wasnt able to help him. please, please, please, don't give up.
I wasn't waiting for a reaction, all I wanted was some honesty. I know you better than to do either.
I do have feelings for other women, but at most they are crushes that go away
the most i've done is hit on a woman. I know thats bad so even that is enough for you to want to end it.
maybe i dont love you the way i thought i did.
i kind of dont want to find out because i really enjoy everything about you and being your SO
i dont know how to be a decent person.
youre the person i always get my advice from but youre also the person i betrayed.
help
>>17338310
This is honestly its all I have left. I have no reason to lie anymore. I know better now, its caused me nothing but pain and sorrow. Ill tell you the truth, but I need you to believe me. Please if you see this, know I'm willing to work this out
>>17338321
i don't know who is this for. but don't let something that important hang in a post on the internet. call him/her. make a step forward. it's worth a try.
>>17338321
You should probably give a clear indication of who you are and your intended recipient. Otherwise, your words are in vain.
SOME MUSCLE IN MY LEG CANNOT STOP TWITCHING JESUS FUCKING CHRIST THIS SHIT IS ANNOYING AS FUCK FUCKYOU MOTHERFUXKER
i don't know what t. means
It doesn't matter anymore. Its no longer a cry for help or attention. Its more of a venting session. The threats and side marks are going to continue, that's my cross to bear. I just wish a could post the truth and broadcast it all over the world so this nightmare could end. These people only see half of what these people are trying to do to me. I have my little family, but the people have gotten so sly and malleolus even if I stay inside, I'm objected to being treated like shit on a wall. Its getting to the point my medicine is not working like I though it would. I guess I'm just waiting around until they finally accuse me of something I didn't do. Then they'll be satisfied that I've officially lost everything in my life that has given me meaning.
>>17338347
It's finnish I think, it means something like Regards at the end of a letter. So on /int/ They'll go like:
>t. Alberto Barbossa
When taking the piss of the Portuguese.
>>17338355
dont be like that anon. i can understand how you feel. i'm sorry for what people say about you, but you can't give up. you have to be strong, you have to explain to those you think may deserve it. fuck the others. but don't push people away because bad people exist.
Thanks I appreciate that. I go through a personal mental hell that no one understands but me and the ones that do this to me. It was just so done when I found out what they really said and chose to spread it around to everyone but me. Defending myself only makes things worse. I'm a sitting duck in an society of people that dislike me and wont bother talking about it like adults. Reality is a beautiful thing, isn't it?
>>17338373
I still don't understand.
What a stupid way to bait. I didn't get banned, I quit. I could go back there right now. I only stopped by to comment on a mask.
>>17338386
i'm sure there is people who would understand. if you want to talk, and it may help, you can contact me. leave me your kik, or give me a way to contact you.
see you
>>17338387
It's how the Finnish abbreviate "sincerely" at the end of their letters. If you aren't a native English speaker, it might be confusing.
Thank you but, I'm too afraid to do anything online or talk to anyone because of the situation. However, I really do appreciate you reaching out.
>>17338407
how did that come to be a meme?
>>17338416
too bad :) i know how you feel though. good luck.
I'm on a gap year and I had a job interview today, just as a seasonal waiter job but it would've been a really nice job and I would've loved it. But I really don't think I got it and I don't want to hope, because I feel like I spilled spaghetti at all the questions. Like when she asked me why I wanted to work there I SHOULD'VE said because I want experience and because I like being busy/on my feet, but I said some vague stupid shit, I can't even remember I just know it was dumb. I'm just waiting to be rejected now. I'm so sick of rejection, I've been looking for a job since I was 15, now I'm 19 and still I've only ever gotten rejection even after tons of interviews. Starting to feel like an idiot that I can't even manage something like this.
Why the fuck do I "love" her more than when I actually saw her daily?
I really want to message her, in hopes that something happens. But I know nothing will come of it beyond a decent conversation. Just like every time before.
I'm 24 and living with my grandmother outside of a major city on a lake working a good job saving up for a house. My life was really turbulent up until this point. I've been trying to get back into good graces with my family, who come out every weekend to spend time there. My two little brothers often bring friends and I know some people around here.
It is of particular significance that I have a good time with them because this will be the last summer that I get to see all of them on a regular basis. My one brother is moving onto medical school, and his friends are moving on as well. Same with my youngest brothers friends and the two that I have managed to make around here. I have become close with all of these people and for the first time in my life I felt "in sync" with them. Until this weekend.
My youngest brother and I have always butted heads and he's always fucked around with me and generally treated me like shit. I was partying this weekend with him and we got in a big fight as a result of a culmination of slights and him just being his usual dick self. I threw a bunch of shit at him and of course my parents sided with him as they usually do... I always feel like I've been a scapegoat and I left for two days and now I'm back to square one with them during the last days of my life where we'll all be together and it hurts and I don't know what I should do
My boyfriend and I haven't seen each other in close to a month, it's long-distance. We haven't been able to see each other lately because of monetary issues and work.
We both have next Monday and Thursday off, so I asked which day would work better for him. He told me Thursday because he's going to be doing things with his friend on Monday.
Like, are you fucking serious? We haven't seen each other in a month, and you'd rather do shit with your buddy who you can see whenever you want than see me after telling me how much you miss me and how badly you want to see me? I haven't voiced how upset/hurt I am by this yet because I don't want to be a complete cunt about it, but just...wow.
Should I break up with him?
>>17338502
>don't want to be a complete cunt about it
>Should I break up with him?
