>>17350598
Old one is dead
I'm a fucking psycho. I am thinking of this Charlie thing so much. I know I get attached after I have sex with someone but since we were getting along so well and how sweet and my type he was I thought it was okay. I can't really deal with not being able to really talk to him though... It is just stressing me out too much. I will call at like 6 if he hasn't messaged me back yet and I will ask about hanging out tomorrow but I really want to ask him if he hardly even likes talking to me. I don't care much if it seems clingy or anything anymore because it -is- clingy. It is how I feel and I need more attention than this from someone I am seeing.
It doesn't seem right to me and I don't like this very much and the whole thing is making me more sad than happy
I know he isn't thinking about this even nearly as much, he probably will be like "Jeez, what's up with how clingy this chick is" But it's just how I am. I need more communication than this, I need to feel like he is at least a little interested and I'm not feeling that way. I feel like I'm chasing him and I don't really like it.
Other ones still going
some of my friends got pretty famous and now they don't speak to me. I ran into one of them and he faked being friendly so he could sit at my table but didn't really act interested in my life, and didn't reply to a casual text. I guess I am taking it too personally but it still feels bad.
How do people get gfs without jobs, car license and ambitions? I seriously don't get what my brother's girlfriend sees in him, all they do waste our parents' money. And I seriously just wouldn't be able to come up to a girl with my face full of acne saying "hey girl, wanna hang out with a guy who can't drive you anywhere and can't pay for himself and for you".
Dear S,
I'm so god damn worried about you. Two jobs and a summer quarter can't be good for you. I've heard how stressed you are, and after you told me you've been sick I can't help but think that the stress is strangling you. I asked you if you're ok three days ago and still you don't respond. I'm worried sick about you. I want to help you but it seems like you don't want it.
I'm worried about you.
C
Basically I use girls (for validation and self esteem) in return for letting girls use me (I am really good at female anatomy and I get them off for nothing), and its caught up to me.
Its caught up to me in the fact that, I feel like I can't form an emotional bond with any women anymore. At least, ones that I haven't met so far.
I've become addicted to the feeling, and now I just want to find a beautiful woman to date and become a true partner with, but its becoming increasingly harder now.
I'm sick of the stagnation and bull shit in my life. So sick that I'm seriously entertaining the idea of dropping everything and moving to Iceland or Northern Scotland and figuring out something to do for work there, maybe find a cute, good hearted woman and settle down there for good.
Why do I feel I'm not allowed to be happy?
That's weird. I simply feel that I'm not allowed to be happy. I just can't be naturally happy.
Man, what's wrong with me? I'm almost done with Pet Sounds and I really felt nothing. I'm wondering if I'm even human.
What the hell do you want? You're really just causing me problems now. I don't like being watched. You obviously know that. You're honestly just frustrating the shit outta me. Especially if you're interfering with my life which obviously you are. Not really sure what your problem is. But it's getting fucking old. I wouldn't even mind if you were helping me but again what the fuck. You only made things more confusing and annoying. Not like I haven't tried talking to you. Whoever you are, fuck you I guess.
Dude...do you know how freaking weird and creepy it is to say you're writing a book and that every girl you develop a relationship with is getting a chapter written about them in said book?
Like, I have no idea why you bring it up to every woman you've known for more than a few days. Just keep quiet about it, jesus. We don't have to know.
>>17357884
Whoa, who said that? A friend of yours?
Tell us more.
I seriously have never been so depressed in my life. I mean, I've been depressed most of it but right now feels like I've been punched in the gut and left in a rainy ditch.
>can't find job and running out of money
>seriously calling back, many apps and resumes sent out each week but no word or rejections all around
>solid work history but a big gap in employment for a year
>horrible brother that has been fired multiple times or quit no notice at every job is getting job offers left and right
>car at death's door but my parents won't let me drive one of their extra cars despite me having a clean driving history with no accidents, tickets etc.
>see brother driving one of their cars this week since he fucked his up by trying to go off-roading
>longtime friends, some of which I haven't seen in forever, are going camping in a few weeks
>they all invite me but I tell them my situation and they just say "Oh, okay anon. Take it easy."
>feel confused and heartbroken since one year I fully paid for one of them to be able to go on vacation with us
>go ask parents if they can please spot me a bit of cash so I can go and see friends
>they flat out reject me and tell me to 'go find a job if you want money'
>next day I find out they gave my brother a bunch of cash that he already blew through (video games, new shoes, booze, etc)
Fuck fuck fuckity fuck.
I am kinda annoyed that I have a noticeable scar on my wrist.
And there is no good story to go with it. Instead it is from a burn that I sustained while making Rice.... Like a year ago now...
For the past 6 months, Ive been heavily painting in a paint booth wearing a respirator that doesn't seal correctly. (I never got fit tested by my employer.) to top it off I aggravated it these past few weeks by growing a beard out, which I didn't realize was affecting the seal even more.
I have a headache at the moment and I just coughed up some blood a few mins ago. I think I'm dying.
;-;
>tfw need to shave beard but look ugly as hell without it
>tfw job pays me too good to find another one
>tfw gonna have to dish out and buy me a full faced respirator, but don't know what size to buy because my employer never got my fit tested.
This job is gonna kill me :(
The notion of women enjoying and desiring sex seems completely bizarre to me
I don't know why I instantly loose all suspension of disbelief when I'm reading hentai in which girls actively seek having sexual relationships, for example i was reading a doujin about a sex theme park and I couldn't but ask "If this was real no girl would ever visit it". Also, the other day I flipped shit when a friend told me that he has been hit by a lot of girls, but even more when everyone said that at some point in their life they have had a girl flirting with them. I know they were telling the true, but why the fuck did I want to call bullshit so much? why do I find so unfathomable the fact that sometimes boys don't have to go to the greatest efforts in the planet to achieve sex?
Who the fuck am I questioning, its obviously because being a 21 years old virgin I believe sex is impossible because it requires too much effort and I'm subconsciously so convinced of sex being an impossibility that my mind automatically tries to reject whatever contradicts this notion without me controlling it.
>>17357895
Yeah. We're quite a ways apart and met through an MMO. All of the other women he met through that game have straight up stopped talking to him. He was creeping a bit on this 17-18 yr old, mentally disordered teen on the game and freaked out when she chose her ex over him. He was even planning on flying out to see her although I tried to dissuade him.
I'm starting to see why he doesn't keep his female friends now, but otherwise he's nice enough, so I'm fine with us being casual friends. He wants to be my "best friend" within a few months but I'm definitely not letting him do that.
>>17357913
Are you a guy or a girl anon? It might be a part of you "othering" the other gender, or it might be you repressing your own desires and projecting them onto others.
>>17357913
>hentai
Japan is an insanely repressed country, that all their porn have women that whine like puppies being beaten.
>>17357911
anon, normally I would try to tell you some therapist stuff from psychology, but this is health issues so you would do well in first putting safety in your life and then worrying about your feelings
Shave your beard
Ask your employer to fix the respirator, putting a lot of emphasis on you coughing blood because of it and safety being important.
You are the most at fault really for not having paid attention to this really important issue and having disregarded it
I'm only 24 and I have more than $30000 in debt. I'm feeling very fucked
>>17357911
1) Definitely tell your employer, because he could be sued for that.
2) Shave that beard, it's better than you dying and that grows back
>>17357923
Are you hot? Can you do porn? (Gay porn if you're a guy)
There are also finance sites and blogs out there that can help you learn how to budget.
Just took a phone call from my mother and she opened it with "Hey, do you want a new pipe?", and when I responded in confusion she called me by my father's name. Love it when your parents hide all the shady shit they do from you.
