Take 30 hits of LSD

Good luck.

>I just want to enjoy the rest of the time I have.
>I'm starving myself to death.
I'm getting mixed messages here OP. That's one of the less pleasant ways to go by a long shot.

Forget what I said before. Take 40 hits of LSD.

You should come over and play some guitar hero and drink some beers with me.

>>16581233
whether it's now or in the afterlife or a future life, some day you will have to learn self-forgiveness. i'm sorry you made a mistake

What a supremely painful way to die.

>>16581245
I want to physically feel death while also experiencing life as best as I can. I want to torture myself but also reward myself for not eating. I want to be completely in control. I know it doesn't make much sense to many people.. just want to feel.

>>16581247
how mad will it drive me?

>>16581249
no beers for me anon! strictly vodka.

>>16581256
why is not eating something that should be a reward? self-sacrifice rarely serves a purpose worthwhile. i just wish i knew what was going on

>>16581260
You'll be sitting in a bathtub screaming about manta rays and giraffes.

>>16581270
because I'm fucked up and like to practice self-control. I want to push myself to the point of losing my life because I don't deserve it and I just really can't stand to live this way any longer.

>>16581271
cool beans! will consider.

>>16581278
i can only say>>16581250
again. it takes some people a year to forgive themselves, some 10, some 80, and some many lifetimes. i hope you can turn things around for the better before losing this one