I feel really sad..
I haven't been doing good the past few weeks. I'm been pretty depressed and well. A girl who I trust a lot, who is close to me asked me through text what was wrong. So I explained to her everything, I poured all my feelings into this message. Explaining everything on my mind. Well, she read the message. But never responded. And it's been over a day.
Like I said, this girl is close to me. She's not just a random girl.She means a lot to me. And I trust her more than anybody else. It just hurts that she hasn't at least given me feedback. I'm really not doing well, and just getting some words of encouragement would have helped. But she never replied...
>>17338502
>give boy a choice
>be upset when he chooses wrong
fucking girls and their mindgames
>>17338532
Maybe she is just taking time to process it? Or maybe she's not as good of a friend as you thought
>>17338532
That's how i lost my best friend. Too much for her.
And she did the same; she ignored me for ever.
>>17338532
What all have you sent her? She might have just been busy. Try all to call her. I've had a lot of friends do that to me before turns out their phone got deactivated or they got a new number. If all else fails, does she have a facebook or an e-mail account?
>>17338549
It's not that he "chose wrong", I was more checking his availability. He has a chance to spend time with me sooner than later after not having seen me for quite some time, and he chooses his friend that he gets to see whenever he wants. That's fucking infuriating. This is after sending me multiple "I miss you, I want you, I love you" texts.
I would have understood if it were some unavoidable errand or work or something, but he's perfectly capable of rescheduling with his buddy. Like, shouldn't I be the priority?
>>17338549
>>17338553
>maybe she is just taking time to process it
I hope you are right.
>maybe she's not as good as a friend as you thought.
If this was the case, I would be really really hurt..
I don't know if you saw my post from a few days ago, but this is the girl who made a flip book video for me on my birthday. It was a 6 minute long flip book video and she wrote some very kind words for me.she put a lot of thought into making it.
I've helped her emotionally. She would talk about her feelings to me, and I've always been there for her. She had a panic attack one time. She could have called anyone she wanted, but she called me. I talked her through it and calmed her.
I care about her..
>>17338555
:(
>>17338562
She's seen it. And she's been online since..
I sent her a long message. Everything on my mind about work, social life, just everything that's bothering me.
>>17338526
Fair point. I guess I shouldn't jump to solutions like that in these kind of situations, but I'm unbelievably hurt that he didn't even think about seeing his friend some other time when he has the chance to see me ASAP.
>>17338577
You gave him the option.
>>17338565
2 days, 2 people.
His friend probably couldn't change the day and since you could he did it.
In all defense, assuming this is about who I think it is... I don't think shes seen anything on her phone, or on any websites. Keep in mine that person might have a number that is no longer working and is using a different phone because that person is broke atm. I'm sure given the chance this person would love to talk with you and apologize for not being there for you. Just try again there is a reason for it. I'm pretty sure they would've responded if they saw it. If you live close by how about a visit face to face? That might help clear things up a bit
>>17338588
I'm the same guy that posted on his birthday. So yeah.
Just, with the nature of this is the reason I'm sad. Thanks tho, anon.
My fiancee broke up with me and immediately started hooking up with this guy who she met at her new church.
It feels really shitty. She says she still loves me and she wants to marry me someday. I get it if she needs more time and space, I'm in no big rush and we're both pretty young. But something about how that went down just feels so wrong. And now she wants me to sleep with someone else. But that's the last thing on my mind.
She also slept with her ex boyfriend while we were engaged and I got chlamydia because of it.
I just remember this message she sent me once about how she wanted to be my loyal wife and be faithful only to me.
It just hurts, and I realize people have much worse shit happen to them in the world, but it still fuckin hurts, man.
I'm the same girl who said she was sorry for being an asshole to one of her best friends. She's very sorry and you mean the world to her, you really do. Please reach out to your friend use the new number you know. Don't be like this
>>17338615
She sounds like a total keeper.
Just make sure your insurance covers DNA testing and AIDS medicine so you can live happly ever after.
DAVID, FUCKING ANSWER ME. I NEED TO KNOW IF I CAN MAKE IT TO THE PARTY. WHAT THE FUCK.
Actually anon that's not correct. The timeline and events are off. And to my "friend" just text or "come by" youre welcome anytime
You are so wrong and hurtful. I'm currently clean. Why do you continue to push the issue.
The C-word was taken care of and everyone involved was informed. And I'm clean in the sense of the A-word. That was just another hurtful rumor people spread around. Why doesn't anyone get that?
I hate myself, everyone and everything around me.
I'm tired of stressing out over my thin dick, but can't stop. I'm almost at the point of cutting off my balls so that I won't crave sex and thus won't have anxiety over my penis. Its started to badly impact my mood in general and make me extremely depressed.
But that in no way gets me closer to getting GF that I lover and all that, or giving her amazing sex, which is why I'm yet to do it.
I'm not going to hang myself, I went through a tough time in my life. I wasn't the best judge of character but I'm trying to be a better friend, I cant do it alone. I need you to hear the truth. I need you to know that I'm not giving up on you. No matter how bad you treat me, I will always be there.
I fucked up. I worked so hard to get to where I was right now and last night I felt a sense of digression. I want to reclaim my own power. I know I can do it, I'm just disappointed in myself.
They say you need to accept failure, but why do I feel so shitty over it? Why can't I forgive myself for anything ever?
I really want to fucking die, but I don't want to hurt the people that care abou me. It just hurts too much to keep going.