>>17357916
the first thing I though about your post was "why the fuck would a girl have a problem like this? It's not like they would give a shit about getting laid " so go figure
>>17357917
I don't understand what you are trying to tell me, but regardless that's not true and I can show you thousands of works that do not portray submissive women whining like a puppy being beaten
Also, sorry if I sound like a dick
>>17357926
I like to think I'm a good looking guy (not really open to getting fucked in the ass) Blogs aren't really helping...
>>17357942
you must have fucked up really badly so don't feel bad if I call you an idiot though, but how did you end up in that position?
I think I'm reaching the end of my rope. I never imagined things would go so wrong.
I started a new job May 31st and life since then has been a living hell. I was so excited for it but its been nothing but hell so far. I have severe GERD which isn't controlled by meds and it doesn't allow me to sleep; I've tried everything under the sun, doctor said to me I was pretty bad and I was a solid candidate for surgery. Every week, I go days without sleeping, sometimes even 2 days straight. This is triggering my long standing anxiety disorder making the problem way worse.
I think the straw that broke me is the traveling I have to do. I just came back from the first overnight trip and I didn't get a wink of sleep. I can't do much to mitigate it like take lunch to sleep because I'm constantly on the move. I have to travel almost monthly. I don't think I can do this. I'm giving it my all and its not getting better.
I don't want to be a NEET again. I really don't want to fail but I'm killing myself. I don't know what to do
>>17357946
I'm betting student loans.
>>17357942
Is it better than getting fucked in the ass by loan sharks?
>>17357950
>
Being young and dumb thinking I could just move across the country and support myself with student loans and credit cards.
i feel like shit
i am attracted to my girlfriend's cousin
i want to make love to her more than anything but i dont love her
i still love my girlfriend
and i can't talk to anybody about it
>>17357575
I like to get drunk and fight people, there's a fight club at my local bar after hours.
I accidentally roofied a girl. Well, not really an accident, I did it to save another girl. That story is more funny than anything else. I just left her on a bench with some money for a taxi.
I stole a snowman.
I used to break into people's homes when they're on vacation or not in for a long time. I usually had a bath in every house I broke into.
I nearly murdered a rapist.
I've never had a job for more than three months. I just need some extra cash because of my war pension.
I think I have Dissociative Identity Disorder. Sometimes I black out for hours or days on end and wake up the next hour or maybe day with no recollection.
I haven't got a family, no friends either. I just do things for the sake of doing them. I like to read comics to pass time when I'm not doing strange things. I don't get scared anymore.
What can I do to pass the time instead of vandalizing and being an oddball, /adv/?
>I wish I hadnt gone to college
>I wish I had finished my last 4 credits so I could at least have my degree
>I wish I hadnt moved to NYC so I could be a fashion piece in a rich bitches wardrobe (read: "boyfriend)
>wish I hadnt fallen for the ponzi scheme of "being a musician"
I started an electricians apprenticeship recently, trying to turn things around
I'm not sure if women are the spawn of satin or fucking retarded.
Back story of my problems
>female friend invites long distance bf of 6 years who she is engaged to for con.
>immediately dumps him and then immediately starts dating someone else.
>She spends the entire con flaunting her new bf while old bf spends whole weekend crying in room.
>ex life completely destroyed.
>Despite the fact that this kid already comes from a broken home of nothing but disapointment and shit she still insists on talking to him because "I'm the only one he has!"
>fast forward to now.
>ex is even worse than ever.
>Despite dating less than a year she and new bf are engaged.
>Now he's even worse than before.
>Says he's probably going to kill himself soon.
>Despite me telling her to leave ex alone and being right about everything she still insists on talking to him and trying to help him which if course is just torchering him more.
OTHER FRIEND.
>Friend is dating complete asshole.
>Abusive as fuck. Doesn't hit her but is only slightly above that line of how horrible he treats her.
>He's a complete loser and no one likes him and sucks at everything he does.
>Has some special kind of diabetes that makes it so that his dick doesn't work and that he has surprise diarrhea constantly.
>Forward a month ago.
>He's about to be fired from his job by his own father because not only is he incompetent as fuck but also never showers.
>They get in to huge fight where he ends up destroying half there house and is throwing shit at her.
>Spends a few weeks living with friend while looking for new place to live.
>Says she's going to break up with him.
>Fast forward to now.
>She got new place.
>But isn't going to break up with him.
>Everything is back to the way it was again.
>>17358139
>spawn of satin
>Fucking retarded
Since I was in the womb of my mom, the doctors told her I had anxiety, and perhaps, it wouldn't stop until I borned. The thing is that they were wrong, and I had been eating my nails nonstop for 18 years.
My fingers are already wounded for all the biting, and I had tear off whole nails just with my mouth all these years. I needed some acrylic nails for a party and it slowly pushed me away from my biting habit.
Now I have nails, and when I look at them, I just think "wow, I have nails like a normal person". For someone who didn't even remember how their hands look with nails, it's beautiful. I just want to paint them with nail polish and let them grow more, because it was worth all the two weeks of pain and misery I went thru without mutilating my nails.
>>17358051
You sound like you have issues so I'd get help, honestly. As for passing time comics are fun, maybe try vidya, books and other stuff that isn't dangerous like fighting, etc. Get a hobby. You said you like fighting so maybe get into boxing or mma shit to blow off steam.
I'm also assuming you stopped doing b&es which is good since that shit is dangerous. Where I live it's fine to blast intruders if you feel threatened and years ago a neighbor's son obliterated a guy that broke in while his parents were on vacation.
Also, vandalizing? Really? C'mon dude that's some teenage childish shit.
>>17357866
There is no objective emotion-inducing event. Everyone experiences emotions differently. To judge you or others based off arbitrary and random emotional outburts is illogical.
>>17358248
>other stuff that isn't dangerous like fighting
Sorry, I sounded idiotic with this line. I meant fighting people in bar fight clubs. I can't imagine there's much safety or hygiene involved in that compared to boxing, etc. I might be incorrect though. I've never been to a fight club.
Please don't tell me you love me. Your empty words haunt the fuck out of me.
>>17358297
How would you know? You don't sound very accepting of it.
I'm sorry mom, i tried talking to doctors. They just keep spouting the same thing "You need CBT for you're PTSD" i have lost 7 years of my life to this.
I'm sorry i fucked up so much.
The thing I hate the most about myself is that I hate myself. I can't stop feeling like my emotions are stupid and wrong. I'm pretty ugly but I'm gonna graduate from college with honors soon with no debt, I have friends that actually want to hang out with me, but I feel completely empty because my GF of 6 years broke up with me because of tiny little stupid things that she never had issues with until her new BF and her met. I feel unlovable. I feel empty.
We dated since I was 15 so I have no fucking idea how to ask women out or even talk to them because literally all I can do is make jokes. I'm not interesting or very nice. I have nothing to offer. And the first girl I feel any interest in is just someone I follow on tumblr who knows me and responds to my messages but lives across the country and has a billion friends that she talks to so I'm just another voice in the crowd.
I hate myself for crushing on someone unattainable, I hate myself for wanting to feel loved because I just know it's not gonna come no matter how much other shit goes right.
Also I'm a Whiny bitch and I would absolutely kick my own ass if I could.
Why make a new one while the old one still has about 200 posts before it dies?
I have the biggest case of blue balls right now, and I've been wondering if it was a good idea to ask my best friend, who's visiting from another state/province, to have casual sex with me. She's into it, and I have blue balls. Is there something wrong with this?
Also, yes, I'm the OP from the thread that asked the same question.
>>17358471
Do you ever feel angry at your ex?
>>17358544
I did at first when she kept talking about the issues she was having with her new BF because I was always her only emotional support. I had to hear shit about their sex life only about 3 weeks after we broke up but at this point I'm over what she did. It's not like I was a saint who was perfect to her all the time and we did formally break up before anything happened between them so I can't complain. We still talk a lot so no, I don't really feel mad anymore.
>>17358537
Do it.
