Get it off your chest.
Well, I'll start it off, that is, if someone hasn't beaten me to it.
Anyhow, this is more of a rant to myself, more than anything.
So, for the past year and 10 months, I have been single. I have had more flings in that time, than relationships in my life. I'm only 20.
Now, either the Red Pill and /r9k/ speak the truth, or all this time on the internet is finally getting to my head... females can't be lonely. Although I've had no one express interest in being in a relationship with me, I've had constant sexual attention. But, I'll be damned if I don't feel unwanted. It's one thing to be desired, but it's another for someone to say, "be mine". And I'm certain that it's because it's the way I'm acting. I want to satisfy every boy I meet, but that means I can't be faithful. I tell myself that I want to settle down, but there's a new person to be infatuated with, every month. I want to be paraded around shamelessly in public, as though I am my man's prize... but I don't want to meet anyone's expectations.
Let's face it, I'm not girlfriend material, but I still yearn for affection. And until I stop having these indecent thoughts, I'm going to remain unanchored, forever toying with the idea of hearing, "I love you".
It's evident that a great lot of us are indecisive, as I've proven myself to be in this pretentious mini-maninfesto.
Of all the fucking things, it had to be cancer.
And of all the fucking times, it had to be just before the final year of my degree.
Dear Senpai~
I've drawn a picture for you, telling how my day was.
Hope you hate it.
[kill me pls]
I have anxiety attacks and I feel like I'm screaming but no one can hear me.
And I know what the problem is but the problem gives me anxiety and the solution to the problem gives me even more anxiety.
Why I browse this thread is beyond me.
It's all depressedfags who should have ended themselves long ago. Lighten up, fuckers.
>>16492868
Go fuck around somewhere else.
It feels like there's a brick in my stomach from thinking about you and missing you so much.
I wish I could get you off my mind, I really do, but I can't.
Now of this shit matters, we all die at the end
life continues, my memories will fade away into dust like past civilizations. All I can do is look up at the sky and wait for the sun to burn me alive
I hope Trump wins and we plunge head first into this jihad. It would give this generation purpose.
>>16492882
Initials?
>>16492868
Sweetheart, we aren't depressedfags, actually some of us are social butterflies that feel negative emotions sometimes. It's a part of the human nature, ya know.
I think i have schizophrenia. Some of my family members have it and the hallucinations and delusions occur more often and get worse from week to week. Im scared that im going insane, i dont want to take any meds. I dont want sythetic feelings but i cant deal with that anymore and i know that thats only the beginning
EVERY girl I dated (except one that had a massive ego) told me at some point:
"I don't even know why you would date someone like me..."
It's really interesting. It wasn't just one or two, all of them except one told me this at some point. Why do they do this? It's hard to just assume that every single one of them are attention-loving monsters. There must be something else. My current gf told me this at this morning. This girl could be a headless zombie and still be a solid 9.5/10. She has tits, ass, hell, I'm the one who wonders what the fuck she's doing with me. Are girls really that ignorant about their own appearence?
The hottest girl i ever met just got a boyfriend who is 6'4", star of the football team, popular guy of a school 0f like 4000. this sucks cuz im pretty sure they're gonna be together for years and hes gonna take her virginity.( yeah shes a 10/10 and actually a virgin.) this also sucks because she used to like me but i didnt do anything about it. now we go to different colleges. i gues the one ting to learn from this is to not hesitate and follow dont be afraid because u may miss a great opportunity.
I feel better.
>>16493129
You learned your lesson, son, and that's great.
It's okay that I'm a sociopath. Sure no one seems to have much sympathy for those of us who have ASPD. True indeed most of us that have it tend to enjoy hurting others for entertainment. I myself am unapologetically selfish but after my diagnosis I now know why and without regret or shame I will be who I am while striving to keep my anti-societal from harming others. At the same time my (and other extensions of myself) happiness is all that is or ever will matter. I will no larger feel guilty for my selfishness. I never really did anyhow.
>>16492819
Is this who I think it is? I love your drawing! :))
>>16493149
ok L
>>16493137
I guess mistakes r the best way to learn. It really is a downer tho
I miss you.
>>16493229
who do you think it is?:3
My entire life is and always has been a clusterfuck.
>>16493288
I miss you too.
>>16493298
That makes two of us.
>>16493296
That's such a cute drawing :) I feel like your style changes every time you draw :3 I'm working on the V2AB right now, paint markers suck!
>>16493288
I miss you more
>>16493306
>>16493322
t-thanks guys ;_;
>>16493317
initials?O_O
I'm gonna be able to see my cousins again in a few weeks!
I have been missing them so much.
>>16493341
O-oh...
T.G.M.
>>16493361
hm... i don't know you :o but, y did u say that my style changes every time i draw? O_O i didn't post my drawings. just this once
>>16493361
It's D, I happen to be drawing something if that makes you feel any better hehe
>>16492411
>females can't be lonely
Then what the fuck I am, dipshit?
I don't want to be your friend; fuck friends. I want to be your gf and watch with you funny tv-shows and eat junky food, and discuss politics. I'm stuck in the ultimate-friendzone though, so girl can dream. I think I'll get tinder and find some nice irish hunk who will fuck you out of my mind when I'm still here. Not my style at all, but still better than deluding myself that we might end up together someday.
My name is L and I'm really lonely
and ugly
but at least i have smoked cheese
and lots of other food that i use to fill the hole where everyone I'm connected to is supposed to be
>>16493384
conventionally attractive females tend not to be lonely, ask about the hulking she-yetis like myself and you get a grumble of an answer or at best, "well there's gotta be someone out there who'll settle for you"
:)
>>16493392
Hi L,
Enjoy your cheese, I like cheese. Not smoked though.
From Anon.
>>16492373
Armchair psychologists and projection addicts in these threads sure do not know anything about who or what they're talking about. Reminds me of a guy named blue and his blue cohorts from effiel 65. Yes it was a catchy song but it also covered depression and projection as well. Over all I would recommend this song to armchair psychologists and projection addicts worldwide.
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=68ugkg9RePc [Open]
"Psychological projection, also known as blame shifting, is a theory in psychology in which humans defend themselves against their own unpleasant impulses by denying their existence while attributing them to others. For example, a person who is rude may constantly accuse other people of being rude."
>>16493403
I know an L. She can't eat cheese.