Forgive yourself forgive other people around you that wont accept the truth. Forgive and know that if they really wanted to be in your life, they would actually say so. You're not a failure by telling people what they don't want to hear because they've been feed lies. You're not a failure for losing friends because you were going through an emotional time and came out of it. As long as you keep trying to improve, you will never be a failure in your heart.
>>17338672
>As long as you keep trying to improve, you will never be a failure in your heart.
You couldn't be more wrong, friend.
>>17338615
Marrying this chick now or ever after that would be an insult to your dignity. I think it's fairly clear through her actions she is not into you or is a floozy.
>>17338690
He means to yourself, a sort of obligation to never give up on yourself.
Even my fucking therapist fucking abandoned me.
Go me.
How is that wrong? I'm curious.
As much as I'd like to punch, kick, strangle, gouge and in other ways harm you two...
I gotta breathe. Breathe in and out. Let this negativity pass through me and realize you aren't worth the time. I no longer need to intervene or let you take up space in my head. You're both sick, mentally sick, and nothing I do will ever help. I now refuse to participate in anything involving you two. I'll eventually become a fucked up shell of myself by continuing to try and come between you fighting.
Keep on banging on my door and blowing my phone up though. It's your time wasted, not mine. Thumbs up for yelling insults through the door too.
I didn't yell insults through the door. I'm not blowing up your phone I'm actually trying to talk to you.
>>17338437
So I can't actually message her... My phone is fucking up.... Fun
My father is fucking trash. The embodiment of everything I deem pathetic.
My eating disorder is out of control. I'm close to 400 lbs, I can barely jack off.
I live on welfare and all I do is play videogames and watch shitty cable tv. I only have kinda friends from my eating disorder group but I spend most of the week not talking to anybody but the social workers who visit me twice a week. All I think about is how I'm going to die from my weight.
>>17336972
Yes I love you.....Jesus do i really have to say it
>>17338752
>>17338752
You need to get your life together,mate.
>>17336913
I had a gf that I was convinced was the one. When we broke up, it sent me into two years of depression.
Now I'm 30 years old, and I can't help but feel that I missed my last chance for a normal life by wasting my time with her. It hurts to not have someone, but I feel like the harsh reality is that I'm just too old to find someone to really connect to now. I'm mostly over her, but today I was thinking about how we'd have been together for five years by now if things would have worked out, and hell, maybe we'd be married, and it hurt a lot.
The funny thing is I didn't give a damn about any of this before I met her.
>>17337418
wow, Your old friends did that?
I mean, those are not real friends, thats horrible.
Try meeting new people, try new activities and find people that u are confortable with. About family problems, try dealing with them the best u can and if u cant, as soon as possible try to be independient or something idk
Just tell me how you feel. Or tell me you don't want anything if that's the truth. It will suck either way but I'd rather know for sure than cling onto some false hope. Right now I'm just stuck in a circle going nowhere.
Why is this so hard. I actually tried for once. I'm telling myself that in itself me trying is a positive, but I still think how right now it looks like I'll come away with nothing, and go back to square one. I'm tired. Tired of being alone, tired of fear, tired of shutting myself in emotionally.
I'm too scared to act on my emotions, so I learn to only depend on myself. But by learning to only depend on myself I realise I'll never find anyone because I will never try. So I have to tell myself I do need someone, but I don't know how to find someone, I don't know what to do. I try to not shut myself in, but in the long run that might just shut down my confidence more.
I think you're beautiful, but I feel like a fool for thinking that. I don't feel like I'm allowed to have these emotions, I want something real but I ironise myself and become cynical about my own feelings. I think I'm stupid for wanting somebody else.
At this point I don't know if you just aren't interested, or if you suck at this so much as well that you're struggling to progress things too. My head is telling me the former.
I've had so little emotional closeness in my life that I fear I dive into anything resembling it. And fuck it up somehow. It used to not bother me but now I think about it every. single. day. I feel the clock ticking and age accumulating. All while learning nothing more about myself.
I feel angry and tired. It's hard to retain faith in myself when the results are so contradictory to doing that.
I think you're beautiful and I hope you can see that. I love the way you smile and tie your hair. I'm sorry I'm so fucking terrible at expressing myself that I can't tell you these things in person.
>>17338502
>We both have next Monday and Thursday off, so I asked which day would work better for him
>Thursday works better for him
>I am unbelievably hurt
Gimme a break. This is the kind of shit married men complain about.
>>17338615
>My fiancee broke up with me and immediately started hooking up with this guy who she met at her new church.
>She says she still loves me and she wants to marry me someday.
>She also slept with her ex boyfriend while we were engaged and I got chlamydia because of it.
A new church sounds like a good idea, because that girl needs Jesus.
>>17338702
I know that feel. I've had several doctors and a psychiatrist give up on me.
Just keep putting one foot in front of the other.
I'm getting weight loss surgery and I'm hoping I don't die. I hope I can get therapy to help me get over stuff.
What does depression feel like and does it ever go away? Am kind of worried.
I hate myself. I feel like I have almost no redeeming qualities, possibly intelligence aside. I sometimes think about suicide, but that would put a burden on the people I care about, both emotionally and monetarily.
I'm irresponsible as far as doing the things I know that I need to do.
I struggle with opening up to others about how I feel when I'm depressed/unhappy. If I ever get in a committed relationship, I know this is going to blow up in my face.
