>>17006001
You should commit yourself to a mental hospital/ get a therapist
Stop dating people

>>17006029
yes because you know it's not like i haven't been in a hospital before. you get to a point after a while where the shit just does not help.
cannot afford a therapist, not everyone has money.
you're so helpful thanks mate.

>>17006001
You're not meant for relationships, at least with the mentality that you have now. You sound like you're playing the victim, but your outwardly actions do nothing but harm others, whether it be emotionally or mentally.

I know what it's like to have depression, and I was actually diagnosed with it when I was 15. I still struggle with it regularly, but have learned to deal with it on my own and come out a better person in the end.

Make a conscious effort to improve yourself and your habits, and fix them as well. Also, see a shrink. If you feel that these things are too hard, time consuming, pointless, or whatever else, then feel free to continue being worthless.

>>17006087
Just stop dating people then. You're destructive and you should drag normal people into you shitty life.

>>17006106
I really don't mean to do the things I do. Just kind of happens some days.

I was diagnosed with manic depression when I was 14, BD can't be diagnosed in anyone under 18. When I turned 18, ya know they changed it & upped the meds.
I was diagnosed with anxiety problems when I was 12 which lead to a diagnoses of depression at 13. When I was 13, there was mentions of BPD but that kind of dissipated. I apparently have PTSD too because I repress a lot of the things that have happened to me.

i don't talk about things really & i cannot afford a shrink. it's very hard to talk about things because my mother told me i had no legitimate issues & belittled the fuck out of me which caused me to isolate myself.

i didn't date for 2 years, but i have a physically dependence for other people in my life. i always NEED someone. i can be happy on my own but i feel a whole lot better with someone else by my side. i can't stand being alone, i have horrible abandonment issues. (both parents left me at various points. my mothers uses me as a trophy. my father is a joke. they both use me for bragging & thats about it)

everything is just kinda massively fucked & i honestly feel like i'll never be right & i won't ever be able to control my emotions & thoughts & actions.

also cannot afford my meds anymore, stopped taking them. cause what 19 y/o can afford 200$ worth of various meds? not me.

>>17006139
You're speaking like you deserve to be happy and have people around you. You don't deserve to hurt other people to feel better about yourself. No one cares about your bad past and it doesn't and never will give you an excuse to hurt others. Capitalize your I's.

>>17006159
i'm typing on the internet, why does it matter.

i'm not saying any of it is an excuse. i also never said i deserved to have people around me, considering i have 2 friends & tend to complete isolate myself 85% of the time.

so you my friend, are wrong & didn't actually read what i had to say.

>>17006139
>>17006168
I'm not going to tell you that it's your fault, because most of the blame for your development has to do with your parents. However, you are responsible for your own future and dwelling upon the past isn't going to save you.

You said that your parents use you for "bragging rights." What do you mean by that?

>>17006168
>i have a physically dependence for other people in my life. i always NEED someone. i can be happy on my own but i feel a whole lot better with someone else by my side. i can't stand being alone, i have horrible abandonment issues.

You don't NEED someone, and if you do you don't deserve to have them. Or friends either if you are going to hurt them too. Turn that 85% into 100%, you're only bringing down other people.

>>17006187
graduated with honors, 4.0 GPA. got into OSU, barely paying for any of it because of scholarships. rugby player, play soccer too.
did a lot in highschool, always had the best dresses for school dances. ( mum was a pageant queen so this was always a big deal, sports is the big thing for dad ) lots of clubs, worked many different jobs. national honors society, ap classes.. whole 9 yards.

in nursing school currently. shadowed in neonatal, geriatrics, gynecology, did a lot of CMA work, all in highschool. also graduated with my CMA, got my STNA when i turned 18.

lots of room to show off & brag about. apparently i'm "pretty" too which mum loves to talk about.. she completely dismisses my legitimate problems though & neglected to every ask me if i was okay with the things going on around me.

