Relaxed anons, how do I loosen up? How do I stop being a control freak and trying to have power that I obviously don't have over everything around me?
How do you get over the fear of letting go entirely?
I recommend this:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Power_of_Now
Should be able to find a torrent or a copy at a used bookstore. Basically rehashed Buddhism but it really puts things into perspective.
Alan Watts
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Qptyt0-S9U
Take LSD
Not even kidding.
Part of the trip is the ego death.
Where your identity stops mattering.
It's been shown to help PTSD. Surely it'll help you
>>16943436
Problem is I'm scared to death of doing that
What if my body does something weird while I'm gone? I'd be okay with it if I had a buddy to do it with, but I'm so self-absorbed and manipulative I can't even make real friends.
>>16943557
Alternative: Read absurdist literature.
You don't matter.
Better laugh at it.
I recommend Vonnegut.
Cat's Cradle and The Sirens of Titan are my favourites.
Remember that in our universe, individual actions don't and cannot change anything.