I hate sounding like a ">tfw no gf", but at 24, seeing all of my friends getting married or at least having experience that really takes yet another hit to my self worth. The only girl I ever asked shot me down, and my parents gave me jack shit as far as advice
I have no self confidence and don't know how to deal with myself as a person and can't help that if I could truly open up to people, they might just be as disgusted as I am.
>>17338615
She's disgusting. Be glad you dodged that bullet. I almost married a guy that I had been with for 4.5 years (me him when he was 20 something and I was 15). I had something really bad happen to me at college and I called him and asked him to drive down to help me. He told me he couldn't because he was at a fighting game tournament in MD. Turned out he was, with one of my younger friends. He was fucking her at the time I called and he then went to the tournament after my call. I've stopped being fucking stupid needless to say and I've never looked back.
I had to tell someone this same thing earlier. He asked if I had simply lost interest and moved onto my next fad. I thought this much was obvious. I do not care for that place anymore, when I said that I was done and walking away, I meant I was done and walking away. Now, why is it that I get asked if I still go there? I can't actually prove it in any other way than continue doing my own thing. I do not, I will not. I'm done. I sure wish there was a way to prove that, but my word will need to suffice one of these days. It's not like it'd be particularly hard to tell where I do frequent, a profile of mine makes it very clear.
But really, if people can stop throwing out questions as to whether I still care about that place while I'm enjoying a game, it'd be really cool. Feels like I'm having to repeat the same thing to several people.
>>17339042
It feels like a heavy fog blanket over your forehead that you can't get rid of combined with a sinking feeling in your stomach that never goes away.
If you Guys or Gals ever need help or a word of advice, you can add me on Kik: werebear99
Tell me what your situation is or what problem you're having and i can help you figure things out
I posted here a thread or two ago about this, but I need a tad more /adv/ice before I send this letter.
Background is I really liked this guy a year ago and I fucked up our friendship to the point that he told me he didn't want to speak anymore. I still care for him and want to at least tell him I am sorry.
Hey Anon. I know you don't want to talk anymore, but I want to at least get this off my chest. It's my fault that we aren't friends anymore. Honestly, I still care for you and feel guilty that I ruined our friendship. Talking to you made me so happy every time. I sincerely apologize for everything detrimental I've done. I regret some of the choices I made and not being a better friend.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
I want to add something about a possible response (I'm not expecting one, but want to close with the thought) but I'm not sure how to word this.
>>17339299
Once you work out how you wish to word it, post it.
>>17339300
I'm asking for proofreading and some wording help because I'm not a good writer.
The girl I love lives 3009 kilometers away. And it pains me I can't hug her.
The love of my life is in the next room with her fiance. He's handsome enough that I'd blow him, but I don't have any real attraction. I've accepted that I'm only part of her entourage, and any moment with her makes me feel fuffiled. Like watching them hold hands or argue or make out. I wish I was him, he has had so many problems in his past, but I wish I was him. No other person can compare to her. I'd die for her.
i want him to die. but i dont want him to die a normal death like a normal person because he isnt that at all. hes scum of the earth. an abusive alcoholic, senile old man. how could he hit his own wife in front of the entire family, or molest his own grandchild at 12, and even molest HIS own CHILDREN. i couldnt have called the cops on him, hes an evil man who has ties to evil people. he would get them to find my dad, and kill him. i want to poison him, and i want him to die at my hands. he doesnt deserve to die peacefully.
>>17339336
3000 km That is like top of Finland to Greece distance. Holy fuck that is far. Feel bad for you dude.Hope you get a chance to meet up soon.
>>17339381
Thanks, anon. To talk to her is amazing and I'm content with just that, but I still want to hold her in my arms and stuff.
>>17339299
I am bored; therefore, I shall wordsmith for you.
Tits would be just a swell reward, :-D.
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Hey Anon,
I know you do not want anything to do with me, and I am sorry for going against your wishes, but I honestly need to get this off of my chest.
It is entirely my fault that our friendship has ended. I feel nothing but guilt, and regret, when I look back on how it came to this; my poor choices, and many hurtful actions. I still care.
I am truly sorry for my part in this, the aforementioned, but most of all... I am sorry that I was not a better friend to you.
Thank you for reading this. If there is anything you want to get off of your chest, regardless, I am here.
Sincerely,
Anon
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Does that work for you?
>>17339401
Nice
>>17339401
You are the Word Jesus. Thanks for helping me.
Whats your opinion on putting "If you would like I'm open to being friends again" / "If you want to respond feel free to" or something to that effect? I don't want to come off as sarcastic or angry.
I was so in love when this LDR began, I still am but I'm also in pain now.
I'm going to head off to college soon, she's older than me and doesn't have her life together. She's antisocial, depressed and avoids / redirects me when I try to talk about anything that's too serious because she gets upset. I feel like she doesn't take this seriously and I don't know what to do.
I've asked her about meeting up several times, if we're going to then we need to plan it far ahead in advance since we live such an enormous distance away from each other but she just avoids it and tells me she doesn't know and that her life isn't together. I never take my stress out on her and she doesn't know I feel this way because I know it'll just bring her down more, she already depressed so obviously she doesn't need my shit but I honestly don't know how much more I can take. I feel like I'm just being used for attention and "love". I'm silently going insane here and don't know what to say without making things worse for her. She is nice and affectionate and we constantly talk about sex so it's not like she's cold or distant but I feel as if any serious matters aren't up to be discussed since it usually just ends in her being upset.
>>17339413
Thank you!