I'm glad there's an L out there who can eat cheese.
>>16492373
A+C×N +$ -$ =0
There's no way I can ever thinking about taking you back without worrying about all the STD's crawling around on your dick. I'm glad you miss me. I hope it was worth it, you selfish fuck.
I don't need you.
Feels good to say that too.
>>16493424
>implying all psychology isn't armchair psychology
It literally might as well be philosophy.
>>16492373
To be emotionally free you can’t remain naïve about relationships. Some people are positive and mood elevating. Others can suck optimism and serenity right out of you. Vampires do more than drain your physical energy. The super-malignant ones can make you believe you’re an unworthy, unlovable wretch who doesn’t deserve better. The subtler species inflict damage by making smaller digs which can make you feel bad about yourself—for instance, “Dear, I see you’ve put on a few pounds” or “You’re overly sensitive!” Suddenly they’ve thrown you emotionally off-center you by prodding areas of shaky self-worth. To protect your sensitivity, it’s important to name and combat these vampires.
SIGNS THAT YOU’VE ENCOUNTERD AN EMOTIONAL VAMPIRE
• Your eyelids are heavy—you’re ready for a nap
• Your mood takes a nosedive
• You want to binge on carbs or comfort foods
• You feel anxious, depressed, or negative
• You feel put down, sniped at, or slimed
:End of posting:
When I think of this girl I was merely fucking, I still refer to her as "baby girl". It has been 4 months, she's moved on and I accept that. I still want her back despite her being 7 years younger than me.
I'm socially awkward, and she was my first. I guess it's not really her I want back, just after all these years she's been the only girl I've been involved with to accept me.
I miss that.
First holiday season we will spend apart in half a decade. I used to love winter, but it reminds me of you, and I no longer care for it.
I find myself making comments, jokes, whatever... that I know you would enjoy, but you are no longer by my side. I do not enjoy this, but I am who I am.
I wonder if you will miss me during these coming months.
>>16492373
My girlfriend leaving for university and me not seeing her as much is really killing me
Oh,, Oh! I see, you're trying to be funny yeah?
Well you know what else I am? I'm someone's bitch, tap-tapping away at a keyboard so I could maybe, just maybe, afford something to make me a bit happier so as to not feel like I want to go through hanging myself. And you know what you are? Just another monkey. Just another monkey in a suit tap-tapping away at your keyboard, someone else's bitch but you just have to treat someone like shit just to feel a bit better about yourself.
You really have no right to any sort of high ground, considering you're just as much of a little wageslave as I am. So how about you stop trying to boost your piddling little reputation and get back to fucking work so you can get your paycheque to afford your protein shakes and the my little pony buttplug set you're buying for your son for christmas, kay?
What's my purpose? Is it to be alone? Is that supposed to be the purpose of my existence? I don't know what's right or wrong anymore. We're all so different from each other, like we all have a specific purpose in this world, good or bad. Some things we can change, others we can't. I don't even know where I'm going with this. All my thoughts, idea's, theories never seem to lead anywhere. I can never come to a conclusion, not even close. Just a mishmash of thoughts that leads nowhere.
Crying, not sure why. Miss her I'd guess.
I dislike myself as a person. Despite others seeming to find my presence enjoyable, I just can't. It's like the romantic couple that found out that the way their significant other is n a friendly setting is different on a romantic settings. All the good I've done doesn't amount to much, and while I'm obviously not a criminal, I've always been stuck feeling like they'd be better with someone else. That I've been wasting everyone's time and resources
And yet I don't hold this kind of standard to others. Not in a condescending way but I've never been enough for me. Or at least not for a long time
I sometimes wonder if the only thing keeping me alive is the fact that someone would be upset if I was gone
>>16493149
L
Lower tier anons in MLMs are bad sociopaths. Higher tier anons in high prestige jobs can be good sociopaths too if it makes you feel better. Ever heard the term fake it till you make it? Yeah it's generations of them. It's a whole culture of narcissism nowadays.
feeling a bit down, the weather is getting depressing, midterms are coming, been a month since i dated this girl, she broke it of. feels bad man
When I see my ex's face or body I get a HUGE wave of anxiety. I loved her so much, and it's been over a year, but I looked through an old phone I had and found two pictures of her in a suggestive pose and I almost jizzed my pants but felt extreme fear at the same time.
I guess that's what happens after a traumatic breakup.
I hate her, but I want to hate fuck her.
Now I'm not sure if I can sleep.
Seriously there's this clown with OCD that always drives around my area. I always hear it honking on it's way to the carnival nearby. It always makes me kek everytime.
Hi /adv/, my bf mentioned that he sometimes likes to read erotic stories - written porn. Where can I find one of those, so no fanfic or fsog...
Sometimes I have dreams where you never died and you're just downstairs at the table in the morning drinking coffee.
I wish I could remember how that song you used to sing went, whenever mom tries she can only ever get half the words but it still makes me bawl my eyes out every time.
:) feeling good.
>its happening
>>16494118
>Asking /adv/
>not asking your boyfriend
come on now.
I'm really, really, really bored. I wish I could fall asleep so that it would be tomorrow already, and I could do the things I want to do.
>>16494327
dude, communication is hard. its scary for her to talk to her bf about things about her bf.
PICK UP THE PHOOOOOOOOONE
It drives me fucking insane! if you don't want to talk to me that's fine just SAY SO!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAGH
>>16494339
i have a feeling someone i know is going to think this is me so i'm gonna b the first to say this is not D
>>16494377
>i'm gonna b the first to say this is not D
What does that mean?
>>16494385
i'm saying it's not me who's posted that
>>16494395
Nobody cares m8, because if they think so they won't believe you anyway.
I keep experiencing flashes of mental images depicting me getting beat up, shot, hit by a train, etc. In a weird way it feels like a relief when I see these things. The fuck is wrong with me.