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>>17006205
Eat shit Stacey

>>17006188
i don't hurt my friends. so fuck you for that one.
i've been friends with a girl for 6 years now, almost 7. had one petty fight in 8th grade. my other friend, we didn't start out as friends.. also had a petty fight but bonded at a party in 11th grade.

i'm not completely senseless, i don't lack all emotion. i don't talk about my problems with my friends, we usually chat about school... the weather.. world news & other people from highschool. i've been a pretty good friend for the most part.

i lack in intimate relationships for unknown reasons. i randomly push people away.

>>17006227
not sure if i should take offense.

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>>17006233
I told you to eat excrement

>>17006230
If you can have friends without hurting them, good.

Bottom line is still stop dating people if you know you are going to end up hurting them.

>>17006240
okay... sorry that i worked my ass off in life.

>>17006242
missed the part where i don't always hurt people. & when i do i really don't mean to. i honestly think i'm lowkey fucked up from all the medications i've been put on.

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>>17006248
>kicking balls around and making grades in highschool is working hard

A solid 30 second laugh

>>17006248
Whether you mean to or not you are still doing it and doing it consistently. So stop getting into relationships and start capitalizing your I's.

>>17006258
but who has all their college paid for?
who had fun in highschool?
who continues to have fun in college?
who is working to get a solid career?
who may save your life one day?

please think. i was never rude or mean to you in anyway. grow up.

>>17006248
>missed the part where i don't always hurt people. & when i do i really don't mean to.
I think what the other anon means is, it doesn't matter if you mean to or not. Intent does not excuse actions. You need to stay away from others until you get help, and you need to put yourself in the right frame of mind to accept help instead of blowing it off. Also, depending on where you live, you may be able to get medical help (for free or at a reduced cost) if you're below 25. If you're still up for making excuses, then avoid dating until you're finished with school, have a job, and can afford your own shit.

>>17006265
i don't know why you care about my i's so much.
i'm sorry is this my APA format semester final essay? no, it is an internet forum. better yet, an internet forum on 4chan.

if you want to critique typing, i'm sure your local highschool english teacher would appreciate a hand grading essays.

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>>17006267
Who cares? Learn English before you start posting on the internet

>>17006271
i've tried.
i'm going to try & make this simple?? sorry if it's not.
but, my HOUSEHOLD income is too much to receive aid. my household consists of my stepdad, mum & stepbrother. my mum did not carry insurance on me, my dad did but it was never fulfilled. he lived out of state, so child support & everything else was never upheld & the state never did anything about it. my stepdad was never required to carry insurance on me, so he did not.
i've attempted to receive aid but it goes off of my parents, still. i had meds. until i was 18, even a few months after. i had gone to the pharmacy for a pick up one day & was told i had to pay $xxx to get my meds. couldn't pay it, walked out. called mum, she told me i was SOL.

everyone i talk to tells me i just need to deal with it on my own & get over it, & that's essentially what i have been trying to do. it's really not an excuse of any type.


annnnnnnnnddd...

>>17006280

not for nothing, but you clearly care.

>>17006001

Hi. I've been "J" in multiple relationships. Sit down and gave a heart to heart with J and be completely honest. After you get through that tough conversation, go and get professional help for this. Take J with you to some appointments.

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>>17006302
I don't care, its just interesting how a stupid bitch yourself managed to find yourself on 4chan

I hope you get raped and murdered desu

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>>17006314
like yourself*

fugg

>>17006304

J has always been very understanding, i have known him since highschool. we ended up at OSU together, always talked.. always had mutual friends & similar interests. i also went to a very small highschool, so since 7th grade we had known each other. we were very close through highschool, never dated but went to dances together & hung out a lot.

