>>16775209
I have no idea wtf is happening to you, but it doesn't sound great to me.
Have you been to a doctor or two?
Try to fix whatever it is that's broken.

On another note, if you, at some point, want to quit, which I wouldn't recommend at all, make sure to do absolutely everything you have ever dreamt of, no matter how bad or unaccepted by society it is; as long as you don't hurt anyone.

Go explore the world.
Buy/Eat expensive food.
Do some extreme shit. Risky shit.
If, after all of that, you still want to quit, buy cheap hookers in Taiwan. Don't use condoms. Cum multiple times.
Enjoy everything. Pretend bad things don't exist on earth.

I'm going through the exact same thing.

All I know is that we only have one life and I'd rather fight until the end rather than give it up. Who knows, something good might happen one day in the future.

>>16775227
I've been to a doctor, but think it was a waste of time. She took a blood test, said I was fine, gave me pain meds that don't do shit. Basically told me to brighten up and get some sleep and I'll be better.

>>16775240
See I keep thinking that same thing, that maybe this life is the only thing I'll ever get to experience and good or bad I should live it out, if my life's really all I've got I can't just throw it away can I? but then again, I think anyone with any balls would have done themselves in a long time ago, letting yourself go through this kind of shit is pathetic. Man up, there's only one permanent solution.

OP, what do you think YOU can do to make your life better? Also, what would you LIKE to do? Have you thought about these things?

>>16775422
I've thought about it a lot actually, and I've tried a lot of things over the past year and half. I started working out regularly and eating right, and I lost a bunch of weight. I thought that would make me feel better but it just took a lot of time and effort and didn't really help. I actively looked for a relationship for a while, met a nice girl who I had a lot in common with. We started hanging out and playing video games and such, and eventually started dating. Three months later I broke up with her, I guess I didn't really break up but I just stopped talking to her and stopped responding to her. She kept messaging me for weeks but then finally gave up. She just got boring, she didn't interest me anymore and I didn't want to waste my time talking to her. It's funny, she was basically the perfect gf too, she was totally down to do whatever I wanted, like play video games or just chill or whatever, and she was pretty attractive. She was 22 and an accountant who made like 80k annually. I tried spending more time with guy friends as well, but they all just ended up annoying me and I eventually stopped.

You can't just let a foolish doc get away with saying " brighten up" and dismiss you.

See someone else, preferably a therapist who can offer some real helpful insight and direction.

Fella.. I've been through an almost similar situation. If doctors or therapists can't or won't or you don't want to visit for help, I suggest going somewhere quiet. You need some ALONE time, bruv. You need to get your shit together before you do something else, I'll give you that.

>>16775769
I've been thinking about that too, I just want to have like a year to sort this shit out, without any obligations to attend to or anything, just some thinking time, but I can't realistically do that, I don't have the money and I don't have anywhere to go.

>>16775817
Yeah this is what I hate most of all, that I'm just some cliched edge lord faggot like some 17 year old emo. It fucking kills me.

>>16775209
Geezus go to psychiatrist instead of some fucking "doctor" who tells u to take a nap like WTF, ull not only get to know whats wrong with u but also how to deal with it in ur daily life AND possible drugs that try to fix ur brian chemistry