>>16494402
hey thanks for the hot tip i'll keep that in mind :)
I know I'm going to fuck you in all holes during this weekend, I know that each time we see each other you're starving for my magnificent cock. However, I somehow think it's kind of shitty that you've done nothing to deserve what you got with me, and that you wouldn't have it if I hadn't done a tremendous amount of work to be able to even want to satisfy you. I won't see you tonight, because I got the flu, and you told me you're going to pick up your ex at the airport, and when I asked you if you were going to fuck him, you said that you doubt it, but asked if it would be a problem if you did. Of course I told you no, I just wanted to say that it would inconvenient me if I had to wear a condom next time, but you have no idea what it took to be able to say that and actually mean it. At least I'm not a beta faggot anymore, but it's no thanks to you. You're not my oneitis anymore, I just fucked another hottie the other week, and last night I girl 10 years younger than you said she wanted to come over one day. I'm going to have my cock down her throat when you're away on holiday the weekend after next. I just wish you would realize what I've done in order for us to be able to cherish the absolutely mindblowing sex we have, and the incredible bond between us. Go fuck your ex tonight, have fun. It's not like he's in a better position than me, since you came looking for me again after splitting with him. Just know that I might not be willing to do this forever. You tell me you want my children one day, maybe five years from now, and you'll be sorry if it never happens, because you know I would be the best dad you could possibly want for your kids, but know that I will never stop fucking younger girls, and still you'll be thanking me every day for sticking with you throughout this ridiculous five year start of what could have been a simple, life-long monogamous relationship, but had to be handicapped by your hungry vagina. God fucking dammit, I love you, you gorgeous twat.
>>16492887
the feels. waiting for the sun
>>16494445
I can't wait to be 30 something and be in a position of power with women. Thanks for inspiring me Anon.
>>16494445
Those last two sentences make this cute in a very strange way.
>>16494408
You want to be a victim of an injury everybody understands to some degree to be in a position where nobody expects you to carry the responsibilities you currently have any more, because you don't know how to communicate to them that you're not feeling well enough for it.
t. armchair psychologist, feel free to ignore.
I don't feel like I'm human. I don't know what I am.
>>16494488
you're a product of the universe, nothing more nothing less. meat puppets and such. you're a cool soul, says this anon.
Guys I had a one night stand saturday night and I've noticed last night and tonight that my jizz is suddenly watery as fuck.
It's normally thick as fuck but now it just runs down like water.
What the fuck is this shit, someone pls halp
I thought that I'd miss the "love of my life", the " one and only" but I don't.
Fuck you actually.
>>16494453
I had to ask her and tell her I'm fine with her doing it. Otherwise I would've risked the chance of her actually doing it. She just messaged me saying I love you, and sleep tight. She drove her ex to a mate of his.
It becomes easier once you realize you have to power all alone. Step one is to never be needy. Never, not in any way shape or form. Just be a great guy and a good man, and you'll never lose her.
Stop leading yourself on for your own sakes. He likes someone else,
>>16494461
You might one day wake up and realize that everything girls do, that used to infuriate you, is actually just quite adorable. The feels is just part of a story we tell ourselves. She might fuck some dudes here and there, and it's just the cosmic giggle telling me to stick with what I know for sure. I am that I am. And I'm certainly not just some dude.
Every emotion I go through, can easily be summed up. It's just the body, stupid.
>>16494521
if you talked on phone recently before someone gets confused.
>>16494508
Power all alone? I guess I'm confused.
>>16492373
I am so mother fucking lonely
I'm falling completely in love with you. Hell, I've been in love with you for years. But now, this affair we're having is the final nail in the coffin. I know you just want to fuck though. I'm just the side bitch. I'm content enough being single, so I don't feel like I'm missing out by waiting around for you... but I know that my hopes that you'll ever leave her for me are just delusions.
At this point though, I don't even want to go meet someone else. I don't want someone else. I want you. I'm still happy enough in our situation, so why complicate things by seeking out a real relationship elsewhere?
I know I shouldn't, but I'll wait.
Maybe someday while I'm at your apartment doing the things that she won't do, you'll realize you'd rather be with me.
I feel pathetic.
Holy shit Dan, if you don't make more of an effort to give me oral I'm really going to get a hernia here. My pussy is fucking 10/10 as far as pussy goes, and you love doing it when you actually follow through. I guess someone's gonna stop getting blowjobs here soon
P.s. Please google some sort of technique too honey. Flailing your tongue around and tiring yourself out in 2 minutes isn't helping anyone.
Is your name Ivan?
When did I got my guard off, I was better off being a cold fucker rather than paying attention to some girl that supposedly showed me signs of affection.
This shit fucking sucks, because if that girl likes me, I shouldn't be a cold fuck, but if I don't control myself, I will end in a metaphorically shitty place
I'm so fucking worried my girlfriend who I love is going to leave me because of my penis. We have tried to have sex three times and I can't get hard. Even when she leaves, I can't. Even now, I can't. I woke up with morning wood TWICE this morning though. She's absolutely sexy but I can't get it up. And its killing me. I literally have never felt so bad in my life. I feel like dying.
It's been over a month since my gf and I have had any sort of sexual activity. I understand now that we both have teaching jobs our free time is limited, but I have such a high sex drive while hers has always been nonexistent. Its so fucking frustrating.
>>16494863
It's just nervousness mate, we've all had it. Try masturbating around her or have her try oral before hand. You'll be okay.
>>16494919
I cant get a boner trying to masturbate, and when she sucked me I got about half-way and just came. I dont know what is wrong.
>>16494957
Depression, something else is bothering you, or maybe some penile disfunction. Time to see a doctor.
Its normal to be afraid of hell right? What if i went atheist so i don't have to worry? What if i go to hell for being an atheist? Why dose this bother me!?
>>16495000
Then you're not an atheist. You'll be living in peace once you start not giving a fuck about it though. Go listen to some music, watch a movie, don't let yourself fall emotionally like that.
I was raped a couple years ago. After going through some serious PTSD, I'm mostly back to normal, though some things still are very hard for me. One of those things is sex, particularly the kind of sex I used to like to have.
I'm able to have sex with my boyfriend (we've been together for four years, and he was very supportive of my while I was dealing with my trauma), and a lot of the time, I'm even able to enjoy rough stuff like slapping and choking. But I used to enjoy rape fantasy type stuff, and now, I just don't think I could handle it. And that sort of makes me sad, I guess. Like, sometimes I think about it, but I'm 99% certain I'd freak out and start crying and take a serious backward step in dealing with this stuff if we were to try and it got too real for me. I just wish I could reclaim everything about myself, including my sex fantasies, without breaking down.
Also, I'm scared that if my boyfriend and I break up for any reason, that I might never be able to be physically intimate with a new man again.
