I have a similar problem, but it's not exactly what you're describing. I have a very strong memory, so I remember the exact details of conversations I have with people. People get pissed off or weirded out when I quote things they've said verbatim, because they don't remember it exactly themselves. So I've learned to pretend that I don't remember past interactions as well as I do. That, or I get stupid drunk so I don't remember anything. I'm more fun that way anyway.

I didn't know it for a long time but I seem to fit into borderline personality disorder. You can't hang on to words as though they hold much meaning, think of it like this, they will never know exactly what you are saying the moment you say it. It is all in code how we communicate, and I act like different people all of the time when portraying myself to them based off of who they are to me. I feel superior this way, but a lot of the time I feel real disgusting with myself for doing it. I always hold on to the past with anticipation for the future and that becomes the game, like that's the next thing for me to focus on and get involved in because it's the only thing in my life that's real and I have control. It's ego that makes you feel this way, don't hold on to guilt, and don't act like how you think they want you to act, most likely it's blown out of proportion and I do that sometimes we all do its a human response and defense mechanism for how we see ourselves. All of reality is inverted.

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its late and I cannot type well forgive me.

Time being less linear and everything is within context? Because it is this way, everything has a context we create in our minds, time is measurable only by our mind and ultimately by our body, life doesn't end just because our human life is over. You create your own space and reality. Cherish it, it's fun.