>>17339416
No worries. Tits would be awesome, but sadly, I do not think you have any, ;_;.
Change...
>Thank you for reading this. If there is anything you want to get off of your chest, regardless, I am here.
to...
>Thank you for reading this. If there is anything you want to get off of your chest, or if you would just like to talk, I am here.
Don't even know where to start.
Well, there's this girl that I have been having a crush on since about 9th Grade, now I'm in 11th, I am good friends with her, at times though, at other times it's like she pushes me away, but other times she asks for me to be near her / sit next to her in class. There's this guy that also has a crush on her, and he had dated her before but she broke up with him, he now wishes to get back together with her and it seems like it's working, I dont know what to do about it and I'm seeing it all happen right before my eyes. They always play around like they used to when they dated, and he flirts a lot with her. Not sure whether or not it's worth it to even try anymore. I try to make her laugh and have fun with her etc, but whenever he's around she just tends to be attracted to him more.
That's what has been on my chest for a while now, this really helped desu.
I have spent most of my entire life waiting for something that's coming any time soon.
>>17339432
That is a perfect change without coming off as condecending or saracstic. Thank you so much for the help! As for the tits, I do have a pair but its 4am and I'm a bit of a zombie atm. sorry .-.
>>17339450
It's 4 a.m. here, too; you are not the only zombie.
No tits for a weary wordsmith, (._.).
Oh well, good luck.
I'm seeing a large group of people tonight that I haven't seen for about 6 years. I don't mind small talk but I really can't be bothered answering constant 'so what have you been doing questions'. I am a medfag and when people here this they have a million questions that I get sick of answering. Usually I'm decent at small talk but I just really can't be bothered tonight, especially having to catch up with so many people (30+)
>>17339460
Dude you need to leave a tag
>>17339460
You too.
Do you have anything you want to get off your chest, anon?
>>17339469
Tag?
>>17339475
No, I just feel like, uh, handling business, lol.
Thanks though.
See you in awhile Daver - I love you
I fucking fell in love with my best friend and i can't take it anymore, feels like my heart is going to stop any second now.
I have to tell her, even if i'm most likely getting rejected, i just can't keep it inside much longer
>>17338977
anon, let me hug you.
one kiss from the distance
My true love is happy with someone else. I didn't anticipate it'd be this difficult. It feels like a knife is being pushed through my sternum endlessly.
>>17339607
Tell her and don't pressure at all.
>>17338221
it depends
if you don't mind a little nsa action, maybe just to get acquainted with being with a female intimately, i don't see the problem. just keep it on the down low.
obviously, if you have to have a relationship before sex, or you think sex is an important bonding thing for couples, then you're going to want to avoid this one.
it's really about how you feel. we live in a leftist society, degeneracy all around. do what you want.
i never thought i could be harsh to someone who i thought was so important in my life.
Dear person.
Why do you suck in bed? Why can't you just kiss me or do something
>>17339678
Life is pain.
i'm tired of being the reason of my own unhappiness but everytime i try to make a move it feels like i fuck up even more
Alright love, il see youd tonight then
>>17339068
Over the past 3 weeks I felt like I had no energy and I didn't go outside.
This happens rarely but, there are times when I wanted to move my body but my body wouldn't respond.
Paying a therapist or crying about your problems dosen't make mental pain go away. It just opens the door to more weakness.
Mental pain never goes away.
>>17339437
What's the girls Initials?
I believe I'm addicted to porn. God help me
I'm scared. I feel like I'm stuck. I Don't want to live here anymore, I'm not having luck finding a better job, I can't afford to leave here, if I can then how long can I last? I don't know if I'd be happy with where I'd be able to go. IT feels like I'm in a cycle of suck and I'm tired. I haven't felt depressed in years, I felt optimistic. Until a few days ago. Now I'm discouraged, like there's nothing I can logically do to get out of this mess. I don't want to die, I don't want to end myself, I don't plan to. But what else can I do? I need a change, I've tried, but I'm just stuck. The fuck do I do?
>>17336913
Im so lonely Im getting ready to pick up strippers. Thoughts?
>>17340030
They're probably the only people you can kill and get away with it.
If you're a little frustrated at work, you know, you could consider
My life is hell and torment. Every moment is either of pain, loneliness anger or general sadness. My health is deteriorated. Don't trust anyone. except my one friend except i fell in love with his baby mama. so I don't hang with him cause i'm a shit friend and don't deserve friends like that cuz im a cunt. as for her, she hurt me so bad and doesn't understand or care. Fucking Jezebel witchcraft torture shit. I still live with my mom I fucking hate her. straight up is stupid. fuck all women are infior to men. my job is a joke and i get no respect. Canada my country changed it's national anthem to be gender nutral . the satanist rule this world and are taking God and Jesus out of everything. Have you heard about the satanist pedifile rings or sacrifice cover ups . look up" Hampstead Christ Church Satanic Ritual Infant Murder". They have also manipulated space time with the large hidron colider to change the bible Isaiah 11:6 And the Lion will dwell with the lamb is now And the wolf will dwell with the lamb. They are causeing the mandela effect with cern .Sex in the City is now Sex and the City. Depends adult diapers is now Depend. "Luke i am your father "is now "No i am your father". The world is fucked God can't help. My heart feels like it's going to exploid and open the pits of hell . I hope every human of this planet dies in a fiery apocalypse . I fucking hate you all you all are nothing but worthless scum a disease eating away at the planet and destroying anything good along the way my hate is eternal. Killing me with do nothing my energy will haunt you until i get what i want.I'm coming for you world i'm aimed straight at you .
