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2016-06-17 16:58:22 Post No. 17264539
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2016-06-17 16:58:22
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Hello everyone.
tl;dr: I am not able to get children, and its killing me on the inside. Its so hard to deal with it, and it rally matters to me :(
I feels so empty, I just want to cry. With each day that has passed the memory it just gets worse and worse.
When I see a mother with her child, it upsets me every time because I know I wont ever feel how its like having a beautiful soul by my side to love and care for.
Last week I got the final results and shortly after I broke out in tears. Its official: I am never ever going to be pregnant at all.
I told my boyfriend about it and I waited for a response, since he really wanted me to get children and so on. First it was minutes, then hours.
After days of waiting on him I realized where we stood. His silence said it all. It revealed my worst fear, he left me. I am alone. That’s all I’ll ever be :( I will never have a family to care for. I will never hear the beauty of the word "mommy". The empty silence gets to me and makes me feel depressed because I'm alone with my mind with no one else around. And I know now, no one should be allowed to know what it feels like to cry alone in their room. I lay in bed, left only with my thoughts.
