if you've experienced something shocking or tragic, how do you ever go back to a certain level of happiness you had before that occurred?
when i was 17, my brother died and i saw him at the morgue with his head cut open and his face flat because his brain had been taken out for an autopsy. i remember stuff like this even though its been over 10 years and it still nags at me even when i'm trying to have a good time.
would really like to hear anyone elses experiences with something like this. thanks :)
>>16922136
I have a suicidal younger sister who is in and out of mental facilities, and tries to cut herself on a daily basis. Whenever I'm hanging out with friends or having a good time in general I always picture her sitting in a empty white room and it just fucks with me. The only advice I can offer you is to either get therapy, or fake your happiness for those you care about. Time is not your friend in this situation.
>>16922148
lol i always imagien him too. i burst into years at one of my birthdays, my boyfriend had taken me on a winter hayride for my birthday and i cried the entire time because i kept picturing my brother there, really ruined the day haha
>>16922148
also, do you go to therapy?
you don't.
its not that simple.
what happens is that your understanding of happiness must now co-exist with this experience in some context.
its why people say innocence is lost.
but we all must figure out for ourselves what shape that happiness will take.
>>16922165
>>16922159
To be honest, no I don't. I just have so much craps deal with and get done that I kind of just push it to the back of my mind and tough it. Plus I know it's hard on my whole family, not just me, so I smile and be as 'happy' as possible for them.
only bbc can save you now
