I don't have any experience but I hope you keep up your sobriety and find effective ways of coping with your thoughts and dreams about oxy.

I have found that accepting the feelings is a great way to work through difficult thoughts or feelings. Just breathing a bit, and letting myself feel uncomfortable has worked really well. It can take a long time if the subject is sensitive but being able to have difficult thoughts without them being crippling is a good skill to have.

All the best.

>>17218346
I have never been addicted to narcotics but I've had my issues with alcohol, and in the weeks that followed my quitting drinking I would also have crazy dreams but they were all about the anger + fear that underlies my mentality, and also which made me drink.

I think in this same regard your brain is suffering and it knows 100% that the end to it can only be drugs; however when you get up and feel demoralized from having this dream I think that is your subconscious feeling like you have failed - which is clearly not the case. Try to associate the negative feeling when you wake up not as another night you lost out to your addiction, but another night that your brain was reaching out for this substance that's the root of your problems. Over time it will ease.

I drink quite a bit more than the average person, and sometimes I have dreams where I realistically get drunk in them. It's pretty bizarre, the brain seems to be able to reinact the sensation almost perfectly.

>>17218346
swim use to deal that shit, gf was addict.
swim stopped dealing when he met her, got her clean it's been 6 years of soberness.
swim dealt with the same stuff you are, it gets better with time. play video games, look at the sky make pictures with the clouds. swim taught her that all she needed to understand that the beauty of life is stripped away from you with those drugs.

>>17219485
to add , swim thinks you should set goals for yourself that lead to a more prosperous life.