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I think I may not love my parents.
2016-05-13 21:43:50 Post No. 17140591
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I think I may not love my parents.
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2016-05-13 21:43:50
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Or maybe I only love one of them? I'm not sure.. I'm 25, I just moved back in with them for a while while I go to paramedic school. They've always financially provided for me but they are rich and I don't feel like they ever really appreciated me.
I don't really expect good advice as this is a very personal subject that I may never understand but I just need to vent really. I feel like the most important thing for me to do is just make it through this time at home with them so that they can continue under the idea that I love them, and so they can be happy.
Why do I think they don't appreciate me? Well I don't think they ever really understood how into the middle of things I have always been. When I was born, my moms dad died, whom she was overly attached to. It is very clear the she used me to stay afloat, while dealing with this grief ( that she still has not gotten over.. Twenty years later ) and dealing with my alcoholic and physically abusive dad. He gave my older brother very bad anger management issues, which he took out on me. As my brother grew up, he developed some bad drug addictions and almost died many times.. Threatening to commit suicide, not remembering anything, it was bad. I was retaining normalcy throughout this time, to make sure I didn't make bad things worse.. While in secret I too had an even worse drug addiction. In the end, I convinced my parents to pay for his schooling and now his life is on track. Because of me. There are so many cases like this, where I have held the family together, this family of liars and abusers. Now, though my dad no longer physically abuses anyone, he has turned both him and my mom into mean alcoholics, who are depressed and forget everything.
I try to keep the sadness from my little brother, who is an angel.. And who doesn't know the insane amount of stuff this family has been through since having kids.
More vent incoming