>>16494863
My current boyfriend was like that. It took two or three months before he was able to keep it up long enough to have sex. He said his doctor said it was a blood pressure issue, but I honestly think it was just nerves because it still happens from time to time if we try something new or I surprise him or something.
Maybe see a doctor just in case, but try to relax, alright? Stressing about it is not going to make things better. Do your best to please her even if you can't get it up; spend lots of time on foreplay, oral, and focusing on her. Ultimately, if she really wants the D, I guess it's fair enough if she leaves, but if you're both in love, I think that would be a little heartless over something you two can work on with time. Seriously, calm down and have fun with it. It WILL happen.
Is it normal to think about being without your SO? There's nothing wrong in our relationship; I really love them and we almost never fight, but when I picture my future, I always see myself alone, and I sometimes wonder if I wouldn't be happier if I were single. Is that normal, or is that a sign I need to end things?
PLS RESPOND
just open the fucking app, see my message and answer affirmatively
I was born in a small village. I was still a child when we were raided by soldiers, foreign soldiers. Torn from my elders, I was made to speak their language. With each new post, my masters changed, along with the words they made me speak. With each change, I changed too. My thoughts, personality, how I saw right and wrong... words can kill
>>16495030
I've heard people say that a lot of women's rape fantasies have more to do with being "dominated" rather than being raped. Just having him put his whole body weight on you or holding down your hands is enough to scratch your itch.
This is all second-hand information and nobody has ever confirmed if it helps, so take it with a grain of salt.
>>16495048
Maybe it's a sign you need some space. Take a week-long vacation away from everyone. Stay at a cabin in the woods with nothing but a few books.
>>16495051
SUCH A LUST FOR SHITPOSTING! WHOOOOO?
there's so many things i would like to say to you but i have to keep it to myself.
i still love you, truly
>>16492373
Hey Gay Jay, I'm glad you finally admitted you are that guy. Pretty true in your situation now. Hope your scamming still is working for you.
Glad the restraining order is still in place between you and your relative that you molested.
>>16495075
And please don't be mad at men like me for being straight. It's just disgusting.
>>16495069
>69 get
N-n-n-n-n-nice!
>>16495040
Thanks for this post. Its just really embarassing because I don't want her to think I don't find her attractive.
>>16495086
I worried about that with my bf at first, even asked him about if after the third or fourth time, but he said it wasn't and still made a point of initiating physical stuff, so I kind of just accepted that it really wasn't me and that acting like it was a problem wasn't going to help anything. I hope that your girlfriend can do the same because it really isn't a big deal or as uncommon as you might think. Good luck, man, and enjoy yourself and pleasure her!
>>16495055
I don't know. What happened to me happened against a wall, and even if we're kissing, say, in the kitchen, and he backs me up to the wall with his body and tries to hold me there, I start to get upset, so I'm not sure if it would be any different being pinned down to a bed. I don't know. Thanks for your input, I'll consider it.
I can't stand this liberal hivemind hellhole of a college.
I got a bitchin hat right now
>>16495126
>I want to openly blame minorities for all of my life's problems.
Consider a career in auto repair
>>16495030
Women are weird like that. I think that fantasy ins natural for you guys.
My girlfriend finds not giving me consent like a friggin afrodisaic. If I don't ask and just start doing my thing she cums in like five minutes. Even when I ask, the answer is never a straight yes, usually a mischievous "I dunno~"
Obviously I don't think she wants to actually be raped. Maybe by me specifically. By ultra feminist standards I'm already a serial rapist having only had sex with my girl friend.
>>16495126
I know how you feel. I got asked today if I was a "fascist" because I said they were better safe than sorry for throwing japs in cages during ww2. Liberals are pussies. I'm Nat soc anyway.
I want to be alone for ever but at the same time I want someone Iin my life.
God, I'm lonely
Confessing that I derailed a thread by saying something that created a misunderstanding of what I meant. I wanted to say something to clear it up, but people were obviously pissed and it seemed like me saying something again wouldn't have done jack shit.
I don't even know why I'm hung up on this, but if I keep it to myself, it's only going to get worse.
>>16495142
>Believe in suspending basic liberties for security
>nat soc
lol gr8 b8 m8
>>16495134
There it is
You not 100% liberal?, YOU'RE ARE RACIST!
God life must be easy when there's one homogeneous opinion drilled right into your skull.
I might get kicked out of my program, and as a result get delayed a semester for graduating. I had an ex bring up an event from a few years ago and tried to falsely accuse me of rape (which eventually went away). I couldn't focus on my work with the ever-looming threat of being dragged out of my placement/apartment in handcuffs, and as a result my performance suffered. I'm not totally out of the woods yet because my uni could kick me out even though there wasn't a criminal charge. all my savings have been drained so if I can't graduate this semester, I would have to take a year off to work just to keep my head above water. I don't even want to get out of bed anymore because I'm so afraid of how the world's going to fuck me over next. I don't have an appetite anymore, I can't even imagine dating anymore, I sleep like shit, and I've lost all of my passion for my field of study
>>16495165
>Someone painted me with a wide brush when I did the same thing!
It must be comforting to be this stupid.
>>16495182
>I put my dick in crazy and I didn't plan my finances well
Well, hopefully you learned something from this
I want to fucking kill myself.
i miss having sex with the person i love
>>16495193
well the thing is i never actually put my dick in her... hence why I'm still a free man and not getting plowed by my cellmate
>>16495164
>valuing individualism over the group
lol topkek
I'm almost 18. my boyfriend just turned 24, and we've been together for two years. I just wanna fuck someone else so bad lol. my boyfriends "dick game strong" or whatever but im so boreddddd
>>16495247
Fuck off, kid.
>>16495075
That's why their in MLMs to have future victims to molest.
>>16495195
What happened with him/her?
>>16495304
we broke up. it's complicated haha.
i want to fuck every girl in colombia and kill most of the male population with a sword made of my hatred on fire.
faggot trash fucks i hate you all and i'm fucking horny
I QUIT BEING A JANITOR LAST YEAR I DIDNT THINK I WAS SIGNING UP FOR A SECOND TOUR OF DUTY WHEN I SIGNED THIS DAMN APARTMENT LEASE. FUCK YOU PIGS IM NOT RESIGNING FOR ANOTHER YEAR.
fuck it comes in waves. for awhile i feel fine, and then it hits me.
i just remember how much i loved you and i get so sad. i miss you so much. i want to see you so bad
>>16495334
>Colombia
>Not fucking bitches already in that shithole
Fuck off, loser.
