During the week that followed, we studied together but i acted just like a friend would. Maybe in a cold way. In the next weekend, we spent hours chatting on facebook and she finally said it… She liked me more than like a friend but she didn’t want a relationship. I took it like being friendzone’d. I accepted that. However, the next day, she was acting in a weird way… again. We didn’t really talk all day, but at night, she called me. We talked until 4 or 5 am. She told me that she wanted things to stay the way they were. She even texted me after we talked saying:”I like you a lot”. Goddammit, i’m bad at knowing what other people are feeling but it was particularly hard with her. I continued not knowing how to act towards her so i barely even said hi. Since then, i’ve been studying a lot. It’s stupid… I was really frustrated because i wasn’t able to study for like 4 months. Now, when a girl comes and destroys me emotionally, i can study. That has been making me happy but, at the same time, i’m isolating myself from my really good friends. Me and her haven’t talked much irl or through text but when she texted, i kept the conversation going. 2 days ago, i was the one starting the conversation… I was feeling weird cuz for like 3 or 4 days it was always her talking to me first. During that conversation, she gave me simple answers asked nothing back. Yesterday, she did the same… So, at night, i told her:”When i barely answer your facebook texts, you even text via phone and call me so we talk. When i’m the one saying something, you give me these shitty answers.”. Right now, i’m feeling really crappy… I actually like her… I really like her… fml… i don’t know why i’m making this post... but well… it’s been written.

After i sent that text, we had a fight about never talking again. I wanna text her but i feel like i could just let this be the end.