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2016-04-07 04:15:29 Post No. 17006344
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2016-04-07 04:15:29
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I'm twenty one in college and I still feel like a kid. Someone told me I was a man and I replied in shock. I'm struggling as a CS major in my junior year, I've been fucking up grades. I defiantly put enough time and effort, I just don't use it efficiently. I never had to think logically this way up until now. The highest msth I took in grade school was Algebra 2 and Geometry, whenever I was failing a test I'd just cry and my special ed coteacher would walk me through. Now I'm having to think on my own and I don't know how. I think this is why I don't see myself as a man. I'm not unfortunate, I come from wealthy parents. I feel I haven't had much life experience, I went straight into College after high school having one job, and no relationships. I had terrible experience with a girl having bpd, she left for someone else two different times. I've felt like shit since, she said she saw me from a mother's perspective rather than codependent relationship, it hurt a lot
. There's this girl who's been in a few classes the past two semesters. We both would stare at each other in class and smile. My friend and I agree, she's dead shy, more awkward then me. Everytime I try to talk our conersations are jagged. Sometimes I think I don't actually like her, I'm just trying to get over my ex. At the same time I don't want to pursue her because she I don't think I'd better her. She defiantly gets better marks on exams, I don't want to corrupt her with my drug lifestyle and overall negative mindset.