i always stuck through everything with him. his parents were always very mean & negligent. this was mostly due to the fact that his sister was over-the fucking- top. she graduated a few years ahead of us. (she's actually a senior now & we're freshmen at OSU) she was valedictorian, prom queen, blah blah blah etc. there were times when J could be spiteful & mean, he often bottled things up & it took me 4 years of gradual care & affection to get his walls down. there was a situation a few years back where he was roofied & tried to kill himself.. saved him from that even though he attacked me during the incident. it was pretty traumatic but i still stuck around cause he's cute & nice & i liked him.

but anyway... he's always been very understanding of the whole bipolar disorder bullshit & he's always been there when i've had breakdowns or flashbacks or panic attacks. he's always done his best to take care of me, & i've done the same for him.

i've had no reason to hurt him or be mean but i just do somedays & i'm not sure why & it makes me feel awful once i realize what i have done. but with us being in eachothers lives for so long, he definitely understands & has the gist of it all but i think he's sick of dealing with it. i totally understand it though i guess.
just sucks..

>>17006314
i hate to be that guy, i'm not sure what has happened to you that has made you such a jealous ass but i truly hope you do get better! one day you'll be kind & gentle & realize that internet "trolling" isn't cute or funny. it just kind of makes you look like a lonely ass who probably isn't going anywhere/doing anything with his/her life. i'm sorry you feel the way you do, buddy!

i'm sorry you see me as a "stupid bitch", but at least i'm a successful, stupid bitch. (:

>>17006330
I had an ex like you, she was a stupid bitch and literally all of her problems were because of it

>>17006342
>successful

Keep crying about my BIBOLAR IS FUGGIN DERRIBLE =( =( HOW DO I DEAL WITH BEING A DRUNKEN SLUT

>>17006001
You sound like a female version of my boyfriend...

>>17006343
you've managed to have a relationship before? with that attitude? i'm shocked.
you must be one of "those guys". you know the kind that women avoid because their arrogant, rude & self centered. the type that refer to other people as "stupid bitch".
sorry you feel the way you do though, i do hope the best for you. /:

in response to your other comment...
i never said it was terrible. i also don't know how this makes me a "DRUKEN SLUT".
1. i don't drink.
2. i've had sex with 2 people my whole life

but keep trying to insult, i'm getting pretty bored. "imperial arms pegasus", that's a joke in itself. not even sure why i'm still responding to your pathetic ass.
how's mums basement going? nice & cool? does she still make you smiley face pancakes every morning? & let you mooch around for free? how's the minimum wage job? or do you not even have a job? just spending the day jerking it to sub-par free porn while pissing & moaning & drowning in your own misery & failure... how unfortuante.

>>17006362

i don't wanna be weird but it'd be really nice to have someone to talk to who goes through something similar or does something similar.
my cousins fiancee has bipolar disorder but we're both very different. she doesn't think the way i do or function the way i do. i mean their engaged so. lol.

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>>17006377
Lol good job getting raped

nobody wants damaged goods

>>17006392
that's you're comeback. gee, you're a lot slower than i thought.

i pity you. maybe one day you'll be successful & happy with yourself.

>>17006399
good job getting raped

>>17006399
>maybe one day you'll be successful & happy with yourself.
I'm sure you wont. Mental problems like yours never go away, they only get worse.

>>17006404

is that all you can say?
aw you poor soul, what do you suffer from? Aspergers? it must suck not having legitimate friends or people who want to be around you.

>>17006420
good job getting raped

>>17006417

doesn't seem so. i've shadowed during tragic accidents & watched some fucked up shit happen & it's only made me more passionate about my career & work.

meanwhile i'm being told "good job getting raped".. who's really suffering here?

>>17006423


... safe to assume it's something way worse than Aspergers. if you honestly think that that is a valid insult, you're wrong. i've faced middle school bullying that has made me feel worse.

but once again, i pity your poor soul. if i believed in god, i'd pray for ya.

