I have a long story but I need advice and opinions
October 15th
>Been lifting with my friend for awhile he's helped me lose weight
>he's had an on again off again thing with his gf
>they break up so he tries to hook up with a girl he used to fuck on the regular
>Girl rejects him and he gets back with his gf
>He asks me if I want to be with the girl
>Ask to see a pic
>She's 4/10, would be 5 but weird nose
>I'm a virgin and he says she's an easy girl
>screw it I'm in
>Text her for a few days
>Meet with her thee days later and go on a date
>Make out with her and it was weird a bit awkward
> same day she already wants to have sex and brought it up
October 24th
>Cant have sex because she's on her period
>Gives me a couple of hand jobs and blow jobs.
>Leaves shortly after
>we text for the rest of the days
>Turns out we're the same major and have similar interests
>Friend tells me about how I should only pump and dump
>I get cocky because this girl is submissive and start to act like an asshole
>Other friends start to disapprove of how I'm talking about this girl and stop hanging out with me
October 29th
>Have sex with her twice that night
>Second time made her cum 3 times
>Later that night she asks "What are we?"
>No idea how to respond so I say I don't know
>Next day my friend is proud of me and tells me about how much of a slut she is though.
>Tells me about all the things she's done with him
>Tells me about how she's been with 15 guys and some things she's done, like demeaning sex and cheating
>Start asking around about her and more names come up
>21 guys
>get an empty feeling in my stomach and ask her to come over
Cont...
Let me guess: you're becoming more and more uncomfortable with how many guys she's been with, despite knowing how easy she was from the start? I really don't know what you expected, and you only have yourself to blame for the position you're in.
October 30th
>She comes over
>Can't kiss her, can't look at her
>Tell her I can't do this and send her off
>Later that same night I try to get with a girl she recently was friends with but I didn't know
>in baseball terms, got thrown out at for trying to steal second then trying to get back to first
>Get drunk and talk my way out of it in a bad way said shit I didn't mean
October 31st
>She comes over
>Tell her I want to be in a relationship with her
>we fuck but I cum too fast
>tell her I'll make it up later
>Go to a Halloween party with her friends
>She starts talking about her past with her good friend in an almost bragging manner right as her arms are around me
>We go back to my room and I can't even look at her so I just sleep and don't have sex again
November 3rd
>Friend tells me more bad things about her not so distant past
>yells at me for dating her
>meet with her to get lunch
>Can't hold in the pit in my stomach and have to end it I can't get over it
>Ask her about it and she lies about her past
>tell her "I never had feelings for you"
November 27th
>Mellowed out and realized how I was an asshole
>Kind of missing her (or maybe just the sex)
>Message her asking to try again
>Blame (now former) friend for this since he was a bad influence
>we meet and she says I need to earn her trust
>I agree and I think I'm actually feeling something
>She says she'll give me a chance
>For the next 2 days she keeps changing her mind and it eventually kills most of my feelings for her
>She says she wants to try for real
Cont...
>>16605069
November 30th
>we fuck again
>Have lunch after but we barely talk I just hold her hands trying to see if I feel something
>she asks me if I want a relationship I told her to wait a bit after my "friend" stops trying to sabotage it by telling me about her past
>She never really talks to me after that
>Takes her days to respond
December 21
>Ask her to meet in person to go on a date but she always kept dodging the question to meet in person
>Tell her that I wanted to meet to tell her I want a relationship
>She wants one too
>tell her it's not official until after we have that date
>She agrees but in a "whatever you want" way
>She hasn't responded since
>Mean time I decided to start looking for other girls because she just doesn't give me any attention or anything
How fucked is this relationship and what can I do? Am I a bad person?
>>16605065
That on top of other things, I don't know what to expect she's my first everything
>>16605077
Well after reading all your posts, it seems pretty clear that she's not interested in you anymore. She has other options, why bother with a guy who led her on?
>>16605073
>i want to be in a relationship with you
> looking for other girls because not enough attention
So you don't want to be in a relationship with her, you just want to be in a relationship is what you're saying. Who cares how many dudes she's been with or what kind of aids she has, if she wants to be yours exclusively and you want to be hers exclusively than make her take some penicillin and just go with it.
IMO a girl in her twenties who's been with more than three guys sexually is not gf material.
Two would be fine, one would be great, virgin would be ideal.
>>16605488
Good for you, but your opinion doesn't really help OP.
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