Something happened to me that I felt humiliated for, which may not even have been an actual situation beyond something that I imagined, and a few follow up fights with my retarded parents and WHOOP, all my confidence that I've worked for the last had and this is completely vaporised.
How did I notice this?
>in store
>girl that I know I left a good impression with last time we met in like 7 years ago is there, she works there
>I get a horrible feeling and turn away my vision
>hmm... I've felt this presence before.. It is.. The betaness. It's back
In all seriousness, this is how I was for the majority of my life until like last year sometime. My social skills are obviously not poof gone but if I don't get to practice them soon enough they will be.
This all feels horrible. What am I supposed to do?
You write in a horrible and inconsistent way.
I won't judge you for now because all i can make up of your story might be wrong.
>>17281777
The humiliating thing was not what happened in the store. I made a number of assumptions, leading up to me making a conclusion that I was humiliated.
As I said, I shyed away from a girl I knew fairly well because my confidence was robbed by my asshole parents and this one assumption-incident. I'm devastated because I'm back to where I was before I became more confident.
Does that help? As I said I'm depressed and it's hard for me to put things into words. I'm also not a native English speaker.
>>17281809
It's still ambiguous. I can't explain why now because i'm in a hurry.
>>17281809
You were humiliated by yourself in your head?
What did your parents do? They were on the store with you? You had a fight with them before, during or after?
Being depressed doesn't take away your writing skills; you are writing as if you are the only one who is going to read it.
>>17281931
Yeah, I imagine things.
They don't trust in my ability to do things overall. I'm 19 but they still treat me like a baby. as I said, the thing that happened at the store signified a consequence of our fighting: that it had robbed me of confidence. It's not that hard to read, you're exaggerating.
And yeah it kinda does actually.
>>17281978
You don't have difficulty reading that because you know everything about it.
It's like you and your other self are having a competition for who is the most vague writer.
Everytime you explain something it's like you are changing the story.