>>17358561
Well, if you can crack jokes, there must be something interesting in you. Tell your stories. You're graduating from college, you're bound to have some that's worth telling to someone who would listen.
Also, stop telling yourself that your emotions are wrong and stupid. They're not. These are the things that you feel, and the only thing you could do is control them, and make something good out of them. Self-pity is a pit we dug by ourselves, and we can only get out of it by ourselves. If you want to be out of that mentality, then man up, and do something that'll make you feel better about yourself. It's going to be hard, but won't it be worth it?
>>17358589
Yeah you're right. I really need to just try and focus on myself and doing stuff I wanna do for my own sake, which I haven't done like almost at all since I was single. I just gotta get out of my own head a little bit. Thanks anon, I'll do my best. Advice somehow means more and feels more effective from faceless strangers, dunno why.
I honestly want to die. I hate myself. There is nothing about myself or life that I enjoy
>>17358537
Meh. I remember reading somewhere that having casual sex with friends can actually make friendships stronger. Don't know how true that is, though. If she's feelin' it, go for it, whatever.
I haven't been on a "date" date in over a year and my last serious relationship (also really my only one) ended over two years ago. I'm losing my mind with loneliness in this big city and yet at the same time I seem to have this reflexive response to keep my distance from any woman that shows even a potential for romantic attention towards me.
I can't keep running but I can't stop either. The worst part is I don't even really know what I'm afraid of.
I'm 15 and I've been slipping into bulimic habits over the past two months. The first time I induced vomiting, I did it because I had eaten something and felt like shit afterwards. After that, it kind of became a routine/disciplinary action. I puked 4 times yesterday. I induced vomiting today after eating lunch and stopped because my throat was bleeding. Weirdly enough, I don't want to stop, but I know that I should before I become addicted and shit hits the fan. It's a stress reliever for me at this point. This isn't a shitty sob story, but I've always hated the way I look. I know that the cons outway the pros here completely, but I'm a fucking idiot.
I have this overwhelming urge to go out and catch Pokemon.
>>17358810
And it's 12:34am
>>17358818
>1234
ayy dank tym m8
Hopefully you don't run into a Gastly.
Lads, how do you ask a girl if she's down to fuck without making things awkward?
>>17358674
If you don't even know what you're afraid of anymore, then why not try it? Plus you've been saying that the loneliness is driving you apeshit, so do something about it. Meet people, m8.
>>17358838
>gastly
Don't tease me. There was one in an inaccessible spot when I went out earlier.
>>17358838
I need them.
>>17358902
If you feel safe around the neighborhood at this time, like you know no one's going to mug you, then go look for them.
Is there a way to tell when someone "Liked" something on Twitter? My girlfriend tells me she isn't on it that often but her likes tab shows things from varying times when she tells me she is napping or busy with school stuff.
I need advice. I'm a jealous person, let that be known. I'm very observant when in public of my girlfriend, which I know is wrong. But my girlfriend has wandering eyes when we go out. When I politely call her out on it, she always tells me she was looking at an inanimate object or a person of the same sex. However, she will be looking and a guy will pass by and her eyes will turn towards that person. She will deny any notion of doing this. She spends a lot of time looking around, and she calls it surveying her surroundings, but it's hard to believe when most of the time her field of view us towards other guys. Should I believe her when she says she isn't looking at anybody?
>>17358945
Not sure. I get notifications about people liking and rt-ing tweets on my phone.
>>17358952
You should probably lighten up a little with her, man. Don't let it get to the point where she'll probably get fed up with you controlling what she looks at and probably everything else in her life.
>>17358958
I probably should, but what bothers me is that I can see her eyes pointing towards a direction but she denies it. How do you explain her denying telling me? Is it guilt? Shame? I really just want to understand why she won't admit to it.
>>17358971
It might also be trying to avoid a conflict with you.
>>17358985
Is the lying justifiable just to avoid a conflict with me?
I have no clue what to do, I have ruined my relationship with my Fiance. I have tried for almost 3 years to fix my issues so it wouldn't ruin our relationship, but nothing changed. Now, she has fallen out of love with me and we are no longer together. I break down every night because we have a 1 and a half year old together and I feel like he wont want to see me when he gets older. I am so lost, I have no clue what to do anymore.
New Vegas fans can be immature man children who can be narrow minded. Not saying it was a bad game, it was great, but the community can be cancerous at times. Just sayin'
>>17358911
I did. I took my doggo. Hatched two eggs. Had to restart app a few times, resulting in losing the pokemon I haven't obtained yet.
>i hatched growlithe and diglette
Shitty attempt at suicide. Fucking wasps just ignored me and flew the fuck away. Failing at living, failing at dying. Good fucking job. How do wasps not get pissed for being stuck in a jar for a day or two?
>>17357575
Whenever they hire someone new at work or when I meet someone new I can't stop myself from being hostile. I'm paranoid and part of me wants to fight every man I meet, it's horrible I can't stop it, and one of these days I'll get fired for my hostility or ambushed in the parking lot by someone much bigger than me
>>17358990
Ahh. Yes, the lying. Lying in a relationship happens when there is a lack of trust on how the other party would take the truth. Some people in relationships can be the most faithful when it comes to committing with you, but this doesn't save them from lying. The fear that you two might have a fight over a small mistake takes over because they just want to keep the relationship stable, so they might lie just to keep that stability, to avoid conflict.
Like what I said in the first reply, lighten up, Anon. Maybe she's lying to you because she doesn't want the conflict to go further than she thinks it should. I'm not saying that it's right to lie, but it kinda saves people the trouble of having a trivial argument.
>>17357897
I have multiple 4-year old scars across my right arm from cutting just because I thought it was fun to watch my blood pool out. I also would wait for the scabs to heal over well and then tear them off at the time I thought would give the most blood, overlooking the resulting effect that I'll probably have the scars forever.
What I learned, on top of "dont cut yourself for fun you fucking retard," is just don't care about any scars you have. There's not much you can do about them after the fact and you're going to end up with your fair share in some ways or others. Also, badass scars are overrated.
I'm not a lustful man, and I rarely feel any sort of sexual attraction.
But there's this girl who just turned 18 who makes my dick go wild. I desperately want to fuck her until she can't walk.
I'm a drunk. I drink a handle a day. I haven't had a job in 3 months. I got arrested and have a felony charge. I was asked to leave my apartment and just got kicked out of a motel. I've been in 3 fights in the past month. I got back with my girlfriend I've known since age 13, for 3 days, ate that pussy etc and of course fucked it all up in the end because I have horrible trust issues and even if she follows someone on twitter and he likes her status I go fucking crazy. Also I have depression, have suicidal thoughts, and have been kept in a mental loonie bin for 2 weeks. I drive drunk all the time. Hm. What else
Well I put a down payment and reserved a nice little one bedroom house, so that's nice.. I guess.
I'm done. I'm just fucking done. It doesn't matter if I get my shit together. I'll still be unhappy even if I do get it together. I've been unhappy for over a decade. There have just beem some periods where I've deluded myself into thinking my life wasn't too shitty. I'm just a fucking mess and I always will be. I have nobody, nothing. No friends, no girls, no job, no purpose, no life. I wish I knew what was wrong so I could maybe fix it and be normal. But fuck it, it's too late. I had some chances to fix things but I fucked it up. Running out into traffic seems like the only way to escape this hell.
Mental pain is deadlier than physical pain, but in my case they go hand in hand.
>>17357930
When my mother does this I tell gently let her know that she's only allowed to confront me like an adult and I hang up on her. And I won't talk to her unless she stops being passive aggressive.
The more you feed women attention for this the more they think that you "get" what they're trying to say. And they think that they can hurt you while cowering behind weasel tactics. Don't let them do this.
I'm self-conscious about the size of my dick.