>>17006427
I'm sure the guy who nutted in you wasn't suffering

>>17006432
after an extensive rape kit & medical exam, nothing was found. (:
so no, he did not "nut" in me. are you 12?
i went through a lot of support groups to get over what happened to me & i have been able to better myself & assist others. so really, your rape jokes are dumb & petty & just reflect your immaturity.

>>17006427
>who's really suffering here?
The people who's lives you are hurting by deceiving them about your illness and then mentally abusing.

>>17006438
At least I wasn't raped

Why kind of rapist doesn't finish? Seems like a wasted opportunity

Maybe you weren't hot enough kek

>>17006442
What kind*

FUCKING CANT TYPE TODAY

>>17006302
Honestly, all of the statements that you have made are all extremely contradictory and you seem as if you're in denial about who you are, and it really pisses me off because I used to be like you. Half of the shit you say seems like you're just repeating shit that your parents and other authority figures told you over the years.

So what if you got a 4.0? So what if you got your STNA at a younger age than most? I think nursing is a shitty career path for many reasons, and you should know that your past, present, and future boyfriends don't give a fuck about any of that. He is only going to care about how you make him feel, and your friends are probably the same way.

I used to be a straight A student. I passed placement tests in order to skip a grade on two separate occasions, and in both cases my parents did not let me advance because they believed that I was an emotionally immature person, and I still agree with them to this day. I finished high school with a 3.4 GPA, and the only credentials that I really had to show colleges were standardized test scores, which were all very high. I know you don't give a shit, but everybody has their own unique circumstances.

I am generally an emotionally distant person. I look for short-term relationships and flings, and have accepted the fact that I am probably going to die alone. However, I know full well that I am to blame for my own problems and my circumstances only make it harder to deal with them. I don't tell people that I'm trying to fix them, because I know that I am fixing them and making progress. I'm going to give you my life story, because I know you don't actually care.

Your parents are emotionally distant pieces of shit who see you as nothing more than a trophy. If you feel as if that's not true, then tell me why because that is the conclusion that I've drawn.

>>17006342
Do you have some kind of superiority complex? You're depressed and unhappy, not successful.

>>17006439

i actually don't really talk about my "illness". i'm not "deceiving" anyone either lol. if i do have a break down i'll explain what goes on in my head & everything else... most the guys i've dated understand. the one's that don't move on.

>>17006442
you must literally be 12. i can't even take you seriously at this point.

"at least i wasn't raped" .. lord help you.

>>17006438
>i went through a lot of support groups to get over what happened to me & i have been able to better myself & assist others

Meanwhile over here you say

>>17006087
>yes because you know it's not like i haven't been in a hospital before. you get to a point after a while where the shit just does not help.

So, does it help or doesn't it? Why not go to a support group for people who have mental illnesses like you do? What is the excuse?

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>>17006458
At least I wasn't raped

>>17006458
>i actually don't really talk about my "illness". i'm not "deceiving" anyone
That is exactly what you are doing. Pretending like you have nothing wrong with is deceiving to the people that you are in a relationship with.
>if i do have a break down i'll explain what goes on in my head & everything else
You mean the exact thing you are supposed to do in order to have people be able diagnose and help treat you? That's bad?

>>17006455

nursing is a shitty career path? okay so whos going to save your life? my friend has been a nurse for 4 years, lives on her own, pulls 80,000$ a year. i have a passion for caring for people, i love people.. mean, kind, disabled, able bodied, depressed, happy.. i don't care.. i'll be there.

i NEVER said that my actions weren't my fault. i never said i was not to blame.

i worked my ass off in school & continue to do so for my own personal benefit, it makes me feel a lot better about what i'm doing. we have one life, live it up. do all you can, you won't get the chance again. that is the main reason why i'm spending all 4 years at a main campus.. not a community college. you get one chance to experience these things. i, in no way, feel as though i have wasted my life when it comes to school & things along those lines. i'm content with what i have done. i have a lot of regrets from my youth.. been to jail a few times, wish i had better relationships with my parents, would go back & fix a lot of things if i could. this is why i don't drink anymore ( rarely did before), do drugs, etc.. i go to concerts, study hard, shadow, play sports.. it's fun. keeps my mind from going into the gutter.