I just got my first decent job in my field. I am genuinely thankful and enjoying my life. I like my co-workers and my boss is a super chill and cool dude. My commute sucks balls and is basically 3.5 out of my life everyday, but I'm making good money.
It's a one month contract and I feel it could all come crashing down and my life could go to shit in just a few weeks and I'll be back into that black pool of uncertainty and struggle.
But until then I've got a song in my step and a slight giddiness wherever I go. For the first time I can afford shit and everything for now is okay.
When my gf gets back from France, my career will likely destroy our relationship and I'm pretty sure it'll suck but I'll get over it.
Until then I don't give a fuck and I'm going to enjoy the first time in my life I've been economically stable and employed at a job I like. It doesn't even feel like work and the money in my account feels unearned. I doesn't seem real.
For some reason I think I saw the girl I am interested in while driving g. Looked kinda like her from the top of her head.
Fuck. Why does everything remind me of her?
>one chance at life
>probably have to plead guilty to DUI 1st offense, it can never be expunged
FUUUUUUUUUUCK
>get pulled over for speeding but otherwise driving fine, no accident, swerving, etc
>but I've had a six pack over the course of a few hours and someone spilled an almost full beer on my shirt, making me reek of beer
>cop at the checkpoint says I smell like alcohol
>ace the field sobriety tests but arrested anyway due to suspicious odor and red eyes
>refuse the chemical test
>every lawyer I talk to says I'll get it reduced since the evidence is minimal and I don't look impaired on the arrest video
>I had 2 17 year old kids with me in the car at the time, I am 19
>Tennessee law states that if anyone under 18 is in the car the driver can be charged with a higher degree of DUI with mandatory 30 DAYS MINIMUM jail time
>lawyers originally tell me I won't get charged with that and I got lucky
>during negotiations with prosecutor prosecutor opens to attorney by smugly declaring I was "undercharged" and there's no deal to be made since I've already been granted leniency
>no deal, plead guilty to DUI or we'll charge you with the endangering a minor charge and you'll have to win at trial to avoid a month in jail
I mean for fucks fucking sake how are 2 fucking 17 year olds children they were with me in the fucking car because they were taking me to a drug dealers house to buy weed, they aren't fucking innocent 12 year old babes
Every other sane and reasonable state has the age for minor in these type cases as less than 16, 15, or 14 often with the requirement the driver be over 21 to be charged
This is bullshit and I want to kill the prosecutor. I want to splatter his daughters guts all over my windshield to show his ugly, dead end career neckbeard ass the real meaning of ENDANGERING A CHILD. I hope every one of his children and grandchildren get raped and slowly tortured to death for his conflating my crime with the endangerment of children.
Fuck MADD
I met a girl on tinder last night and had sex with her. She seemed really into me and laid around in my bed with me until like 6am. I think she likes me and I think I might like her.
I fucked a random ugly slut in the ass yesterday, and I'm disgusted with myself. I've showered twice and feel like a slob. Now I'm thinking any conservative QT gf I could ever want in the future would never want me if she known what I did... I suppose I would feel the same. Idk what to do now, probably gonna go burn a few candles at church for myself, but this empty feeling is consuming.
>>17340351
a lot of people think they can drive fine after drinking
you were being irresponsible, tough shit. instead of fantasizing about murdering children maybe you could grow the fuck up and not repeat the same manchildish mistake in the future?
HOUSING ON CAMPUS IS CLOSED. STUDENT LOANS THAT GO TO THE COLLEGE WONT HELP PAY FOR OFF CAMPUS HOUSING.
WEAR A FUCKING BRA AROUND THE HOUSE. NOBODY WANTS TO SEE YOUR GROSS BODY. LOSE WEIGHT. IM EMBARRASSED TO BE SEEN IN PUBLIC WITH YOU. When we went to the store, your stomach flopped out. Did you not feel the fucking breeze tickling you? AlSO WEAR A FUCKING BELT. EVEN THOUGH YOU'RE SO FAT, YOUR ASS IS FLATTER THAN ILLINOIS.
YOUR TEETH ARE FUCKING DISGUSTING. PLEASE BITCH. BRUSH THEM EVERY ONCE AND AWHILE. OR JUST STOP TALKING.
STOP MAKING FUCKING JOKES. I TOLD YOU NO HOUSING WAS AVAILABLE AND I MIGHT HAVE TO GO TO COMMUNITY AND YOU JUST FUCKING LAUGHED.
GET A HEARING AID. DONT GET OFFENDED WHEN I YELL BECAUSE YOU JUST NOD YOUR HEAD YES AND PRETEND TO HAVE HEARD ME.
STOP BEING SO FAKE. You told them i was going to university there when just 5hrs before- you told me not to even go to college. To just fucking stay home for 5 months. To fucking walk to taco cabana thats 45mins away FOR 5 MONTHS.
YOU'RE A FUCKING BITCH. STOP ACTING LIKE A VICTIM BECAUSE ME AND HIM ARE GETTING TIRED OF YOUR FAT FLAT ASS.
>>17340461
I couldn't help but laugh at your post. I'm sorry you have to deal with it, but that's funny to read
God, this fucking hurts, right now I still miss you but I'm starting to let go of you. Good luck with your new girlfriend...
I've done everything to impress the one I love, but I'm pretty sure I got friend-zoned. Why am I even writing this on /adv/? I could just write this in my journal to get it off my chest.