I'm terribly confused. I don't know if returning to the roman catholic church is right or not. Some parts of it feel extremely right (currently a non-denom protty). Other parts make me feel extremely uncomfortable. I don't tell anyone because people rely on me as a person of intense certainty and decisiveness. I don't want to let anyone down. I also enjoy the confidence people put in me, and I don't think it's an entirely good way (pride).
I just can't figure out what I am supposed to do. And being indecisive is extremely painful for me. Perhaps I am supposed to feel this so I learn a lesson, and stop being so harsh with people.
If anyone here has the inclination, pray for me.
I've been cheating almost the whole time we have been together. It hurts so much but I can't help it all I want is to fuck everyone. As time has gone on now I have actually fallen for you and the guilt is killing me. To top it all off we both leave for sperate colleges in a month. I'm sorry
I'm overstressed and have been heavily consuming a mix of sedatives and stimulants. For the last few days I've been eating a lot of kava which ultimately leads to upregulation of GABA receptors, and altered lipid membrane solubility which can potentiating greater bonding affinity on some receptor subtypes. I ate some phenibut today in an attempt to kill some pain, and expectedly, it's made me a bit braindead and apathetic.
Episodes of pain and anxiety keep me gradually drifting back into this clustering of outcomes. I don't know how to live. I have no income, no assets to be liquidated, and newly acquired ~40k in debt. Which is fine enough, and I knew might be coming. Can't find work and I'm too wary (and proud) to get involved with the state.
Anon I miss you, I miss that feeling of electricity in the air whenever we are together. I miss talking with you, learning from you. I just can't be around you any more, you used me and drained my enthusiasm, while complaining to me about anyone who took as much as a morsel from you.
You tried to blame me for everything that happened, I accept I was fucked up for a while, I did some shit that I'm not proud off. Not once did you offer as much as a kind word, yet you said you loved me.
>>17359479
I'm sorry. Truly. I'll never apologize enough for not being fully there for you.
fuck i should have ordered pizza
I miss you so fucking much. I miss kissing you every night. I miss feeling like I was loved. I miss you doll.
You are piece of shit. I'm good enough to fuck, but not good enough to tell anyone about it? You were only friends with me to count on my loyalty to keep it secret. And now you're angry. Because you broke my heart and I told you about it? Because I could tell your gf about all the shit you did? If I didn't owe you, I would. It would be of course my word against yours, so I'm not sure what you are worried about considering I have every motivation to slander you.
But if you keep doing nothing but throw shit at my feet I'll make sure she knows how badly you work on hiding it without saying anything. How badly you work on lying to her and making sure that lie will not come out.
And that is a good ground for breakup, not fucking someone and breaking their heart.
I need help but I've become so self reliant and independent, oh yeah, and egotistical that I don't know how to ask for it.
I always find it funny how blind people are to their own fuckups and how they lie to themselves so deeply. Two people in particular off the top of my head right now.
One is a single mother of 24 and aspiring SJW when before she had the child (unplanned NYE fuck) she was down to earth, logical and all that. Real great and grounded person to be around. Now she tries to convince people that having kids is the best thing ever when she flip-flops between loving their child and cursing her for stealing her youth and best years of her life. Kids are disgusting, life-stealing parasites, you're not fooling anybody. Live with your fuckup, you had solutions but you kept it, so you forfeit your right to complain about it desu.
And second, this arrogant bitch who says she can't trust anyone who doesn't love kids and dogs. Dogs I can understand, but kids? Again? She doesn't have any of her own and what's funny is that she got told off by several mothers in her facebook post. She got told she's essentially talking out of her ass and she backed down in every post she tried to defend without putting up any sort of fight. She's also the kind who constantly puts up inspirtational quotes and changes her profile pic. She's on 3+ different dating sites.
The people who constantly put up inspirational shit have the flimsiest kind of self-worth imaginable. Just one phrase and they'll buckle. It's just blowing hot air, you're not strong, you don't do much. Strong people are too busy actually doing their shit behind the scenes as opposed to wasting time telling people how they're going to achieve it one day.
Again, you're not fooling anybody.
I didnt feel love for my ex at all. We went too fast. I met someone, and i can say that its very different. Just putting my arm around her waist gave me fucking butterflies in my stomach. I'm hoping i dont fuck everything up on our next date sunday.
I think fucking everything is pointless , I don't trust women because all the ones iv know including my mother my own fucking mother have treated me like shit , I have no reason to live at all apart from the brief pleasure of cummings or fucking games , and I 100 percent sure that my life and everyone else's around my will all end pointless and unforfilled
I wonder if you'll ever initiate conversation with me. It's been a few days without a single word from you. I get it, you're...occupied. But other people still care, yknow. All you're achieving is successfully pushing me away. For good.
>>17359588
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aCGvZgDvtkU
>>17357923
how did you manage to do that?
I miss wearing my wedding band.
Sorry if I can't allow you to come closer.
Precisely because I care about you, I wish i was better. But I am not, yet.
Sorry if I can't be there.
Sorry if I fell in love with you, causing you to care about me. I have no excuses.
Sorry if I can't tell you this.
I'm so bad knowing if people actually want to talk to me or not. If I mess things up it's only bc I doubt someone wants me even if they say it. I'm so bad at picking up hints. Even if I send one message I feel like I'm pushing it and being too clingy. Ugh
>>17359832
know that feel
>>17359827
Why won't you tell them?
>>17359827
Never apologize for falling in love with someone unless you regret it.
I for one don't. And yes, you totally can go and tell the person.
>>17359827
Hey. Chin up.
K I don't know how real the feelings are but I think I love you and I just wish you would take notice of me. I know it's impossible for it to work but I just want you to be impressed by me and look at me.
Taylor Jones.
Please fucking die you cockwhore.
>>17359255
No, my mother's genuinely trying to do what's best, she's just feeding my father's terrible drug-using habits. Their deal is that he won't pitch a fit if she keeps fueling his need for drug supplies. I'm not kidding, it's really pathetic.
My ex split with me after they got back on their feet.
Their life is fucking great - they've gotten everything they have ever wanted by using the stable platform of the life we built together.
Meanwhile, I'm stuck struggling alone with a gradually worsening mental illness. I moved up to this state to be with them and now I feel stranded here. Shit, when we split, my ex basically told me I should stay here because going back to my family was 'a bad idea.' And I guess I let myself be manipulated into beleiving that.
So I'm fucking stuck up here and alone. Yeah, I guess I have some friends here too but they are mostly my ex's friends.
Sometimes, I feel like my ex genuinely saved me from a bad situation. When we first met, I was in a pretty bad relationship and going home to my family wasn't an option, and they took me in. Even paid for me to move up here.
Sometimes I feel it's purely my fault the realtionship ended for being so depressed or neurotic all of the time.
Other times, I reflect on how they got everything they wanted from our relationship and how they kept everything from the life we built together. I feel like they used me.
It's been several months, I still don't know how to feel about our relationship ending but it has made my life tangibly worse.
I have been suicidal on and off for a decade now but this next paycheck is going towards my plan. Being suicidal is nothing new to me but actually prepping for it is a new step. I want the doubt and pain to end. I suppose that's normal for someone like me but what isn't normal? The thing I want to get off my chest?
I hope my death emotionally wrecks my ex and scars them deeply.
inb4 GO SEEK THERAPY HERFDERP. I don't have the time, I am almost always at my job. I've tried therapy many times and every single therapist I've had has been useless as shit.
D
Please be mine, I've been trying to distract myself from you. The truth is you are the only one I want. You are incredible.
>>17359960
Who the fuck are they?
I'm confused as fuck.
Someone just get me the fuck out of here.
>>17359593
I feel you on so many levels man.
I know this one bitch and she's always posting on her instagram these quotes about being real or not needing anybody but if she really was what she claims to be then she wouldn't have to prove to the whole world she is cause ,honestly, nobody cares
>>17359598
Same man. I only did it because I "went with the flow" Also because ay free pusi b0ss
>>17359986
They = my ex.
