I think I'm an alcoholic, or at the very least on the track to becoming one.
I think about it a lot. When I do drink, I like to get really drunk. I drink by myself. I sneak it into my parents house, because I'm strictly prohibited from drinking in their house. I use it as a crutch when I've had a bad day, and sometimes even when my day wasn't really that bad. I love the feeling, but regret my actions. I hate the taste, but do it anyway. Sometimes I don't really want to do it, but feel compelled to.
What the fuck do I do?
http://www.helpguide.org/articles/addiction/alcoholism-and-alcohol-abuse.htm
See a therapist specializing in alcohol and substance abuse; start going to AA meetings.
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Alcoholic here! You sound like an alcoholic... Actually, hearing you say 'I think I'm an alcoholic' all by itself is good enough reason to think you're an alcoholic. Talk to someone. Maybe a therapist, maybe AA (I really didn't like AA at all, but many people do, and when I did their suggested 90 meetings in 90 days starter program, having to show up at a roomful of drunks who weren't drinking did a pretty good job of keeping me from drinking), maybe another program. If you seriously can't go without, you may want to consider rehab.
you're playing a bad game, anon. I hope you're well off because the habit controls you. I said I would stop drinking 2 weeks ago. that was 2 weeks ago. I've been drinking daily since. I cannot quit cold turkey.
Same here. I don't really believe anything can help except generally improving your life and being happier, people don't become alcoholics outta nowhere.
Do you have any friends you can talk candidly with about this subject?
If you can, have a talk and ask if you can continue talking with them about it, and even ask if they'll be your accountability partner.
Just someone you report to when you have a drink or are tempted to drink. That can be a big discouragement from drinking, and might even make you just feel a little better overall.
It's nice to get shit off your chest like that face-to-face with a good friend who won't be judgmental.
I noticed that I struggle with substance abuse as well, and having a support network is really nice (and so is taking small consistent steps to improve your life, therapy is great if you find someone who's methods work for you).
