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2015-11-28 19:13:46 Post No. 16510139
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2015-11-28 19:13:46
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I am extremely depressed. Everything about my life just doesn't go right. My face is fucking ugly, I look like a disgusting freak, I have acne, shitty pale skin, red hair, yellow teeth, a weak jaw. I'm just plain unfuckable. I'm 21 years old and I've never had a girlfriend. I was bullied all throughout high school by almost everyone, so I don't really have many friends. I'm dumb as shit, simple math goes right over my fucking head, so I will never be able compensate for my lack of looks with money. I have no talents or anything I'm really good at. I'm even shit at the video games that I play all fucking day. I've been playing counterstrike for 8 years and I still get called out for my shitty playing almost every game. I still live with my parents because the only jobs I can get are shitty retail minimum wage jobs. Knowing these things used to just make me cry in my room, sleep all day, or just sit around basking in my self-pity on /r9k/, but now it's getting to the point where I'm getting so frustrated and angry about how useless I am that I'm taking my rage out on all of the shit in my bedroom. I had a fit the other day and smashed one of my computer monitors and slammed my expensive computer on the floor, damaging all of the internals. I punched about 10 holes in my wall before I went to sleep last night and now my fists are covered in scabs. Now I seriously regret destroying the only things that got me through the day and I know I need help but I don't know how to get it. Someone recommended that I try exercising but I don't even see the point of taking care of myself when nobody will even give two fucks anyways, I'll still be ugly and insecure. I don't really have much money or health insurance so I can't see a doctor. How can I get happy? How can I be feel less hopeless all of the fucking time? I'm pretty much crying as I type this. I don't even want to live like this anymore, it feels horrible and I don't know what to do.