How can I learn to love myself and not compare?
You can't really do that in every situation. We're built to compare. What you can do is ignore factors. Like how fat and ugly you are. It's incredibly easy to forget once you really try. How you can ignore things is probably a very personal journey.
>>16851853
I'm not fat, nor do I think I'm that ugly.
I just always belittle myself and compare myself to others academically and skills wise.
>>16851893
Anon it's extremely common around smart people to rate themselves poorly among other smart people. Most likely you're average among your peers. That's just how normal distribution works.
Rationalizing things this way is good to avoid this pointless worrying. The worrying makes you stupid because you're thinking about irrelevant shit. So even if you do worse than someone it's not necessarily that you're worse.