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No direction, hate myself.
2016-03-31 08:10:30 Post No. 16980456
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No direction, hate myself.
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2016-03-31 08:10:30
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I don't even know, I'm just so incredibly unhappy and have been for most of my life. Even if I have good days here and there I can't even remember what it was like to not think about suicide at least weekly. For once an adv thread that's not about females.
I just turned 24, I have an associate's degree from a community college. It's worthless. My adult life has just been bouncing around from city to city every year or so, I get fed up with my situation and take a bus out of town to start from scratch for the ump-teenth time. I go from one shitty labor job and scummy roachy apartment to the same thing in a different city.
Needless to say I have no friends, no nothing. I don't even really have interests other than music which I barely take the time to actually listen to and read along with the words anymore, when I'm not working I'm just pissing away my youth in front of the computer.
And I'm just tired of it. I hate being so sad and feeling worthless. I barely scrape by so therapy isn't an option. I don't care about sex although I'm obviously not getting any, I just want to not feel miserable 24/7 and tha twill come later.
I have no idea what I want to do with myself, where I want to be in the future. Sometimes I think about finishing school or going to a trade school but I don't even knnow what I would like or what my options even are.
I know this is my own fault, that it's essentially my laziness and lack of initiative that's led to a meaningless existence of boring days on a loop. But I don't really know what to do or where to go.
I just want some peace and quiet. Like NIN, "it won't give up it wants me dead, goddamn this noise inside my head".