Trying to avoid stating my ex's gender as it leads to all sorts of retarded assumptions that have nothing to do with the actual issue at hand.
>>17360007
You could say: it, A, that person
Makes.more sense this way.
Fuck I'm so scared of it happening again. I don't know if I want anything to happen after this weekend
I guess this is why I've been holding back. I'm too extremely insecure of being in a relationship or developing feelings. I want to cry. I don't think I can do it
Just because you're not single anymore doesn't mean I don't care about you. I still want you to be happy. I'll do whatever it takes for that to happen. If me fucking off and never speaking to you again is what will make you happy, so be it. Just tell me and the deed is done. I feel like you're not happy right now. I wish you wanted me to help.
I will use your establishment to farm pokemon and pokestops.
>thank you in advance.
>>17358952
You are going to be single forever with that mentality. She needs to dump you for trying to control her gaze on principal. You sound fat and over-controlling to the point you are threatening her over who's in her view, that is harassment. Of course she's lying, seeing the opposite sex is not cheating you psychopath. You are horrible. Let me guess she can't watch porn either? Fuck you. You don't own her much less have the right to nitpick at who she fucking looks at! People look at eachother, get over it. She's normal, you're not. That's not how healthy relationships work creep!
>>17360185
Easy tiger. You have a point but no need to chimp out.
I miss eating her out but also fuck you for being like that. Bitch.
how do i frickin get to stop being so dumb when my crush is around. I cant wait to talk with them and then i'm just short of words. OMG.
>>17360020
You can do it. Allow yourself to be okay. You'll be okay.
I think I fucked up. I told myself it's a bad idea (still think it is) but though I can get over her. I can't
I fucked up.
>Was about to make a post because I was worried she wouldn't text me back
>Just sent me a message the moment I started replying to this thread
I'm a bit paranoid I suppose. Hope everyone else on this thread feels better and things start going right for them too.
Everything reminds me of you and you don't have the fucking decency of even talking to me.
>>17360742
Talk to her first?
>>17360750
Oh, I did. Days ago. She completely ignored it. We meant the world to each other at one point.
A pretty good friend of mine died the other night, he was drunk driving and slammed into a wall. Yesterday was insane, it was like I just felt numb, almost like it didnt bother me. But today, after seeing all this shit posted on facebook its kinda fucking me up. Im remembering all this shit we did together, and even though I mostly thought he was kind of a dick, we still always had a pretty good time when we hung out together. Ive never had a friend die, its a completely different experience compared to a family members death. He was so god damn young. I always felt like we were all invincible, what a fucking reality check.
>>17360247
Funny I had an opinion that the other anon was being too light, but you don't see me quoting them on it dipshit.
>>17359846
Not that anon, but I feel I owe myself an apology for doing it.
For about 8 years now I've been finding it increasingly difficult to enjoy the things I used to be passionate about. I feel like I've lost my identity, I have nothing to talk about and I sound like a fucking child whenever I open my mouth. My boyfriend left his ex because he thought we really connected and we could talk for hours and hours but now I have absolutely nothing to say. I just agree with everything he sais and does. I dont even know what i like outside of what hes shown me because i never activly search for my own interests. Whenever he confronts me about it and tells me to stand up for myself I can't, I just say I guess I am being this way, or I cry. I hate this I hate this so much, I can never be proud of anything I do, I want to be my own person, to bring something to the table and to love myself. I don't know where I started to routinely put myself down, I have no self confidence anymore. I just want to be happy again.
I've never used a headset before until today. Got one with 7.1 Dolby, jesus, I can hear the musician's hair growing.
I'm romantically interested in the one person who I managed to befriend. I always get like this when people give me attention so I try to avoid it but he won't let me piss off (His own words, I tried being up front and saying 'I don't like making friends'). Didn't mention the attraction I feel, but lately its been coming up and I don't know how to deal with it. Worse I'm normally apathetic but somehow he's making me feel things beyond the fake persona I put up and I can't handle it. I feel like if I come out about it I'm going to lose the only person who gave enough of a shit to stick with me, but I hate having these feelings about him. I've spent the last three weeks in an uncomfortable mix of anxiety and depression because of this. I don't know what to do anymore.
>>17361024
Tell him you want him
>>17361028
Should have mentioned I'm pretty sure he is straight. So that is another reason why I'm scared to do this.
k, you´re awesome.
as in, holy shit, i can´t even think straight now.
shame you don´t live here.
help me out guys
my happiness depends wholly on stuff i can't control, right now its a girl. today i found out i've been accepted to study abroad in the US, and i should be really excited about it- it's an ivy league university, well ranked for my subject, and will probably be incredibly fun, but i can't even feel happy about it because i'm not going to see this girl this weekend. what the fuck is wrong with me? i know rationally what matters and what doesn't but my asshole love-addled brain won't let me move forwards.
Salma: I really thought you could be "the one", it was the first time ever I was willing to get into a serious relationship with a woman with a child, I even would have loved to help you raise her and support her (beside A is awesome). I feel bad about you rejecting me, even after fucking, and I feel worst about your zero support when my uncle died. Fuck you.
Laura: for years I thought you were my best friend, but now I understand I was YOUR best friend, but you were not mine... fuck you.
So I'm in a relationship and it feels surreal and I have also successfully finished my first year of university then to top it off, my social life at the moment is pretty good.
I feel pretty bad tonight and I can't figure it out. I just want to shut myself off all day.
>>17357575
I fucking hate myself. I dream of so many goals that I want to achieve but I take zero to none action to reach them. I see all these better looking and more successful people and think to myself "why do I even exist?"
I don't want to live this shitty life anymore, I want to move forward!
>was ill & went to hospital then got depressed for awhile
>almost ruin relationship with girl because of it
>get over illness
>realise whats happening between us
>panic trying to mend
I'm afraid I pushed her too far away and now I'm clingy AF and constantly feel like i need to puke.
I'm not sure if its a stomach bug or anxiety.
I'm terrified she found someone else during the couple of weeks we weren't talking much but she says she hasn't but every time she isn't with me i panic thinking she doesn't want to spend that time with me or would rather with someone else.
I don't usually have strong emotions so I'm not sure what to do.
I went to the doctors and he said he "can't" prescribe me anything because sounds like the end of a stomach bug... this was 2 weeks ago now. I've eating almost nothing for 2 weeks and puke when I eat anything more than a banana.
I need a chill pill otherwise i think ill annoy her.
I just went to a gallery for the first time. It was a terrible experience. The art itself was gorgeous, but the people were fucking terrible. I feel like this should be common sense, but I don't want to see or hear a bunch of other people while I'm trying to look at art. It makes it really hard to focus. I especially don't want to hear people's shitty uninformed "I bet I could do that!" outbursts when they look at anything abstract. Taking a selfie in front of a work of art is also really damn obnoxious. The works were beautiful but I feel I really missed out. I guess I shouldn't have gone on jazz night, but whatever.
I'm sick of people being mean to me. I'm empathetic, nice, and courteous to other people, sometimes it pays back but most of the time I'm either met with apathy or outright condescension. Some people seem to think I have some sinister hidden motive and then I get castigated for no reason. I never take revenge on people but I'm considering doing it to the last 2 people who have fucked me over and used me. So tired of being other people's doormat.
>>17359776
Graduated high school and decided to move across the country with no plan or money... Tried going to school, couldn't figure out what I actually wanted to do, so my school said I exceeded the maximum timeframe to receive grants or anymore loans. My dog got attacked so I had to put his surgery on credit... I can never catch up
I want to die. A girl walked out on me two weeks ago, either via suicide or just completely disappearing off the grid.
