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Feel like I'm too close with my parents/don't know how to be more formal with them.

It's a problem because it makes some of the ignorant shit they say to/about me hurt a lot and makes it difficult for us to have a mutually beneficial relationship. I am open enough with them to be totally honest and this is bad. It tends to shut down all dialogue if we disagree because I can't just say so. Doesn't help that my mom is very easily worked up and gets pissed at everything. We just synergistically piss each other off to the moon, even when we need to figure things out together, or I need advice/help.

I'm so comfortable with them I can't keep my mouth shut to keep peace. Doing so makes me feel lonely and sad.

Yes, I'm a mostly-friendless loser. Turns out you can't be full-throttle open with friends all the time either, so...yeah. Really open with my partner but clearly if things I need to talk about involve him then...no where to go.

Parents aren't going to change. I don't know how to feel close to them and satisfied without also arguing about totally stupid shit. They bring up shit I said when I was a very different person, and every good thing I do is because of my meds, and every bad thing is because I'm not on the right ones. I was a militant atheist 8 years ago so clearly now I still hate religon even though I talk constantly about church shopping. I want married outside but can't stand the idea of a tent for the ceremony so I'm impossible. I want a small wedding so I can have it inside so I'm unrealistic. I'm nervous about a wedding so I should take more meds. I'm afraid of dying so I should go to church no wait I'll get struck by lightning because I'm such an atheist, so I should take more meds. I got my degree so obviously meds are working. I want to be with my partner forever but I think a wedding is weirdly romantic after 6 years of the spark wearing out, so I need my meds adjusted, etc.