i think my main regret is not getting a higher score on my ACT. i could have gotten a full ride but i only shot for what i needed to graduate with honors, which was a 28.


while i may be "depressed" that does not make inferior. i have achieved A LOT for myself & where i come from. so yes, i am successful. i bought my own car, worked my ass off, paid for all my shit, paying for my college, pay for the food i eat... i don't get things handed to me, i never have.


to the boyfriend thing, i am very very caring on the surface. i do a lot for the one i love, i have texts from J stating he adored me & still does.. but he just "[wishes he] never saw the darker side of [me]" which is understandable.. i don't like that side of myself either. <SEE NEXT POST>

>>17006455

but i do not think i'm capable of being with anyone forever. i don't plan on being with anyone forever.

it's not for me, at least not until i can better myself.

i recognize my faults, i have never denied them.

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>>17006505
I bet your pussy looks like roast beef

>>17006505
>>17006511
>very very caring on the surface.
>on the surface.
> i don't like that side of myself either.
>but i do not think i'm capable of being with anyone forever. i don't plan on being with anyone forever.
>it's not for me, at least not until i can better myself.

Then get it through your thick skull that YOU SHOULDN'T BE IN A RELATIONSHIP. How many times does it have to be said?

>>17006461

therapy for depression, bipolar disorder does not help. it has never helped me. i have been in & out of hospitals since i was young for anxiety/depression & it was always force fed to me. coping skills! medication! therapy! it was all very bullshitty, it wasn't real. the people i dealt with did not genuinely want to help me. at home, my mum belittled me for my anxiety/depression problems. what group did make me feel okay about, fell apart as soon as i got home.

but after i was raped, i immediately started attending a support group. being able to talk about what had happened with other people & realize that i wasn't alone in that helped me a lot. i learned a lot about myself & i learned a lot about other people. there was genuine care & help, my mum understood because it was physical.. not mental. i had a lot more support for that & there was a stronger base.

>>17006479
not really. so on the first date i should just jump out with .. " HEY I HAVE BIPOLAR DISORDER & I DO THINGS & SAY THINGS THAT I CAN'T CONTROL & DON'T MEAN TO DO "

yeah no.. a few months in though, yeah maybe talk about it. i don't pretend that nothing is wrong, i'll drop little hints of problems i have such as anxiety issues or minor things but you don't full on jump out with AYEE I HAVE FLASHBACKS & NIGHTMARES FROM BEING RAPED & I STRUGGLE WITH CRIPPLING DEPRESSION SOMEDAYS. J was fully aware because after his "Situation" i spoke to him about what i had been through.

i've spoken to therapist about break downs, flash backs, my personal thoughts etc... i'm not going to talk to a stranger about that? do you tell the cute boy in the bookstore about your raging manic depression? no.. would you tell your licensed therapist? yes..

>>17006505
New poster here.

The reason that everyone in this thread hates you is not because they're jealous, but because they think you're immature emotionally and in your worldview based on what you've posted (I agree).

Eventually you'll stop having this attitude:

>okay so whos going to save your life?

And start realizing what matters in life: your experiences, relationships, and growth.

College can be a great place for personal development in some ways but is stunting in others.

Tl;dr: consider reevaluating everything

(Nothing objectively wrong with what you're doing with your life though, it just seems to be stunting your growth in certain ways).

>>17006525

dude...

I GET THAT.
i'm in a general discussion at this point. jesus fucking christ.

>>17006527

Anyone I've ever known with BPD that didn't develop coping skills or use medication always destroyed any relationship they've ever had, even friends and family. I have a few people on my mom's side that were completely cut off because their behavior became too much and it only got worse as they grew older. If you can't find ways to cope, catch yourself in the act of doing something shitty, and take steps to identify when you're being irrational, then you need medication. And if you're going to blow off both, you have no business being in a relationship. That's just how it is.