I really cared for her and grew a deep attachment to her, now whenever I see something that we used to share in enjoyment, I get incredibly depressed and just want to die. I can't find joy in anything and I feel like I'll never be loved by anyone.
The reason? She was lying to me and was dating someone else while we were dating and flirting really heavily with other people.
So now I just feel like shit, everyone always says the right girl will fall into your lap when you do what you love. I just don't see it being possible. What I love, is filled with a bunch of thirsty beta nerds who are willing to try super fucking hard to make a girl like them. The way I want to find love, through slow mutual conversations that lead to this strong attachment to one another is not feasiable. Too many fucking assholes who will just spam a girl with their try hardiest xD and how much they super duper want them! And then ask them out a week later after getting their cunt all wet from that cringy attention.
Everything seems hopless, and love seems like to be a thing I'll never have or enjoy in a lasting manner. I'll only enjoy little tastes after getting my heart smashed a little while later. Maybe I'm just not cut out for this shit and what I want in love is dated and dead. Unless you are fucking after a week of talking it seems impossible to get a lover.
>>17357575
Fuck it, I'm beta, I'm not quite /r9k/ but I'm totally beta, I envy alphafags, I envy normies, I see these cunts having good lives, going out on weekends, nice cars, good looking women and I'm jealous. I don't want to be jealous but I am. The only thing that keeps me going is knowing I can bruteforce an account and make them look autistic.
>>17361507
its ok anon we r here for u
Whenever theres a new trend, the people that dont understand always want to bring up things going on in the world.
>dude you pley pokemang go? Xdd theres like people dying man
I understand that. I chose not to worry about shit going on in the world that I have no control over. You can't change the world so stop trying and start living your life.
>>17361530
don't let a girl fuck you up that badly, there's more to life. Anon stay strong, we're all together. Peace bro.
Jesus Christ why can't people calm the fuck down on this planet???
Conflict and chaos are no fun and it's probably only gonna get worse with the American presidential election coming up in a few months.
lol why the fuck are you even in my life
I think no girl is ever going to love me. I don't think I have many problems but I am just so antisocial because I am always scared of rejection. My selfsteem is on the floor and I don't want people to notice. That's why I don't use facebook, or twitter, or any of the other social media that people around me uses. I only use WhatsApp and I don't even have the balls to try to flirt with any girl at all, I can only be friends with them because I am scared of taking the next step. My friends are shit and they are always making fun of me, and that just destroys me but I can't do anything because I have to see them at school everyday. This is my last year but I am scared that nothing will change in college and that I am actually the problem.
Just sent a guy a picture of my dildos collection on accident. Know he knows I'm ga literally met him 4 hours ago
What is fucking wrong with me. I'm literally letting my life slip through my fingers. Why can't I get motivated. Why. Why. Why.
>>17361970
The truth is, I don't know. Im just... stuck here.
Trying to piss someone off doesn't mean they're going to want anything to do with you. You'll realize that one day
all you had to do was be nice, yet you blew it.
I've been feeling recently like I need female attention to be happy, but I can never get enough - no matter what's going on I always feel like I need more and I don't know how to bloody fix it
>had a fling with a sweet qt abroad last week, who's keen to visit me to do it again
>my ex who I broke up with amicably because she had to leave the country is coming home for a couple weeks and wants to have casual sex while she's here
>had a super nice date with a ''really'' cute girl yesterday, who's obviously very keen to see me again
>have general flirtation/chatting going on with a few other sheilas in my life
>generally had pretty good success on tinder recently too
I still can't shake this stupid feeling of loneliness, and that girls aren't interested in me
It sucks
>>17362060
Why do you assume that people are expected to be nice to you? Is that some shitty idea that regardless of how you act, they should be nice to you otherwise they face consequences? You're not entitled to anything.
AhahHaahaha god damn you ugly bitch keep photoshopping your butt ugly face typical gook kys
I tried, I really did try. I tried to reason with you, I sat us down and tried to discuss the problem. I gave you chance after chance. And somehow we keep ending up back here. I can't take it anymore. I'm ending it because I literally can not be your crutch anymore. The worst part is...after three years of being together it took me this long to realize how much of a manipulative bitch you are and I still love you. But I'm leaving. I hope you find someone more suited to your needs because it ain't me.
And no even if we are friends I don't want you visiting me just to see my fucking cats. Jesus who the hell tries to come over to someones house at 12 at night to see some fucking cats after I worked a 16 hour shift...for 6 days straight.
How could have been so blind not see you weren't right for me.
I've come to terms that I won't find a person who I am deeply in love with and who is deeply in love with me.
>>17362045
Stuck fucking up my head.
>>17358856
rerollan
I am kind of infatuated with one of the cashiers at my work.
One day while messing around, I kind of accidentally thought about them when I came and now I run into them alone way too often.
I am pretty much in love with my gay friend.
I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you!
It's pretty shite rn. My landlady is untrustworthy so i gotta move out pretty fast or I fear she will have me thrown out. The person I fell in love and was friends with was just using me for sex. I have no friends here, I'm an immigrant with a shit job.
Now I feel like switching countries again, at least I won't be leaving anything behind.
Should I just kill myself?
I THOUGHT PEOPLE WERE EXAGGERATING ABOUT SPICY FOOD HURTING THE NEXT DAY. ONE JALAPENO PEPPER JACK SANDWICH WAS ALL I HAD
DEAR GOD I WAS WRONG, I AM DOUBLED OVER LEAKING GREEN LAVA GETTING RAVAGED LIKE SATAN'S BUNKMATE. NEVER AGAIN. N E V E R A G A I N
>>17360185
This isn't tumblr, you stupid cunt.
>>17357607
>all they do waste our parents' money
>money
That's all some hoes need, bro.
I schlicked so much last night that my legs are still weak and my lady parts are sore. I was going to take a break today but the ache is real.
>>17362874
mfw still have a period and on birth control
I think it did lowered my sex drive after all
>>17362878
I mean honestly, what's the point of taking a pill to not get pregnant when it leaves you not particularly excited about the prospect of sex?
>>17362060
Nice doesn't work on you.
>>17362878
Girl... I'm so sorry... The only benefit I've seen females get from BC is when they have severe periods due to fibroids or whatever they call those things. That's why I refuse but I can't enjoy sex unless it's without a condom so nothing left but to flick the bean.
>tfw you're trying not to have sex with 3D men but your hips move on their own when a penis is in the room
>tfw you are unconsciously flirting with your body while consciously trying to be as asexual as possible
>tfw guys take your pheromone bait and your mind is like wtf
>tfw girls think you're a lesbian but can't admit that in an ideal situation i'd probably bang more than half the guys i meet
>tfw this is probably my body's way of telling me to hurry up and have a baby
I should probably break out my vibrator again
>>17357575
My Oneitis seems uncurable.
I'm a shitty kissless virgin that just can't forget a certain girl.
It's been 5 years i got friendzoned but still, I just can't stop thinking about her.
I also want to lose weight because I'm on the verge of obesity (88 kg) and can't find a sport I enjoy or can actually do without struggling so fucking hard (I tried running but I'm too weak and my endurance is so bad I just can't)
I need help guys.
>>17361548
Let keks love into your heart anon. Praise him
>>17363099
80% of weight loss is diet. You eat like shit and you eat too much.
Eat a lot less. You will lose weight. You could sit on your ass all day, and still lose weight. As long as you aren't eating like a hog.
>>17363145
It's probably because I eat without organization because of my work and shitty sleeping behaviors. I'll try to eat correctly.
Yo, I recently attempted suicide. An overdose, ended up in hospital for three days. Really shitty situation, but I'm alive. Three days out and I went back to work with my bosses knowing. Now, it's like, everything has gone back to normal; but I don't feel normal at all.
My family is pretty complacent/uninterested, my boyfriend is supportive but thinks I need to get on with things and although work are supportive. I feel extremely awkward telling them I don't want to be back yet.
