Over the last 10 months or so, a little after I started grad school and living on my own, I have noticed some really negative changes in my life, despite my life prospects only ever increasing.
I get exhausted very easily; I used to be able to go to the gym and enjoy myself, enjoy the feeling of a good pump, etc. Now it's just a chore, and an exhausting one at that; it sucks productivity away from me for hours after I go.
My memory has sharply declined. This is most noticeable in my current relationship and with regards to my friends. I forget conversations, minor events, and I don't keep track of people like I used to. I'm not late to everything or anything like that, but it's irritating not being able to remember if I have shared a story with a friend, or something pertinent during an argument/discussion with my girlfriend.
I procrastinate and waste time on mindless games. I've always done this in some way or another, but it's really become a larger nuisance at this point coupled with what comes next.
I feel largely unmotivated a lot of the time. Most things just feel like too much damn effort to do. This isn't constant, but it's often enough to be a pain in the ass. Things like folding laundry, and responding to people's emails or text messages.
I don't think that things were like this for me, especially not during my undergrad years. I felt more in command of my life then.
I'm partially venting, but any advice would be appreciated as well.
>>17206906
Oh, and I also tend to avoid problems and stressful situations, rather than approaching them head-on as I used to.
You sound burned-out. Take some time off so you create some distance from your normal life and reflect on it and change the things that cause your shit.
>>17206906
I have the same shit from my junior year for biochem. I literally have been working nonstop without even an hour to myself for a year, im so burnt out and now that life has gotten easier and im moving up in my lab, etc etc. I don't give a shit about anything snd absolutely everything is a chore. I know the feel OP, I just don't know the answer. The other anon suggested a break, but if you're the same as me all the hard work has caused a work ethic/addiction where you feel like you should punish yourself if you aren't being productive. I literally hate my life and can't make the easy move to change it because I'm fucked from some pseudo-PTSD of falling behind with productivity.
>>17206906
It's severe burnout. I'm going through this shit right now, but I'm literally halfway through my last year and my grades are plummeting
>>17206953
I have been told this before, and I think you might be right. The thing is, I don't know what I am burnt out from. Its started midway through my first grad semester, and I thought I was ready to charge into the grad work, since I liked my undergrad so much. Maybe living alone + grad school was a huge toll, but I thought I had my shit together better than that.
>>17207000
I am exactly the same way. I only do mindless things which require no commitment when I am procrastinating, because I tell myself it will only last for but a moment, and I can stop it at any time with no penalty, but those repeat for hours sometimes. It's hard to enjoy myself when I don't think I am being productive, and as such, it is hard to enjoy things I used to enjoy. I feel like I have to keep working.
>>17207021
I don't know how I get by sometimes.
>>17207190
I don't know how I get by sometimes.
Sleeping and not thinking about it helps.
Id say get a a therapist but that's incredibly expensive and not guaranteed to work
