I think? I'm 20 years old now, I always thought that I am attracted to women, but lately it's become very apparent that I don't want to have a female partner but rather I want to be that part in a relationship and in society.
The thing is, the internet and especially 4chan has planted paranoia into my head that this is all a fad, a mental illness, or just bullshit in general. That transsexuality doesn't actually exist and that I just want to be a special snowflake.
I'm very confused, and if it turns out that I actually am transsexual then this is the worst thing that has ever happened to me, I'm 6'3'' with really wide shoulders, a thick beard, lots of body hair, etc. There is absolutely no way that I could possibly live my life as a woman, I'd just turn into a freak.
Help, I don't know what to do.
>>16921970
> I don't want to have a female partner but rather I want to be that part in a relationship and in society.
What do you mean by this?
>>16921975
I've adored and admired women all my life, I always thought that this was normal attraction for the opposite gender. But I'm pretty sure that it is more of a longing after those qualities, a bit of jealousy because I can't be that way. I don't think "man I wish I could fuck that girl", I think "man, I wish I could BE that girl".
>>16921970
You have a bad case of gender dysphoria. Just go get some hormones. They have a special medication for that, search out some counseling with a transgender specialists. They will be more able to guide you through the process of transformation. Please don't commit suicide like many idiots.
>>16921975
Like, Frank and Claire Underwood?
>That transsexuality doesn't actually exist
its not that it doesn't, its that it is a mental illness in modern medicine terms, and rather than treating it. people have tried to co-opt is as a social movement/lifestyle choice as though it belonged in the same group as homosexuals.
If you're not looking for special snowflake status among peers or society, and are genuinely troubled in a truly alien way at your own body, go talk to the appropriate doctors as soon as you can.
>>16921995
this basically. many are attentionwhores but people like intersexuals who were born physiologically fucked up with multiple sex organs got dealt a pretty shitty hand.
>>16921970
You sure senpai?
What gets you hot?
You into dudes?
>>16921991
>Just go get some hormones. They have a special medication for that, search out some counseling with a transgender specialists. They will be more able to guide you through the process of transformation
Hormones won't turn me into a woman though, hormones won't change my height or my frame, I don't think I could ever be happy or see myself as a woman with my body. It is very clearly, without a doubt, male.
>>16921995
>If you're not looking for special snowflake status
That doesn't fly where I live, my grandfather would disown me even if I was "just" homosexual or bi, he'd probably kill himself if I told him that I feel this way. Homosexuality is barely tolerated here, I don't want to be a social outcast without a job.
If this is just a mental illness and it can be treated then I want it to be dealt with.
You have overly defined gender roles within a relationship. You don't like the "man" side of being in a relationship, but you don't have to become a women to be the "women" role in a relationship. Those are just other assholes expectations. Women can be the controlled, logical partner and the man can be the emotional spontaneous one. It's just most women and men fit into traditional roles. Look for a partner that suits your needs, you don't need to surgically change anything about your outward self to achieve happiness, that type of happiness rarely last long, and I never seen non life saving/fixing trama body altering surgery fix anyone long term.
>>16921970
No OP, you are just gay and mentally ill.
Seek help before this gets out of hand.
And remember, most closet faggots... Ehem, sorry, transexuals who go through this ''transformation'' end up regretting it.
>>16922022
>Homosexuality is barely tolerated here
I guess we found what could be the root of your conduct. Afterall, dont we love to do whats forbidden and taboo?
>>16922028
Maybe that's part of it, but even if I get to find a girl who will be okay with me being the "female" part of a relationship (which sounds hard enough here) I still won't be able to look up at my partner, have their large hands hold mine, lean my head against their chest, have them carry me, stand on my toes to kiss them, etc.
There are definite parts that I'm longing after that I will never get to experience.
Even if I were to be transsexual, not even surgery could fix those. Can a specialist help me get rid of those feelings?
>>16922039
I'm absolutely terrified, I really don't think this is a simple fetish or a taboo that gets me to feel this way.
Sorry chief looks like the only way out is to kill yourself, that's the only realistic outcome of this based on your assessment.
As you are now you'll just look like a giant drag queen so getting your dick cut off won't help you as you've realized.