I'm due in work now tomorrow for a full week and have bills to pay. I hate that my life has just altered back to the norm and nobody seems to really give a shit that I'm still alive/that I tried to kill myself. I feel like I'm stuck in a dream with everyone around me just laughing and getting on with shit. I don't know what to do. I want to stay in bed and ignore everyone. I want to die.
>>17363186
Talk about that with someone.
Just curious but...Why did you try to kill yourself while you have a boyfriend ? Did something horrible happened in you life ?
>>17363186
So you tried to kill yourself for attention... and got none of it.
Tell your family and bf they're shit than sort yourself out.
Might be better for you to be alone for awhile.
I tried to off myself because I'd toyed with the idea since being a teen and after a few tablets; it seemed easy to take them all. I was just miserable; as for getting attention. I told only my best friend and my boyfriend. Family and work found out from other people. My intentions were to die, not to gain an audience, ha.
I feel like most people around my age (i'm 20) have found their talent/something they're good at and here i am, good at absolutely nothing.
>>17361367
They think you might have ulterior motives because that's how they themselves are. Also, in similar situation to yours.
>>17361367
Take revenge.
And develop some dignity - be empathetic and kind to people who deserve it
>>17363468
Hurt people hurt other people who will go on to hurt even more people. It's a chain reaction that cannot be stopped once started.
Being empathetic and kind is a curse in a way, you have to be the one who stays your hand even after someone destroys you. That doesn't mean revenge should always be off the table though. Sometimes it is the right thing to do because some people will never learn until they know what it's like to lose.
>>17363435
Don't be a jerk. "Too honest for own good." Please.
>>17363186
>a female trying to kill herself for attention
Nothing new here.
>>17362789
i wish i could say this to someone right now. but not yet. too soon. i can't wait to give him all of my love. i hope he wants me as much as i want him.
>>17363521
Why are you waiting?
Nothing scares me more than the thought of you cheating on me. You are the love of my life, and Im sorry if it seems I'm overly jealous. I just don't want to be hurt, not by you.
>>17363556
Then trust her if shes the love of your life
>>17363490
>Hurt people hurt other people who will go on to hurt even more people. It's a chain reaction that cannot be stopped once started.
Is that what they told you in kindergarten?
>>17363571
>trusting women
It's like you want him to kill himself.
>>17363508
There was only one thing I lied to you about and it was for a good reason. I've already apologized for it but I've never received the same from you since you did far worse to me.
I know you're not the person this is meant for but I felt I had to respond.
>>17363574
It's the way of life. There's more than enough evidence around the world to prove my point.
>>17363544
It is much too soon. I want to be sure that when i say i love you, he believes me. I wouldn't like to scare him off.
>>17363581
Well, the person my message was meant to lied about quite a few things and I'm positive they continue to lie about even more, even though it doesn't matter anymore.
>>17363598
Did you feel he/she was an empathic person? Not many people are truly empathic. I'm interested in knowing your story.
I pay my girlfriend's 14 year old cousin to give me massages twice a month
it started out as a joke until one day she really needed money
i offered it to her but she said she wanted to work for it
after a few times she said she would massage me down there if i ever wanted and i am very temped to do it
>>17363587
What makes you think it's too soon?
>>17363627
She claimed to be. Several times. But she hid a lot from me, cheated and etc. Then claimed she was an empath when she kept giving this douche the benefit of doubt, when he really was just manipulating her. She's still blind to it, I think.
>>17363631
DONT
>>17363637
It has not been that long, and I am not even sure he feels the same. I do not want to make him uncomfortable. Plus it would be nice to bask in realization that I love him. It only hit recently.
video game interest had been slowly dying down... i barely buy games now, but i don't know what to do if I give them up.
also not a very sociable person, so i don't know what to do if I stop playing games.
If my familly would kindly fuck off with all the bullshit, that would be great.
I just went to get my cousin from town, it was 11:30pm, he hopped in my car with this drunken cunt who pissed up the side of my car and did a line of cocain in my backseat with him.
>>17357896
Your little brother, I assume?
I'm fascinated by how much you've changed in the last year. You haven't changed in certain ways, but in the ways you did change you fascinate me. What an odd feeling.
>>17358051
You need a psychiatrist, man. Don't self diagnose.
If you're a veteren, you can qualify for cheaper medical insurance, especially if you can demonstrate that your condition is due to your experience. I'd also invest my time in an employment agency.
As for the fighting, I would highly suggest getting into something more regulated, like jiu jitsu or MMA. It's a healthy outlet, especially if you have a lot of anger, but in a bar room brawl situation you could get into a lot of trouble if someone gets hurt, even if it's not by your hand.
>>17358139
Sounds like you have shitty taste in friends.
i had sex with one of my friends causally and instead of just catching feelings I got mildly obessed. not stalkery but like constantly thinking about her. I told her how I felt and got shut down, it feels like I understand that she doesn't want me but I can't seem to get over it. im a super depressed/manic person, I have been my whole life. but I've honestly never felt like this before its shitty man. for some reason I have a hope that she's gonna change her mind after she realizes all these other dudes she's been involved with just use her and treat her like shit. feels kinda pathetic honestly
>>17363924
You sound like a pedo 2bh
>>17358051
How did you steal a snowman is what I want to know. Like, was it an actual snowman or just an ornament? Because if it's the first I've got mad respect for you
>>17364065
They're 24, you moron
Pretty sick of my epilepsy getting in the way. I feel like a piece of meat just kind of rag dolling around. 21 and still a virgin too. Could be worse I guess but yeah
>>17357599
Look on the up side. You just got dubs.
My girlfriend has just stopped talking to me... She said that she was 'Soul Searching'. Finally I got so fed up with her ignoring me after a week. I asked if she was done soul searching. Finally she said 'Yeah'. Then i asked ' Do you want to be in a relationship with me anymore?' And she goes 'I don't know... Let me think about it for a week when we are camping' Today I asked her what she decided, read my text and didn't fucking awnser. Then I tryed to apologize for whatever I did to make her feel like this(even though I didn't do anything but be loving and supportive to her). She just read the text and didn't awnser.
This fucking sucks... Why did she just stop loving me?
23 year old female, been dating a guy for 2.5 months. After about a month, i start feeling really insecure and inadequate. I am great at being single, i feel very confident and have love for myself as a human, seeing my good qualities and quality interactions with others. Suddenly in a relationship, i get very hurt by all the small things that would never bother me otherwise... Boyfriend checking other women out, him not acting as interested in what i have to say, feeling inadequate in the bedroom like i cant remember how to have sex or be sexy anymore....
I am frustrated with myself because i actively work towards not caring what others think of me, but in a relationship if i really like the person i apparently become very vulnerable but TOO vulnerable. When im single i can blow things off so much more easily... I start feeling terrible with self esteem constantly and i hate it and dont know what sort of positive step to take to helo myself. If i end things with my SO, i feel like that is giving up because im not solving the problem of WHY THE HELL DO I FEEL THIS WAY???? Ya kna?
Well thanks for reading, random humans. Fare thee well.
>>17364197
Two and a half? I thought it was only a month.
>>17364155
She's a girl dude, girls are driven by random emotions. One day she thinks you're the best thing to happen to her then something fucks up in her head and she doesn't love you anymore.
It's 3:21 and I am not sleeping because I don't want to make the bed.
Yes, wr have been together 2.5 months but started feeling insecure just this last month..