>>16495368
Lol, be happy you have something that pays the bills. Started from the bottom son.
>>16495295
mlmfam have too many senpais that don't notice them they mad at the world and wan to watch it burn
them
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The background music in Death Note is totally based off SAW II -- cliffs
i hate that you hang around my ex, i wish that you would stop, its weird, shes weird, why. She even texts you weird creepy shit and it freaks you out but you're still trying to latch onto this weird long term friendship. just face it, shes a whole different person now, and shes just gonna keep getting weirder, and weirder. if only you knew how she really thinks of you, sure she likes you, but she thinks you're as dumb as a sack of bricks.
>>16495140
Thank you for taking the time to tell me about your girlfriend's fetish in response to my post about still dealing with rape trauma. Very insightful.
>women are weird like that
Wasn't asking anyone to explain why I have that fetish (or asking for anything, really, in a vent thread), but I think you could stand to read more about kinks and psychology than just being like "lol ur all weird and naturally like the idea of rape also feminazis".
>>16495384
this hit me right in the feels
I'm obsessed with my friend. Literally.
She doesn't know. She talks to me and texts me in a normal acquaintance-y way, but she doesn't know how badly I crave her presence again the second she leaves. If she knew how much I think about her, she'd be disgusted.
I can't tell if she likes talking to me. I think she enjoys turning over concepts in her head and using me as a sounding board.
I'm not even physically attracted to her, I just feel drawn to everything about this girl by some unholy force. It's like having a crush but far, far worse. I see her very often and I don't know what to do.
I'm sorry ,it had to be done .and I will do it again to save your life
>>16495729
Get a life and save your own life.
>>16493480
This.
I REALLY WANT TO KILL MYSELF BUT DON'T WORRY I WON'T BUT I STILL FEEL LIKE I WILL ALL THE TIME AND BECAUSE OF IT I HAVE TROUBLE DOING THINGS THAT EFFECT MY FUTURE LIKE SCHOOL BECAUSE I JUST WANT TO BE DEAD BEFORE I CAN FINISH SO I DON'T PLAN FOR LONG TERM
>>16492931
Pls See a doctor
I still love you, but I feel a little better now. I still want you back. I still hope that someday you'll want me again. But I know it'll be okay.
>>16495784
Seconded. I know filipinos like this and they are terrible.
Fucking good goyim fuck fukc fuck fuck fuck fuck fuckf uckf ufkc fukc fuck
>>16495801
initials?
Done chimping out yet?
>>16492931
My friend J has this and keeps projecting it to others. Pretty sad.
>>16495070
Initials?
>>16495384
initials?
>>16495827
Mine are SP. I know you're not him though, he's never been into 4chan and he very honestly does not want me back and knows my feelings.
Funny they'll probably kill themselves if they hear you are doing real well behind the scenes. That's life.
You keep preaching that the stars will fall
And end it all, and end it all
You keep waiting for the sun to fade
The sky to gray and call your name
Who you gonna be when you're faced with your disaster?
What you gonna say when you wake the morning after?
Try to be a king in a game you'll never master
Making up an end won't make the end come faster
>>16495368
>he does it for free
It makes me really sad that you showed how little you valued our friendship and how you took your own feelings for me with a grain of salt. Almost two years I think we talked, and for most of that we really liked each other. I loved your wit, voice, sense of humor, accent, everything, - and how you made me feel like someone cared when all my friends turned on me
It fucking hurt to see your last message before you cut contact abruptly without giving a reason, after three months of treating me like your girlfriend and sharing so many pictures of each other. Later, I found out you had listened to the rumors spread about me by the same people who derive joy from seeing happiness being taken away. Really shows how much you cared about me in the end. I wanted a relationship so badly, and even now I can't stop thinking about you.
I think I really loved you. and you don't care.
I can't fucking handle life right now. It feels like everything is falling to pieces
Even if I someday do it, I wouldn't be the worst person in the world, not even close. Sure she might get traumatized but she'll recover. She will be scared for her life but I'll assure her that she'll be back home safe and sound soon enough. I won't harm her, I'll be as gentle as I can. All I ask for is her cooperation. Just satisfy a lonely man before he sets you free, and turns himself in. She'll be home, safe and sound, and I will be no more.
Would I be a bad person? Maybe, but at least I'll let her, and everyone else know that it could have been worse.
i just don't know how to say hi to you anymore!!
i'm absolutely infatuated with you! i can talk to others like i don't care, it just flows out and i have no hassle to say what i think.
but with you...? i want to ask and tell you so many things, but i can't help to think everything i say or write to you sounds absolutely awkward. i lost my easy wit because i think you could be the one for me...
how the fuck do i talk to you???
Take my love, take my land, take me where I cannot stand. I don't care, I'm still free. You can't take the sky from me.
Take me out to the black. Tell them I ain't coming back. Burn the land and boil the see, you can't take the sky from me.
There's no place I can be, since I've found serenity. But you can't take the sky from me.
>>16496243
Firefly.
Joss whedon himself wrote that shit.
Wish it were true.
feel empty
>>16496239
Initials?
>>16496197
You're a fucking monster. Instead of scarring someone for life because you're lonely, how about you put a bullet through your skull? Go to a fucking prostitute instead of raping someone, you disgusting piece of garbage.
>>16496282
M.T.
42 quid for the fucking rent
who wants to buy a fucking apinitng.
I am sorry for the way i was bought up being unable to open up to you what the matter was till it was too late, i may act tough but on the inside i am hurting.
We were the best of friends, and then we became lovers. I thought I was living a dream. To be dating the person that relates and understands me in every way was incredible. We did drugs, had disgustingly amazing and experimental sex, we went on the most memorable road trips, we lived like you'd think soulmates would. I never stopped treating you like the Queen I saw you as. You eventually got bored. I said that I was ok with an open relationship, because I understood where you came from. But then you started ignoring me. You stopped listening to what I had to say. I could mention something and you would ignore me, but go on an hour rant about it with a friend of yours. I know you were bored, but then you betrayed me in the most awkward and terrible way possible. Now a friendship isn't even salvageable. I cry all too often because I lost my best friend, but you push it to the back of your mind and distract yourself with all these guys that ignore you and treat you like shit. There's not a thing in this world that I wouldn't have done for you, and I can at least get the satisfaction knowing that you hate yourself for what you did. You beg me to never leave your life and go on about how you need me. You beg me to keep an open mind about being your friend and possibly getting back together, but I know that you'll never understand the extent in which you hurt me. I miss you. I miss my bestfriend. I'll always love you, you selfish, naive shit.