I doubt a specialist can help you feel "normal" your best bet would by anti-depressants but those don't fix the issue.
I don't want to sound like a dick but you're probably better off killing yourself unless you feel like you can live with this emotion you're currently feeling.
Sorry m8.
>>16922069
>"lel kill yurself" disguised as a logical argument
Clever girl.
not to be cold, but >>16922069 has a point in a way.
if you're looking for affirmation, 4chan was the wrong place to go.
you're getting practical advise here but it doesn't seem like its sinking in, and instead you're fixated on getting what you already defined as impossible for yourself.
or do you also have a setting-yourself-up-for-failure fetish too?
>>16922083
i mean, killing yourself is obviously idiotic.
but only slightly moreso than doing the same thing over and over, expecting a different outcome each time, then coming to 4chan and asking what to do.
>>16922083
>you're getting practical advise here but it doesn't seem like its sinking in, and instead you're fixated on getting what you already defined as impossible for yourself.
What are you even talking about? I already, fully admitted that a gender transformation won't solve my problems, from the very start. I've literally asked whether counseling could help me deal with those longings or make them go away, this seems like the best idea in my mind.
And what exactly is your "practical" advice? I should kill myself because reasons?
>>16922080
>States he doesn't want to do hormonal therapy
>Even if he has a sex-change he won't be the person he wants to be
>Cannot come-out to his family or discuss this with anyone.
>Has feelings of wanting to be held and cared for not as a man but as a woman.
It's pretty obvious this guy is going through some deep shit that cutting off his weenier and pumping him full of estrogen won't fix.
He can go to a psychologist but again, what are they gonna do? what will anti-depressants do? even transexuals are able to delude themselves into thinking they'll be beautiful and accepted once they stuff balls inside.
This guy obviously realizes it isn't that simple, so he either learns to live with this or kill himself.
>>16922103
So, I'm fucked but the silver lining is that I'm at least not delusional or stupid about it?
>>16922099
dont be obtuse. >>16922069 was being sardonically dismissive because of your defeatism in posts
the point is that you need to be more self aware of when you're banging your head against a wall.
right now, based on your posts, you don't really seem to have a grasp on what you're feeling from an objective level, just that you're under stress from what you're feeling.
look. Have you sought medical care? of any kind? undergone any testing?
are you still attracted to women? do you find yourself attracted to male anatomy? what is the breakdown of your porn consumption?
have you considered that you might have another type of chemical imbalance at work? Or is the only possible explanation in your mind is that you should have been a woman?
there are lots of variables involved here
>>16922143
I'm just really confused at this point, even after taking a nap. What would a psychologist do? Are they generally on the SJW bandwagon and suggest a sex change or a specialist for that or would he try to help me in some other way?
>>16921970
OK op if your confused go back to square one dump all the shit that confused you on the internet that's not your thoughts go back to originally what you thought before you confused the uck about yourself. Literally op how can you say your a transexual if you said your confused. In my opinion you yourself need more time in understand you personally step away from the internet and figure who you are right now calm your self and solve that issue first after when you have then you can say for sure what you want. When I see someone who jumps the gun in terms of defining who they are as a person and back away due to doubt you literally read self issue. It's not a fade or a mental illness or a special snowflake you just need help understanding you to then say am I comfortable IN MY OWN descion seeing myself as that. Op its all in your head stop flooding info in your head that isn't pertaining to you. It all comes down to who are you what do you want. Your fine just chill .
>But op if you want to be a female feminization surgery just saying I've met a lot and friends with a lot of trans people who done. It and to become trans first gotta truley find out you want it then go on hormones then go through the restructuring process. Again I've had friends and meet people who've gotten their legs, but, everything done. You can be gorgeous and if you became a woman being 6 ' shouldn't be an issue you'd be a model stat so again go calm yourself and go back to square one.
>>16922478
>Literally op how can you say your a transexual if you said your confused.
I never said that, I was very clear in stating that I simply don't know what's going on with me right now. I get your point, I've calmed down a bit. I'll have to talk to a professional about this. I'd still like to know what to expect, but yeah. That's where I'm at right now.
Focus on your job and porn OP
Having these kinds of worries is a symptom of boredom and egocentricity
