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I know this board is normally for straight up suicide method discussion, but i just need some advice.
I'm 23, no job, no friends or gf, live in entirely new state.
Worst of all, I have had chronic back pain for 4 years straight now, and it has destroyed all the happiness I once had. The pain is there 24/7 and is eats away at you. I've have tried hard to improve, tried exercise, diet, meditation, and seeing doctors at one point. At this point I have no money and parents claim they don't have any for me to seek treatment. I feel suicidal every day now, and have for at least the past 3 years.
I somehow held a miserable job for a year and saved up basically all my money so I could see a doctor for my chronic pain. Those visits were unsuccessful and my pain is still there all the day, and now I'm broke, depressed and no way I could put myself through another miserable job.
In my state there is no option for insurance for broke people like me. At this point i really don't understand why I should carry on. My parents always mention God, and I should pray, etc. but that doesn't help. A lot of times they just think I'm lazy, but if they were in my shoes they would've probably offed themselves a long time ago.
It's funny because before this pain started, I was succeeding in college, and had a nice career to look forward to. Now my parents give me pep talks like i'm an unmotivated teenager or something.
Honestly, do you think suicide is a good option for me. I've tried 4 years fighting this pain, so it's not like this is a decision of impulse. I feel like I have reason to believe this is an actual permanent problem, and I really can't go another year like this.
Honestly, thanks for reading guys.