>>16496400
It's never too late
>>16496408
Sometimes it is, and sadly this is one of those times, i've always been successful with women and i often got told i could do a lot better than her, however i always felt we were soul mates and best friends but sadly she was unable to see one of her friends who had feelings for her manipulated her into pushing each other away and she was unable to see it was destroying me.
>>16495854
DL..
>>16496402
need sum red pill brah
>>16496402
Your post got me secondhand depressed. I'm sorry man, really. It's going to take awhile to get over something like that.
>>16494805
sounds like the Dan I used to be in a relationship with. Couldn't finger worth a damn even when I told him what do do and showed him techniques.
He was all about himself in bed. Blow job, 30 seconds of fingering, then fucking. It was horrible.
>>16496453
Thanks. I'll be alright, but to love someone like that for 4 years. Shit's tough
I know you're going to leave me in the end.
I have too many issues and I see how they fuck up our relationship but I can't fix myself right now. And I am willing to wait forever for you but I feel like I'm just some temporary satisfaction for you.
But I love you so much that I don't even care.
>>16495987
Your obsession about a person is your solution
To a hole in your life filled with destruction and desolution
No one wants a part of your spectacle or your malicious cowardice
The crowd with pitchforks in your conscience for the troubles you've caused to him
Just another scammer lost in a lost cause
Blame the messenger, never heeding the message
Always correct, projecting your sins onto others
You are scarred in your heart with your obsession with destruction
May you find your life to be something more than an obsession
>>16493480
Why anyone would stay in relationships like this is beyond me.
>>16495315
I want to hear more about this complicated break up now..
I can't help it. I love seeing you, even if we can't ever talk again. I'm sorry for fucking with you and your date last week. I just wished it was me. God babe you are so fucking hot, I can't look at you. Just little glances when you aren't looking, thinking about the time you fucked me.
I just want a positive sign from the female gender that I'm somewhat attractive or that I'm fuckable. I don't even want to fuck, I just want to be a part of the chase again.
>>16496545
he needs to figure himself out, but honestly, we still talk like we're dating. we still make plans. we probably still love each other like it's nothing
i want to see him so badly and i always have the chance to. it just hasn't been the right time.
i'm just hoping we will find each other soon enough.
>Logon to normiebook today
>See that girl that I liked and hung out with in bars in senior year of college
>Be autistic fuck and ruin potential relationship with her and a few other girls. Even though we had fun hanging out.
>Girl who's photo I saw, is engaged as of yesterday
I used to feel sad but now I don't even know how to describe it. Closest I can come to is this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z7ALyqfv1QI
>>16493480
thanks senpai
what if you ere good at someting that other peole would like and it would need a co-operation to get it fit for display would you need to stab them to death?
a)yes or b) yes
I finally got over my ex today.
There was this moment when she popped in to my head and instead of getting all pissy about it like usual I just smiled at some good memories and felt like a huge weight had been lifted.
I feel fucking great. :)
>>16496768
let me quote you on your method you piece of shit.
>>16496868
Not surpised Gay Jay just keeps doing it.
>>16496868
what are you on about you nut job?
You could talk to me sometimes. It's getting boring.
>>16496920
>get it off your chest thread
>posts about stabbing people
>accuses others of being a nutjob
hmm
>>16496925
I know, nothing on the telly, no money, don't feel well
paid the phone bill so that's ok
how about you
>>16496925
No thanks.
I'm student, I live in village, I dream about doing stuff on UE4, I don't have any income(no jobs on village), and I can't earn 300 eur anyhow for PC parts, so I can do games stuff(stuff I like)
Cool huh? Makes very deep depression when you have only one thing you love, and you can't do it.
In case of something Dis oh no a the a saint
Starting to feel like nothing is actually discussed on the "serious matters" boards.
Things roll on rails like it's all one guy talking to himself and a few randoms dumping insults.
>>16497004
>anonymous
>it's like one guy is talking to themself
>serious matters
>anonymity
wat
>>16492373
i am 21, have few friends, and am having a hard time balancing school, work, home life, and girlfriend. I have a great deal of social anxiety, sometimes to the point where i just shut down completely and hide from it all. i've been getting very little sleep and making up for it with caffeine, nicotine, and alcohol.
>>16496313
Why don't you use your musical skills and go to a busy street?
Probably 50 squids if you're good.
Kino is so fucking simple, yet it makes me feel stuff. The closer I've been to being so touched by music was when I listened to Stone by Cibo Matto.
I'm in love with a woman that treats me like a son. She'd be right to do it because her two kids are almost my age. We hang out frequently and while she's all like "whatever's bothering you, go on and tell me, I'm here for you". This is because I listen to her as well so she feels as though if I have problems she wants to be able to help, but I have much less trouble than she does on a daily basis.
In fact, as of late, she's had a few family members have health issues, she's been injured in a car accident, her daughter in law got an unwanted abortion, there's all sorts of shit happening to her on the negative side.
Now christmas is right there and I want to gift her something but I'm shit at it. I don't want to give her the impression that I'm attracted to her because she doesn't seem to feel that way about me, but I want to show her the appreciation that she deserves. I don't know what to do really.
I think fapping on a daily basis for the past 8 years has ruined my life.
I can't sleep properly, i can't concentrate for more then 10minutes and im constantly out of energy.
Literally stopped for a week once and it felt grand. Yet i cannot bring myself to stop.
i really wish i had some painkillers right now and by right now i mean forever
Really wish starting a thread on /adv/ required you to tag it either Relationships or Other.
AdBlock could then filter the 'gf is cheat/imaginary pls help', and the overall browsing experience would improve.
>>16497123
Once a week is good for you if you're not getting laid and still get aroused often.
You don't want to the expired sperm filling your nads and clotting. Pushing that cottage cheese out is uncomfortable and sometimes ruptures the ducts.
>>16497187
Alright. It's not like i have the sexual drive of dog smelling a bitch in heat (unless i dovsmell me one)
Any tips for holding back? Most i was able to repress it is three days.