>>17006542
i'm lowkey upset that you felt the need to put tl;dr for a few sentences //:

i only have that attitude towards people who say nursing is a shitty career path p:

but thanks for making me feel a little more human.

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>>17006542
>jealous of being raped

top kek

>>17006549
Well why say

>okay so whos going to save your life?

And present that attitude if that's not genuinely how you feel? Always express yourself authentically. It works out better in the long run, especially for your relationships. Don't make statements purely for the sake of argument.

Just my advice, I swear it's well-intentioned

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>>17006544
i am not blowing it off, i have no way to pay for meds at this point & i do not qualify for aide.

it was technically diagnosed as manic depression/bipolar disorder. but i haven't been to a legitimate psych in years, just therapists. so for all i know, i could be misdiagnosed.

i use to instigate issues with friends when i was younger, but that stopped as i grew closer bonds with my friends. i really only do it with relationships & i honestly think the big thing is that i'm deathly afraid of letting people in & exposing everything. i've buried a lot of things & repressed a lot of shit which fucked me up.

the only reason i'm so distraught over this relationship is because it is someone who has been in my life for YEARS. it is someone who has been consistent through everything. someone i had never had issues with before. & now suddenly, with testing out these new waters.. it's all mishmoshy. i feel like i'm in grade 10 all over again.

heres a pic of us though from a year or so ago.

>>17006505
>>17006511
That's great, you sound like you're living a great life. So what is your problem? I don't understand what it is that you're asking for, and nobody else does either.

We can't fix your problems. Only you can fix your problems.

I already told you what I think: YOU DON'T BELONG IN A RELATIONSHIP.

Your consciousness is subjective. I don't know how you feel, and nobody else does either. Nobody can give you better advice because nobody here feels the way you do and has the same outlook on life that you do.

For the record, my aunt is a nurse. She works long hours, makes a salary that is disproportionately low considering the amount of work she does, and is generally a miserable person. I know what she does, and I know for a fact that I would despise it.

If your problem is that you simply hurt those around you, then learn how to restrain yourself. I used to say and do shit that hurt those around me, and now I simply keep myself from doing it.

I don't know what it's like to be raped. Hopefully I never find out. If that is what you believe to be the biggest underlying problem of yours, then I'm afraid that I can't even pretend to be able to relate to what it is like to experience something that traumatic.

You need supportive people in your life. Not a therapist, support group, or other stranger to assist you, because they really don't give a shit about you. Become closer to those around you, and seek out people who can help you.

What helped me to overcome my depression was to seek out people to help me with my current situation, not resolve my past.

The past is just the past. There's not really any value in coming to terms with it You are who you are.

Don't tell people that you were raped. People who become close to you will realize when something about you is off. If they ever ask, tell them, but this kind of information scares people. I wouldn't know what to say if someone told me this.

You must learn what it takes to fix your issues.

>>17006572

but really, you mock those in the field yet without them.. you would not have many of your family members or loved ones. i have little pity for those who mock & shit on the medical profession. sorry not sorry.

>>17006578

i asked for advice regarding a situation. i received said advice. now it just keeps going.

>>17006583
Then I'm done here. Good night.

>>17006578

hospital salary is high, especially where i am from. you make good money. i love working with people. don't be a nurse if you don't love working with people & caring for them. too many people get into the profession for the money, not the actual career.

average/median RN pay national wide is $55,000 a year. most of my friends who work as RN who have their BSN make that or more.
i'm not worried, especially since i'm not in it for the money.


but you missed the point again as to why i'm so messed up over this current relationship

.. dude has been my friend for SEVERAL years.

>>17006575
reference this post

>>17006582
You're misinterpreting what I'm saying. To me it's about perspective and worldview not the surface.

