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How do I stop thinking about her?
2016-06-27 20:07:18 Post No. 17299932
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How do I stop thinking about her?
Anonymous
2016-06-27 20:07:18
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It's me 25 virgin I always wanted a magic pure innocence love someone who was like me.
I started to search ppl in Japan as they seem to have the lowest % of whores.
Then I found a variety actress Ikuta Erika and instantly fall in love with her.
from 22 april til now every night fantasizing about her about a life with her everything was beautiful my void was filling itself.
It was all in my mind I always had severe anxiety attacks and lack of social skills so later this week the thought about meeting her which is posible because of tickets and handshake meetings and stuff started to round my mind.
It was like a knife, all my insecurities started all my world started to tremble THE TORMENT has just begun.
day after day the thought was there with a lot of negative thoughs I could not even eat nor concentrate anxiety was off the charts and depresion.
I already learned the basic japanese alphabet and wanted to start with learning with the next one but it also remember me about her. It feels so confusing.
The only solution was to drop her (in reality i never had her)
Now Im in a profound depresion, the inertia of those thoughs are still tormenting me even when I already deleted all the folders and material about her.
She was perfect she was like me pure innocent magic It was perfect to fill the void I feel.
I need to cure this depresion and then start healing the anxiety about eating (maybe anorexia disorder) and social anxiety.
It's so hard annons every time i feel like this, destroyed ALONE desiring for what I do not have desiring for someone like me a virgin a magic innocent and pure love.
Im at the pit I feel it I should focus on ending my final career proyect and then search work but those thoughs that torment and the way I feel right now make it almost imposible.
I have a visit this friday with phsycologist the 2nd one I'll explain all this and beg for something that make my depresion stop.
Any Advice?