Why does she have to say "Idk?" She could just say no. She did now, but that's because I might've pressured her too much. I might have forced myself into a friend zone. Is it too late? Fuck, I can't speak to any of my friends right now; they're just gonna give me shit advice. They're even more desperate than me. I have friends who're all girls, but they're mostly ugly; my other friends don't even have any of that, and they envy me. For what though? That's not impressive.
>I know this is just another one of those "Say it get it off your chest now" threads, but can anyone give me any advice? Please?
I'm so full of it. This doesn't help my existential crisis at all.
I had a fling with a girl about two months ago. She added me on social media and asked me out. We liked the same sport teams. We shared all of the same morals and ideals on life. We saw the sunset. We kissed. I thought she was mine. The next day I got a long text how I was the first man since her ex and how she thought she was ready to date again. She said she was up all night with anxiety thinking about me. Typical friendzone stuff. She said she thought I'd hate her for doing this to me. Part of me does. We haven't spoke in about two months.
Today on Facebook she posted something along the lines of "where are the guys who take relationships serious..?"
It was my realization she just wasn't as into as she thought. If she was, she'd have came back.
The feelings women make me feel are the only things that take me away from the every day nonsense. Feeling my character and fears slip away from myself and letting the guard down. I can't stop chasing that feeling. What am I without that? Nothing has purpose to me.
>>17340477
You've told her exactly how you feel and you didn't get an immediate positive response? Have you had clues that she likes you?
>>17340497
She sits really close to me whenever we hang out. Trying not to fool myself, but she does sit pretty close. Kind of personal. Probably other clues that I can't think of at the moment. She did say that I'm her only true "legit" friend that she doesn't feel awkward around, so there's that.
>>17340497
Oh right. She also invited me a few times to her house. One was her birthday, but that's normal. Whatever. The other time it was by myself. I think it was just to hang out purely. Just being friends. Wait, waaay back in high school, she would rest her head on my shoulder during lunch. I almost completely forgot that even happened. But that was stupid years ago
Seriously, tell your boyfriend to stop talking in third person.
>>17340431
Kill yourself m8
>>17340521
Well anon. The only thing you can do is tell her exactly how you feel. Down to the T. If she isn't with it she isn't with it and you have to respect it and move on. Harsh reality but it is what it is
>>17340537
Fair enough. Thanks, Anon.
>>17340555
I'm sorry my advice is blunt. But we as males make these things way more complicated in our heads. Trust me bud.
In the last week I've
-been headbutted in a bar
-been evacuated because my apartment was at risk of burning down
-had some sketchy guy knock on my door and tell me my landlord is being foreclosed on, and he says his big friend is gonna be collecting my rent now
-made plans to hang out with my ex's friend and had my ex text me a speech about how I need to be more independent and never talk to her friends (I took care of her cats for two weeks while she was in japan, I'm a fucking chump and I know it)
-asked a woman if she was sure she wanted more to drink and had her go off on me about how I was oppressing her with my dick and balls (she actually said that).
-just now had ATF agents simultaneously buzz my doorbell and knock on my back door to ask me about the fire that happened earlier this week
None of which is a big deal individually but it's all happened in a short span of time and it's a fucking lot to process all at once. So I have to get it off my chest. Now it's off, I guess. I've never had to deal with this much BULLSHIT all at once so I'm coping by drinking bourbon and watching Rick and Morty. That's therapeutic and so is posting this. Cheers.
>>17340603
Rick and Morty for the win anon
In an interracial relationship but want out for various reasons. I'm a Polish man, she's Sinhalese. How to make a clean exit without being labeled racist?
>>17340622
Does she know it's a problem to you? Just break up with her regularly
Don't let me down.
>>17340629
Somewhat knows. We've discussed the taboo nature of our relationship and how other brown people look at us. She doesn't care. But I feel awkward holding her hand since my neighborhood has a majority population of South Asians but she doesn't relate to them. Prefers the company of European men and women. Thanks for responding.
>>17340670
It's hard for me to give advice on your situation. I live in the USA so that's info enough for you to realize why I have little experience with this. If you told her the truth she'd probably label you a weak minded person for letting those things matter. Have you discussed moving?
>>17340678
Living in Canada. The demographic is changing drastically in Ontario. Think I'll do as you suggested and break up with her regularly.
>>17340694
Best of luck my friend
I think i like the idea of being a slut
Why doesn't the populous realize that psychology and psychiatry is a just a way authoritarians found a loophole so they don't have to undergo due process when accusing someone of something?
I mean they even have mental health courts, but the clients aren't allow in the courtrooms.
When did telling people things they didn't want to hear become a disease?
When did disobedience become a disease?
When did exploration or whistleblowing become a disease?
When did the courts decide they didn't have to prove anything empirically?
When did people decide that psychological projection, confirmation bias, cherry picking, circular reporting and circular logic equated to rationality instead of self-serving double standards for justice and due process?
And when did people start discounting those that claim they're innocent and just being bullied by narcissists, when the fields own studies absolutely claim bullying, group-think, fascism, etc... are absolutely real and ubiquitous?
Sometimes I feel as if I'm the only person left that believes in due process and proof, and everyone else just clings to self serving conjecture and intellectual dishonesty.
>>17340704
i got after the same conclusion after my bf left me a month ago. what's the point on believing in true love and saving me for the next jerk that will break my heart? I'm gonna be a slutty bitch until i regret it
>>17340704
Nothing wrong with that. I mean, "slut" has negative connotations, sure, but there's nothing wrong with being promiscuous. I'm sure some neonazis will come out of the woodwork here and give you some shtick about it somehow being morally wrong, but ignore them.