>>16497109
You can give her a little gift. Like something you would give to your mom. Because she's kind of like a surrogate mom to you. I'm guessing you haven't seen your own mom in a while. Those weird mom fucking feels you're having just need to die is all.
>>16497159
I can sell them to you.
>>16497169
I agree.
>>16497213
Good idea is to have a comfortable dick.
Take a piss more often. Wear pants that don't rub. Keep it clean and trim the shrubbery so there's less itch.
Your dick won't remind you it's still there all day, and you're less likely to play with it until it gets hard on purpose.
Soo. Im going to kill myself via gas with my mothers car. There are several reasons for this:1. Mfw I'm me.2.Everything is too fast for me. Like "go and do that job anon, you have 30minutes but you could get it done in 10." And I fuck something up and I everway don't accomplish anything or I just rush it and the whole shit I've done goes into the trash BC I didn't do it perfect. 2.I'm anxious around people since I'm 12 (now I'm 19)and can't talk to even mybest "ffriends"without being awkward. 3. I tried suicide and it would end my shitty live and I would " finish" what I started. 4. Yes I have a major depression but my psychologist doesn't help me at all and just likes it to see me suffer and actively hinders me .(eg. "No annon. Your bf is wrong. Don't go to her and talk things out. Just wait till he apologizes to you". Spoiler:I'm gay and he never said a word to me again.)
BTW did I mention that I fuck up everything?
PS:sorry for the grammar and spelling mistakes. English is not my 1. Language
>>16497275
>I can sell them to you.
nice try fbi
also im broke
>16497299 >16497213
But keeping yourself occupied works best. Being bored with plenty of time to spare is hard on restraint.
>>16497310
I think your first and foremost priority should be to give us easy access to images and video of your bare naked self.
>>16497275
Which state and which pills, FBI?
I don't know how to get out of this relationship with sparing her feelings. It's hard when I know that she doesn't see as much wrong with our dynamic as I do. Trying to talk to her and not having her get it. I know that I'm a much better person by myself than she is, which makes it harder. I care about her well being, but I don't think that I'm the person that she actually wants to be with. I'm a lost person at this point in time. Hard to see myself.
>>16497328
Suuurree. Even if I want to die my pride and angst hinders me to do that. I'll add into my last wish, that you'll get your pics. Visit hm in the next 3weeks if everything goes well and you'll see me eventually
There's mutual attraction between myself and someone I know who is engaged.
Only unavailable men have flirted with me.
>tfw dignity stops me from doing anything
I'm going to die a virgin, aren't i?
>>16497353
If it's hard to see yourself, then it's time to see a therapist.
Don't take out your personal emotional baggage on your gf. She probably doesn't even know what's going on with you.
>>16497404
There will be a moment we're you are so horny that you hook up with anything. Sono you wowon't, if you dont comitt suicide or some stupid shit.
>>16492909
>sweetheart
tips trilby
>>16497404
If the hundred or so people you have some contact with has 1+ people attracted to you, I'd say your chances of finding someone else in the 'millions of people you don't know yet' category are pretty good,
I have a hard time caring about anything.
I quit my job. Fuck that. They send me letters telling me to bring back my card and keys, but fuck that.
I made friends and now I stay off all social sites. Don't want to talk to them. Don't care.
It's not that life is pointless, it's just that there's not enough in life to justify trying to be good at it.
Sure, I can go to work all day every day. It's boring, it's shit and what do I get out of it? Barely enough money to sustain my life. Sure I can talk to people and maintain relationships, but it's a waste of time, all I get out of it some abstract sense of something that I don't care much about.
I can't be assed to do anything anymore. I sit home, I eat, I sleep. I don't want to do anything else. I will kill myself before I need to go get a soul crushing job.
>>16497353
>I don't think that I'm the person that she actually wants to be with
You don't think that. She has not left and doesn't see why she should leave.
Maybe dig deep for why You want to quit.
It will probably be something that makes you look like a dumbass and she won't be too upset when you go.
>>16497435
Helps when you achieve the Man Mode of dismissing pissy shit as soon as it's happened and applying a "this fucking guy" filter to the source in the future.
You shouldn't wallow in petty things, and not taking part gets really boring eventually.
>>16497412
I have been seeing one. All my therapist has said is, it seems like you don't want to be in the relationship. I feel like an ass when I say 'No, I don't." I've told my therapist that I'm unsure, that it doesn't seem like it's for me. She believes in the religious differences in the relationship, which I've talked to my SO multiple times about. Her family is religious, and it's hard when I'm expected to be as interested in it as they are. That being said, aside from that her family is very nice to me. Even though their main focus is having kids and praising God. Hard for me to be around that all the time.
>>16497446
I do believe that. For the reasons I stated above. I believe that she wants someone who is as into her church as she is. Which I'm not in the slightest. I think I want to quit because I don't have the same focus on life as she does. I'm not all about children. Perhaps I am a dumbass with this, but I can feel that it's the wrong fit for me. To me it's debatable if she cares about my emotions on subjects where she has her mind made up.
>>16497469
>her church
>her family
She's set on support, won't crumble if you go.
Probably takes you back if you regret it later.
My mom's getting surgery in a month and like last year I'm sure I'll have to take care of her by myself as the rest of the family just fucks off.
The thing is nothing is more stressful to me than to have to take care of someone. I don't care what that makes me. I'm a fucking wreck and right now my depression is particularly bad, having to keep my suicidal thoughts and urges to completely destroy myself are already enough work. Getting up everyday to go to and stay university is a struggle and I feel exausted all the time.
And the reason I hate having people dependent on me is because my mom always yelled at me for my problems, mostly calling me ungrateful and saying that she was under way more stress, so I my feelings weren't valid. For this I learned to repress everything and behave like I'm ok, which Itself is really harmful for anyone.
I've really been struggling lately to keep my shit together and I sure can't go through last year's ordeal again alone. If someone doesn't step up and she doesn't do her best to keep it together, I won't be strong enough to resist hurting myself for sure. I haven't cut myself or hit anything in years and the temptation is so fucking great.
I know that my family I'm just an angsty teen who has no reason at all to feel depressed or stressed. Maybe this lack of respect wouldn't be so offensive if I wasn't expected to be a caregiver.
