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>Been sitting in a room since i was 15.
>Found 4 years older gf at 17 and moved in with her.
>Been sitting in a room since i was 17.
>At 20 Made some money, took her for a couple months long "trip" which ended up with us chilling and doing drugs with locals not far away from here.
>Then we rented another apartment and now i am and have been sitting in a room for another year.


People i used to be friends with still contact me from time to time, wanting to do shit or at least meet. I dont want any of that for some reason.

I do not want to go anywhere, i do not want to do anything except
>Pack my bagpack, walk out the door and travel the world as i wanted since i was 15

But, i attempted that even with relatively lot of money yet i still wasnt able to actually GET anywhere.

I have gorillion ideas on how to make money, i even made money online purely by making 3d models and translations (both of which i learned on my own).

All of that is fucking useless since i dont have any motivation or desire to "keep at it". It usually goes like this
>Get business idea
>Research the possibility of actually executing said idea
>Refine idea to make it possible
>Make a rough plan to make idea come alive
>Tell my gf or online friend about it
>Lose all desire to actually do anything with the idea or work in progress
>Sit in a room some more
>Get another idea and repeat

How can i even move anywhere with my life if i dont have absolutely no motivation or discipline?

Case in point, when i got one of the translation jobs, the first thing i did was to get high and buy beer.

Then smoke weed, drink and work on it through the nights, sleeping over the day.

The employer still liked my work a lot, but i just dont get WHY do i operate like this?

Since i was a kid people kept telling me how smart i am and yadda yadda, what is that shit good for if i dont have the morale/motivation to use that potential? And how can i get it?