Consider this perspective: the medical industry is completely bloated in the US and doctors are one of the highest payed professional. The point being that if you don't go to medical school and become a doctor, no one cares. Why do you think med school is so competitive? Your position will be filled by someone else. Someone else will save the sickly person's life if you don't.

>>17006597
*professions

>>17006597

i don't want to be a doctor, they're not as hands on. i don't like the doctor complex. it's not what i want to do.

i went from wanting to be a princess, to a photographer, to a nurse. i've done a lot of shadowing & i've done a lot of preschooling for nursing.

i honestly hate when people say, "why don't you just be a doctor?"

someone else may save that person, but for every life i do save myself.. i can go home feeling a lot better.

i have done some fucked up shit in my life. i have raised hell, i have cause mass chaos, i have destroyed. i was very down on my self all through highschool & soon realized that the only way to not feel down about myself is to give back. i started volunteering, found a love for people. moved to nursing homes, fell in love with the elderly, worked in hospice, loved it. worked with babies, loved it. watched few surgery's.. hated it. volunteered in the ER.

this is what i want to do. this is what makes me happy. i don't need to be recognized for what i do. that isn't what i want. i want to help while i can then die.

>>17006555
your slow ass finally moved on. baka.

>>17006615
dunno why "baka" is there but okie.

>>17006611
My bad, I said doctor when I should have been saying nurse. But I still think you're missing my point.

>someone else may save that person, but for every life i do save myself.. i can go home feeling a lot better.

This is exactly my point. "I" can go home feeling a lot better. "I." That's why you don't say shit like

>okay so whos going to save your life?

As for everything else you wrote.... Good for you (genuinely). Sounds like you found your passion and that is a beautiful and awesome thing. Don't forget to grow and develop yourself in other ways though.

>>17006621
what's wrong with the fact that my profession makes me feel better about myself? i have grown a lot from working in it...? doctors go home bragging of whos lives they saved or the surgery's they performed that day.

i can be cocky? i worked my ass off to do what i love to do AND it makes me love myself. there's nothing wrong with that.

i may not save said persons life, but a doctor.. paramedic or nurse will & they'll be very thankful for the medical profession then & the people in it..

>>17006596
If he truly understands who you are and what kind of person that you are all about then he should understand. However, the longer you wait, the longer he has to draw his own conclusions about you and you need to set him straight.

What was said has already been said, and you can't take it back. There is nothing you can do but control the amount of unintentional damage that you have done. If he is a true friend, then he will forgive you, even if your relationship with him may not be the same. However, if things go well, it is likely that your relationship will be much like it was before.

It's not that I missed the point, it's that I didn't read the posts in this thread very thoroughly.


I enjoy working with people (who fit a certain set of criteria), but I hate any sort of career in which I would feel that I am responsible for the lives, health, and safety of others.

I want to be a chemical engineer, lawyer or CFO. $55,000 seems very low to me. I'm not as good-natured of a person as you probably are, since I'm in it for the money and to challenge myself. I don't want a job that satisfies an altruistic desire.

>>17006635
Dude, ok, I'll spell it out for you...

It's about humility, empathy, and relating to others on a human level using these devices.

>i can be cocky?

No. You can't. Because everyone hates cocky people and there's no reason that you can't just be quietly confident.

>>17006652
okay & i'll spell it out for you...

I DO SUCH
& IT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD ABOUT MYSELF.

>>17006655
You clearly do not do such given everything that you've posted. You've further proven this point by posting only about yourself in response to everything I've written, instead of responding to the core of what I'm saying. Self-centeredness.

Again, there's nothing wrong with what you're doing, it's just your attitude about it. There's nothing wrong with being a nurse and there's nothing wrong with feeling good about yourself. Just don't be cocky.

>>17006655
.....no response?

>>17006517
You're going to hell. You seriously scare me.

>>17006665
No, i was sleeping?