So today i almost bit into a glass cup when i was drinking it. i felt like i was going to lose control of my bite function. I am frightened about this problem and i wondering what kind of treatment there is for it. The other day i also almost picked up a rock while forgetting that it could break my teeth but i didn't lose control and put the rock in my mouth and chew it. I didn't chew the rock. I put it back down. So what in the holy fuck is wrong with me? What kind of medicine can they give me so I never lose control? I should get a brain scan right? Go to the neurologist?
im relaxing now guys but its been pretty hard on me lately.
I take Lorazepam, Ropinirole, Ziprasidone, and Benztropine.
I almost want to go to church this shit if fucking me so hard. Also, when i took a hot bath, when my whole body was in it and i go to rub my neck because it is soothing, I nearly choked myself. i woke up a few time in my last sleep to my body jerking and waking me up. that i think was because of the benztropine which i need to keep taking for tremors.
when i was in sleep i felt like part of me was turning back on and it was heaven for those litte dreams. i swear i felt what used to be turn back on.
I'm certain the Benztropine is good. before i was taking the Benztropine I had the bite function problem.
my forehead feels pretty tense and i know that that was because of the gabapentin i was taking.
I'm not even sure if i should keep on existing, i mean wtf?
I want to live a life that's easy and peaceful. i want to be a laid back person that can help if needed.
I'm scared to kiss a woman because I don't want to accidentally bite her fucking tongue off. I'm only 21 btw. I'd be joyful as fuck that adult life is just beginning but I have this neurological fucking problem. I can still feel some love that i carry on from my parents genes.
I feel like people ambush me with their energy sometimes.
All i have now is hope to get better.