Also, please be in London.
>>17340704
>I think i like the idea of being a slut
>>17340723
>I'm gonna be a slutty bitch until i regret it
I'm regretting now, had a good time, met a lot of people and was always up for some fun and got many crazy stories to tell. Felt powerful for a while, now I'm alone and empty, not being taken seriously, only being approached by married man, time is passing and all I can hold at night is a pillow.
>>17340813
This is what degenerates like you deserve.
Cry harder, whore, your tears are fucking delicious.
>>17340839
>This is what degenerates like you deserve.
I've repeated that to myself so many times I don't feel a thing now. Comment like yours was expected but if I have to be bashed to help other girls do not make the same mistakes, so be it, come at me with your worst. I simply don't care because you must be feeling as miserable as I am to act like you may have some sort of superiority over others.
>>17340858
I'm feeling miserable because I can't find decent women.
You took it with grace, and I'm glad you're using your lessons to keep other girls from becoming trash as well. Good for you, there might be some hope of redemption yet.
>>17340858
You're like the ghost of a shipwrecked sailor, cursed to spend eternity warning other sailors away.
>>17340726
>>17340839
This is what I was talking about. Don't let prudes trapped in the 18th fucking century tell you how to live your life.
Im gonna shoot myself in the brain
>>17340906
No, instead a former whore who is now facing the consequences of her actions is telling them.
>>17340813
Only fat girls do this. Just get thin and fa and try to work on urself in general
>>17340929
I suspect she's older and more intelligent than you are.
>>17340934
Maybe but im far more attractive so that makes my life better
>>17340937
But I would still much rather take advice from her than you. If you're as attractive as you claim, you're likely to have had many things handed to you in life, to the point where you have missed many opportunities for growth and development. Therefore, she is in a better position to give advice than you.
>>17340943
Why r u so mad lol
What is wrong with saying work on yourself. You seem like a fat loser with no accomplishments who wants to hold others back because you feel bad about yourself.
I met a girl some time ago and we hung ou/slept a couple of times, I was falling for her really hard for her. Last week she was giving me some BS like I don't care enough about her for it to become something serious. Then she was trying to make me jealous with some "other guy" she was gonna meet so I thought fuck this and hooked up with some girl from tinder the same weekend and didn't reply for a couple of days. Now she says she was sorry for trying to make me jealous, it was just a "test" to see if I care. I don't know if I should tell her I slept with this girl just because I was angry at her. I really want to just to spite her and her BS but on the other hand I do actually like her. Really I wish she had actually fucked some guy so I could finally stop caring about her so much. Actually I wish I was gay
>>17340813
Kek
>>17340952
Don't tell her shit...
Please for the love of god, stop being so peculiar about word usage and how many times someone has potentially brought up a topic. Just fucking stop it.
Let's use this as an example. The developers of a game we both play announced some changes that will be made about a month ago. I brought up a little issue up to him just for something to talk about, you know how it goes. Some more information got posted recently and so I brought up the fact that we still don't know if said issue is going to be fixed. Then he told me I can probably stop talking about this every day. What the fuck? And this is a really common thing too. Like we can walk past something regularly, months pass and I crack a joke related to the thing that I guess I must have made in the past, and he'll give me a hard time about repeating myself and saying the same thing every single time we pass it. That clearly isn't true. No, I haven't brought up x exactly 5 times already. Give me a fucking break. Besides, he always tells me stories that he's told me a million times before. Why is he allowed to repeat himself while I'm not?
And for word usage, I mostly just mean different words being used for the same thing thanks to regional differences. Examples: sofa/couch, comforter/duvet/blanket, etc. Nothing big. But god forbid I use the term he doesn't like, or I forget the word for a specific thing. He knows everything in my head is jumbled up so I use both American-English and British-English terms for shit because of my childhood. He's familiar with most of these different terms anyway so he damn well knows what I'm saying. Though one time I see he word "savoury" when describing the sort of food I was in the mood for, and once I told him it's meaning he flipped his shit because he didn't like the term and wanted me to specifically use salty/spicy in the future.
Please stop flipping out over these things.
I'm just so tired of everything. What's the point.
>>17341001
That's aspbergers.
>>17341001
He sounds angry and hypocritical. And if he hasn't started physically abusing you, expect it to happen soon. He's bad news. Cut it off with him. If he threatens to make it difficult, tell your family and file a police report.
>>17340530
enjoy court :)
>>17340890
Damn....
>>17340869
There's nothing crueler than giving someone false hope, anon.
I've been dating this girl for like 7 months now, it's been going slow because she has social phobia and is scared of pretty much everything. But it's going well now.
Now here's the thing: i'm into diapers (i'm not proud of it, but there's no changing this) and ofc i wouldn't even think of telling her just like that. But i'm wondering, although it's extremely unlikely, if maybe she likes that kind of shit, too. I mean, i think this is somewhat gaining popularity (just my impression) and maybe it's not that unlikely. Not that i'm forgetting the fact that it's indeed some sick shit i'm into in the first place. I'm quite aware.
She's been bringing up the topic "diapers" a few times already, but just in a very random way and probably i'm just overthinking this.
I was wondering if there is a way, that i could find out, rhetorically, if she's into it or not.
What do you think?
>bracing for judgement