I can't handle that shit anymore. Just kill me.
>>16497545
I'm guessing you're also depending on your parents for money, and because of that you can't ditch your mom even if you really hate her?
If you're independent, then don't. She'll get someone, and they'll be mad at you about it, but meh.
This seems like a gender studies / art history type of problem though, so it might be worth dropping Uni instead to save money.
Scared I won't get into Grad School because I have a 3.24 GPA, so I'll have a shit job and always hate myself for going nowhere in life..
>go off on someone that had it a long time coming
>ends with me putting on my sunglasses, walking out of house and hopping into my car
>felt like a movie scene
>fully expected to be treated like a prick
>start feeling nervous and guilty since I've never gone off on somebody
>next day roomies flock to me
>"Yeah, she had it coming for a while acting like that. If it wasn't you it would have been me. Props anon."
>realize other people really started to dislike this person too
I feel so much better. Only a month or so of awkward interactions and I'll never see ya again. Good riddance, Stacy. Your filthy, thieving ass and drama will not be missed.
You are going to have to write me this time. I can't be the only one that initiates contact. I don't want to seem desperate.
I'm just really tired of being stupid and getting treated like shit because of it. I don't even want any friends. I understand that I'm annoying to be around. I just want to be left alone and ignored. Help me help you.
Also, I'm tired of intelligent people complaining how difficult it is to be smart. Lololol... I struggle everyday to perform at my entry level job at Lowe's to feed and clothe myself. Shut the fuck up and have a little understanding.
Why do I have to force myself to be a good person
Why do I have to shut up and take it all in my ass and don't even get rewarded or even praised for it
Why do I have to sacrifice my wellbeing for others
Why is it ok for others to fuck around but the moment my voice gets a little louder than usual I am an arrogant aggressive abusive prick and "omg anon I expected so much more of you"
Keep expecting, bitch
Keep expecting.
So tired
>>16497698
People around you might be too "small". Get a person or two to clash with.
>>16497683
It's social dynamics... human social groups tend to pigeonhole their members into roles, often derivative of personality traits that are made by group opinion to be the entirety of the person in question and if not that then certainly simply their sort of emotional/psychological role in the group. Pretty difficult to change role once you get pegged in a group position, might just want to chage friends if you dont like how they treat you.
This >>16497756 was meant for this >>16497698.
>>16497698
You don't have to force yourself to do shit. Stop having any expectations, realize favors or deeds go unrewarded, that you shouldn't give a fuck and just look out for numero uno.
Unless you really want to sacrifice yourself for others, drop all of that and care for yourself first. Find balance at the very least. Your post sounds like something I'd write four years ago when I was trying to be what I thought people wanted. Then I was a people-pleaser and frustrated at the lack of respect. But nobody owes you shit nor do you them.
Speaking up when previously bending over for people will always get your new stance challenged too. It took people a while to get used to me finally standing up, saying my opinion, etc. I lost some friends but that's because they hated my new confidence or wanted to have somebody under them and under their thumb.
>>16497756
>>16497764
>friends
>implying I have friends
Thanks though.
>>16497774
People you end up being around then. Point is find a way out of the situation and grit through it with plans to do so ASAP :) going through a transitional period in that regard myself.
>>16497774
You can make some though. I found it easy via work or hobbies. Cliche and stupid, but it actually works.
Wish you luck though bro. Life can be shit but don't beat yourself up too much.
J- I'm giving you space. I'd be lying to myself if I said I didn't want to see you. I like the little light you shine when you're in a room. I can't look directly at it, but you glow in the corner of my eye. I feel very bad about what happened. I'm sure it was nothing to you. Nothing to you but you lit a fire that night that burns me inside still.
i just want to disappear for a while, im too pathetic for this, i dont want to see anyone, im just... in my worst status right now
>>16496400
Initials?
>see that things are going to go badly
>do nothing, hoping that it will just resolve itself
>of course, things end up going horribly
>see that things are going to go badly
>try to stop it
>things end up going even worse than before, probably because you tried to stop it
>happens over and over again
>tfw
fucking hell
I want to hold you and kiss you deep and slow. I want to take you in my mouth and then have you fuck me deep and hard, and then I want to hold you again until we fuck again.
There's a girl in my Statistics class who I have feelings for, but I don't know if it's her that I have feelings for or the comfort that I feel she could bring to my life. She's a year younger than me and I'm graduating and the end of next semester, so I've convinced myself that it would be a dick move to intrude into her life and leave half a year later. I'm just really fucking lonely and my grades/extracurriculars are better than ever and my prospects after school are looking pretty good but I don't feel connected to anyone except my one best friend and even then I don't talk about this shit because I want to convince myself that everything's fine. I've had people tell me their whole circle of friends think I'm cute but that fucking sucks because I don't currently have the ability to go up to people and start conversations unless they're 100% randos.
Dear God I was excited for Fallout 4 to come out due to the way that playing Fallout 3 for the first time made me feel, but playing 4 got boring after like two hours and I fantasize about my Statistics girl feeling the same way that I do about life but I don't think I can physically take that first step
I graduated university in 2012 and have done fuck all with my life ever since. I've been basically in NEET mode with the occasional side job for the past three years. I hate myself because I can't decide what I want to do with my life and have failed to accomplish anything at 26. I have depression and anxiety, and I'm scared no one will ever hire me for anything other than entry level bullshit for the rest of my days.
I'm trying to take care of some legal issues that have kept me from truly committing to anything. I'm trying to get my shit together. But if I can't do it by the time I'm 30, if I don't see any change, I'm going to kill myself. I can't be such a huge waste of space forever.
>>16497620
you will go somewhere in life. if you work hard, you will be rewarded in one way or another.
keep your head up and keep goin
I have a fantastic girlfriend and a great family with a lot of money. Feels great man. Also getting a new puppy soon.
>>16492373
I might as well be stuck in a castle; except, I'm not royalty and I don't care to be saved by a knight . I went home this evening to have a bath by myself. I enjoyed taking a bath by myself, for once, in two weeks. What hurt you the most was that I told you that I did that all because I didn't want you in the shower/tub with me... I'm sorry that I hurt you by wanting some time to myself and desperately wanting to bathe after a long/stressful day at work. You're in the garage right now... procrastinating the evening away... drinking... smoking... If I make you this miserable, why do you choose to stay with me?