>22 year old absolute failure of a student
>1st year of uni got fucked up because my parents (lotto winners by the way) decided to stop supporting me, and I got stuck with the bare minimal student loan amount and not enough money
>At the same time I was working through therapy with a ton of unresolved issues from my childhood, working through depression and shit
>2nd year (repeating the 1st) was a much better attempt but money was still an issue because my workplace got closed down a month into my first semester, and I realised as I got through to the end of the year: This course I've been attempting for 2 years that I picked on a whim when I was a 20 year old depressive: I don't even fucking like, I don't wanna do anything with it when I finish
So I decided to call it on the course and enquire about a course transfer to do something way more up my alley
I feel like I know myself a lot better now and I have a much better grip on myself and my finances and what I wanna do in life, so the new course is definitely the right path for me
But I got absolutely shitty grades this year from working all the time to cover debts and not commiting to my course at all because I wasn't interested or enjoying it
Now I've spoken to the course head of my new course. She wants to know what modules I've taken this year and my grades (yikes) and why I wanna take the new course
I've explained my situation but now essentially I probably won't hear back from her until August 15th
I'm gonna be anxious as fuck for an entire month while I wait for the answer
If I get a yes, thank fucking god, I can finally get my studies on track
If I get a no, the fuck do I do? Can I apply through clearing instead? Do I just give up on university? I've got a house tenancy starting in September with 3 friends in the university city, I've got £200 already sunk into the deposit. I can't just bail on that and them!
I just wanna study on a course I enjoy but life seems intent on not letting me
I want to get fucking laid jesus christ
>>17364456
I'm not even bad looking, just a little skinnyfat but come on now fuck
To any black people here; Why are you so cheap?
I made 16 deliveries tonight, 5 of them to black families. How many tipped? NONE. Out of all of my deliveries tonight, only the black families stiffed me.
Getting sick of the same day to day shit. Everytime I try to go out with friends one of them can't go so we end up not going. Video games are just getting boring. Going to bed late for no reason. Insanely tired and usually go back to bed almost instantly. What do I do to feel better. Like my self esteem is shit unless i'm talking to a girl I like and ever since we had plans to go to a movie with friends she hasn't really talked to me. Is there a reason for this behavior? Is she just busy?
>>17364566
i feel you man, we'll get through it
also she may not be interested, that's the sad truth I had to accept
>music is my only hobby
>wake up with a cold
>can't focus on anything I listen to
>have to constantly clear my nose so I don't resort to mouth-breathing
first world problems out the ass but this is awful
I'm still drunk after almost 6 hours. I feel unable to cry while in this state. My body's heavy and sad.
>>17364659
Weird. I can only cry while drunk. Sobriety is very stressful without catharsis.
I'm a pussy and i have no one to talk to about it. Honestly, i don't want anyone in my life to know i have this problem. I don't know how to "be a man and get what i want". Playing it safe has no reward, but no risk. And it's all i know. I don't feel like i can break this cycle.
I HAVE NOBODY TO LOVE AND I FUCKING HATE MYSELF
>>17364250
I know... It just fucking sucks man. That was a long relationship too. I talked to her finally. She says she's too 'stressed' for a relationship. And it 'wasn't me'. Bullshit! I don't know if I can get over her man.... That was like a two year long relationship just gone. In the blink of a fucking eye.
In five minutes, it will be exactly one month since my last drink. I fucking hate everyone and everything. Fuck everything.
Every single time, no matter who it is. Whether it's in real life or online. I try to initiate a conversation and rarely get much more than a "mhm" "cool" "yeah", if that. But every time, if I try to get them to talk about themselves, they could go on forever. Am I just not interesting? Do my friends not care about what I have to say? I don't think it's too bad wanting even a slightly more fleshed out response. I want to talk to people but it's so hard keeping a conversation going when they don't seem to care.
I think I might have anxiety.
The first clue was whenever I see that a text has been read and the person doesn't respond to me, I immediately believe I did something wrong.
I angered them, I was being too pushy, I'm annoying them, what ever. Those are the first thoughts that race through my head.
The first major thing that made me question that I have anxiety was when one day I was on a two hour walk when I began thinking about the past and how I could change everything for the better if I could go back.
Normally I would feel happy thinking about this. However this time my heart was racing, I had trouble breathing and I thought I was going to pass out.
It was as if I was panicking. Knowing that I cannot change anything and that the future is set for what the past has laid in front of me.
I fucking hate all of you and I hope you all have a terrible fucking life. I wish I'd never met anyone.
>>17357575
I fucking hate my GF sometimes but she's the best part of my life and she's dating others and it pisses's me off but even still, i don't want to stop living with her because its fucking great. uggg.
Also, I'm a fucking hypocrite, "fear shall not stop me" yet today that was tested like it was some divine test and i hardcore failed it. I got afraid and didn't do the most basic things in my life like take out the fucking laundry. Because i was too scared to go outside because i saw spiderwebs all up and down those stairs.
their's a fucking big flying insect in my bathroom and I'm just waiting 2 days for my GF to come home from her trip to take care of it. I was gonna go and do it but then guess what? I saw a spider in there.
This is the first time I've ever truly felt like a coward and let my fear stop me. Its sickening and frustrating but i don't want to push my mind to the point of manning up and getting over it. I "could" in theory but some part of me doesn't want to let go of my fairs and build that sort of mental resistance. Like building that shell makes me lose apart of myself since I'm getting further away from my emotions.
I don't even feel much sadness anymore. Most of my emotions have dimmed, except for fear and sometimes anger. But those are the only extremes i have anymore. I feel like I'm losing myself.
And another thing, i fucking miss people, i haven't had any real friends in TWO YEARS, no real one's at all. I think I'm gonna go crazy, i need people, events, something. All i have is my GF and roommate. I'm going insane incredibly slowly.
I get obsessed with the idea of physically hurting someone and fantasize about it to where I am completely detatched from life, and then I get tired of them and move onto thinking of someone else that way
I'm trying to desensitize myself from the idea of serving jailtime in case I delusion myself into ever doing it and don't even realize it was real
Sometimes I wish I were underage so I could just do it and serve juvie instead of having to worry about the sanctity of my adulthood
I have too much shit to do.
my female friend with benefits says "she cant do this anymore" today
feels pretty sad because i like her as a friend as well as a fuckbuddy, but she says she wants to reform and doesnt want her past to catch up with her, even though she was only having sex with me.
I guess im happy for her that she wants to change her ways but Ill miss fucking her because shes without a doubt the best ive ever had and taught me a lot of things, so I'm feeling pretty down
GOD FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK FUCK
I HATE BEING AWAY FROM YOU
IT HURTS
I'M SORRY I DON'T WANT TO BE LONELY
BUT I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK TO BEING THE GUY I WAS BEFORE YOU
PLEASE COME BACK SOON
i thought i would try to tell and show him how much i care. it didn't matter. he doubts me and most likely feels very little for me.
oh well. at least i know someone as incredible as him.
I feel like a consecuense of your bad choises...
And it hurts
>>17365402
*consequence
I don't know how much longer I can take my 'dream' job. It requires so many fucking all nighters and coming in on holidays, which is putting a lot of stress on my marriage. I don't want to be some worthless cunt that gives his wife no attention, but I have worked years to finally get to my position (despite the fact that the pay is fucking peanuts), but having no degree or other work experience I'm worthless outside my field.
I can feel myself spiraling into a cycle of self hatred where the only ways out are as a worthless burger flipper with a child I don't want with my wife, who I love, or as a no friends, no private life, and potentially no visa workaholic because of how shitty the pay is doing a job that I love.
>>17364869
that's just how people are, anon. Everybody just wants to talk about themselves.
Read how to win friends and influence people by dale carnegie, it talks about this
You used me. You fucked me, kept silent about it and did you seriously expected me to still be friends with you and play a charade before your gf? You knew I felt more for you. You fucking knew. And none of this "I thought you moved on" crap. Nobody moves on that fast.
I was trying to, but of course you had to worm your way into my bed.
>>17364869
Talk about yourself anyway, it's what the rest of them are doing. Or don't, never talk about yourself and let them talk. Soon they'll be asking you questions about yourself.
>>17365446
What job? Tech-related?
